A Different Shade of Violet? (19 page)

“Sleep well my Rock,” I reply and he wraps his arm around me tighter and I close my eyes and drift off again finally getting the rest we both badly need.

“Your arse looks cute in those jeans,” I say.

He laughs and wiggles it from side to side as he pours on the sour cream.

“You always were an arse girl weren’t you?” he replies bringing over our food.

I stare at his bare chest and stomach and lick my lips as I follow his muscles all the way down to that V shape just above his jeans.

“Vee?” Hudson says snapping me out of my trance.

“Sorry, what?” I say looking up at him as he hands me my plate.

He chuckles and sits down next to me. “Were you perving on me again?”

“I would never do such a thing.”

“Just eat your dinner,” he says as he picks up a corn chip and places it in his delectable mouth. I smile and start to eat the nachos. It took me a long time to be able to eat nachos again after that night when Danny and Caiden died. I was cooking it for them, and for years afterward I couldn’t eat them. It was Hudson who brought eating them back to me, but he makes them differently to how I used to, so it makes it a little easier to deal with.

I can’t help but think of Caiden right now and how much I wish he was here. Hudson and Caiden would’ve gotten along so well. But then again if my boys were still alive then it would be impossible for Caiden to know Hudson, unless I split up with Danny and met Hudson, but I know that wouldn’t happen if Danny were still here.
I guess thinking like that will never get me anywhere, will it?
I exhale loudly as my heart starts to beat a little faster thinking of Caiden, my little man, who would be eleven in a few months.

I always wonder what type of man he would have become?

How I would have handled all the awkward stuff in his teenage years, like the porn under the bed and stained sheets. All the usual stuff that teenage boys go through in puberty. I must admit I wasn’t looking forward to all that. But I was so glad to have Danny by my side to help me with all that stuff. But Danny and I will never know what that teenage boy phase is like for parents.

“You okay?” Hudson asks snapping me from my thoughts.

I look at him to see a half-eaten plate and I still have the same corn chip that I started with in my fingers. He looks down at my hand with the semi-eaten corn chip and I look down and shake my head, shoving the remainder of the chip in my mouth.

“You were a million miles away. You doing okay?”

I swallow and nod. “Yeah, sorry, I was lost in my thoughts about Caiden. He loved nachos. I was cooking them for him when the police came to my door and told me about the accident. Every time I have them I can’t help but remember,” I say and pick up another corn chip covered in salsa.

“Jesus Vee, why didn’t you tell me? I would’ve made you something else. I’m so sorry,” he says taking my hand across the table.

I smile at him. “No, it’s okay. I need to not let my memories get the better of me and take me over. I’m stronger now than I was back then. I can handle eating them now, and you make them better than I ever could. I love your nachos,” I admit and he frowns and swallows hard.

“I still find it hard to believe you were a mum. I would have loved to have seen that,” he says holding my hand tighter and looking away from me.

My heart constricts as I suddenly picture Hudson and me running around the backyard chasing after our two little boys, with Midas jumping around after us. I never thought about having kids with Hudson. And I guess that wouldn’t happen anyway. I could never have another child as it would be like trying to replace Caiden.

Shame we’re parting ways after this little ‘vacation’ is over. When we go back to the real world, there won’t be any cuddling in bed. There won’t be any cooking me nachos for dinner and there won’t be much of anything, that’s suddenly becoming painfully obvious to me. Even though we’re in a happy little blissful bubble right now, the bubble will soon burst and then it will be back to a cold reality where Hudson and I aren’t together. I’ll have to go back to Cupiditas and back to being single and alone. I exhale and take another nacho into my mouth.

“Are you sure you’re okay? You’re sighing a lot,” he asks and I nod with a fake smile.

I’m so far from all right, right now. I wish there was a way to work this out between us, because when we’re together like this it feels so… right.
How can it be so wrong?
But there’s no point in wishing, I need to prepare myself for the end because I know it’s coming.

“Do you know how my staff are?”

He nods. “Yeah, everyone’s accounted for and no one has been approached or even seen the Dogs at all. They’re keeping clear of Cupiditas, which is a good thing.”

I nod. “A very good thing. So they’re all okay then? That’s good,” I say and he tightens his grip on my hand.

“Are you worrying? You shouldn’t you know, everything is working out. We should only have to be here for another couple of days or so and then we can all get back to normal,” he says and I fake another smile.

“So no more cabin after that?”

He frowns and exhales. “No, no more cabin once we leave,” he says and I get the hidden message in his tone. He means no more us when we leave here as well. Which I already knew. So I make a snap decision to make the absolute most of our time here together. If we only have a couple of days left, then I need to get my arse into gear and get as much out of Hudson as possible. And I will start my plan of attack tonight after dinner has settled in our stomachs.

We eat the remainder of our nachos and then he takes our plates to the sink and I make my way into the lounge room. I sit down on the sofa and Hudson walks in and sits down next to me. He leans back and puts his arm out making room for me to snuggle with him, which I do immediately. He picks up the remote and turns on the television and luckily there’s a movie start at 8:30 p.m. and we’ve only missed a few minutes. I cuddle into him waiting for the right time to make my move. I’m not sure when I will do it, but I know even thinking about having Hudson inside of me again is starting to make my clit throb. I want him that’s for sure. We fit so well together and it always feels so amazing, so if being here with him is the last time I’m going to get him this way - I want to make the most of it!

The movie comes on after the add break and I notice it’s ‘Risky Business.’ I smile to myself as I know exactly when I’ll make my move. I cuddle into Hudson and I even place one of my legs over his to get as close to him as humanly possible without actually being in his lap. He doesn’t seem to mind because he has his hand on my leg and the other wrapped around me holding me to him while he relaxes on the sofa.

I am anything but relaxed, every inch of me is tingling waiting to have Hudson touch me. I even think I’m breathing slightly faster in anticipation of the things he will do to me once I have him worked up.

It gets to the scene in the movie where the leads are about to get on the train and have sex. My heart starts to race as I think of how this will play out. I swallow hard as I feel Hudson shift in his seat slightly. He’s feeling the energy surge between us too. I can tell because his cock is semi-hard in his jeans. I’m hoping he’s having the same indecent thoughts about me that I’m having about him, and it’s not just the sex on the television that’s getting him hot under the collar.

I lean into him and press my lips gently to his naked chest. He takes a deep breath and as Lana starts to ride Joel in the movie, I move up his chest to his neck, kissing him softly. His hand around my shoulder tightens its grip while his hand on my leg starts to rise up higher. I look down to see his cock fully hard in his pants. I continue to kiss up his neck and make my way to his lips. I pause just before I kiss him and he’s looking at me with such lust that I know this is working.

I move my hand up his thigh and toward his cock. We’re both breathing hard and fast as the energy surging through the room is electrifying. I stare into his eyes as my hand reaches the bulge in his jeans and I start to rub it with a little force. He exhales and closes his eyes briefly like he’s finally feeling relief from the pressure in his pants. I lean down and kiss his lips and his eyes open as he looks right into mine while we kiss. His tongue finds mine and I kiss him back passionately as I continue to rub his cock through his jeans.

His hand comes up my leg that’s over him and he pulls behind my knee forcing my whole body to move over so I’m straddling him. His hands come around my body and they rest on my arse as my throbbing clit aches for him. My pussy is in line with his cock and I can feel it tenting through his pants. I wish we weren’t wearing pants, but we’ll get to that part in a bit, I’m taking this slowly. I kiss him passionately and start to move my hips on top of him creating a pleasurable friction between my pussy and his cock. I grind on top of him slowly as I start to pant from the feeling between us. He groans letting me know he likes my sensual movements. I know it feels good to me, so it probably feels good for him too. I’m so turned on right now that my panties are soaked and I can’t wait to get them off. His hands skim up under my pajama top and run up my naked back as I move on top of him.

The feeling of his warm hands on my skin is setting me on fire and if I thought I was sexually aroused before, having his skin on mine, even if it is just his hands is making my body come alive. His hands skim down my back and he finds the hem of my pajama top and then he pulls it up. I move my arms up into the air so he can pull it from me. We part our lips for a brief moment as he pulls the top off over my head and then throws it toward the bed and his hands shoot forward straight to my breasts. He caresses them both as I move forward and kiss him strongly. He brings his arms around and he pulls me forward bringing us chest to chest. The feeling of his skin on mine is what I’m craving and it’s only heightening my already out of control libido. His tongue swirls with mine as I continue to grind on top of him.

“Fuck Vee,” Hudson moans into my mouth and I take that as a sign that he wants more, which I’m more than willing to give.

I move my leg off him and sit back down on the sofa then run my hand down to his thigh. I continue to kiss him as I move my hand to rub his cock. He moves his hand up and undoes his fly while I undo his button. It’s a joint effort to free him from the confinement of his jeans as quickly as possible. He springs free and I smile against his lips as I take him into my hand and start to pull on him. He moans into my mouth and closes his eyes enjoying my touch. I close mine while my clit is now throbbing so hard it’s aching. I pull his thick cock up and down and I can tell how worked up he is by the intense hardness of his cock.

I figure I want to please him, so I can get as much out of him as I can while we’re here, so I take my lips from his and he opens his eyes watching me as I move off the sofa and part his legs so I can kneel in between them.

“Vee, you don’t have to. Are your lips still sore from—”

“Shh,” I say and lick my lips placing my hand next to his leg and taking his cock in my other hand. I kneel between his legs and he shimmies his jeans down a little further for me to gain better access. I pull on his cock and he moans as his head drops back to the sofa. I lower my mouth down to his tip and I flick the end with my tongue lapping up the bead of moisture that’s formed on the tip. He’s breathing fast and I know he’s going to enjoy this as much as I am.

“Go slow, Vee. I wanna try and make this last,” he whispers as he brings his head back up and looks down at me with his smouldering, intense, multi-coloured hooded eyes.

I nod and lower my head down and lick my lips just before taking the tip of his cock inside my mouth. He’s so big he almost fills my mouth instantly, but because I’ve done this with him so many times before I’m used to his size and I make all the right adjustments. He moans as I slide my tongue around his tip and then move down taking his length inside my mouth. His hand comes down and moves into my hair. I know he likes to control my movements when I do this, and I plan to let him.

I move up and down on him slowly at first, just like he wants making sure to sheath my teeth from his cock. My cut lip hurts slightly from all the action it’s had in the last twenty-four hours, but I fight through it because I want to please us both. My clit is throbbing as I move my hand on the base of his cock and start to move it in time with the movements of my mouth. He grits his teeth together as he watches me mouth fuck him. Having his eyes on me while I suck him off only heightens the experience for me. I love to pleasure Hudson and the small groans emanating from his chest are only making me wetter for him.