You Shouldn't Kiss Me Like This (12 page)

“Of course you will, because I want to watch your cute butt going up the stairs in front of me.” He lightly swatted her ass. “So get going!”

She hurried ahead of him, but with his longer legs he caught up to her at the stairs. Hands on her hips, he half chased, half pushed her to the bedroom, both of them laughing the whole way. He made everything so much fun! She’d always been scared of letting go and losing control, and playfulness had just made her feel nauseated. But Alec was so unlike anyone she’d ever known, he’d changed her. With him, she dared to let go, and he’d brought out the playful side she’d never known she had.

Just inside the bedroom door, with a twinkle in his eye that belied his stern expression, he grabbed her and dragged her toward the bed. She squelched the brief fear that surged inside her, covering it with laughter. Like Alec would ever hurt her.

He hurt himself, though. As usual, he slammed his shin into the protruding footboard of the bed. “Damn it!” he yelped. “We’re buying another bed.”

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“No point doing that if we might move,” Kyla said practically.

“
I meant when we move.” Smiling, he abruptly shoved her down to the bed and imprisoned her with his arms. “Unless you have other ideas.”

“When we move?” she repeated, shocked. She must have missed that decision. Sure, they’d said things like “if we move in together, we should…,” but it had never been anything definite. Even though she desperately wanted it to be. After her marriage, she hadn’t thought she’d ever want to live with any man again, but in her heart she wanted a life with Alec. And his words sounded pretty definite.

“
I want you and the kids to live with me.” His arms abandoned the cage they’d formed and wrapped around her as he lay on his side next to her. His eyes filled with the deep feelings she knew he had for her. “I love you, I love them, and I love being with you. It just doesn’t feel right when I head home and leave you behind.” He sounded uncertain as he added, “I thought we’d already decided we would move in together, but maybe I was wrong.”

Kyla’s heart soared. For weeks she’d wondered where their relationship stood, and now he had told her. He wanted a life together as much as she did. She’d never dreamed she would find love this strong.

He studied her, waiting for her response, and she hastened to reassure him. “Maybe I’m just too literal. Maybe I expected you to come out and formally ask me.”

“Which I just did,” he pointed out. “Yes.”

He blinked, confused. “Yes I just asked, or yes you’ll move in with me?”

“Yes, I’ll move in with you!” To show how much she meant it, she brought her mouth to his in a hard, tongue‐filled kiss. “As soon as I talk the girls into it,” she added slowly when they parted.

“Good luck with that,” Alec joked. “They aren’t going to want to live with me.” “Bullshit,” Kyla said firmly. “They adore you. They just won’t want to move again.”

“Yeah, well, I know how much their father moved you guys around,” Alec said. His face twisted like he’d smelled something horrible, the way it often did when he mentioned Kyla’s ex. Then he smiled. “We’ll have plenty of time to talk about it. It’s not like it’s going to happen tomorrow.” With a lascivious look in his eyes, he moved onto her. “Right now I think we have something to do before you go pick up those girls.”

“A
nd what would that be?” Kyla said innocently.

“Where do you hide your toys?” He pressed against her so she couldn’t mistake his arousal.

“Oh.” Her gut curled in on itself. She really wished she hadn’t mentioned the vibrators to him.

She had no clue how two people would use a vibrator together, anyway. The things were intended for a woman to use to get herself off. Of course, she knew there were other uses. Her friends sometimes talked about using vibrators with their partners to spice things up. But that didn’t mean Kyla knew how to do that.

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Alec tickled her lips with her tongue. He always seemed to know when she got agitated, and he always did something to try to make her laugh. “It’s okay, honey,” he soothed. “If you just want to make love without any objects involved, that’s fine. It’s just that we were talking about toys, and I thought you wanted to use one.”

“
I do, but I…” Damn it, she should not be this frustrated over the idea of using a vibrator with him!  “I just never have before, and I’m not sure how,” she said, the words tumbling over each other from the speed with which she spoke.

“Never have what?” Alec asked calmly. “Used your vibrator with a partner?” “Yeah.”

“Didn’t we say downstairs that it would be hot to try?” His tone encouraged her. “We did. Though it’s easier to talk about than do,” Kyla admitted.

“Ah.” He nodded in understanding. “Then how about another time? Right now, all I really want is to feel your wet pussy around my cock.”

She snuggled against him. He made things so easy for her. No matter what she said or did, he never seemed irritated. Laid back described him perfectly.

But sometimes she really wished he’d push her more. She was spinning in a damned muddy rut of a comfort zone, and she wanted him to help her out of it. It would be way too easy to let him let her off the hook. She just had to tell him she didn’t want to use the toy.

Yeah. Way too easy. Get over it, Kyla. If you’re thinking about trusting him enough to let him fuck your ass, you damn well should trust him enough to use a stupid toy with you
.

She squirmed away from him. “I’ll get the vibrator.”

“Are you sure?” Alec studied her with concern. “I don’t want to do something you’re uncomfortable with.”

Kyla set her jaw. “I’ll be damned if I’m going to let a piece of plastic get the better of me,”

she stated.

Pride lit Alec’s face. “That’s my girl.”

She kept her vibrators hidden in a shoebox on the top shelf of her closet, so her thirteen‐ year‐old wouldn’t find them. Kyla so didn’t want to have to explain vibrators to her child, though given what she knew about thirteen‐year‐olds, the girl probably wouldn’t even have to ask.

She opened the box and gulped. No way could she use the vibrator the other guy had given her with Alec knowing where it had come from. But the one she’d bought herself looked hideous; a bright pink piece of hard plastic shaped like an oversized lipstick. It had been the least expensive one on the site, but she should have sprung for something better looking. Ugh! She really didn’t want Alec to see it.

But she didn’t have much choice. She took the ugly thing out of the box and brought it to the bed. “Here you go.”

“It’s very… visible.” Alec clearly tried to be diplomatic.

“Thanks,” Kyla said sarcastically. She eyed the vibe. “Yeah, I know, it isn’t aesthetically pleasing.”

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“No, but you are. Even more so when you’re naked.” He gave her a suggestive look. “As long as you’re on your feet, why don’t you get out of those clothes?” Still lying on his back, he shimmied out of his own clothing. What a gorgeous sight!

Naked, he flipped the small switch on the side of the vibrator and made a face. “See if you have any batteries for this.”

“Are they dead?” She asked, slightly surprised. She hadn’t used the thing in months. “Yeah.” He grinned. “Does that mean you’ve overused it?”

“
I don’t use that one.” Heat rose to her face.

“
I was joking, honey,” Alec assured her. “Where’s the one you do use? It would have batteries in it, wouldn’t it?”

She chose to misunderstand what he meant. “Probably. I can take the batteries out and put it in this one.”

“
I see.” He wrinkled his brow. “Something wrong with the other one?” “It was a gift. From a guy.”

To her relief, Alec didn’t seem even slightly fazed. He just nodded and said, “Ah. That makes sense. Then go ahead and get the batteries out of it.” Thoughtfully, he added, “I guess I’ll have to buy you a better vibrator sometime so we don’t have to use this one again. Then again, I think the Anal Beginner’s Kit has one, so we’ll be all set once that arrives.”

“Um, yeah.” She had to see if she could get through this time before she thought about what vibrator they’d use another time. She reopened the shoebox and switched the batteries from the other vibrator to the hideous one.

“Don’t forget to get naked,” Alec ordered.

She drank in the sight of him on his back with his arms behind his head, his cock half‐ hard, and replied in a husky voice, “As though I could forget when there’s a naked man in my bed.”

“Join me, won’t you?” he invited.

She held out the vibrator to him, and he took it and switched it on. Just the buzzing of the toy brought heat to her face and to her pussy. Her body knew what that sound meant. Pulse pounding in anticipation, she stripped out of her clothes. Alec kept his eyes on her and idly ran the vibrator over his own chest. The sight aroused her so much she nearly forgot her embarrassment.

With her clothes out of the way, Kyla moved to lie down beside Alec. But before she could, he reached up and ran the vibrator along her arm. “This is how we play with toys,” he growled.

She shuddered at the sensation. From every point of contact, a current ran through her. The vibe sent moisture straight to her pussy, even though Alec made no move to touch her there. He slid the toy over her skin, up one arm, across her shoulders, and down the other. Around her neck and over her cheek. All the while, he watched her intently and didn’t say a word.  Arousal filled her; she wanted to scream at him to stop playing around and touch her clit with the toy. At the same time, she wanted the teasing. Her desire had built to such a height that if he kept it up, she would come just from anticipation.

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Oh, yes! This would be more fun than she’d thought.

He ran the vibrator down her chest, between her breasts. She moaned and closed her eyes, desperately hoping he would continue down to her mound. Instead, he lightly touched it to each of her nipples, and chuckled when she moaned again. “You’re enjoying this, aren’t you?” he said lightly.

“Just touch me,” she begged.

“
I am touching you,” he pointed out. Slowly he moved the vibrator down her torso. “Or is there a particular place you’d like me to touch?”

“You know where,” she gasped.

“D
o I?” He ran the toy around her to the small of her back. “Here?” “Stop teasing!”

“Oh, this must be what you want.”

At last, he brought the toy between her legs and slid it through the wetness there. Her knees buckled. “Stop and let me lie down.”

He didn’t stop, just stared at the vibrator touching between her legs. “You don’t like this?” She reached down and grabbed his wrist. “It feels so good that I’m going to fall over if you

keep it up. Let me lie down.”

“Oh, fine.” Pretending to pout, he held the vibrator next to his cock. “What do you think? A matching pair?”

Shaking her head in mock despair, Kyla lay beside him. “You’re such a dork.” “Yes, but I’m your dork,” he said confidently.

She softly touched his face. “Absolutely.”

Slowly he brought the vibrator toward her. Anticipation brought butterflies to her stomach and to parts lower down. Only the sounds of their breathing and the vibrator’s buzz filled the room as the toy came closer and closer.

When it touched her clit, she almost screamed. Pleasure rippled out from the point of contact. Oh God! Just the sight of Alec holding the toy against her was enough to send her spiraling upward. With the vibration against her clit, her orgasm bore down on her like a freight train.

Thank God she hadn’t talked herself out of this!

“You’re breathing heavy,” he whispered. “You like this, don’t you?” “Yes,” she whimpered.

“A
nd you were afraid to let me try it,” he said smugly. He moved the vibrator down to

tease the opening of her pussy. “Still nervous?”

“Yes. Oh!” she moaned. Her pleasure built, and she forced herself not to reach for the orgasm. God, she wanted to come, but if she tried too hard she would push it away.

He laughed. “That doesn’t sound nervous to me.” The vibrator entered her, only an inch or so but enough that her walls grasped greedily at it. “I wonder what would happen if I did

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this,” he mused.

Before she could ask what he planned to do, he thrust the vibrator fully inside her and slid down to suck her clit into his mouth. Oh, fuck! Bliss shot through her, and she bucked so hard she nearly knocked Alec away. She closed her eyes and tensed to keep from flying apart. “Alec!” she shouted as the freight train hit. Her body was awash in pleasure, and she could barely breathe. She was afraid if she breathed too deeply, she would fly apart from the force of the orgasm.

When she opened her eyes again, Alec looked up at her from between her legs, a mixture of smugness and lust in his eyes. Aftershocks continued to hit her, little ripples that reflected the pleasure he’d given her. She panted and reached down to run her hand through his hair. Dear God, she couldn’t remember the last time she’d come that hard! “More,” she begged.

Without a word, Alec slid the vibrator in and out of her and continued his oral attention to her clit. Oh, yes! She wondered why she’d never tried this with him before.

Right. Because she’d been a chickenshit.

Not anymore, though. This felt far too good to be scary. But she didn’t really want the toy inside her, not anymore. “Fuck me,” she gasped.