UnLove Me - The Angels Warriors MC Complete Trilogy Box Set (25 page)

I dial in Eden’s number and wait for her to answer. “Hello?” she asks.

“Hey, Edie, I have some news for you,” I tell her.

“What’s up?”

“Your dad, he’s dead,” I say into the phone.

I hear the relief in her sigh she lets out. “Praise God,” she says.

I giggle. “Yeah, babe, now you can come home.”

She doesn’t answer right away. “Lilly, I’m sorry, but I…I can’t. I’ve made a life here now. The last time I saw Jasper, well, I don’t want my children around him like that.”

I chew on my bottom lip and release it. “Eden, please, I miss you,” I tell her.

“Lilly-pad, I miss you too, but I don’t know if I could ever go back, back to Jasper, any of it,” she says and lets out a big sigh. “Look, I need to go. Thank you for telling me. I love you, Lilly,” she says then hangs up.

I put my phone down and hold back my tears. There’s no reason why she can’t come home. I don’t understand why she doesn’t come back now.

Of course, if she does, she might get upset with me and possibly run off again once she learns Jasper’s dating Monica. But I also know that if she comes back, Jasper will fight to be with her. Monica told me last night when we were out dancing that she can’t shake the fear of losing Jasper. Apparently, he even talks in his sleep about Eden.

I check the time and realize I can check the mail. I’ve been waiting to hear back from the beauty schools I applied to.  Opening up my box slot, I reach in and pull out a large envelope. My eyes go wide as I tear it open.

“I got in,” I breathe out. “I got in!” I scream at the top of my lungs happily.

I run back to my house and start making plans. It’s a six month long course, which is doable, but the driving back and forth would cost a whack. I’ll figure something out, maybe stay with someone down there.

The front door opens, and in walks Vinny. “Hey, Lilly-pad.”

“I got in!” I shout.

“What?” He frowns, looking confused. “Got in? Huh?”

I roll my eyes and let out a huge sigh. “Remember what I said about wanting to go to beauty school? Well, I got in! I start next month!”

“Where is it?” he asks. He is giving me this odd look, like he isn’t happy for me.

“Red Deer. I figure I’ll just get a place and stay there while I’m in school. No point in driving back and forth every day,” I say with a shrug. What’s his problem? He lights up a smoke and takes a hard long drag.

He narrows his eyes at me. “You mean, you are going to live in a different city while going to school? What about me? Us?” he demands, getting angry. He puts his cigarette out while shaking his head, mumbling under his breath. Well, this isn’t going anything like I thought it would.

“Seriously? You’re fighting with me about this? Why can’t you be fucking happy for me?! Huh? Maybe this is a good thing,” I say, crossing my arms.

“How’s it a good thing?” he asks. He stops pacing and stares me down.

“Because we can break up, and I can really think about this shit. I can think about if you really are the man I’m meant to be with. This break will be good for us.”  All of this off and on, push and pull isn’t good for either of us.

“We’re not breaking up. You just won’t go. You can stay here and see if the local beauty school will take you,” he tells me while stalking to the fridge for a beer.

“Excuse me? I’m going,” I tell him, getting angry. I’m doing this for me. This isn’t just about us. I finally have a chance to do something good, something for me. Why can’t he see this for the good that it is?

“No, you’re not.”  He fucking rolls his eyes at me, as if his words are the final say. He isn’t in control of me. I never had a father, and he sure as shit isn’t going to boss me around like one. He’s supposed to be my equal. I’m not his fucking property. If he thinks I’m just going to fall in line like some of the other women who are with a biker would, he has me mistaken for someone else entirely.

“Fuck you. Get out of my house. Now,” I shout at him. “This isn’t about you, asshole!” I scream at him. God, he’s so selfish!

“Yeah, I guess it isn’t. Fine, I’ll leave,” he says, but not before throwing the beer at the wall.

Fucking dick.

*~*

I’m in Red Deer for my Beauty class. It’s been a blast honestly. In about four more months, I’ll graduate and I’ll get to do what I love. I’m walking with a girl that let me use her as a model for my in class homework assignment, and we’ve somewhat became friends.

Meyla is walking slightly behind me as we walk along the street, when I see him. “Oh my God,” I whisper.

Big Willy, in the flesh- not dead like he should be, and he’s talking to Foxy, one of the women that used to hang around the old club. She’s holding a baby in her arms, trying to pass the baby to him.

“Hey, what’s the hold up?” Meyla practically shouts.

I duck my head and move to her quickly. “Just be quiet. I need to follow that man right there. Bad guy. Really bad.”

Her eyes bug out, and she nods.

She comes with me as I follow them to a run-down house in a seedy area of town, and they go inside. Meyla decides she likes being a spy and goes up to the window, peaking inside.

She’s suddenly back at my side, grabbing my arm as the front door opens. We see Foxy come walking out without the baby. “No,” I whisper.

“What is going on?” she asks.

I shake my head and pull out my cell, quickly punching in Eden’s number. “Hello?” I hear her say over the sound of children playing.

“Eden, I saw him. He’s not dead,” I rush out.

“What?” she whispers. “But just last month you told me he was.”

“It’s bad news, Edie. I’m sorry, but it looks like you have a little sister. I saw him and a woman walk into a rundown house. The woman, Foxy, walked out and just left the baby with him,” I tell her, wanting to cry.

“I need to protect her. Oh my God.” She doesn’t bother to say goodbye before hanging up.

“Um, I don’t know what’s going on, but with the conversation I just heard, I’m thinking of calling my husband,” Meyla says, staring at me.

“Don’t. I can’t bring you guys in on this,” I tell her. Although her husband is a cop, and I’m sure he could help, this is something that I can’t bring anyone in on…

“Okay, but promise me, if something really bad happens, you have to tell me.”

“Don’t worry, it will be fine,” I say. Even to me that sounds like a complete lie. I know Eden. She’ll do everything in her power to protect that baby.

I want to tell Vinny, even Jasper, but that would mean admitting I’ve known where Eden’s been this whole time.

The raid was only a little over three months ago…when everyone thought he was shot and killed.

Six Months Later

Lilly started beauty school, but not before breaking up with me for something stupid. I don’t even remember what I did to piss her off so badly. It’s been almost six months. According to Ann, she’ll finish school next week and will be coming back home. I’m looking forward to that. I fucking miss her. This break gave me time to think. I need her.

Since she’s been gone, I can’t even attempt to get her back. So here I am, at Kayla’s place, lying in her bed after fucking all night. My heart isn’t in this shit with Kayla, but my dick has had other ideas; he doesn’t care that Kayla isn’t Lilly.  I fuckin’ miss her. I don’t know why I keep doing this fucked up, never ending cycle.

“When she comes home, you’ll be going back with her, won’t you?” Kayla asks me.

I rub my face, not wanting to answer. I pull my beanie down over my eyes, trying to avoid her sad expression, but I can still feel her eyes on me.

“We shouldn’t be doing this then. This is too hard. You coming here, spending time with me, the sex, then to have it all ripped away,” she says while staring up at her ceiling.

“Kayla, I…” I don’t know what to say to try to make this better. Doing this with her, it’s not cheating, but at the same time, the guilt of it fucking sucks. Kayla’s not a bad person, but I also know she isn’t the one for me. Not the way Lilly is.

“Don’t, don’t say anything. I get it. I get what this is, and I guess I’ll have to be okay with it. I’ll take what I can get from you,” she says quietly.

“I think maybe this needs to stop,” I tell her quietly.

“Yeah.”

“I can’t keep running to you whenever Lilly and I break up. It’s not fair to either of you.”

“I know, but letting you go completely is hard too,” she says quietly with tears leaking down her face. “Just hold me? You can leave in the morning. I just want one more night.”

“Yeah, I can do that,” I say softly and put my arms around her, bringing her body into mine.

*~*

I’m sitting on Lilly’s couch waiting for her to get home. I left Kayla’s house last week before she woke up because I didn’t really want to deal with her tears. Of course, I still feel like shit. Kayla isn’t a horrible person, but she’s just not for me. Yeah, I’ve been stringing her along, giving her false hope, but I just can’t anymore, especially now that Lilly’s coming home.

Fuck, do I miss her. I hope she missed me! I really hope I don’t have to beg too hard to get her back.

I hear her car pull into the driveway and start getting nervous. What if this time away has been bad? What if she doesn’t want me? This time apart could have really made her think, made her not want to be with me at all. What if she met someone else?

I won’t let that happen. I need her—she’s my life. I push all of that negative shit to the back of my mind. Only thing that matters is she is here now, and I am going to get her back.

The front door opens, and Lilly steps in, looking amazing; her hair grew out some while she was away. “Vinny? What? What are you doing here?” she asks, sounding and looking confused.

“You’re home,” I say shrugging.

I see her gulp and bite her bottom lip; still so sexy, already making me hard.

“I missed you, Lilly-pad,” I tell her, walking slowly toward her. I’m unsure of how she is feeling toward me.

“I missed you too,” she says quietly. “But you shouldn’t be here.” My heart feels like it has been ripped out of my chest.

“What?” I whisper out. She can’t mean that she doesn’t want me here. I tug on my beanie anxiously.

“I don’t think I can keep doing this, Vinny. I love you so damn much, but this time away from you, with no back and forth, I’ve enjoyed it. I feel at peace,” she says sadly.

“I’m not living without you, Lilly. Please don’t give up on us,” I beg her. I’m ready to get down on my knees and plead.

“We can try, Vinny, but I want to take this slow,” she whispers while looking away from me.

Hope fills my chest. “I can do slow. I promise, Lilly, things will be different.”  I can change. For her, I can and will do anything to make it work. I can’t lose her again. My life isn’t the same without her by my side.

She nods. “Okay.”

I rush to her, pulling her into my arms and hugging her tight against me. It isn’t long before her mouth latches onto mine and we end up in her room in bed together. Lilly is naked and writhing beneath me, right where she is meant to be. I’m looking down at the most beautiful woman, and she’s all mine. I pull out, and she frowns at the loss of our connection.  I slam back into her and pull back out slowly. She bites her bottom lip, knowing I want her to beg for it hard and fast just like she loves it. I push back in a little faster, and she bucks her hips.

“What are you biting that lip for, Lilly-pad?” I drawl in a cool even tone as I draw my cock out and push back in. She just smirks and closes her eyes. “Open your eyes and tell me what you want.” I begin rocking into her, picking up the tempo. She moans and arches her back up from the bed.

“Fuck me, Vinny. I want it hard and fast. Now!” she lets out in a whispered breath, breathing hard.  I can’t keep up this slow pace any longer, and I lay into her, pumping into her faster and faster, slamming the headboard against the wall so roughly I think I may have made marks.

Lilly lies on her back, breathing hard. “Um, I don’t think that was taking it slow.” She giggles.

“That’s as slow as you’re gonna get, Lilly-pad,” I say, grinning at her.

“I love you, Vinny.”

“I love you too.” I kiss those sweet, sweaty lips and nip at her bottom lip. Fuck, feels good to have her back in my arms.