Worshipped (Worshipped Series Book 1) (25 page)

I help him rinse off then I turn to shut off the water. Conner quickly grabs my wrists, pulling me into him, and then backs me against the wall in the shower. I’m shocked and instantly become ready for him. I can’t believe he is ready for me again. I am not complaining one bit here.

Conner has my arms raised above my head, and he kisses me deeply. Almost as if he can’t get enough of me. I moan in his mouth as his hands trace down to my breasts. Then to my ribs, and thighs.

“God, Riley, you make me crazy for you,” Conner whispers to me. I love it. I nip at his ear and kiss his neck.

He lets go of my hands and my hands fly instantly to his hair. I tug at it, loving the feel of him kissing my neck and down to my breasts. Conner grabs my leg, pulling it over his waist. He looks at me as he slowly slides inside me. I moan at the feel of him stretching me. Filling me to that pleasure/pain sensation. Conner moves his hand to my ass, holding on as if his life depends on it. He makes slow love to me again and I fucking love every second.

In and out, over and over, and deeper with every stroke. I am going to come fast and hard if he keeps this up. Conner starts to quicken his pace, going faster and harder than he was before. I know he is getting close. I want to hold out a little longer, but when he starts rubbing my sensitive clit, I come hard and loudly. I feel Conner come deep inside me and send me over the edge again.

Conner lets his head fall to my shoulder, both of us breathing hard. “That was fucking amazing,” he says. I give him a peck on the lips, agreeing completely with him.

We get out of the shower and walk straight to our bed. I wanted to ask Conner more about his and Isaac’s relationship with Caroline. I just don’t know how to ask. I’m not sure how Conner knows I have something on my mind. He always seems to know.

“What’s on your mind?” he asks.

“I’m just curious about something that’s been on my mind for a while. I don’t really know how to ask, and not bring up any bad memories for you,” I tell him honestly.

“You know you can ask me anything. No matter what it is, I will always tell you the truth.”

I sigh, thinking how to put it. “The thing is, I want to know more about Caroline. What was she like? Did you and Isaac love her, and treat her like you do me? I’m not jealous, or anything like that. I’m simply curious to know what happened back then.”

Conner doesn’t seem upset or saddened by my probing questions. He does roll over so he can face me. “Caroline was a lot like you. You’re both strong, independent women. She was full of life when Isaac and I were around. I don’t think Isaac fell for her like I had. Yes, we all slept together at the same time, like we do now with you, but it was different back then. Caroline was our first threesome, and now that I think about it, Isaac wasn’t as into it. I know Isaac feels more guilt about what happened to Caroline than I did. I’m not exactly sure why that is. I do know, I loved her more than Isaac did. I thought she was the one.”

I don’t know how I feel about Conner telling me that. I wanted to be the one. It made me wonder if he still loved her.

“I can see the wheels turning in your mind. I said loved. I don’t love her, not like I love you, Riley. She is my past, and I will always have some sort of feelings for her. But, you’re my ‘one’ now. I wouldn’t want to change that. Ever.”

Okay, I can handle that. I don’t push for anymore on Caroline. I thought what Conner told me was enough for one night. I’m grateful he shared that with me.

“Thank you for telling me,” I tell him as I kiss him goodnight and snuggle in the crook of his arm. I am suddenly exhausted. I have a pang of regret. I wish Isaac was here and had joined us in our fun sexy time. I hope he came home soon. I knew he was working hard with Detective James to find Karen, but I wanted him here, next to me. I realize right before drifting off, that my life is never going to be the same again. I could never go to bed without thinking of both of my lovers.

I am highly disappointed with Isaac when I don’t see him again for three days. Yes, I am being selfish, but I want him by my side. I know I had gotten used to them both being near me recently. I mentally smack myself thinking I am being very clingy. Karen is missing and all I want is Isaac and Conner.

The weirdest thing happens to me. I am in my office, catching up on some of the billions upon billions of emails from work when I get a phone call. I cringe when I see the unknown number calling my phone. My first thought is it could be Dominic again. But I have a nagging sensation to answer it. I take a deep breath and picked up. “Hello?” I wait and have to say hello a few more times before I hear Karen’s voice.

“Riley…Josh…crazy…”

“Karen? I can’t hear you. You’re breaking up.”

“Took me…no…idea…Riley…”

“Karen….Karen, can you hear me? Please tell me where you are!” I’m getting really nervous. I don’t think Karen can understand anything I’m saying. I keep getting every few words and she isn’t making any sense. I jump when I hear Karen screaming.

I don’t know what to do. I quickly call Isaac and tell him what happened. I know there isn’t any way to figure out where that call came from, but I am happy she is still alive…..for now.

I got up from my desk and start pacing. I can’t shake this uneasy feeling I’m having. I don’t know if it is about Karen or Isaac and Conner. I don’t think I can handle one more thing today. Isaac finds me later, still pacing, crazy ideas still running through my head.

Isaac doesn’t say anything as he walks into my world of crazy. He just holds me close, letting me know he is there for me. I feel a calm come over me and I feel so much better. Funny how Isaac can do that for me. I don’t know how I survived so long without him.

Conner walks into the room with a smug look. This can’t be good. “You tell her yet?” Conner asks Isaac.

Isaac looks down at me and I can tell he doesn’t want to tell me whatever it is. I step away from him and sit down. “Just tell me. I’d rather you just get it out and over with.”

Conner crosses his arms over his chest and Isaac runs his hands through his hair. That’s all I need to know whatever it is, is not going to be all sunshine and butterflies.

“We found something about Josh. We know his name isn’t Josh, he changed it just a little over six months ago. Right around the time he came to California. He’s been working for Dominic, Riley. That’s how I thought I knew him. He was Dominic’s right hand, and did a lot of dirty work for him. Josh or Jason, he’s a trained killer. And very brutal at that.”

My heart drops right into my stomach. I think I’m going to be sick. How did we not see? How did Karen miss this too? Oh God, she isn’t safe with him at all. I don’t care how much we thought he loved her, she is not safe with him. We need to find her now.

“We have to find her. Please tell me you and Detective James found more about where they are.” I will him to know more. I can’t take not knowing anymore.

“We did find something. The only problem is, we don’t know for sure if it’s an actual lead. And if we are going to follow it, Isaac and I need to leave now,” Conner tells me.

I’m not following what Conner is saying. “What do you mean you and Isaac need to leave now? I’m coming too.” No fucking way I am getting left behind.

“You are not coming. It is way too dangerous for you. We have already talked to the bodyguards. There will be three of our men with you at all times until we return. We can’t afford you to be there and get distracted worrying about you. It’s safer for you here,” Isaac tells me.

I know then they won’t allow me to go. It isn’t fair. I don’t want to stay behind, knowing they are taking all the risks. But then I put my hand over my pregnant belly, and I give in. I have to stop being selfish, and think about my babies. They are my life and I will do anything and everything to protect them.

Isaac and Conner don’t waste a second in packing and then head for the airport. I stay home, not willing to say goodbye to them. I don’t think they will be gone long, but I honestly don’t know when they will be back.

I have to admit, I kind of like having my own personal bodyguards. I feel like a hot shot movie star. Well, that’s what I kept telling myself. Some days I forget they are even there. Then there are other days, I felt a bit creeped out by it. I eventually get used to them being there. Isaac and Conner call me every day checking in on me. I know they are worried, but after the thousandth call, I am ready to turn off my phone.

They have been gone longer than I thought they would be. It’s day five without my boys, and I miss them something fierce. The calls are getting annoying when I would rather them be back home.

Although they haven’t found Karen yet, they are hot on her trail.

I still have that nagging feeling, like something is about to happen. Nothing ever happens, and I think it is just me being paranoid. I’d mainly stayed at home, reading or catching up on my TV shows. I’m starting to get stir crazy. I’m also running low on food. Being pregnant with twins, running out of junk food to eat is not good.

I get my lazy ass off the couch and start getting ready to run errands. Once I am ready to go, I tell bodyguard number two what I need to do. I can’t tell them apart, they each wear the same thing. Honestly, I think they were related in some way. Had to be, right?

Anyways, number two is the nice looking one. The other two, number one and three, just look scary as hell. Number two helps me get into the huge SUV and we are off.

I don’t think much of it when number one wants to follow me in the grocery store. I just ignore him and his scary looking face. I do get strange looks, but I tell myself those people are jealous. Yeah, my bodyguards are hot as hell, so yes they are jealous of my hot and dangerous bodyguard.

I’m surprised when number one helps put my groceries in the SUV. I get back in and head back home. I really am not ready to go back yet. I don’t say anything though, knowing I should stay home until Isaac and Conner come home.

Number three drives us home and we pull back up at my house shortly after. All three help unload the groceries from the SUV. I wonder if Isaac has grilled them into helping me with things like that. I will ask him when he calls in a few minutes.

I just finish putting the food away when Isaac calls. I rolled my eyes, because, really? What would happen within the last thirty minutes when he called last?

“Hi, Isaac,” I answer.

“How are you? Everything okay? How are the babies?”

It is always the same questions. Every single time he calls he asks the same thing. “Everything is fine. Just like the last time thirty minutes ago. You worry too much. I am perfectly fine with the three bodyguards. Have you found anything new?”

Isaac sighs, and says, “No. Nothing yet anyways. I’m beginning to think Jason took Karen somewhere else. He’s smart, and I wouldn’t be surprised if he didn’t already know we are here looking.”

My hope in Isaac and Conner finding Karen is slowly beginning to dim. Shouldn’t they have already found her? I trusted them to do whatever they could, but how long could they look for someone who didn’t want to be found? Someone like Jason is very good at staying hidden. Isaac notices how quiet I got.

“We are going to find her. Don’t give up on us yet. Conner is on the phone now with someone who saw them just a few days ago.” That is comforting to know. At least Karen is still alive.

“I’m trying, Isaac. She’s my best friend and I can’t help but wonder how we all missed Jason being a part of Dominic’s plan. If we had, Karen would be here with me and not somewhere worried and scared.”

“You are right. I of all people should’ve known who he was, but we didn’t. All we can do now is try to find her. I wish the police would help, but since she’s technically not missing there isn’t much they can do. Jason was really smart making Karen call into work and tell them she was on vacation. Perfect way to avoid any more unwanted attention.”

“I just want you to find her, Isaac. Bring her home.”

Isaac promises they are doing everything they can and we say our goodbyes. I know he wants to find Karen, more for me than for her. I’m fine with that, as long as she is home soon.

I try to stop worrying and just let Isaac and Conner handle everything. They seem capable and I trust that they will come through for me.

I end up not sleeping very well that night. When the sun comes up, I am frustrated in my lack of sleep. I know it is because I haven’t had sex in six days, and the battery operated friend just wasn’t cutting it. Masturbation only does so much. Also, I’m not used to having to stay home all the time. I was always going out to lunch with Karen, shopping, or just going to work. I didn’t realize how boring it was to be home twenty-four-seven.

I do get a lot of online shopping done for the babies. I get their cribs, changing tables, and also a rocker for the nursery. I think I might have gone overboard with ordering stuff for my little beans. Their rooms will be full of furniture, and cute baby decorations. It is kind of hard to put together a theme since I am having a boy and a girl. I want something cute, but not too girlish or boyish. It needs to be just right.