Unraveling You 03 Awakening You (3 page)

 

I lick a heap of ice cream off the spoon. “Who’s everyone?”

 

She shrugs indifferently. “Me, Kale, Everson, half the kids at school.”

 

“What about my parents?” I ask her. “And yours? Do they know?”

 

She shakes her head. “I don’t think they know yet. They’re pretty oblivious when it comes to these sorts of things.”

 

I kick back on the sofa with my feet propped under me and stuff a bite full of ice cream into my mouth. When our relationship started heating up, Ayden and I agreed it’d be for the best if we kept it a secret for a while. With our families being so tight, we know that the moment they find out, they’ll start giving us rules and having expectations. At eighteen-years-old, we want to have a normal relationship without parents getting involved and making everything all awkward.

 

“I wouldn’t get too relaxed if I were you,” she remarks. “Sooner or later, they’re going to find out, and it’d be better if you guys told them; otherwise, you’re going to hurt their feelings. You know how sensitive they can be.”

 

I catch Ayden’s gaze. “She’s probably right.”

 

He squirms uncomfortably. “Yeah, maybe.” He shoves a bite of ice cream into his mouth and stares at the fireplace, lost in thought.

 

I open my mouth to ask him if everything’s okay, but Kale speaks first. “Ayden, could you help me with something?” he asks, quickly hopping to his feet.

 

Ayden tears his gaze off the fireplace and blinks up at him. “What’s up?”

 

Kale scratches his nose, appearing as uneasy as Ayden. “Can we talk about it upstairs in the guest room?” His gaze skims Fiona and me. “In private.”

 

“Sure.” Ayden flicks a glance in my direction before he rises to his feet, looking as squirrely as the first day we met. “I’ll see you in the morning.”

 

I frown after he hurries out of the room like it’s on fire. “I wonder what that’s about.”

 

“Kale has a crush on this girl at school,” Fiona explains, misinterpreting what I meant. “But, since he’s a weirdo, he needs Ayden’s help trying to get this girl’s attention. I don’t know why he asked Ayden, though. He’s just as much of a weirdo as Kale.” She gives an elongated pause. “We all kind of are.” Her eyes sparkle with mischief as they land on me. “That includes you, too, you know. You’re seriously as insane as the rest of us.”

 

“I never claimed to be sane.” I jab the spoon at the ice cream, still stuck on why Ayden seemed all squiggly. “Besides, normal is so overrated. Trust me. I have a few friends who are normal, and I’d rather poke my eye out than live their lives of going off to college as soon as I graduate, getting a normal job, and eventually starting a family.”

 

With senior year nearing the end, it’s all everyone talks about anymore. Going off to college to pursue a degree that will give them an average job with stable pay.

 

“You don’t plan on going to college?”

 

“No. At least, not until I see what I can do with my music career.”

 

“Isn’t that sort of risky?”

 

“Yeah.” I balance the bowl on the armrest. “But I’d risk my sanity if I didn’t at least try.”

 

“Do your mom and dad know about this?” She sets the cup of ice cream on her knee and starts side-braiding her long, brown hair.

 

“I’ve mentioned it a couple of times,” I tell her. “They’re a little bit more hesitant than I am that it’ll all work out.”

 

“Figures. Parents so don’t understand dreams.” She secures the braid with an elastic.

 

“What’s with the third degree, anyway? You’re thirteen. Aren’t you supposed to be worrying about crushes and makeup and stuff like that?”

 

“I do worry about that stuff, but as an aspiring artist, I also worry about my art and whether or not becoming an artist is in my future.”

 

“I’m sure it is.” I stand up with my sketchbook in my hand. “Your sketches are amazing.”

 

“So are yours and your mother’s.” She collects the cup off her lap and hops to her feet, tugging at the hem of her yellow dress. “Can I see what you’re drawing?”

 

I hesitate. The detailed drawing of Ayden feels very private and intimate, but then I realize it doesn’t really matter since she already knows about our relationship.

 

“What the hell.” I hold out my sketchpad for her to see.

 

She examines it closely, and a smile spans across her face. “It looks so much like him it’s crazy.”

 

I grin at her approval, tuck the sketchpad under my arm, and motion at her as I head for the stairs. “Come on. Let’s go get ready for bed, and then I’ll let you look at more of them.”

 

She skips after me. “Thanks, Lyric. You’re the best neighbor-who’s-like-a-sister ever.”

 

“Yeah, yeah,” I start up the stairway, “you say that now, but I’m sure you’ll change your mind like you do every other day.”

 

She giggles. “Yeah, you’re probably right.”

 

After we’re in our pajamas, we get situated in my room. Since we only have one guestroom in my house, Ayden and Kale are staying in it, and Fiona is camping out on my floor in a sleeping bag. The lights are off, but she uses her phone as a flashlight while she flips through my sketchpad.

 

“There’s so many pictures of Ayden.” She turns another page. “Lyric?”

 

“Yeah?” I answer sleepily.

 

“Do you love him?”

 

“Love who?” I yawn, already half asleep.

 

“Ayden.”

 

I freeze mid-yawn and open my mouth to say no, but the lie won’t leave my lips.

 

“It’s okay,” she reassures me, “I won’t tell anyone.”

 

I smile to myself as I roll over and close my eyes. I fall asleep to the sound of turning pages and my mind filled with a thousand lyrics.

 

So soft are his lips,

 

Like rose petals and velvet.

 

The taste of him is indescribable.

 

The feel of his body almost unbearable.

 

When he kisses me, I swear I’m dying.

 

Out of air, body aching, knees shaking.

 

More, more, more,

 

Always craving more.

 

Love, it’s like an addiction,

 

Consuming the mind.

 

Love, love, love.

 

I’m so in love with him.

Chapter 4

 

 

Lyric

 

 

 

I’m woken up in the dead of sleep by violent shaking. Still half stuck in dreamland, at first I think it’s an earthquake, but as my eyes adjust to the night, I realize it’s Fiona.

 

“Lyric, wake up.” She gives my shoulder another shake.

 

“What’s wrong?” I sit up, rub my eyes, and then glance at the clock. “Dude, it’s only four o’clock in the morning. What the hell, Fiona?”

 

“It’s Ayden,” she says, her eyes wild with panic. “He’s in trouble.”

 

Just like that, I’m wide awake, like my body has been hotwired.

 

“What’s wrong?” I fling the blankets off my body and spring from the bed.

 

“I had a dream about him,” she whispers, hugging her arms around herself.

 

I instantly relax. “I’m sorry you had a nightmare, but seriously, you can’t wake me up this early.” I’m not a morning person at all.

 

“It wasn’t a nightmare,” she huffs in frustration, stomping her foot on the floor. “It really happened.”

 

I sink down on the edge of my bed, yawning. “What happened?”

 

“Ayden . . . I was dreaming about him sleepwalking outside, and then the dream came true.” Pale moonlight trickles through the window and highlights the fear in her expression.

 

“I know nightmares can be scary,” I say in the most sympathetic voice I can muster at this early of an hour, “but you have to remember that they’re just that—nightmares.”

 

“It wasn’t a nightmare.” She marches up to the window and points at something outside. “If you don’t believe me, then take a look for yourself.”

 

My heart immediately starts pumping blood through my body at an alarming rate. I rise to my feet, pad over to the window, and peer down at the ground. At first, all I see is nightfall covering the neighborhood. But as I strain my vision, I spot a figure next door, standing out on the Gregory’s front yard.

 

No, not Ayden. He’s not supposed to leave the house and definitely not in the middle of the night.

 

“Ayden . . .” I whirl to Fiona. “Go wake up my mom.” I run out of my room, down the stairs, and cringe when I realize the front door is wide open, and the alarm has been turned off.

 

Ayden knows the code, so I’m guessing he did it. But that makes no sense, if he’s sleepwalking.

 

What the hell?

 

Even though it’s April, the cement is cold against my bare feet as I race down the driveway and around the fence dividing our yards. The road is dimly lit by lampposts that offer just enough light so I’m not running around blind.

 

As I approach him, my pulse soars. Wide-eyed and out of it, his lips are moving as he mutters under his breath. I’ve found Ayden sleepwalking before, and like the first time, he’s talking about stuff I don’t understand.

 

“We’re not going to let you out that easy,” he mutters, staring dazedly out at a car on the corner of the road. “No one leaves us. Ever.”

 

I struggle over what to do. I know better than to wake him up; otherwise, he might flip out. But I need to get him back into the house somehow.

 

I reach out to touch his arm, hoping to subtly guide him back without waking him, when he turns his head and looks at me.

 

“We’re going to come for you,” he mutters. “And you’re going to wish you never escaped . . .” He blinks his eyes, and then his lips part. “What the hell?” In a panic, he glances around at the houses. “Where the hell am I . . . ? How did I . . . ?” His enlarged eyes lock on me. “I don’t . . .”

 

Shit. He’s waking up and panicking.

 

“It’s okay.” I cautiously inch toward him with my arms open, preparing to hug him, but he skitters away from me with his hands out in front of him.

 

“How the fuck did I get out here?” he demands in a harsh voice, his eyes watering up as he gasps for air. “I don’t understand.”

 

I keep my hands in front of me while stepping toward him. “You were sleepwalking, I think. But it’s okay. Everything’s okay.”

 

He clenches his hands into fists and sucks in a breath to fight back the tears, but a few escape and cascade down his cheeks. “I’m so sick of this. I feel like I’m losing my goddamn mind.”

 

“I know, but it’s going to be okay.” I have no idea what else to say. No clue what to do. I feel so helpless at the moment.

 

“I’m so sorry.” His head slumps forward as he starts to cry.

 

“You have nothing to be sorry about.” I loop my arm around his back and steer him toward my house. “Let’s get you inside.”

 

Nodding, his arms wraps around my waist. We hike around the fence, up the driveway, and to the front porch. I only let him go to shut the front door, but freeze when I notice the car on the corner that Ayden was staring at now has the headlights on.

 

I watch as it flips a U-turn and peels off down the street. With everything that has been happening, I wonder if it isn’t a coincidence that the car drives off the moment we head back inside. Could it be someone stalking Ayden again?

 

“Lyric, what’s going on?” My mother’s voice floats over my shoulder.

 

I lock the door then turn around. She has on a robe, her hair is a tangled mess, and her tired eyes are bouncing back and forth between Fiona, Ayden, and me.

 

I hurry and explain what happened, making sure to include the car. She tells me not to worry, that it was probably one of the neighbors heading off to work, but her eyes show her concern.

 

“Let’s all get back to bed, and we can talk it about in the morning, okay? When Lila and Ethan get home,” my mom says, ushering us toward the stairs. “I can’t believe you managed to turn the alarm off in your sleep,” she mutters quietly.

 

“I’m sorry,” Ayden apologizes as we ascend the stairs. “I don’t know how I did it, either.”

 

“Don’t be sorry,” my mother says from behind us. “This isn’t your fault, sweetie.”

 

Ayden bites down on his lip, not saying anything else.

 

“Are you okay?” I whisper to him.

 

“I don’t know,” he mumbles under his breath loud enough that only I can hear.

 

I graze my fingers along his arm. “I’m here if you want to talk about it in the morning.”

 

He nods, and then we part ways at the top of the stairway. Fiona follows me into my room and slides back into the sleeping bag while I climb into bed.

 

By the time I pull the covers over me, the sun is kissing the edges of San Diego and glowing across the sky, casting rays of light into my room. Restless, I stay awake to write, silently expressing what I can’t aloud, allowing myself to get lost in my words.

 

“Lyric, I’m scared,” Fiona says so abruptly I jump and chuck the pen I’m holding like I’m some sort of spastic ninja.

 

“Jesus, I thought you were sleeping.” I set down my journal, lean over to the side, and peer down at her. “You don’t need to be scared. Ayden’s fine.”

 

“That’s not what I’m scared about.” She tugs the sleeping bag up higher as she gazes up at the ceiling. “I’m scared I’ll have more nightmares if I shut my eyes.”

 

“You said you dreamed that Ayden was sleepwalking?”

 

“Sort of,” she replies vaguely. “Then, when I woke up, I saw him out on the front lawn.”

 

This isn’t the first time she has said something strange to me. There was an incident when Ayden was sleepwalking and screaming, and Fiona said she felt his scream, whatever that means.

 

“Does this kind of stuff happen to you a lot? I mean, do you dream about things that happen?”

 

“I don’t dream it . . . I feel it happen.” With her eyes opened so wide, she looks utterly horrified. She abruptly bolts upright and snatches hold of my hand in desperation. “You can’t tell anyone that. Promise me, Lyric.” When I don’t agree right away, she tightens her hold on my hand. “This is important. I need it to stay a secret, just like you need the fact that you’re dating Ayden to stay a secret.”

 

I have no idea what’s going on. If she’s blackmailing me. If she’s crazy. If I’m crazy because I kind of believe her.

 

“All right, I promise,” I say with reluctance. “Just as long as you keep quiet about me and Ayden.”

 

“I will.” She releases her grasp on my hand and lies back down on the floor. “Thanks, Lyric.” She rolls over on her side, and a minute later, she’s fast asleep, breathing softly.

 

Wigged out by the last few hours of events, I grab another pen from my nightstand drawer and return to my journal to write. My thoughts drift from what Fiona told me to what happened with Ayden. The pen floats fluidly across the paper, pouring out my soul and the deepest fears I don’t dare utter aloud.

 

How do I save him

 

When the world has so much control?

 

Spinning through life, a turbulent force

 

Sucking him down into a dark hole.

 

Sunlight spills upon me,

 

Drowns me in warmth.

 

I outrun it for as long as I can.

 

He’s falling into the dark, begging to be saved,

 

Pleading for me to save him.

 

I reach for him,

 

But the sunlight devours me

 

And burns my hands,

 

Singeing me to dust.