Yearning Devotion (15 page)

Cole opened the passenger side of
his black sexy sleek car for her. Gwen slid into the leather seat and watched
as he walked around the car. He really was too good looking. He had a sexy gait
and he just had an air about him that was so different that most people.

“You know you really aren’t fair to
woman kind.” Gwen smirked when he slid into the car. He just shrugged.

“I think you are unfair for
mankind… So I guess that means we go together well.” Cole winked at her. Gwen
rolled her eyes at him. He laughed at her and pulled out of the parking lot. He
drove like he had sex. Fast and hard. Gwen had to practically peel herself apart
from the seat when they got to her apartment. She waited for him to come around
and open the door for her.

“I don’t think I’ll be driving with
you again.” She took his hand as she stood. He chuckled at her as they walked
through the underground parking garage towards the elevator. “Don’t laugh. You
drive crazy. Even for a New Yorker.”

“I love driving but I have no
patience for other drivers. Which is why I tend to ride the subway.” Cole
pulled her to him while they waited for the elevator. He kissed her lips softly
once before kissing down her neck. Gwen tilted her head to give him better
access. He growled softly in her ear. “I love the way you smell and its
strongest right here on your neck.” He leaned back down to lick from the base
of her neck up to her ear causing a shiver to run through Gwen. She moaned and
sank her fingers into his hair.  The bell to the elevator dinged alerting them
that it had arrived. Cole pulled back from her and they moved inside the empty
car. They waited as it moved up the floors to her apartment.

“You know, I’ve always wanted to
have sex in an elevator.” Gwen said casually still looking at the closed
elevator doors. The sexual tension was so thick they could both feel each other
catching glimpses of each other out of the corner of their eye. Gwen bit her
lip when he didn’t respond immediately and turned to look at him.

“Really? Hm. Maybe I’ll have to see
about making that happen sometime.” He moved quick and groaned as he pushed her
into the elevator wall. “You like to tease me, don’t you?”

“Mmm… It makes things more
exciting. Plus I get bored easily.” Gwen licked across his lips before nipping
his bottom lip. The elevator dinged yet again. This time they were at her
floor.

“Saved by the bell.” Cole grabbed
her hand and pulled her out of the elevator.

“Do you know where you are going?”
Gwen laughed following after him. To her surprise he stopped right in front of
her door. He gestured with his hand as if to say ‘see’. Gwen pulled out her
keys and unlocked the door.

“It was on your resume.” Cole winked
at her as they entered. He was instantly in love with her apartment. Although
not spacious, it was well decorated with muted tones that made him feel
instantly relaxed and at home. It fitted Gwen perfectly. It was just like her
oh so calm demeanor that she so often projected.  

“You know, I guess we skipped the
part where I ask you in. But I suppose I could ask if you want to stay for a
drink.” Gwen laughed as she closed the door behind them. She made sure she
flipped the locks, never could be too careful.

“Well, well. Look what the cat
dragged in.” McKayla walked from around the corner into the kitchen. She was
wearing jeans and a t-shirt looking as plain as she ever got and still
incredibly sexy. She hadn’t expected Gwen home so early. She looked at the
beautiful man and woman in front of her all dressed up.  She gestured and
turned back into the kitchen, “Come in here. I’ll make us some drinks.”

Cole grabbed Gwen with a hand on
either side of her face and pressed a hard kiss to her lips before releasing
her. He followed McKayla into the kitchen. Gwen took a few deep breathes before
following the pair.  When she walked into the kitchen, McKayla was pouring
lemonade into glasses for each of them. Cole was leaning against the counter on
the opposite side of the small kitchen watching her with an eyebrow raised.
Gwen leaned against the opening into the kitchen to watch.

"Lemonade? Not what I was
expecting when you said a drink. But surprisingly sounds pretty tasty."
Cole looked between Gwen and McKayla then back again. He smiled when McKayla threw
him a look over her shoulder.

"We don't have anything harder
in the house." McKayla turned and handed him a glass. She gave Gwen the
other one before picking up one for herself. "So, what now?"

"Want to watch a movie?"
Gwen gestured with her glass towards the living room. The other two both
shrugged and followed her. Gwen sat in the middle of the couch with McKayla on
one side and Cole on the other. She put her glass on the coffee table after
they finally found some random show on TV. She felt tired and wasn't following
the conversation McKayla and Cole were having about some runway one of the
designers had put together that made the models walk up stairwells and hills.
She leaned over and put her head in McKayla's lap and curled her legs up onto
Cole's lap. She didn't care if either cared, she was tired and they could move
if they didn't like it.

McKayla looked at Cole, who looked
back at her and shrugged. They continued their conversation as Gwen dozed off.

“Guess she was tired.” McKayla said
when Gwen started breathing heavy. “She was nervous about how tonight was going
to go. So, you going to tell me what was said? Or do I have wait to hear it
from her?”

“I suppose she’ll have her own way
to describe it. But she told me about her past, her old job and why she felt
like it was the right job at the time.” Cole tried to sum up the conversation
without saying much.

“I must say I’m a bit impressed.
I’d known her for many years before she shared any of that stuff with me. She’s
really learning to open up about her past. The men who had her were brutal to
her, I’m just thankful we met when we did and that I was able to reach the
hurting young girl under the hard exterior she used to shove everyone else
away.” McKayla spoke softly as she looked down at Gwen’s sleeping face. She
pushed her hair back from her face and tucked it behind her ear. “I still hate
you. You broke her. I’ll accept you as much as I can because obviously she
cares about you. But you hurt her and I was afraid I was going to lose her
because of you. That I will never forget and it’ll take me a long time to even forgive.”

“You are right. I owe you an
explanation just as much as I owed her one.” Cole held her stare even though
she was shooting him daggers. “I was married. I was in the middle of an
extremely nasty divorce when my ex-wife thought she would just show up at my
apartment one morning. She’d come to beg for me to take her back but instead
found Gwen there. I wish I could say I was surprised by her appalling behavior,
but I’m not. She was always a little spitfire and not in a good way. She threw
tantrums like a child all the time. I never cared much for her but our fathers
kept pushing us together while we were in college. They were business partners
that saw it as an opportunity to bring their businesses together. We dated off
and on most of college. I finally agreed to get married when she told me she
was pregnant. We rushed to get married because she didn’t want to be an
obviously pregnant bride. And as soon as we were married that little bitch did
her best to make my life hell any way she possibly could.

“Turned out that whole pregnancy
had been a figment of her imagination. I was just too busy working and trying
to keep the old man happy to deal with her. I travelled as much as I could just
to stay away from her, which turned out to be great for business.  Until one
day, I met this sweet girl on the subway and realized what a sham my life was.
This lovely lady showed me how wonderful life could be. Even after only
spending time with her twice, I knew I had to change my life.

“I actually filed divorce papers
that day. I agreed to give her everything she wanted, if she agreed to let me
quietly divorce her. I’ll admit I’d already had the divorce papers drawn up
because of the numerous nasty battles we’d gotten in. But I’d never actually
filed them until the second day I met Gwen. It didn’t matter if I never saw
Gwen again at that point, I just knew that I had to do something to change the
way I was living my life.”

“Why didn’t you stop Gwen when your
wife walked in on you?” McKayla didn’t look impressed with his explanation.

“Ex-wife. And I couldn’t. Cassie,
my ex-wife, knew our marriage was over and said as long as she got everything
she wanted in the divorce, she wouldn’t share any of my personal details about
our marriage, my life, the divorce, anything with the media.” Cole shrugged. “I
was stupid. I see that now. But back then I had been terrified of upsetting the
easily upset Cassie and her destroying me in the public eye. I try to stay out
of it. I hate the media and how they skew things to how they want them to be. I’ve
done a lot since I started my business to stay as far from the lime light as
possible.

“The media can kill a business and
I didn’t want to risk it or deal with all the possible backlash. Here I was in
the middle of what could be made into quite a big deal, no one really had known
we were married and now we were getting divorced, it would be quite the scandal
and then Cassie caught me with Gwen and you bet she would have shared that as
well. It was just a nightmare for me. Stop this woman who was just coming to
mean so much to me and deal with all the backlash I know Cassie would have
caused or let Gwen leave and calm Cassie down.

“Deep down, I guess part of me
thought Gwen was too good to be true anyway. She was this sexy, smart, talented
woman with a beautiful bright soul. I figured, why should I fight to be with
her when she probably had already forgotten me. I knew she already had you,
what did she really want with me? You’ve always been there and I was just a
visitor in her life.”  He rubbed his hand up and down Gwen’s thigh as he spoke.
He shook his head. “But losing her changed things in my life. Especially when I
was in a situation where I couldn’t come even try to find her. It was the most
frustrating thing I’ve ever dealt with my whole life. Wanting to get back and
being unable to. It was my true nightmare but if I’d left and come back I’d
have been fired. It was too big a project to leave at such a critical point
especially when they were having issues.

“I’m not a young man, I’ve lived a
lot in my years. I’ve slept around, I’ve been with multiple women at the same
time, I’ve had sex in crazy places. But no woman has ever caused more than a
ripple in my pond of life. Gwen was like a huge boulder that fell in and
changed the shape of it. I might not have the love that you two have between
each other, but I do love her.”

“I still hate you for being selfish
and not thinking about her…” McKayla started and held up her hand to stop Cole
when he tried to interrupt. “BUT, I can see your side of things. I suppose. Do
it again and I’m going to hurt you. I promise you that. She is my girl and she
is my world. Although I’m willing to allow you into our world, it is only as
long as you keep her happy.”

“What if she chooses me over you?”
Cole threw it out there. He had to know. What if Gwen decided she no longer
wanted to be a bisexual and only wanted to be with him?

“Then that is something we will
deal with at the time. Are you going to try to convince her to do that?”
McKayla raised an eye brow at him.

“No. I have no intention of
convincing her to do anything but keep me around. I don’t want to get in the
way of your relationship, just as I don’t want you to get in the way of Gwen
and I’s relationship. I think we can make this work as long as we are all
respectful.” Cole held out his hand. “You willing to work with me even if it is
only for Gwen’s sake, her happiness?”

“I suppose. You aren’t too bad to
look at. Even if you are a guy.” McKayla shook his hand.

When Gwen opened her eyes, she
found she was in the same position she had drifted off in. She blinked a few
times. It was nearly dark in the room now. The TV had a blue square bouncing
around on it. She grabbed the remote and turned it off. She sat up and
stretched before looking to her side and seeing McKayla had her head tilted to
the side and was sleeping. She turned her head and found Cole in a similar
position. She smiled and gentle roused each of them before showing them both to
the bedroom where all three curled in to bed together. Cole slipped off his
shoes, slacks and shirt, but kept on his boxer briefs and undershirt.

Gwen smiled as she cuddled her face
onto McKayla’s chest, her arm wrapped around her waist, her leg thrown over
hers. Cole was spooned against her back. His arm over her waist, his hand
resting on McKayla’s stomach. One of his legs over her leg that was still on
the bed. It was oddly comfortable for Gwen. She’d never felt so taken care of
and loved.

Gwen woke to a strange sensation.
As sleep slowly cleared from her mind, she realized what it was. She was extremely
turned on and wet. She realized there were hands massaging her breasts as she
laid on her back. She lifted her head to look down and see McKayla smiling up
at her. She moved her hands to slide up under Gwen's shirt, pushing it up as
she went, exposing her stomach and eventually her breasts. McKayla was kissing
up her stomach as the skin was exposed. She sucked one of her nipples into her
mouth when she reached Gwen's breasts. Gwen arched her back and bit her lip to
keep from moaning.

Gwen whipped her head over to look
at where Cole was sleeping. His back was to them and she could see the slow
movements of his breathing. McKayla wasn't paying any attention to where Cole
was though. She was busy sucking and flicking her tongue over Gwen's nipple.
Gwen reached up to grab onto McKayla's neck and back, pressing her close as she
slightly lifted one of her legs to press against McKayla's body.

McKayla shifted and pressed her leg
between Gwen's. She grinded herself onto Gwen's leg at the same time she was
pressing against Gwen's pussy with her leg. She leaned up and pressed her lips
to Gwen's. Her mouth opened and their tongues met as they continued to slowly
grind on each other. McKayla pulled back as her breathing was coming quicker.
She dragged her tongue over the edges of Gwen's ear before grabbing her chin
and forcing her to look at Cole's back, never once stopping their slow grind.
She spoke softly into her ear, "Look. He is still sleeping. He has no idea
I'm fucking you right here next to him."

Gwen couldn't respond. Just looking
at Cole's back while McKayla worked her into a frenzy nearly pushed her into an
orgasm. Gwen had a hand in McKayla's hair as she kissed down her throat to suck
hard where her shoulder and neck met. Gwen's other hand was on McKayla's hip,
holding tight. They were both moving slightly faster but trying not to move too
much and wake Cole up. When McKayla bit down on that tender spot, Gwen arched
her back, her hand clenching tight around McKayla's hair and hip as her orgasm
rushed through her. McKayla followed her over the edge, moaning quietly into
her neck.

 “Now that’s a nice way to wake
up.” Gwen spoke softly. She listened for a moment to the slow breathing sounds
come from Cole. “Guess he’s a deep sleeper.”

“I’ll have to remember that if he
stays over again because that was fucking hot.” McKayla smiled a devilish smile
at her. Gwen just rolled her eyes.

“What if he’d woken up?” Gwen said
as she ran her hand softly up McKayla’s side then back down to her hip.

“Dunno. Ask if he wanted to join?”
McKayla winked at her. Gwen pushed up on her elbows and looked at her.

“Really? Just that easy? You are
willing to share everything with him?” Gwen didn’t expect it to be easy to
balance having two people in her life that she had to care about, but it’d make
it a lot easier if they got along.

“Sure. Not all the time. Not every
time. But I do love seeing you get off from someone else. I don’t have my own
orgasm distracting me from watching.” She pushed the hair back from Gwen’s
cheek, tucking it behind her ear and resting her palm on her cheek. “And you
know I’d do anything to make you happy.”

“Well, we’ll just have to see about
that.” Gwen laid her head back down, but McKayla started to move.

“I’m going to go make some
smoothies for breakfast. Well, after I shower.” Giving her a quick kiss,
McKayla disappeared out into the hall. Only moments later, Gwen heard the
shower start. She rolled onto her back and stared at the ceiling. After a
moment, she rolled over to look at Cole’s broad back. Even under the t-shirt he
had on she could see the lines of his muscles. She ran her finger over one of
the lines softly. Instantly his breathing changed and he rolled over to look at
her.

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to wake you.
I was just admiring your back.” Gwen softly smiled at him. Cole reached out and
pulled her hip till her body was pressed fully against his.

“Oh, I’ve been awake for a while. I
don’t think anyone could sleep through the noises you two were making. Not any
red blooded man that is.” Cole rolled his hips pressing his very hard to miss
erection into her stomach.

“Oh. Why didn’t you say anything?”
Gwen tried to hold back the moan that wanted to escape.

“Because I didn’t want to
interrupt. I was afraid you might stop and it was hot as hell to listen to.
Only thing better other than joining in, would’ve been to watch. But we’ll have
time for that another day.” He rolled onto his back pulling her on top of him
so she was straddling him. He leaned up and met her for a kiss. His hand
gripped the back of her head pulling her down with him as his other hand
slipped up her thigh to rest on her hip. His tongue slid into her mouth and
circled hers. She rolled her hips against the hard ridge of his erection and he
groaned. She ran her hands over his chest, flicking his nipples briefly. Her
fingers ran along all the well-defined muscles in his chest then abs while she
gently bit her lip. Before she could make it any farther, he flipped her over
and was on top of her. He tsked her. “Naughty girl. You have to wait for that.”

“I don’t want to.” Gwen pouted. But
Cole was off the bed, pulling on his slacks as he looked at her.

“Yes. We moved entirely too fast
last time and this time I want to take our time. Do things the right way.” He
ran his hand through his hair and Gwen licked her lips watching the play of his
muscles in his arms as he did so. She had to force her eyes back to his. “I
swear you are the only woman that makes me lose control. Things never go as
planned with you.”

“I’m sorry, I think.” Gwen frowned.
She sat up on the bed, dangling her legs over the edge. “I’m certainly not
trying to make you do things you don’t want to.”

“That’s not how I meant it.” Cole
groaned and scrubbed his hand over his face before meeting her eyes again. “You
are temptation. Everything about you tempts me. I even find your voice
fascinating.”

Gwen walked to him and pulled his
face to hers before gently kissing him. “That’s one of the nicest things anyone
has ever said to me.”

“Good morning.” McKayla came in
holding two glasses filled with a thick white concoction. Gwen took one but
Cole shook his head.

“No thanks. I prefer food. Plus I
need to get to work.” Cole pulled Gwen to him. He kissed her forehead and
clasped the side of her neck with his hand before pulling back to meet her
eyes. “Call me, ok?”

“Sure.” Gwen gave him a half smile.
He grabbed his dress shirt from the dresser. Slapping McKayla on the ass as he
walked by was his way of saying bye to her. They both heard the front door
softly close a few moments later.

“Well, that was interesting.”
McKayla laughed as she plopped down on the edge of the mattress.

“He refused to have sex with me.”
Gwen took a drink of her smoothie. Today’s wasn’t half bad at least. McKayla
liked to mix random things together and call them ‘healthy’ but Gwen wasn’t
sold on the idea. She went along with it most mornings though because it made McKayla
happy.

“Really? Did he say why?” McKayla asked
as she scooted back on the bed and crossed her legs, drinking her own smoothie.

“Just that he wants to take it
slow. Don’t think I’ve ever heard a man say that one before.” She shrugged and
pushed her hair over her shoulder. “It’ll be interesting that’s for sure.”

“So, was he awake?” McKayla wiggled
her eyebrows at her. “I’m pretty sure he was.”

“Yes. You sneak. Why didn’t you say
anything then?”

“Because. It’s fun to tease him. I
actually thought he’d join in.”

“You are bad.” Gwen laughed. “I’m
sure you’ll get to watch us together another time.”

“Mmm. I hope so.”

“I’m going to design. Go do
something besides fantasize about me having sex with someone.” Gwen walked out
the door.

“I already dream about doing it to
you all day, now just with someone else.” McKayla’s voice trailed out of the
room. Gwen rolled her eyes. That woman never got enough, but Gwen had other
things to do besides roll around naked all day every day.

Gwen had been in her design room
for three hours when her phone started ringing. She didn’t recognize the
number. But answered anyway. She was surprised to hear it was MHKR Human
Resources. They were offering her a job and if she accepted, she would be
expected to start the following Monday. She hadn’t expected to get the call
since Cole had said he didn’t know if he wanted her working there. But she was
pleased. It was the job she’d always wanted, the fact that she’d get to see
Cole everyday was only an added benefit.

After she hung up, the phone
started ringing again before she could even put it down. She answered
immediately, figuring the lady from Human Resources had forgotten to tell her
something.

“Hello?” Gwen said after sliding
her finger across the screen.

“Gwen.” A male voice rumbled
through the phone. The voice made everything inside Gwen freeze, a cold shiver
ran down her spine. It was a voice she hadn’t heard in a very very long time.
It was a voice she’d hoped to never hear again. She nearly dropped the phone,
but clenched it hard in her clammy palm. Her stomach dropped out and her entire
body snapped to attention as she quickly looked around the room. She ran to the
windows and pulled the curtains closed and pressed her back to the wall between
them, breathing hard as she slid down curling in on herself.

“I-I-I-I’m sorry y-y-you have the
wrong number.” She tried to sound as normal as she could but her voice still
quivered. Gwen swallowed hard. Her heart felt like it was trying to get out of
her chest it was beating so fast.

“Don’t lie to me bitch. It might
have taken me over 10 years to find your ass, but trust me, you will pay for
what you did to my brother. I now know everything about you and I’m coming for
you.”

“I-I-I don’t know what you are
talking about.” It took a moment for her to remember he was on the phone, not
in front of her. She pulled the phone away and jammed her thumb on the red
‘end’ button before throwing it on the table scattering her design papers. She
shoved to her feet, burst out of her room and ran down the hallway into the
living room. She could hear the phone ringing again back where she’d thrown it.
McKayla was nowhere to been seen as she whipped her head around she yelled out
for her.

“I’m right here. What’s wrong?” McKayla
spoke as she stepped from the kitchen with a glass of water in her hand. Gwen
rushed to her before pulling her into a hug so hard that water splashed from
the glass onto the floor.

“Oh my god. It’s happening.” Gwen’s
whole body was shaking.

“What is happening?” McKayla pushed
back to look at her face. “What is going on, Gwen? You are shaking.”

“He found me.” Gwen broke away from
her and started pacing.  She was mumbling to herself. “Oh my god. He found me.
I didn’t think he’d find me. I didn’t think he would be able to. What does he
want from me?”

“GWEN!” McKayla yelled, clapping
her hands. She’d put her glass on the counter while Gwen was pacing. She
grabbed Gwen’s hands and dragged her to the couch before forcing her to sit.
“Tell me what the hell is going on.”

“He found me. Oh god, the men that
had snatched me, the younger brother just called me. He said he knew everything
about my life and that I was going to pay for what I did. How did he find me?
Fuck!” Gwen put her elbows on her knees, her face in her hands as tears started
pouring down her face. The complete and utter fear that she’d lived with for
years was now back and throbbing painfully as all the memories came into her
mind as well. She feared for McKayla. If he got Gwen again, she’d be prepared
to deal with it, but Gwen didn’t think she would be able to handle if he had
McKayla for even one second. Keeping McKayla away was priority number one for
her.

 “It’ll be ok. We can just go to
the cops. They’ll know what to do.” McKayla rubbed her hand up and down Gwen’s
back. At her words, Gwen jumped up from the couch.  

“I can’t! I KILLED his brother. I’m
a murderer! I’m sure there was more than enough evidence in the house to show I
was there. Plus, I left the bloody fucking knife there. It had to have had my
fingerprints all over it. I was a homeless kid back then with no family, no
friends. They would have no reason to believe my version of how it happened. If
I’d gone in when I was pregnant I would’ve at least had proof, but now, years
later, I have no proof. It’s his word and evidence against my word.” She was
rambling she knew but she couldn’t stop the words from falling from her mouth. She
fisted both hands in her hair in frustration.

“We will figure it out. There has
to be a way to prove that you are innocent.” McKayla stood and pulled Gwen’s
face to her chest as she wrapped her arms tightly around her back. “You know,
maybe he is making it up. He might have just gotten a hold of your number some
way. Did he say anything that makes you think he actually knows where you are?”

“No, I guess he didn’t. “ Gwen
pulled back from McKayla. She took a few deep breaths, regaining her composure.
She kissed McKayla tenderly before moving to pace the room again. “I refuse to
let him take one more day from me. He will make his move when he wants and I’ll
be ready. Think think think…”

Gwen walked back and forth across
the room a few times as she thought. Eventually she stopped pacing and looked
at McKayla, she knew what she had to do if he found her. She hugged McKayla
tightly, “I love you.”

“I love you too.” McKayla rubbed
her knuckles across Gwen’s cheekbone, planting a gentle kiss on her lips. “We
will be ok. We will figure something out.”