Wanted (80 page)

“GOD NO ARI!
I swear to you I have not been with anyone but you since Thanksgiving. I swear to God!”

“
Then how the fuck is she
pregnant with your baby Jeff?”

I ran
my hands through my hair again.

“She told me she was seven
months pregnant. I ran into her at Rebels, the weekend before Thanksgiving and we…
..
.we um…
..
.” I looked up at Mark and he was glaring at me. Fuck….

“You fucked her Jeff? How many other girls are going to start showing up saying you got them knocked up! You promised me that you used protection! You PROMISED!” Ari screamed so l
oud it caused me to jump.

“I did Ari! I did use a condom
baby
. She’
s clai
ming it broke but
I was not drunk when it happened and I w
ould swear on my life the condom did not break. Ari I swear on my life!”

Ari stepped back away from me, no…
…
no God please no.

“Why didn’t you tell me you got a call from her? You must have gotten the call right before we came over. Why didn’t you sa
y anything?” Ari shouted at me.

“Ari I was going to tell you I swear to God but I wanted to talk to Rebecca in person. To see if she
was even telling me the truth because
I didn’t want to hurt you unless…
.
..unless…
..
.
”

“What Jeff. Unless it was true…
..
.well now I know. I think we need to step back and take a break.”

Fuck no…
…
no way I was going to let her walk away from me again! Goddamn it
I
was going to fight for her with everything I had.

“NO! Ari this does n
ot change the way I feel about you
baby. I love you Ari. I want to marry
you;
I want to have kids with you I want….”

Ari started crying and shaking her head. She put up her hand
to get me to stop talking.

“Do you know I was just talking to
Ellie about this just the other
day
.
I was telling her how excited I was to know that one day….
.
.one day
..
…” Her voice was breaking. Mother fucker…
..
.I fucking hated Rebecca
Moore with everything I had right now.

“One day, I would be able to tell you we were expecting a baby. I wanted to see your
face;
I wanted to be the one to see your fucking face when you were told you were going to have a baby! Would you want a boy or a girl? Would you even care?
I just wanted to be the one to tell you that.
”

“Baby I do want to have kids with you…
…
more than you will ever know!” I walked to her and reached out for her.

“DON’T TOUCH ME! I will
NEVER
be the person who had your
first
child because you got some fucking whore knocked up.
SHE
gets to be the one who has your first child Jeff…
...
.NOT me!”

I looked over at Ari’s father who was standing there looking torn. He looked at me with almost pleading eyes. What the fuck was I suppose to do!

“Ari I swear to you I’
m going to find out if t
his baby is mine. I really don’t think it’
s my
baby, I will get it taken care of I
promise
you.”

“Well it looks like you’
re going to have to wait a few months to find that out now aren’t you! Until then I don’t want to see or talk to you.”

“What?!”

“Now Arianna don’t do something based on your emotions right now sweetheart. Let Jeff talk to this gir
l before you do anything rash.”

I could not believe Mark was on my side. If that was my daughter I would tell the fucker to leave and
never come back.

Ari turned to her father and glared at him. He took a few steps back and turned to walk away a little.

She turned back to look at me.
I could not lose her again.
I won’t lose her again!

I dropped to my knees in front of her. “Ari
please
, don’t do this to me.
Please don’t leave me again
…
…
I beg of you!” I felt the tears running down my face and I didn’t give two
shits
.
I was pretty da
mn sure we now had an audience.

Ari was crying as she looked down at me.

“I love you Jeff, more than anything but I can’t handle this right now. I need time…
…
I need to be alone and away from you while you work this out. I’m not leaving you…
…
I just…
.
..I just need to be away from you.”

“Ari….
.
.please tonight was
supposed
to change everything. Please.”

“I’m going back to the cabin. Please do not come there. I’m going to ride home with Amanda and Brad tomorrow. Please just…
..
.just
…
…just leave me alone for awhile Jeff. If you love you will just leave me alone.”

She turned and walked away from me. I fell over and buried my
hea
d in my hands and just lost it.

I felt someone trying to get me to stand up. I heard Brad and Josh telling me to stand up. I could barely stand. Once I got up I saw Ari getting into the jeep and
driving off to the deer cabin.

Mother fucker…
..
.not again……she was leaving me……again.

CHAPTER SIXTY FOUR

A
ri……

Jeff dropped to
his knees in front of me and
started to cry
.

“Ari
please
, don’t do this to me.
Please don’t leave me again
….I
beg
of you!”

Oh Jesus Mary and Joseph…
…
…
fucking
hell! My heart was breaking in two. I loved him so much but I was so fucking pissed right now. I wanted nothing more than to get down on my knees and comfort him. But I couldn’t
,
I just couldn’t. He took something away from me tonight. Something I was never ever going to get
back
.
The chance
to give him his first child, the thought made me start to cry.

“I love you Jeff, more than anything but I can’t handle this right now. I need time…
..
.I need to be alone and away from you while you work this out. I’m not leaving you…
..
.I just…
.
..I just need to be away from you.”

“Ari…
.
..please tonight was
supposed
to change everything. Please.”
Oh
god Jeff please stop
begging me please!

“I’m going back to the cabin. Please do not come there. I’m going to ride home with Amanda and Brad tomorrow. Please just…
..
.just
…
…just leave me alone for awhile Jeff. If you love you will just leave me alone.”

I turned and walked away from him….
.
.again. This time it was so much fucking harder. I knew he never meant for this to happen. It was both of our faults. Well
no not really. It was that
dick
wads
fault for not being able to tell me he loved me and then going on a
three month man
whore
mission.

I can’t believe he was going to ask me to marry him tonight. Why didn’t my dad just wait to tell me about the fucking restraining
order?
WHY?!

Oh that bitch was smart to get that fucking thing. I so wanted to go right that minute and
…
…and…
…
well I can’t say what I wanted to do
cause
the stupid bitch was pregnant!

That stupid mother fucking son of a
bitch stupid ass wipe dumb
mother……
Oh god…
…

I cried the whole way to the deer cabin. I almost hit two mother fucking deer on the way. Stupid ani
mals, oh god I didn’t mean that!
What the hell is wrong with me?

I wish Ellie was here. Oh god how I wish I could call her. I pulled up and saw a few small lights on. I was so tired all of a sudden. All I wanted to do was get into bed and sleep. I sat in the jeep and thought about the f
irst time Jeff and I made love.

It was the night of Brad and Amanda’s wedding. They got married at the
Driskill
hotel and Jeff had booked a room there that night and I didn’t know it. The way he couldn’t tear his eyes off of me during the whole wedding ceremony should have been my first clue. Of course the slutty dresses Amanda had us all in that
showed nothing but
our cleavage to the max helped with
h
is lust that night. Talk about not being able to breath
e all night in that damn dress.

The room had been perfect. Simple but filled with LED candles and
rose
petals spread all over the bed. It was on the historical side of the hotel and h
ad a balcony looking down onto Sixth Street. There were
massage oils and lotions and chocolate covered strawberries. Oh god…
…
it was magical. It was magical because Jeff was so sweet and gentle. After talking to Ellie I was not so nervous about my first time. She said it had hurt but after awhile it felt wonderfu
l. She was not fucking kidding.

It was amazing.

I sighed as I got out of the jeep.
Amanda and Heather would probably be coming to get their stuff. I’m sure once they heard what happened they would want to check in on me. I just really wanted to get out of this dress and these boots and just sleep. I opened up
the door and almost fell over.

Oh no! NO! NO! NO! NOOOOOO! The whole room was covered with
Stargazer Lilies. I mean the
whole room
was filled with them. There were bouquets of them in flower vases with blue bonnets
mixed in
. There were bouquets that had the stems wrapped in a light pink satin. Oh my god. One bouquet was so big
…
…it was sitting in an old bucket with other wild flower bouquets. The smell in the room was unbelievable.

It was….
.
.perfect.

It would have been perfect. I was so mad at my fa
ther for ruining this for me. OH
GOD JEFF! He must have spent a f
ortune on all of these flowers.

I started to
slid
e
down the door
and cry. I put my head down on
my knees and just sobbed. I slammed my head back into the door and just screamed as loud as I could.

“MOTHER FUCKER!”
I ruined everything because I couldn’t just let him explain. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

I sat there and cried so hard I felt like I could not breathe. Oh my god Jeff….
.
.Oh god…
..
.why did I walk away and tell him not to come here
. If I had only
known
.
….
ARGH! I’
m so stupid!

“Oh god why??
Why did this have to happen? WHY!” I screamed out. Then I heard
a small knock on the door.

That must be Amanda and Heather. I slo
wly got up and opened the door.

I sucked in
a
breath of air as I saw the only man I would ever love standing there. He came for me.
He didn’t walk away this time.

He came for me
……….

Epilogue

A year and half
later

Ellie…….

The late afternoon sun felt so good on my face.
It was a beautiful December day.
There was just enough of a cool breeze coming off the Llano River to make me wish I had grabbed a light sweater. The peacefulness of being out here was so nice and i
t finally felt like thing
s
were starting to settle in. The house was finally done and we were all moved in. I
absolutely
loved the way it turned out and I loved it even more knowing Gunner designed it from top to bott
om.