Until Harry (29 page)

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

Day one of forever

W
orry filled me, but I didn’t care, I needed the answer.

I stood up straight as I said, “Kale, you wanted me, or you want me? I’m not running away from you anymore. I’m not running away from anything ever again, no matter how scared
I a
m.”

He began to stalk towards me.

“Which one is it?” I asked with my head held high. “Because when it comes to you, it’s always been want for me.”

“I don’t want you, Lane,” Kale growled as he neared me. “
I f
ucking
need
you.”

He rushed at me and collided into me with his massive, sculpted body. I almost whimpered as the touch I so desperately craved invaded my senses. Kale took possession of my lips and kissed me so hard that it almost hurt. His hands were on my cheeks, holding me in place, and his forehead was against mine as he kissed me with a hunger that I eagerly matched.

I felt the passion he was showing me deep in my bones.

I gasped into his mouth when his hands slid down my body, around my waist and down to my behind where he squeezed. He bent his knees a little, then without warning he lifted me up into the air.

“Wrap your legs around me,” he urged before taking my lips back as I became his willing captive.

I did as he asked and wrapped my legs around Kale’s hips and my arms around his neck. I hummed into his mouth as we kissed.
I ro
lled my pelvis into him, and he growled into my mouth, causing a surge of excitement to shoot through me. I knotted my hands in his hair and tugged on it, making him hiss as we kissed.

I grinned into his mouth, and he contracted his hands on my bottom, making me whimper a little as stinging pain hit me. It was Kale’s turn to grin then, and I quickly found that whatever I did to him, he would do back to me tenfold.

That might not be so bad,
my mind purred.

“Bedroom,” I panted against his lips. “Now. I need you right
now
.”

I needed him more than I needed my next breath.

With me still in his arms, he walked out of the sitting room and headed down a hallway. Down at the end of the hallway, he pushed open the door into his room and stepped inside.

I screamed when my mouth was torn from Kale’s as I fell back through the air, only to land on a soft mattress. I gripped my chest and felt my heart slamming inside it. At Kale’s laughter, I shook m
y head.

“You bastard,” I said, laughing. “You frightened the life out o
f me.”

I leaned on my elbows as Kale gripped his T-shirt from behind his neck and pulled it off his body, throwing it behind him. I stared at his body in awe.

“Holy shit,” I breathed. “Kale, you have abs, and that V thing that is making me forget my own name.”

“Oblique muscles, they’re called oblique muscles.” He snorted and crawled onto the bed, nudging his way between my thighs. “
I wo
rked out a lot while you were away,” he said, then brought his mouth down to my neck.

I placed my hands on his chiselled back, and the muscles beneath my hands moved. The pulse between my thighs was becoming unbearably achy, for which I blamed Kale’s stunning body.

“You’re so hot,” I breathed.

Kale spoke in a low, guttural voice, “That’d be you.”

I felt my cheeks heat up. “I’m not the size I was when I left here. I’ve probably gained between fifteen and twenty pounds and look like I’ve aged forty years while you’ve gone and got yourself ripped and become even
more
gorgeous. That’s a shitty trade-off for you.”

Kale pulled back from kissing my neck and glared down at me. “You. Are. Beautiful.”

My heart thudded against my chest.

“Thank you,” I whispered.

His gaze was still hard as he stared down at me. “Do you remember when you were fifteen, and I stood behind you while we looked at you in the mirror, and I listed everything I thought was beautiful about you?”

I’d never forget it.

I nodded, my breathing turning rapid.

“All of those things I listed back then have multiplied by a thousand now,” he said and smiled down at me. “You’re perfect, Laney Baby. Simply perfect.”

My voice was tight with emotion, but I refused to cry.

“Take me,” I pleaded. “Right now.”

Kale’s eyes flashed with fire as he reached down and pulled me into a sitting position. In the space of a few seconds, he rid me of my jumper, T-shirt and bra, throwing them God knows where. I lay back and fisted the sheets around me as he kissed his way down my stomach and used his teeth to pop the button on my jeans.

“Oh, God,” I breathed when he lowered my zipper and I felt his hot breath on my skin.

My boots, jeans and socks were next to go. Kale gripped the hem of my underwear and slowly inched it down until I almost screamed at him to tear it from my body.

“Please,” I panted.

He flung my underwear over his shoulder and brought his mouth down to my centre and inhaled. His hands gripped my thighs and he groaned.

“Fuck,” he said, his voice strangled. “You smell better than I remember.”

Crimson. That was the colour I was certain my face and neck were.

“Kale,” I pleaded. “Inside me. Now.”

“What if I want to take my time with you?” he asked, his voice low and husky.

I whimpered. “I’ll fucking die, that’s what.”

I screamed when Kale suddenly buried his face between my thighs and flattened his tongue against me, lapping at me like I was his favourite treat. I thrashed about, and like our first time, he hooked his arms around my legs and clasped his hands together atop my mound. He held me in place while he licked and suckled on m
y sli
ck bundle of nerves.

“So close,” I cried out when I felt the delicious heat of bliss lick at my core, igniting a fire within me that I thought had burnt out long ago.

Right there,
my mind screamed.
Right. There.

“Kale!” I shrieked.

I sucked in a deep breath and held it as the first pulse of heaven slammed into me, followed by another and another. Each throb of pleasure spread to my every nerve ending, and sensation became me. I greedily sucked air into my lungs when they began to burn, a
r
eminder that I wasn’t breathing.

“I can’t wait,” Kale’s voice growled, breaking through my clouded high.

I blinked my eyes into focus just in time to catch him rid his body of clothing and climb over me, his hardened length thick and purple as it jumped with anticipation.

“Later,” he swore. “Later I’ll take my time with you, later I’ll explore every inch of you, but right now, I need you hard and fast.”

I needed that too.

“Yes,” I pleaded. “Yes, please.”

Kale gripped the base of his length and rubbed the head up my glistening slit, causing my body to jerk at the sensation. He lowered the head to my entrance and slowly, painfully slowly, he pushed inside me. I cried out as I felt my inner walls stretch to accommodate Kale’s thickness.

“Christ,” he shuddered, his face looking almost pained. “You feel . . . it’s impossible. You aren’t a virgin. How are you this tight?”

“I haven’t been with anyone in six years,” I panted. “I wanted you, needed you. Never anyone else.”

Kale lowered himself to his elbows as he buried himself to the hilt. I opened my mouth when he pressed his lips to mine, groaning when he nipped at my lower lip with his teeth.

“What you do to me, Laney Baby,” he growled and began to thrust in and out of me as if the Devil himself were on his heels. “It’s been years . . . so long, I won’t last.”

I cried out into Kale’s mouth, and he took my cry and swallowed it down. He moved his hands until they were buried in my hair, and tugged on it, as he loved my body with his. I felt m
y in
sides tighten as Kale picked up his pace and slammed into me,
dominating
my body and heart with each thrust.

“I’m gonna come,” he moaned. “You feel too good.”

“Let me feel you lose control,” I begged.

I dug my nails into his back, which caused him to hiss before he threw his head back and roared my name as he came, his hips jerking forward as his body sought its much-needed release. When he was spent, he fell forward and pressed his face into the crook of my neck. I panted as Kale lay sprawled out over my chest. His breathing was rapid, matching my own. I mustered up all the energy I had left in my body and tapped him on the back.

He hummed in response.

“If you fall asleep on me again,” I teasingly warned, “I’ll bite your dick off.”

Kale winced, then vibrated with laughter. “I’ll fall asleep next to you, cuddling this sexy little body of yours. How does that sound?”

I shivered as he pulled out of me and rolled onto his side; I snuggled closer to him, using his bicep as a pillow. “That was amazing,” I whispered, smiling.

Kale lazily smiled. “That it was, darling.”

I smiled back, but then quickly cringed. “We didn’t use a condom. Again.”

Kale widened his eyes, then closed them and cursed himself. “I’m sorry, Lane. I didn’t even think. I don’t seem to do that often around you.”

I couldn’t help but chuckle. “It’s okay. I’m just mad because I didn’t think of using one either, but don’t worry. I’m on the pill, and I’m clean. We’re good.”

Kale nodded. “I’m clean too, and that’s a relief that you’re on the pill. I want you to myself for a long while before you get
pregnant
.”

I felt my heart drop to my stomach.

“Kale,” I whispered, “don’t play like that.”

He stared at me with happy puppy-dog eyes and said, “Do I look like I’m playing?”

He bloody did
not
.

I gaped at him. “You want us to have a
baby
?”

“I want us to have everything,” he instantly replied.

Is this real?

I didn’t trust myself to speak, so the only thing I could do was press myself as close as I could to Kale to show him that some day, I wanted everything with him too. I closed my eyes, promising myself to rest for just a moment and catch my breath. I heard Kale call my name a few times a few minutes later, but he sounded as if he was far off in the distance. When I didn’t respond, I felt him look down at me and heard him laugh.

“Who is falling asleep on who now, kid?” I heard him chuckle as he covered us with a blanket and wrapped his body around mine.

I hummed with contentment, and just before I fell into the most peaceful sleep I’d had in years, my last thought echoed through my mind.

Please,
I prayed,
don’t let this turn into another nightmare.

I awoke sometime later to find that Kale’s bedroom was still filled with light from the outside, indicating not much of the day had passed, which felt weird to me, because I felt as if I’d slept for a day, that was how rested I was. I was careful not to wake Kale as I adjusted my body against his.

I lay watching him sleep for an hour or more, memorising every inch of him. I could have stayed and watched him forever, but when my stomach rumbled, I silently slipped out of Kale’s bed and pulled on his plain white T-shirt, smiling when it fell to my mid-thigh.

I tiptoed out of his room, down the hall and made a stop into a room I discovered to be the bathroom. I cleaned myself up and went into the kitchen and put the kettle on, helping myself to the contents of his fridge. I set out making us sandwiches. I knew he would be hungry when he woke up, and I wanted to do something nice for him, so feeding him was my chosen deed.

“Lane!”

I jumped at Kale’s roar and dropped the knife I’d used to cut our sandwiches in half. Then I automatically ran for his room when I heard a loud bang. I bolted into the hallway and ran for his bedroom door, reaching for the handle, but the door was pulled open before I got a chance to open it, and I ran straight into Kale’s bare chest.

“What?” I asked, panicked. “What is it?”

Kale sucked in a breath and placed his hands on either side of my face, pressing his forehead to mine. “You were gone,” he said, panicked. “I woke up and you were gone. I thought . . . I thought—”

“Shhh, sweetheart,” I soothed, and wrapped my arms around his body.

I knew exactly what he thought; he thought I’d run away from him again.

“I’m here, Kale,” I breathed, and kissed his chest. “I’m never going to leave you, I promise.”

He hugged me so tightly I thought I might pass out. He released me after a minute, then held me out and his eyes scanned my body, before pulling me back into him, moulding my body against his.

“I feel like there is a monster in me, muttering in my ear that this isn’t real.”

I rubbed my hands up and down his back. “We all have monsters telling us lies that we can’t have what’s right in front of us. Mine told me the same thing about you, but for now, our monsters seem to get along.”

He kissed the crown of my head. “It appears so.”

I hugged him. “I was hungry, and I figured you would be too when you woke up, so I was making us sandwiches.”