Wild Fell (23 page)

“Well, my lady,” I said out loud. “It appears we’ve found each other.”

The sound of my own voice startled me in the stillness, and I realized that I had already grown accustomed to the general silence that lay over Wild Fell, the same silence that had doubtless blanketed it during the entirety of its lonely untenanted century. I was struck yet again by the house’s bizarre apparent agelessness, especially as I knew that it had lain vacant and shuttered for so many decades in a raw northern environment. This had been one of the selling points of the house, and I counted myself surreally fortunate that it fell into my hands under these circumstances, but I was still baffled by the
how.
There was no trace of mice, let alone birds or raccoons or any other of the wild fauna that made nests for themselves in old abandoned houses in the middle of nowhere. Aside from the dust that had obviously accumulated between the last departure of the cleaning crews and my arrival last night, there was nothing to indicate that the house was uninhabited.

It occurred to me that I was exhibiting a pathetic case of insecurity, a form of reverse narcissism that made it impossible for me to picture myself as extraordinary—even lucky—
ergo
there must be some sort of “catch,” some sort of downside to my good fortune. I could probably trace that insecurity back to my childhood—to the bullying I had endured as a frail child, to my mother’s disassociation and emotional distance—but I had always resisted that sort of pop psychiatry, finding it unbearably maudlin. I had been able to bury it by becoming useful: an athlete, a friend, a lover, and eventually a caregiver. Still, the existence of the exact insecurities I was feeling now as a property owner were undeniably entrenched. They hadn’t come from nowhere.

When I’d asked Mrs. Fowler about a “catch,” she had been offended, pointing out that the house had been inspected and been found structurally sound, even of superior condition. If the inspector had shared my questions about the how the structural integrity had been maintained, he hadn’t shared them in his report. Too, I reminded myself that the house had not come
cheap
. Not only had I never written a cheque of that size, I’d never dared to imagine having that amount of money in my bank account in my lifetime.

And now the house was mine, and I was a lucky man. It was that simple. It was time I made friends with that notion and moved on. If the house was extraordinary, then perhaps it had chosen me; perhaps becoming one with Wild Fell would make me extraordinary, too.

In any event, there would be a great deal of work to do to get the house ready for next year’s guests at the Happy Ghosts Bed and Breakfast. Mrs. Fowler might be half a bubble off of plumb, but that was a damn good name for a B&B. Maybe I’d use it after all.

I suddenly realized that I was famished. I remembered the protein bars in my suitcase upstairs in the yellow bedroom. Involuntarily, I felt my stomach contract at the thought of going back up there. Moving from room to room downstairs this morning had buoyed my spirits immensely but the memory of that terrible dream came back to me in a wave. I shoved the memory away, annoyed with myself for lapsing back into self-indulgent melodrama so soon after deciding that I would no longer yield to such things. As the sun had risen outside, the wood inside the house had begun to warm, releasing its particular perfume into the air. I was standing in a shaft of dazzling jewel-toned sunlight from one of the two stained glass windows in the hallway, and it was beautiful. More, it was mine. Again, I felt Wild Fell gather me in its century-old embrace, and this time I yielded to it willingly.

There was nothing for me to be afraid of anywhere in this house, my house. I would sleep wherever I chose, or walk wherever I chose. That decided, I mounted the stairs to the upper hallway. In the soft morning light, the Oriental carpet runner on the staircase revealed its rich patterns of burgundy, navy blue, and gold. It, too, would have been there for at least as long as the house had remained empty, if not longer. But like so much of the rest of the house, it had somehow retained its integrity. Though worn in places, the weave was tight and lush, the colours still vibrant, if low-burning, like the finest examples of carpeting of its type.

I proceeded down the hallway and stopped outside the yellow room. The door was closed, exactly as I had left it last night. I sighed with exasperation at my own reluctance to open it, then turned the handle and stepped across the threshold. I took the room’s measure.

Everything was exactly as I’d left it: the mess of sheets on the floor, the suitcases, the t-shirt I had been wearing under the flannel shirt when I went to bed, the t-shirt I hadn’t put back on when I went downstairs after the nightmare. I still smelled the smoke from the fireplace, but I was delighted to see that there was no ash on the floor, nor had the smoke blackened the room’s walls.

The windows
. I stood very, very still.
The windows were closed
.

Last night I had left them open to air the room out and now they were closed. More than that, they weren’t closed the way the wind might have blown them shut; rather they were closed with the latch in place, something that could only be accomplished deliberately, from
inside
the room. I closed my eyes tightly, then opened them. I repeated it, blinking quickly, trying to clear my head.

Had I closed them before I went downstairs and simply forgotten? It was late. I was disoriented and terrified from the nightmare. There had been smoke everywhere and visibility was reduced to the moonlight outside and only that much once I’d been able to throw the shutters open and let in the cold night air. But I was sure I hadn’t closed them. I could have sworn to it in a church, or in a court of law.

And yet there they were, shut tightly, the latch in its place.

I walked over to the windows and tapped the glass lightly, half expecting to feel someone, or something, tap back. Nothing did, of course.

I felt no fear. There was no sense at all that I was anything but alone in the old house, even with having thought I’d seen the human figure on the lawn yesterday. I’d dismissed it as the result of last night’s nervous fantods. There was only one possible explanation, the same explanation I had used to dismiss the nightmare: all of the stresses leading up to my arrival on Blackmore Island were causing my mind to play tricks.

I heaved my suitcase onto the bed and unzipped it, rummaging around the interior for the protein bars I had tucked away just in case. I found them there among the socks and t-shirts. Ravenous, I tore the wrapper off one of them and devoured it in three quick bites. The chocolate taste of it stimulated my hunger and I ate a second one, only slightly more slowly than I had the first.

When I had swallowed the last bite, I wadded up the wrappers in my hand and automatically looked around the room for a wastepaper basket of some kind. It was a reflexive thought, one that people who live in normal houses have several times a day. It didn’t occur to me that there was no reason for there to be waste, or somewhere to put it, in a room that had not been slept in for over a hundred years. And yet, there it was, on the ground next to the white ash vanity table, a small wastepaper basket covered in embroidered fabric. Again, the pattern was roses and violets of the kind that had been enwreathed on the bookplates belonging to Rosa Blackmore.

Last night I had deduced that this had been the bedroom of Alexander Blackmore’s daughter, but until my discovery of the photograph downstairs in the library and the lozenge of the shield of her father’s coat of arms, she hadn’t had a name, or an identity. This wasn’t just “the yellow bedroom,” this had been the bedroom of Rosa Blackmore of Wild Fell, who had been born, lived, and died in this house.

As I walked over to throw the wrappers out, a glimmer of gold in the tangle of sheets on the floor caught my eye when the sun struck it. When I bent down to pick it up, something sharp jabbed into my thumb, piercing the skin and drawing blood. I inhaled sharply and drew back. Hanging from a pin in the soft meat of my thumb-pad was a cameo brooch, obviously very old, with a gold filigree aureole. I pulled the pin out of my thumb and pressed my thumb tightly to my forefinger to stop the bleeding. I held the brooch in my other hand and examined it closely.

Unlike most cameo brooches, which featured women’s faces, either in profile or head on, this brooch was a fine rendering of a bearded man with a noble brow, holding a trident over his shoulder like a royal sceptre—probably Poseidon, the Greek god of the ocean. When I held it up to the window, the sunlight through the shell turned the image from white to radiant, glowing pink. The gold looked genuine. It had clearly been an expensive piece of jewellery in its day, and even now it would likely fetch a good price. I was not a jewellery connoisseur, by any means, but Ame had inherited a cameo from her grandmother—the “something old” part of her wedding ensemble—and it had been half the size of this one, and much less delicately carved, yet Ame had said it was worth a great deal.

I checked my thumb to see if the bleeding had stopped, relieved to find that it had. I placed the brooch in the marquetry box on the mantelpiece, then sat down on the bed. The cameo had obviously gotten caught on the inside of the quilt when the cleaning crew had made the bed. I hadn’t felt it in the bed last night when I went to sleep because I had been dressed, but after all, I had been so exhausted that I’d even managed to undress myself under the covers without waking up, instead weaving it all into a horrible dream about Ame and my father.

Also, it was becoming more and more apparent that the isolation from people, a new experience for me, was beginning to fray my imagination. I needed supplies in town anyway, so I decided to take the boat across Devil’s Lake early that afternoon to the beach where my car was parked, then drive into Alvina. I could do some grocery shopping and perhaps stop at the Alvina library to see if there was any material in the stacks pertaining to Wild Fell or the Blackmore family history.

But first I wanted to continue the exploration of my house.

I had yet to set foot in the servants’ wing on the third floor, and I knew that there was some sort of basement beneath the kitchen, because I’d seen the doorway to it last night.

The servants’ wing was bare except for some ancient single beds made of cheap pine and chests of drawers of the same wood. The Blackmore family clearly either had remarkably loyal servants, or else—more likely—they didn’t care about their comfort. In the class-stratified years of the British-inflected Canadian 1800s, the men, women, and children who toiled for next to nothing in the service of the grand families were required to be hardy and Spartan in their expectations of what was owed them in the way of comforts. No plush Oriental carpets here, just hard, cold floors.

I left the windows as I’d found them, shuttered and with weak light shining through the slats, and walked back through the upper hallways and down the staircase. I paused at the yellow bedroom, finding the door closed, as I had left it. Then I descended to the main floor and made my way into the silent kitchen and the doorway I had seen last night.

I discovered there was no electricity in the cellar. Since I hadn’t brought a flashlight with me, I found some candles in one of the kitchen drawers and fitted one into a silver candlestick I’d taken from the dining room. Holding the lit candle in front of me, I made my way carefully down the stone stairs.

I felt the draft almost at once, the earthy cold of dirt floors and old, old stone.

The cellar was actually not one room, but a sort of subterranean antechamber with doorways leading into what seemed to be three separate storage rooms, each with its own thick wooden door. Two of the doors opened easily, but the third was locked tight and no matter how hard I leaned into it with my shoulder and rattled the handle, it was immovable. When I realized that opening it without a key was a lost cause, I explored the two rooms that were unlocked.

The first one was filled with rubbish—rusted garden furniture, rakes and hoes, smaller gardening implements, and a low, rough wooden table with a shelf over it lined with clay pots and jars containing God only knew what. It had clearly been used as an underground gardener’s shed in the heyday of Wild Fell, but it looked like when the gardens went fallow, this room did, too.

In the second room, however, I made a remarkable discovery.

Amidst the piles of old books and various trunks and suitcases, I found a crate containing the framed oil portraits of the Blackmore family—probably the portraits whose outlines I had seen on the walls of the parlour. There were four in total, each one framed in gold leaf period frames.

Bringing the candle as close to the surface of the paintings as I dared without accidentally singeing the canvas, I tried to make out the faces.

I recognized Rosa immediately from the print I’d found in the library. She was dressed in a similar fashion as in the photograph: a modest but rich-looking gown of what looked like brown velvet, though in this painting the dress had a high collar. Pinned at the throat was the very cameo brooch of Poseidon I had found upstairs in my bed. In this portrait, Rosa appeared no less regal, but there was a softness in her eyes here that hadn’t been present in the photograph. I realized that she was younger in this portrait, likely by a good ten years, though this might merely have been a painterly device to achieve an effect for vanity’s sake, or even a trick of my candlelight.

I carefully placed her portrait against the side of the crate and took out the next.

This one was a painting of an older woman dressed entirely in black. Her thick white hair was elaborately styled, piled on top of her head and set with a pair of jewelled tortoiseshell combs. I took it be a portrait of Rosa’s mother, Alexander Blackmore’s wife, though there was no plaque affixed to the frame indicating the identity of the subject. Her face was severe and angular, and while the artist had obviously tried to flatter his subject, there was something frail, even sickly about her in spite of the imperious tilt of the head.