He might look at the door, but he could not open it.
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A brief glaze of rain washed the window and thinned the smoke outside. He went to stand by the
window, though he could not see anything but a general grey dimness. The sun, if it had come up, stayed
hidden; he rather felt than knew it was past dawn.
The knob rattled in the door, and the door opened. Laurence turned and stopped, staring, at the man on
the other side: the familiar but unexpected lean face, travel-leathered, and the Oriental features. “I hope I
find you in good health,” Tharkay said. “Will you come with me? I believe there is still a danger of fire.”
The guards had vanished; the house was entirely deserted, but for a couple of men who had wandered in
drunk off the street and were sleeping in the front hall. Laurence stepped over their legs and out into the
morning: a thin pallid haze of smoke and false dawn lying over the docks and drifting out to sea. Glass
and broken slate and charred wood littered the street, and unspeakable trash; a couple of sweepers
lugubriously pushed their brooms down the middle of the lane, doing not very much to help.
Tharkay led Laurence down a side alley, where the dead body of a horse, stripped of saddle and bridle,
lay blocking the way; a young kestrel with long trailing jesses perched on its side, tearing occasionally at
the flesh and uttering a satisfied cry. Tharkay held out his hand and whistled, and the kestrel came back
to him, to be hooded and secured upon his shoulder.
“I am three weeks back from the Pamirs,” Tharkay said. “I brought another dozen feral beasts for your
ranks; in good time, it seems. Roland sent me to bring you in.”
“But how came you here?” Laurence said, while they picked their way onwards through the
unfashionable backstreets. The town looked very much as though it had been already sacked, and those
windows and doors yet intact were all shut tight, some boarded, giving the house-fronts an unfriendly
glowering air. “How you knew I was in the town—”
“The town was not the difficulty; the wreckers off the coast knew which way the
Goliath
’s boats had
gone,” Tharkay said. “I was here before you were, I imagine; finding where you had been stowed was
more difficult. I foolishly went to the trouble to get these, first,” showing Laurence a folded packet of
papers, “from the port admiral, in the assumption he would know the whereabouts of the prisoner he was
assigning to me, but he left me in the hall two hours, and quarreled with me another, and only when I had
his signature did he at last confess to having not the least knowledge where you were, with the harbor on
fire.”
They came to a bare clearing, a courier-covert, where little Gherni waited for them fidgeting anxiously;
she hissed at Tharkay urgently. He answered her in the same tangled dragon-language, which Laurence
could not make much sense of, and then clambered up her scanty rigging to her back, pointing Laurence
at the couple of handholds to get himself aboard.
“We may have some difficulty,” Tharkay said. “Bonaparte’s men are still nearly all on the coast, but his
dragons are going deep inland. Fifty thousand, I believe,” he answered, when Laurence asked how many
men, “and as many as two hundred beasts, if one cares to believe the figure. The Corps has fallen back
with the rest of the army, to Woolwich. I believe to await Bonaparte’s pleasure; why they are being so
courteous, you would have to ask the generals.”
“I thank you for coming,” Laurence said; Tharkay had risked a great deal, with such geography: half
Bonaparte’s army landed somewhere between them and the Army. “You have taken service, then?” he
asked, looking at Tharkay’s coat: he wore gold bars, a captain’s rank. It was not uncommon in the Army
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for a man to be commissioned when he was needed, if a rarer phenomenon in the Corps, where the
dragon made the rank, than in other branches. But with Tharkay one of the few who could speak with
the feral dragons of the Pamirs, it was no surprise the Corps had wanted him; more of one that he had
accepted.
“For now.” Tharkay shrugged.
“No-one could accuse you of an interested choice,” Laurence said, too grim for even black humor, with
the smell of the burning city in his nostrils.
“One of its advantages,” Tharkay said. “Any fool could throw in his lot with a victor.”
Laurence did not ask why he had been sent. Fifty thousand men landed was answer enough: Temeraire
must be wanted, and Laurence himself the only, however undesirable, means to come by his services; it
was a pragmatic and a temporary choice only, nothing to give him hope of forgiveness either personal or
legal. Tharkay himself volunteered no more: Gherni was already springing aloft, and the vigor of the wind
blew all possible words away.
The sky had the peculiar late-autumn crispness, very blue and clear and cloudless, beautiful flying
weather, and they had scarcely been half an hour aloft before Gherni suddenly plunged beneath them,
and trembling went to ground in a wooded clearing of pines. Laurence had seen nothing, except perhaps
a few specks drifting that might have been wandering birds; but he and Tharkay pushed forward to the
edge of the woods and, peering out from the shade, saw at length two shapes leap up from the ground,
and come closer. Two big grey-and-brown dragons, gliding with lazy assurance, and well they might:
Grand Chevaliers, the largest of the French heavy-weights, only a little smaller than Regal Coppers. They
were messy with recent pillaging, and each had what looked like a dozen cows dangling stupefied in their
belly-netting, these occasionally uttering groggy and perplexed moans, and pawing ineffectually at the air
with their hooves.
The pair went by calling to each other cheerfully in French too colloquial and rapid for Laurence to
follow, their crews laughing. Their shadows passed like scudding clouds, a moment’s complete blotting of
the sun, while Gherni held very still beneath the branches. Her eyes were the only part of her which
moved, tracking the great dragons’ passage overhead.
She could not be persuaded back aloft, afterwards, but curled up as deeply as she could wedge herself
into the trees, and proposed instead that they should bring her something to eat. She would not go again
until it was dark. That the French Fleur-de-Nuits would be out then, in their turn, was not an argument
which Laurence wished very much to attempt on her, for fear of her refusing to go on at all. Tharkay only
shrugged, and examined his pistols, and put himself on a track towards the nearby farmhouses. “Perhaps
the Chevaliers will not have eaten all the cattle.”
There were no cows left visible, nor sheep, nor people; only a scattering of unhappy chickens, which
Tharkay methodically loosed the kestrel against, one after another. They would not make much dinner for
Gherni, but a little was better than nothing; and then in the stable a small pig was discovered, rooting
unconcernedly in the straw, oblivious both to the fate which it had earlier escaped and to the one which
now descended upon it.
Gherni was neither picky nor patient enough to demand her pork cooked, and they roasted the chickens
for themselves over a small, well-banked fire, feeding the kestrel on the sweetbreads, and waving their
hands through the smoke to thin it out. Without salt the meat had little flavor, but did well enough to fill
their stomachs. They gnawed it down to the bones, and buried the remnants deep; they rubbed their
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greasy hands clean with grass.
And then only the wait for the sun to go down: a crawling time, when it was scarcely yet noon, and the
ground cold and hard to sit upon: wet rotting leaves in a muck everywhere, the wind blowing a steady
chill into fingers and feet, with all the stamping they could do. But Laurence could stand when he chose,
and go to the edge of the copse and feel the wind blowing freely into his face, and see the placid
well-ruled fields in their orderly brown ranks and tall white birch-trees raising their limbs high against the
unbroken sky.
Tharkay came and stood beside him. There was no alteration in his looks or manner; if he was silent, he
had been silent before. It was to Laurence as much liberation as the absence of locks and barred doors,
to be able to stand here a moment, and be no traitor, but only himself, unchanged, in the company of
another. He had suffered wide disapproval before, without intolerable pain, when he knew himself in the
right; he had not known it could be so heavy.
Tharkay said, “I might never have found you, of course.”
It was an offer, and Laurence was ashamed to be tempted; tempted so strongly he could not
immediately make his refusal, not with all freedom open before him, and the stench of smoke and the
ship’s bilges still thick in the back of his throat, ready to be tasted.
“My idea of duty is not yours,” Tharkay said. “But I know of no reason why you owe it to any man to
die, to no purpose.”
“Honor is sufficient purpose,” Laurence said, low.
“Very well,” Tharkay said, “if your death would preserve it better than your life. But the world is not yet
quite ranged all between Britain and Napoleon, and you do not need to choose between them or die.
You would be welcome, and Temeraire, in other parts of the world. You may recall there is at least a
semblance of civilization,” he added dryly, “in some few places, beyond the borders of England.”
“I do not—” Laurence said, struggling, “I will not pretend that I do not consider it, for Temeraire’s sake
if not my own. But to fly would be to make myself truly a traitor.”
“Laurence,” Tharkay said, after a pause, “you
are
a traitor.” It was a blow to hear him say so, in his
cool blunt way, all the lack of passion in the words serving only to make them seem less accusation than
statement of fact. “Allowing them to put you to death for it may be a form of apology, but it does not
make you less guilty.”
Laurence did not know how to answer; of course Tharkay was right. It was useless to cry, that he loved
his country, and had betrayed her only
in extremis,
as the lesser of two hideous evils. He had betrayed
her, and the cause mattered not at all. So perhaps for nothing, now, he condemned Temeraire to lonely
servitude, himself to life-long imprisonment. Perhaps all that could be lost, had been lost. And yet—and
yet—He could not answer.
They stood a long while, mutely. At last Tharkay shook his head, and put his hand on Laurence’s
shoulder. “It is getting dark.”
“Yes, I sent for him,” Jane said, flatly. “And you may leave off your coughing and your insinuations: if I
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wanted a man between my legs so badly, there is a campful of handsome young fellows outside, and I
dare say I could find one out to oblige me, without going to such trouble.”
Having momentarily appalled her audience of generals and ministers into silence, she rode on, with no
more muttering to contend against, “If the French took him prisoner, they would have two Celestials; and
even if the two are too close related to breed direct, they will cross-breed them—perhaps to Grand
Chevaliers, if you like to imagine that—and breed the offspring back to fix the traits: in a generation they
will have a breed of their own, and we nothing: we haven’t a single egg out of Temeraire yet. Put
Laurence in a gaol-waggon and bring him along under guard, if you insist; but if you have any sense, you
will make use of him, and the beast.”
The atmosphere in the generals’ tent was not a convivial one. All conversation circled endlessly around
the central disaster of the landing, returning to it again and again, and Laurence had already gathered
enough to understand: Jane had not been in command of the aerial defense, after all. Sanderson had been
made Admiral at Dover, over her head.
For what reason, Laurence scarcely needed to wonder: they had never liked making her commander,
but having been forced to do it by necessity, they would likely have gone on as they had begun rather
than admit a mistake; if they had not wanted vengeance, if they had not thought her complicit in
Laurence’s treason.
As for Sanderson, Laurence knew the man a little: he was handler to a Parnassian and commanded a
large independent formation at Dover; they had served together, if not very closely. Thoroughly
experienced but no brilliant officer, Laurence would have said, and Sanderson’s attention was badly
divided. Though his Animosia had been dosed with the cure, several times, she still fared poorly from the
aftereffects of the epidemic, and it had nearly killed him, too: he was not a year short of sixty, and had
scarcely slept or eaten while his dragon ailed.
He sat now in a corner of the tent and wiped occasionally at an oozing cut over his eye with a folded
bandage, saying nothing, while the generals shouted instead at Jane; he looked grey and faded under the
bright bloody streak on his forehead.
“Splendid, so you would put a known traitor and his uncontrollable beast into the middle of our very
lines,” one member of the Navy Board said. “You may as well rig up a telegraph and signal all our plans
to Bonaparte at once.”
“Bonaparte can’t damned well have an easier time of it than he has already, unless you run up a white