When Time Fails (Silverman Saga Book 2) (3 page)

The little Mazda 323 bumped over a pothole and, from the corner of her eye, Annamari saw Thys wince. She slowed down to 40 and steered the car almost onto the verge where the road was smoother. Perhaps they shouldn’t have come. Not yet. But she needed to get away from the cramped, crowded hustle and bustle of Bloemfontein. It had been months and months since they’d made the trip to Steynspruit. Since before the accident.She needed Steynspruit’s wide blue skies that blurred into the bleached wheat fields that seemed to stretch on forever to the dark horizon framed by the mountains. She craved the farm like an alcoholic craved his firs
t
do
p
of the day.

Not too much farther now. She glanced in the rearview mirror. De Wet was fast asleep, snug in his carry cot. He was nearly five months old now. It was time he was introduced to his roots. Arno was gazing out at the pale fields that would soon be rolled up into huge bales of fodder.

‘Are we there yet?’ Arno asked again.

‘Nearly,’ Thys said.

‘You said that hours ago.’

Thys fiddled with the radio as the crackle drowned the fading music. He switched it off and shifted in his too-small seat. Annamari looked at Arno in the rearview mirror and smiled at him.

The road carried them into Driespruitfontein, along Kerk Street and past the church where Dominee van Zyl had presided for so many years. Thys’ ma said she was much happier in Kroonstad now – the house was much larger and smarter, the congregation so much bigger and her roses were absolutely assured of winning first prize at the agricultural show. A couple o
f
kaffir
s
lazed on th
e
stoe
p
outside Silverman’s General Dealer. Annamari looked away. She drove past Potgieter Street – one day she’d take a left there and show Arno and De Wet their parents’ old school.

Then Driespruitfontein was behind them, the dam glistening bravely in cracked, black banks. She glanced at Thys, wondering if he still remembered. He winked at her, reached out and touched her leg briefly, then glanced back at Arno and his smile broadened. She averted her eyes and stared ahead, blinking hard.

She wound down her window and drank in the fresh, crisp Free State air.

‘Mama, it’s cold,’ Arno whined.

She closed the window and focused on the road, determined to get Thys to Steynspruit as painlessly as possible. There. The sign to Steynspruit. She stopped the car.

‘I’ll do it,’ she said as Thys started to undo his seatbelt.

She clambered out and opened the gate, then waited as a whit
e
bakki
e
roared up and a tall figure in army browns jumped out and strode over to them, R1 rifle slung casually over his shoulder.

‘Annamari...didn’t realise it was you.’

‘Hello Wynand. Long time, huh? What’s up?’ she said.

‘No. Ja. We had reports of some strang
e
kaffir
s
in the area and last night there was a disturbance reported on Viljoenspruit. Nothing serious. But we’re just being extra careful. I was on patrol – I’m a captain now, in the Driespruitfontein Commando. I didn’t recognise your car so I just came to investigate.’

‘You guys are doing a great job. Thanks. I’m grateful.’

He blushed. She suppressed her smile as he strode over to the car and shook hands with Thys through the window. He’d always had a bit of a crush on her at school but everyone knew she was Thys’ girl. Everyone except him. He’d known, but that hadn’t stopped him, them...

She jerked her attention back to Wynand who was peering through the back window.

‘Those your
laaitie
s
? Jeez, didn’t know you’d had another one. Also a boy?Look at him
–
pa se kleinbulletji
e
that one. And you,’ he said to Arno, who had fixed his blue eyes on him curiously. Annamari held her breath. ‘You are just like your ma,’ Wynand said. She exhaled.

‘And my papa,’ Arno said. ‘My papa is Thys van Zyl, the rugby player.’

Annamari swallowed the lump in her throat.

‘I know. I went to school with your pa – and your ma. Your pa nearly killed me once. Remember that tackle, Thys? I couldn’t walk for days,’ Wynand said.

They all laughed and Arno beamed.

‘Hey, did you hear?’ Wynand said. ‘The Jewboy skipped the country, the fokking coward. I was with the MPs when they went to his parents’ house looking for him but he’d gone. Old man Silverman said they hadn’t seen or heard from him in months. Apparently he stole money from them – even from the ol
d
kaffi
r
girl that worked for them. He just disappeared. Good fokking riddance. Cowards, the lot of them. Fokkin
g
commi
e
s.’

She collapsed back into the driver’s seat, pain and relief washing over her. He was gone
.
Dankie Vade
r
. Thank God.

From a distance she heard Thys’ voice,soft, measured, as it always was when he was really angry. ‘David Silverman wasn’t a coward – he was killed on the border, remember? And whatever Alan’s reasons for leaving, it wasn’t because he was a coward. How he survived in Driespruitfontein for so long I have no idea. If I was him, I’d have left too. Now, if you will excuse us, we’d better get going. Annamari’s ma will be furious if we’re late and th
e
bou
d
dries out.’

Wynand stepped back and she drove though the gate, knowing he would close it behind them.

‘I’d have hit him if I wasn’t such a bloody cripple,’ Thys muttered.

‘You’d never hit anyone. And you’re not a cripple!’

But he nearly was. It had been close. So close. Another fraction of an inch, the doctor had said
.

She’d never forget the sound, the “oooooh” that swamped the Free State Stadium as two light blue tanks hammered into Thys, one from the left, the other from the right. She didn’t see the ball fly forward into touch. She didn’t hear the referee’s whistle. She heard the crack as his massive neck jerked first to the left, then to the right. She saw the three players collapse into a tangle of oak-like limbs and jerseys. She saw her husband’s foot right at the bottom of the heap. She knew it was his foot because of the white sock. It didn’t move. Not even after the pale blue jerseys had peeled themselves off him. He just lay there, a crumpled giant in a blur of orange, white and black. The stadium was eerily silent as they parted for her to waddle carefully down, down, down the stairs to the tunnel. There she waited, a kindly cop watching her anxiously while the medics finished with him and stretchered him off the field. They helped her up into the ambulance. Pa and Christo followed with a weeping Arno.

At the National Hospital, they waited. And waited.Christo took Arno to Thys
’
oum
a
. They waited again. She heaved herself out the chair as the doctor came through the swing doors and averted his eyes from her bulging belly.

‘He’s holding on, Mrs van Zyl,’ he said. ‘We’ll know more in a few days.’

Slowly, slowly the news improved. He’d live. He could move his hands. He had feeling in his toes. He could sit up and feed himself. He’d walk. He’d never play rugby again.

It was so unfair. His first game after working so hard to come back after injury too. She’d been so excited, so proud when he’d received his call-up to the team. Pa and Christo travelled through to Bloemfontein especially – not that they needed any persuasion. Arno was beside himself with pride and anticipation. When Thys ran out on to the field in his Orange Free State jersey, Arno shouted at the top of his little lungs: ‘That’s my Papa’ and the burly men all around them smiled and told him that Free State would win the Currie Cup for sure this year, now that Thys van Zyl was back in the scrum.

Thys took his first, faltering, unaided steps up the path to their new cottage in the grounds at Bloemfontein Hoërskool, the day before Western Province beat the Blue Bulls in the Currie Cup Final again. BHS was proud to have a man of Thys’ stature as a teacher at his school, the headmaster said.

Annamari and her mother sat on th
e
stoe
p
, looking out at the garden, across the wheat fields with the far poplar sentries, just visible at the boundary with Viljoenspruit and then beyond to the distant mountains. She tickled Kaptein behind his ears. The littl
e
bra
k
twisted his head and licked her hand. Pa would never allow him on th
e
stoe
p
; Pa said dogs belonged outside. But Pa was with Thys and Christo cheering on Free State in the lounge. She couldn’t bear to watch rugby anymore.

‘What will you do if Arno wants to play? Or De Wet? It’s in their genes,’ Ma said.

Annamari shuddered. She prayed Arno had his father’s genes and would grow up too slender to qualify for the Free State team, even as a wing, or fly half. He was a slight child, smaller than most of the other boys in his Grade one class. Baby De Wet, however, was a different story. He already had enormous hands and feet – a tiny Thys in the cradle.

‘I’m going to get them a violin and take them to ballet class,’ she said.

Ma hooted with delight, waking De Wet who gurgled happily in his pushchair and then closed his round brown eyes again. Kaptein’s soft warm nose nudged her hand. She tickled him again.

‘I’d love to see your pa’s face when you invite him to Arno’s first recital. He’d just die if he had a limp-wriste
d
moffi
e
for a grandson.’

Annamari looked across the garden to where Arno and a dusky little girl in a tattered dress were tearing around, pretending to be fire engines. He’d also taken off his shoes and the children’s footprints chased each other down the dusty path.

She went to the kitchen to ask Rosie for more biltong and beers for the men and some fresh coffee and koeksusters, and a glass of orange juice for Arno. Rosie was draped on her old three-legged stool in the corner near the old stove, the one she’d always used, even after Ma got the new electric one.

‘If it was good enough for Ouma Steyn, it’sgood enough for me,’ Rosie had said, wrapping her arms across her ample chest the day the white appliance emerged, fresh and shiny from its cardboard wrappings. Petrus had helped Pa lift it down from the back of Pa’
s
bakki
e
and carry it into the kitchen. Rosie had glared at the new interloper in barely bridled disapproval. But Annamari and Christo had gaped, wide-eyed in wonder, as the big white machine got hot, all by itself, after Pa plugged it in.

Rosie was always busy. For as long as Annamari could remember, when Rosie wasn’t cooking or baking or cleaning or washing or ironing or chasing her out of bed so she could do her room, Rosie would be sitting in the corner of the kitchen on her little stool, crocheting a blanket or something. But not today. Today Rosie was just sitting, her swollen brown fingers resting in her lap; her normally immaculat
e
doe
k
a little askew. The streaks of grey visible under tha
t
doe
k
shocked Annamari. When had Rosie got so old?

‘Pretty will bring you the tray, Kleinmissie,’ Rosie said. ‘You go sit with your ma.’

The groan from the group in the lounge as she walked back to th
e
stoe
p
indicated that Transvaal must have scored.

‘Where’s Arno?’ she asked Ma as she tucked the blanket up under De Wet’s chin before settling back into her chair. Kaptein had also disappeared.

‘There.’

She looked towards the old jackalberry tree. It was a magical tree. She and Christo had seen it transform from a fort or castle into a tank or tractor or haunted forest. Years later, it had been her refuge when she came home for the school holidays, sitting with her back against the rough bark, dreaming of the day she’d walk down the aisle on Pa’s arm to become Mrs Thys van Zyl.

‘What’s that man doing?’ she asked her mother as the new farm supervisor emerged from behind the tree. He was dragging the little girl behind him, his bony fingers biting into her stick-like arm.

‘So sorry, Mrs Steyn, Mrs van Zyl. It won’t happen again,’ he called as he pulled the child towards the garden gate.

Arno ran after them, crying. Annamari hurtled down th
e
stoe
p
stairs. What had that man done to her child? She hadn’t liked Stefan Smit the moment Ma had introduced him. He reminded her of a rabid meerkat. Or that character in David Copperfield – the one who was always wringing his hands. Uriah Heep. She remembered because Mr Franklin, who insisted they read Dickens and Shakespeare even if they were doing English Second Language, said he could never understand why some strange British rock band had taken the same name.

‘Wait. What’s going on?’ Annamari demanded.

Stefan Smit turned and bobbed his head. His khaki fringe flopped over his milky eyes and he brushed it back with nicotine-stained fingers.

‘Sorry, Mrs van Zyl. I’ve told thi
s
hotno
t
kid never to come near the farmhouse but she just won’t listen. I’m sorry she disturbed you. I’ll make sure it won’t happen again.’

He bobbed his head and turned to go.

‘Wait,’ Annamari said, more emphatically this time. ‘Why is Arno crying?’

‘This kid pushed him over. That’s why I ...’

‘She didn’t. She didn’t.’ Arno rushed forward, grabbed the girl’s hand and tugged, trying to pull her out of the farm supervisor’s grasp. The girl looked terrified, tears slipping down her pale coffee cheeks as she was tugged this way and that.

‘We wasplaying and then he came and grabbed her and he said I mustn’t play wit
h
kaffir
s
but I wasn’t. Me and Bootie was playing,’ Arno howled.

‘Let the child go, Mr Smit. Please.’ Annamari cut him short as he opened his mouth. ‘The children can play together if they want. But I appreciate your concern.’

The man stepped back, frowning. ‘She’s a little troublemaker this one,’ he said. ‘The Coloureds always are. She doesn’t belong here. She belongs with her own people.’ Then he flashed a sickly half-smile and whined: ‘I was just trying to help. I’m very sorry if I upset your little boy.’

‘Would you like to join us for some coffee, Stefan?’ Ma called from th
e
stoe
p
.

‘Thank you, Mrs Steyn, but no. It’s not my place. I’ll just go back to my room.’ With a final shake of
the girl’s arm, he turned and limped swiftly through
the gate.

When he’d gone Annamari turned on her mother. ‘How could you invite him to join us? What if he’d accepted? Okay, I’m sorry for him. What happened with his wife and daughter was really terrible. But he gives me the creeps.’

‘You’re being unfair, Annamari. He’s had a terrible time. He just sold everything after the funeral, got on a bus and came down here. He said he couldn’t bear to be in Pretoria anymore. He doesn’t know much about wheat farming, I grant you, but Pa and Petrus will show him. And having him here will take a lot of pressure off Pa.’

‘Christo should be doing that now he’s finished the army.’

‘And next year? When he’s at Maties? Anyway, he’s still young. He doesn’t need the responsibility of the farm just yet.’

Annamari looked away and bit her lip. Christo was only eighteen months younger than her. And she’d welcome some responsibility for the farm. She’d give anything to be able to live here again. But Thys wasn’t a farmer, not like Pa who’d grown up with Steynspruit’s air in his lungs and farming in his DNA. But Thys, poor Thys, he didn’t know the first thing about farming. He had a career to build in teaching. He was going to be a great teacher – perhaps headmaster of a top school like Grey’s one day. And next year, when she finally finished matric, she’d also become a teacher. She’d already made enquiries about doing a nursery school teacher certificate at the Technical College.

She sat down again and changed the subject. ‘Who is that kid?’

‘It’s the new girl’s child. She started last month. Pretty – she’s Petrus’ daughter or niece or something. I got her in to help Rosie because Rosie just can’t cope on her own anymore.’

‘That child’s Petrus’ grandchild? But she looks Coloured.’

‘Ja. Apparently there was some problem with that in the township. She was being teased by the other kids. Did you notice her eyes?’

Annamari nodded. They were startling – a bright, bright blue. Very odd for
a
kaffi
r
, or even a Coloured.

‘And there was also a problem with her going to the township school. Petrus said the headmaster wouldn’t let her enrol and called in the cops or the welfare or something. I’m not sure exactly. Anyway, Petrus was worried they’d take her away so he asked if they could come stay on Steynspruit until it all blows over. She’s a sweet little thing really, I suppose. I hardly know she’s around.’

‘How old is she? She looks about the same age as Arno.’

‘Petrus said she’s nearly seven.’

‘She doesn’t look it. So where does she go to school now?’

‘She doesn’t. I told you. The school won’t take her.’

‘Why don’t they send her to her father? He must live in the Coloured township. She could go to the Coloured school.’

‘Who knows? Who knows who the father is? You know ho
w
kaffi
r
girls are. They just sleep around and breed like flies.’

Annamari flushed and looked away. She knew some of the farmers’ wives in the district said pretty much the same thing about her, well – the sleeping around part anyway.

Pretty, wearing the same colour pink overall with matching apron an
d
doe
k
that Rosie always wore, walked through the French doors. She put her laden tray carefully on the table but it wobbled and the coffee slopped onto the tray.

‘Sorry missis,’ she said, backing away, looking like a stra
y
bra
k
waiting to be whipped.

‘It’s okay, Pretty. You can just leave it,’ said Ma, mopping up the spill with th
e
lappi
e
that hung on a nail in the wall. Pretty melted back through the French doors.

‘What’s wrong with that girl? She looked like she was going to cry,’ Annamari said.

Ma handed her a mug and held out the plate of koeksusters.

‘She’s a strange one. A bit simple I think. She hardly says a word. But she cleans nicely and Rosie is teaching her to cook. Petrus says she’s honest – well, he would, I suppose. I’m sure she’ll be okay.’

Arno bounded up the stairs and grabbed two koeksusters in his grubby little hands, the thick syrup dripping down his arm.

‘Don’t be greedy. Put one back,’ Annamari said.

‘It’s for Bootie,’ he said and tore back down the stairs to the little girl who was waiting quietly under the big jackalberry tree, Kaptein at her side.

Annamari smiled at her mother, pleased that Arno had found a playmate at Steynspruit.