That would certainly be one way to go.
Frankly, it would be nice to have the luxury to dwell on such fears. But I still have a gun to find, and I'm not getting any younger.
Mission resumed.
MERLIN'S GUN
Punishment saved Sora.
If her marksmanship had not been the worst in her class, she would never have been assigned the task of overseeing proctors down in ship's docks. She would not have had to stand for hours, alone except for her familiar, running a laser-stylus across the ore samples the proctors brought back to the swallowship, dreaming of finishing shift and meeting Verdin. It was boring - menial work. But because the docks were open to vacuum, the work required a pressure suit.
'Got to be a drill,' she said, when the attack began.
'No,' her familiar said. 'It really does seem as if they've caught up with us.'
Sora's calm evaporated.
'How many?'
'Four elements of the swarm; standard attack pattern; coherent-matter weapons at maximum range . . . novamine countermeasures deployed but seemingly ineffective . . . initial damage reports severe and likely underestimate--'
The floor pitched under her feet. The knee-high androform proctors looked to each other nervously. The machines had no more experience of battle than Sora, and unlike her they had never experienced the simulations of warcreche.
Sora dropped the clipboard.
'What do I do?'
'My advice,' her familiar said, 'is that you engage that old mammalian flight response and run like hell.'
She obeyed, stooping down low-ceilinged corridors festooned with pipes, snaking around hand-painted murals that showed decisive battles from the Cohort's history: squadrons of ships exchanging fire, worlds wreathed in flame. The endgame was much swifter than those languid paintings suggested. The swarm had been chasing
Snipe
for nine years of shiptime, during which Sora had passed through warcreche to adulthood. Yet beyond the ship's relativistic frame of reference, nearly sixty years had passed. Captain Tchagra had done all she could to lose the swarm. Her last gamble had been the most desperate of all: using the vicious gravity of a neutron star to slingshot the swallowship on another course, one that the chasing ships ought not to have been able to follow, unless they skimmed the neutron star even more suicidally. But they had, forcing
Snipe
to slow from relativistic flight and nurse its wounds in a fallow system. It was there that the swarm attacked.
Near the end, the floor drifted away from Sora's feet as ship's gravity faltered, and she had to progress hand over hand.
'This is wrong,' Sora said, arriving in the pod bay. 'This section should be pressurised. And where is everyone?'
'Attack must be a lot worse than those initial reports suggested. I advise you to get into a pod as quickly as you can.'
'I can't go, not without Verdin.'
'Let me worry about him.'
Knowing better than to argue, Sora climbed into the nearest of the cylindrical pods mounted on a railed pallet ready for injection into the tunnel. The lid clammed shut, air rushing in.
'What about Verdin?'
'Safe. The attack was bad, but I'm hearing reports that the aft sections made it.'
'Get me out of here, then.'
'With all pleasure.'
Acceleration came suddenly, numbness gloving her spine.
'I've got worse news,' her familiar said. The voice was an echo of Sora's own, but an octave lower and calmer, like a slightly older and more sensible sister. 'I'm sorry, but I had to lie to you. My highest duty is your preservation. I knew that if I didn't lie, you wouldn't save yourself.'
Sora thought about that, while she watched the ship die from the vantage point of her pod. The Husker weapons had hit its middle sphere, barely harming the parasol of the swallowscoop. Bodies fell into space, stiff and tiny as snowflakes. Light licked from the sphere.
Snipe
became a flower of hurting whiteness, darkening as it bloomed.
'What did you lie about?'
'About Verdin. I'm sorry. He didn't make it. None of them did.'
Sora waited for the impact of the words, aware that what she felt now was only a precursor to the shock, like the moment when she touched the hot barrel of a gun in warcreche, and her fingers registered the heat but the pain itself did not arrive instantly, giving her time to prepare for its sting. She waited, for what she knew - in all likelihood - would be the worst thing she had ever felt. And waited.
'What's wrong with me? Why don't I feel anything?'
'Because I'm not allowing it. Not just now. If you opt to grieve at some later point then I can restore the appropriate brain functions.'
Sora thought about that too.
'You couldn't make it sound any more clinical, could you?'
'Don't imagine this is easy for me, Sora. I don't exactly have a great deal of experience in this matter.'
'Well, now you're getting it.'
She was alone, no arguing with that. None of the other crew had survived - and she had only made it because she was on punishment duty for her failings as a soldier. No use looking for help: the nearest Cohort motherbase was seventy light-years towards the Galactic Core. Even if there were swallowships within broadcast range it would take decades for the nearest to hear her; decades again for them to curve around and rescue her. No; she would not be rescued. She would drift here, circling a nameless sun, until her energy reserves could not even sustain frostwatch.
'What about the enemy?' Sora said, seized by an urge to gaze upon her nemesis. 'Where are the bastards?'
A map of the system scrolled across the faceplate of her helmet, overlaid with the four Husker ships that had survived the slingshot around the neutron star. They were near the two Ways that punched through the system, marked on the map as fine straight flaws, surrounded by shaded hazard regions. Perhaps, like the Cohort, the Huskers were trying to find a way to enter the Waynet without being killed; trying to gain the final edge in a war that had lasted twenty-three thousand years. The Huskers had been at war with the Cohort ever since those ruthless alien cyborgs had emerged from ancient Dyson spheres near the Galactic Core.
'They're not interested in me,' Sora said. 'They know that even if anyone survived the attack, they won't survive much longer. That's right, isn't it?'
'They're nothing if not pragmatic.'
'I want to die. I want you to put me to sleep painlessly and then kill me. You can do that, can't you? I mean, if I order it?'
Sora did not complete her next thought. What happened, instead, was that her consciousness stalled, except for the awareness of the familiar, thoughts bleeding into her own. She had experienced something like this stalling aboard
Snipe
, when the crew went into frostwatch for the longest transits between engagements. But no frostwatch had ever felt this long. After an age, her thoughts oozed back to life. She groped for the mental routines that formed language.
'You lied again!'
'This time I plead innocence. I just put you in a position where you couldn't give me the order you were about to. Seemed the best thing under the circumstances.'
'I'll bet it did.' In that instant of stalled thought, the pod had turned opaque, concealing the starscape and the debris of the ship. 'What else?'
The pod turned glassy across its upper surface, revealing a slowly wheeling starscape above filthy ice. The glass, once perfectly transparent, now had a smoky lustre. 'Once you were sleeping,' the familiar said, 'I used the remaining fuel to guide the pod to a cometary shard. It seemed safer than drifting.'
'How long?' Sora was trying to guess from the state of the pod, but the interior looked as new as when she had ejected from
Snipe
. The sudden smokiness of the glass was alarming, however: Sora did not want to think how many years of cosmic ray abrasion would be required to scuff the material to that degree. 'Are we talking years or decades, or more than that?'
'Shall I tell you why I woke you, first?'
'If it's going to make any difference--'
'I think it makes all the difference, quite frankly.' The familiar paused for effect. 'Someone has decided to pay this system a visit.'
Sora saw it on the map now, revised to account for the new relative positions of the celestial bodies in this system. The unidentified ship was denoted by a lilac arrow, moving slowly between Waynet transit nodes, the thickened points where the Way lines intercepted the ecliptic plane.
'It must have a functioning syrinx,' Sora said, marvelling, and for the first time feeling as if death was not the immediately preferable option. 'It must be able to use the Ways.'
'Worth waking you up for, I think.'
Sora had eight hours to signal the ship before it reached the other node of the Waynet. She left the pod - stiff, aching and disorientated, but basically functional - and walked to the edge of a crater, one that the familiar had mapped on the cometary shard some years earlier. Three thousand years earlier, to be precise, for that was how long it had taken to scratch the sheen from the glass. The news had been shocking, at first - until Sora realised that the span of time was not in itself important. All that she had ever known was the ship; now that it was gone, it hardly mattered how much time had passed.
Yet now there was this newcomer. Sora criss-crossed the crater, laying a line of metallic monofilament, doubling back on her trail many times until a glistening scribble covered the crater. It looked like the work of a drunken spider, but the familiar assured her it would focus more than satisfactorily at radio frequencies. As for the antenna, that was where Sora came in: her suit was sheathed in a conductive epidermis, a shield against plasma and ion-beam weaponry. By modulating current through it, the familiar could generate pulses of radio emission. The radio waves would fly away from Sora in all directions, but a good fraction would be reflected back from the crater in parallel lines. Sora had to make gliding jumps from one rim of the crater to the other, so that she passed through the focus momentarily, synchronised to the intervals when the other ship entered view.
After two hours of light-transit time, the newcomer vectored towards the shard. When it was much closer, Sora secreted herself in a snowhole and set her suit to thermal stealth-mode. The ship nosed in, stiletto-sleek, devilishly hard to see against the stars. It was elongated, carbon-black and nubbed by propulsion modules and weapons of unguessable function, arrayed around the hull like remora. Yet it carried Cohort markings, and had none of the faintly organic attributes of a Husker vessel. Purple flames knifed from the ship's belly, slowing it over the crater. After examining the crater, the ship moved towards the pod and anchored itself to the ice with grapples.
'How did something that small ever get here?'
'Doesn't need to be big,' the familiar said. 'Not if it uses the Waynets.'
After a few minutes, an access ramp lowered down, kissing the ice. A spacesuited figure ambled down the ramp. He moved towards the pod, kicking up divots of frost. The man - he was clearly male, judging by the contours of his suit - knelt down and examined the pod. Ribbed and striped by luminous paint, his suit made him seem naked, scarred by ritual marks of warriorhood. He fiddled with the sleeve, unspooling something before shunting it into a socket in the side of the pod. Then he stood there, head slightly cocked.
'Nosy bastard,' Sora whispered.
'Don't be so ungrateful. He's trying to rescue you.'
'Are you in yet?'
'Can't be certain.' The familiar had copied part of itself into the pod before Sora had left. 'His suit might not even have the capacity to store me.'
'I'm going to make my presence known.'
'Be careful, will you?'
Sora stood, dislodging a flurry of ice. The man turned to her sharply, the spool disengaging from the pod and whisking back into his sleeve. The stripes on his suit flicked over to livid reds and oranges. He opened a fist to reveal something lying in his palm: a designator for the weapons on the ship, which swivelled out from the hull like snakes' heads.
'If I were you,' the familiar said, 'I'd assume the most submissive posture you can think of.'
'Sod that.'
Sora took several steps forwards, trying not to let her fear translate into clumsiness. Her radio chirped to indicate she was online to the other suit.
'Who are you? Can you understand me?'
'Perfectly well,' the man said, after negligible hesitation. His voice was deep and actorly, devoid of any accent Sora knew. 'You're Cohort. We speak Main, give or take a few kiloyears of linguistic drift.'
'You speak it pretty well for someone who's been out there for ten thousand years.'
'And how would one know that?'