With Abandon: With or Without, Book 3 (22 page)

He should tell Matt what was going on, but he couldn’t stand to see any more concern in his eyes.

“Are you done working?”

How long had Matt been aware of his presence? Aubrey strode forward. Wrapping his arms around Matt’s waist, he rested his cheek against Matt’s back. “For now.” He kissed Matt’s neck.

Matt leaned back against Aubrey and wrapped his own arms around Aubrey’s, slumping so they were closer in height. “You want me to fix us some lunch?”

“I’m not hungry. Are you?”

Another gust of wind made the trees and the Spanish moss sway.

Matt shrugged. “Not really.” He didn’t sound interested in much of anything. The sullen tone bothered Aubrey quite a bit. He needed the happy, bouncy Matt back. This somber Matt would never do. Some distraction to take Matt’s mind off his family was in order.

Snaking his hand under Matt’s shirt, Aubrey kissed his neck again.

“Mmm…” Shivering, Matt arched into the ministrations. “Do you still want to go riding?”

Aubrey grinned against his mate’s neck. Oh yeah, he wanted a ride, but not on horseback. His other hand drifted down and palmed Matt through his jeans. “Later.”

“Mmm ’kay.” Matt dropped his head back on Aubrey’s shoulder, and his prick hardened under Aubrey’s attention. He pushed forward into Aubrey’s hand while turning his head and nipping Aubrey’s jaw.

Mission accomplished. Matt wasn’t thinking about anything right now. “Let’s go upstairs.”

Instead of answering, Matt squirmed around to face Aubrey, hugging him tight. He continued to lick and bite at Aubrey’s jaw and neck. His erection pressed into Aubrey’s stomach and little mewling noises bled from his lips.

Oh boy.
Aubrey’s cock went from zero to sixty in seconds flat. The scent of arousal engulfed them. If he didn’t get Matt upstairs now, they were going to end up rolling around naked on the front porch.
Hmmm…maybe—
no.
He was not fucking on the front porch. Groaning at even considering it, Aubrey extracted Matt’s hands from around his neck and stepped back. “Come on, sugar.”

Matt made a whimpering protest, and his lip pouted out. Aubrey wasn’t fooled, Matt was ready to spring. He was all fumbling excitement. Aubrey adored how responsive and out of control Matt became though.

He caught Matt’s hand and tugged him inside before Matt could tackle him. He closed the doors behind them and ushered Matt upstairs. It was difficult getting up the stairs with Matt groping him every few steps, but they somehow managed.

When they reached Aubrey’s room, Matt set his phone on the nightstand and went to open the French doors. “Is that okay? It’s so nice outside. And I love the sounds.”

Smiling, Aubrey nodded. He knew exactly what Matt meant. He’d turned the a/c off earlier because he liked to open the house up when it wasn’t too hot. It was always humid, but he was used to it. As long as there was a breeze he could stand it. “C’mere you.” He climbed onto the bed and offered his hand to Matt.

Matt grinned and dove at him, knocking him backward and nearly off the side of the bed. They both laughed and rolled, getting to the middle of the mattress with Aubrey on the bottom.

“If it’s the last thing I do, I’m going to teach you patience.” Raising his head, he nipped Matt’s chin.

Matt pushed up on his elbows and frowned down at Aubrey. It was ruined by the twinkle in his eyes though. “I can be patient.”

“Prove it.”

“Okay.” Matt rolled off him to lie beside him.

“Patient, not comatose.” Aubrey laughed.

“I’m not comatose, I’m waiting.”

“For what?”

“For you to have your wicked way with me.”

“Oh ho ho. Are you now?” He tugged Matt onto his side until they were nose to nose and kissed him.

Giggling, Matt nodded. “Go ahead. Ravish me.” He pressed the back of his hand to his forehead and fell onto his back again. “Swoon.”

Swoon?
Aubrey laughed, really enjoying himself. He had the playful Matt back, at least for now. “What, are you a fainting little Southern belle?” And how weird was it to be laughing this much with a hard-on? He was certain it was only something Matt could inspire.

Matt continued to giggle and shrugged.

Gawd, he loved that sound. If he lived to be a hundred, he’d never tire of hearing it. And that face… Matt squinted, eyes almost disappearing when he giggled.

Just like that the playfulness left Aubrey. He had to have Matt right that minute. Leaning over, he captured Matt’s lips with his own, stopping him mid-giggle.

“Mmm…” Matt tangled his hands around Aubrey’s neck and urged him closer, but he didn’t rush the kiss like normal. It was languid. His hands constantly moved though, touching Aubrey’s face, sifting through his hair.

Aubrey did nothing to speed the pace. He savored the moment, teasing and tasting his mate. Was there anything sweeter than this? He pulled back only to press his lips to Matt’s again, and Matt’s nose, his cheek and his chin.

Matt blinked up at him, still caressing his face and head. His eyes were heavy-lidded and…adoring?

Aubrey groaned and sat up. He wanted skin. He ripped his own shirt over his head before discarding Matt’s. Once again he lay down, but this time he rolled to his side and tugged Matt with him. Kissing and licking, he worked his way down Matt’s neck to his chest, and still Matt clung to him, arching toward Aubrey’s mouth. He took one peaked nipple into his mouth and was rewarded with his favorite sound.

“Tickles.”

Smiling against Matt’s chest, he flicked with his tongue.

Matt gasped and tried to pull him back up.

Aubrey let him. He didn’t stop where Matt wanted him though and got growled at. He sat up and motioned for Matt to turn onto his stomach. He was going to kiss every square inch of this long, lean body. “Patience, remember?”

Grumbling a little, Matt rolled over. Aubrey placed his hand in the middle of Matt’s back and rubbed. The differences between him and Matt were exhilarating. They were opposites yet not. They complemented one another.
You belong together
, his brain supplied and he couldn’t deny it, they did.

For the longest time he petted Matt’s back and his shoulders. He straddled Matt’s hips and pressed his erection against Matt’s ass as he sucked the skin on the back of Matt’s neck.

Matt shivered and sighed. Pushing up to his elbows, he turned his head, trying to capture Aubrey’s lips.

Aubrey let him and slipped down his body. “Lift up.”

Matt’s pert bottom raised into the air as his forehead hit the mattress. “I’m tired of being patient.”

Unfastening Matt’s shorts, Aubrey chuckled. “But you’re doing so well.” He eased the denim down along with Matt’s underwear until Matt’s perfect ass was revealed. Aubrey groaned at the sight but didn’t stop until he pulled the pants over Matt’s legs and tossed them on the floor.

Running a hand over the curve of Matt’s rear end and down his thigh, Aubrey unfastened his own jeans. He bent and kissed one cheek then the other, and he shimmied his jeans down his hips. Once his cock bounced free, he lay over Matt, luxuriating in the warm skin against him. He licked the back of Matt’s neck and interlaced his fingers with Matt’s, bringing them up next to Matt’s head.

Matt bucked underneath him. His eyes were closed, and he practically purred. A soft smile tugged at his lips. “I like that.”

“Like what, darlin’?” Aubrey nuzzled his face against Matt’s and moved side to side, positioning his cock to rest in the cleft of his mate’s ass.
Ah, yes.

“The way you feel on top of me. The way it tickles when you kiss my neck. The way—everything. I like everything you do to me.” He sighed again and squeezed Aubrey’s hands.

Matt went straight to his head. The man made him feel bulletproof. He nipped Matt’s shoulder, biting down hard. Not enough to break the skin, but the tendons flexed beneath his teeth.

Moaning, Matt squirmed and rocked his hips toward Aubrey. His canines lengthened.

Aubrey unlaced their hands and wrapped his arms under Matt’s chest, holding him. He lay with his cheek pressed to Matt’s shoulder, feeling the thud of Matt’s racing pulse. The spicy scent of Matt filled his nose, and the warm skin heated his cheek as Matt squirmed beneath him. Aubrey’s eyes shifted, and he closed them.

He was hard and wanting, but there was no urgency. He’d get to it. For now, he just wanted to hold his mate close. He couldn’t remember ever feeling like this, this contentment, this sense of rightness.

“I love you,” Matt whispered.

The statement was so soft it was only a breath. It zinged right into Aubrey. He waited, but the sense of panic never came. Instead, euphoria filled him. He hugged Matt tighter. He shouldn’t want Matt to love him, he should discourage it even, but he wanted that love. More than anything in the world, he wanted it.

Opening his eyes, he smiled. He kissed Matt’s cheek and squeezed again. “I wish we could stay like this forever. Just the two of us. Here. No outside world, no school, no job, no one but us.” If only they could. If there weren’t responsibilities and others depending on him…

Aubrey shook his head. He didn’t want to think about the inevitable. Now he was going to enjoy his mate to the fullest while he still had him.

“Me too.” Matt’s eyes opened, and he raised a little, focusing on Aubrey.

His gaze was doting and utterly peaceful. Aubrey swore his heart stuttered. Sliding from Matt, he kicked his jeans the rest of the way off and dug into the drawer for the lube he’d stolen the last time they were here.

Matt rolled to his side, watching Aubrey. He ran his fingers down Aubrey’s stomach, over his cock to his balls. He caressed and tugged lightly. The typical panting, squirming Matt was absent, and in his place lay a man content to give pleasure as well as indulge in it.

Unfortunately, Aubrey’s cock was no longer happy to let him snuggle. His stomach muscles tensed and begged for the pent-up pressure to be released. The scent of Matt’s lust intoxicated him, spurring him on. He slicked up his fingers and wasted no time moving up against Matt. It forced Matt to let go of his balls, but Aubrey got a long, hard body mashed against him in return. It wasn’t a bad trade-off. He traced his slick fingers down Matt’s crease as he slanted his mouth over Matt’s.

Pushing back against Aubrey’s fingers, Matt returned the kiss. He stabbed his tongue into Aubrey’s mouth and moaned as Aubrey slid a finger in. Matt bent his knee, opening himself up. He realized that by moving toward the invasion he made a space between them because he slipped his hand down and grabbed Aubrey’s cock.

Aubrey grunted and pulled his mouth free. “On your stomach, sugar.” He slipped in another finger.

Not only did Matt comply, he arched, deepening the penetration. “Go me.”

“Huh?”

“I was patient.”

Aubrey chuckled. “Yes, you were.” He grabbed the lube off the mattress behind him and squirted a good amount down Matt’s crease while scissoring his fingers. Matt’s back muscles jumped, and he shrugged his shoulders to his ears. “Cold.”

“Sorry.” But not sorry enough to stop. Aubrey positioned his legs on the outside of Matt’s and pulled his fingers out of Matt’s hole. He tapped Matt’s hip. “Come up here, on your knees.”

Matt maneuvered to his hands and knees.

Damn, what a sight. His hole shined with gel, and his balls were already taut. His cock wasn’t visible, because it was so damned hard and close to his stomach. Aubrey needed a mirror in here so he could watch that pretty prick slap against Matt’s stomach as he fucked him. Aubrey groaned and squeezed the base of his cock. His fangs dropped so fast they pinched his bottom lip. Lining up his cock, he gripped Matt’s hip and worked his way steadily inside Matt.

The muscles in Matt’s back and legs tensed and he gulped in a breath. “Wait.”

Aubrey froze.

Matt rocked back and forth with little movements.

Sweat dripped down Aubrey’s forehead, but he remained motionless. It was pure torture to stay still.

Matt continued until his butt rested against Aubrey’s hips. A long, drawn-out moan filled the room, and Matt dropped his chest to the bed. He pushed back hard. His body jerked, and a shiver racked him. He moaned again, and the scent of precome teased Aubrey’s nose.

Aubrey could barely breathe. He was concentrating on being still. He’d meant to tug Matt up against his chest but could barely think with Matt doing that. “You okay?”

Matt’s head bobbed, and he pressed back again, spearing himself on Aubrey’s cock.

Oh damn.
Aubrey tightened his hold on his mate’s hips and thrust forward. He fucked Matt slow and easy at first, but Matt didn’t seem to want to go slow. He kept speeding up, so Aubrey began to pound into him.

Sweat gathered and ran down Matt’s back toward his shoulders. The grunts and moans grew louder, and the smell of come more potent. The grip on Aubrey’s cock increased. He was close, but he knew Matt was too. Sliding his hands down, he pulled on Matt’s shoulders. “Raise up, sugar.”

Matt lifted his body off the mattress, throwing his head back on Aubrey’s shoulder. The smell of sweat and sex teased him. The bed squeaked.