Torn (Torn Series) (27 page)

I pulled back, grinning at his words, “Care to return the favor?”

He laughed as he flipped me on my back, “Hell yeah I will!”

He sucked and nibbled on my nipples first, until they were tender and swollen with want before using his tongue to slowly glide down my stomach to my core.  I melted into the bed as I felt his tongue flick over my swollen clit. He pushed two fingers inside me and I moaned at the sensations that were running through my body. His tongue quickly replaced his fingers and my body jerked up off the bed at the feeling as he tongue fucked me.

“Logan!” I screamed as I fell apart beneath him. Before I had time to recover, he was inside me thrusting hard and fast. I felt myself building again as I clung to him, my nails leaving marks across his shoulders as he pounded into me. His thrusting became erratic and I felt him shudder as he exploded inside me, taking me with him. He collapsed on top of me as I tried to catch my breath.

“That was so worth waiting all these months for. You’re as incredible as I remember,” he whispered in my ear as he slowly pulled out and collapsed in the bed beside me. He pulled me tight against him and nuzzled my neck, “I’ll always keep you safe. I’ll never let you go, I promise.”

We lay together for several minutes as I let the guilt slowly start to wash over me, realizing the position I had just put myself in. The feeling that I was betraying Drake by sleeping with Logan soaked deep into my skin until I felt like I was drowning in it. I knew that technically I had done nothing wrong, Logan was my boyfriend and this was what was supposed to happen, but my heart told me a different story. It was screaming for Drake and I couldn’t deny it.

The worst part was that it took having sex with Logan again to come to my senses.

I rolled to face Logan, my heart in my throat as I opened my mouth to tell him everything. “Logan can we talk?”

He kissed my nose and smiled before standing, “Yeah, but can it
wait? I have to be at work soon.”

I nodded as relief took over my body. I didn’t have to tell him just yet, I could wait. I felt guilty for not pushing the issue, but I couldn’t really lay everything out for him twenty minutes before he had to be at work.

Logan pulled me into a hug before pulling his clothes on, “You working tonight?”

“Yeah until close and the same thing tomorrow. I won’t have a free evening until Wednesday night.”

He grabbed his keys off the stand and turned to smile at me, “Ok, we’ll talk Wednesday then.”

Chapter Nineteen

And We All Fall Apart

Wednesday never came. Vanessa had some kind of plans and begged me to trade my Friday shift with her. I agreed, but I wasn’t happy with it. Not only was I forced to wait to talk to Logan yet again, but I had a Friday off and no excuse not to go to Drake’s show if Amber asked me. Luckily for me, Amber was so wrapped up in Adam she had barely even texted me throughout the week and I was let off the hook.

             
When Friday evening rolled around, Logan was curled up with me in my bed, helping me to study for a test I had the following Monday. He was an excellent tutor since he’d already taken the class last semester.

“I swear if I look at one more
page my head is going to explode,” I groaned.

We had been at it for over two hours and my brain was passed the fried mark for the week. He gently took the book from my hands and set it on the floor before pulling me into his arms.

“Let’s take a break for a few.”

He leaned down and kissed me with such gentleness my heart melted. He and Drake were so different from each other, Logan so gentle and caring, Drake with raw passion and danger. Why was I laying her
e kissing Logan, yet all my thoughts were comparing him to Drake?

             
He deepened the kiss and started slowly sliding his hand under my shirt and up my stomach. I froze at the touch and pulled away.

“What’s wrong babe?
If we’re going too fast just tell me. I thought after the other day…” he looked at me with concern in his eyes. I couldn’t do this to him any longer.

“Logan,
remember how I wanted to talk to you the other day?”

He nodded but stayed silent.

“Well, there’s something I need to tell you,” I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before opening them to look at him again, “Something happened between Drake and me. Right after we got together I went over to his house to hang out and study for a couple of our classes. Neither of us intended anything to happen, but we ended up having sex. I am so sorry I didn’t tell you, I just couldn’t stand the thought of hurting you. It was an accident.”

H
e froze as he looked down at me, “An accident? What, you just accidentally fell on his dick?” he yelled, his face turning a violent shade of red I had never witnessed on him before. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself before continuing. “Why are you telling me this now?  Why wait all these months and then dump this on me?”

“I don
’t know, I guess I just couldn’t take the guilt anymore, I don’t want to keep lying to you,” I stared into his eyes as I spoke and I could see the storm raging behind them even though he was attempting to stay calm.

“I’m glad you told me Chloe, I want you to be honest with me. I don’t really know what to say, but I’m trying to understand
here. You said this was right after we got together?”

I nodded, feeling more guilt cripple me.

“Ok, well as long as it was just the once I am willing to look past it. I know how confused you were about us then,” He pulled me into a hug as I burst into tears, “What’s wrong Chloe? I forgive you baby girl, I forgive you.”

I continued to sob as I managed to gasp out the few words that would seal our fate. “It wasn’t jus
t then. It happened again a couple weeks ago. I went to his house to try to work things out, because we hadn’t really talked since it happened, and things got carried away.”

I felt his arms
stiffen around me. “You had sex with him two weeks ago? What the fuck Chloe?” he quickly dropped his arms from around me and stood. I was still crying as he continued yelling, “That son of a bitch! He knew you were mine, and he still went after you. Twice! Unfuckingbelievable! I’m going to kill him!” He stormed across the room to the door and threw it open.

I jumped off the bed to go after him,
“Logan! Logan stop! Where are you going?”

He glanced over his shoulder at me as he heade
d for the stairs, “I’m going to teach that bastard a lesson. I knew something was up between you two, I just never thought he would pull that. I never thought you would do this to me! How could you Chloe?” he continued to yell as I chased him down the stairs. All around us, students stopped dead in the hallway and stairs to stare at us as we passed.

“I’m so so
rry Logan, but please just stop,” I reached for his arm but he threw my hand away.

“Stay away from me Chloe, or God help me, I won’t be responsible for my actions.
”

We had made it down the stairs and out into the parking lot and he quickly unlocked his car and jumped in. I tried to open the passenger door, but he kept it locked as he put the car in drive and left black marks as he screeched out of the parking lot. Sobbing uncontrollably, I ran for my own car and quickly tore after him. He went straight to the
bar, knowing Drake would be playing on a Friday night. As soon as I shut my car off, I jumped out and ran after him into the building.

             
Drake was up on stage playing with the band when we entered. Logan headed straight for the stage with me on his heels. Before I could stop him, he jumped up onto the stage and punched Drake in the face. I screamed as I watched Drake’s head jerk back with the force of it and blood started trickling down onto his lips from his nose. The crowd started screaming and the other band members quickly grabbed Logan as he lunged for Drake again.

“What the fuck?” Drake yelled glaring at Logan.

He glanced up and went pale at the sight of me standing in front of them crying and shaking as Logan started screaming at him.

“You stupid son of a bitch! Did you think I wouldn’t find out you’d been fucking Chloe behind my back?” he lunged again and Adam was caught off guard, letting him go. Drake saw him coming and jumped back before landing a punch of his own in Logan’s stomach. Logan grunted and dropped before jumping up and going at Drake again.

“Come on pretty boy, I’m s
tanding right here, come get me,” Drake taunted him.

Logan threw a punch again and Drake wasn’t quick enough to dodge it as it landed in his ribcage. Logan threw himself at him while he was distracted
by the pain and they flew backwards into the drums, sending them flying. I screamed out as they continued to throw punches before Adam and Eric could pull them apart.

Eric pried Drake off of Logan and held him tight as Adam twisted Logan’s arm be
hind his back and held him in a death grip.

Jade, who had been standing on the end of the stage the entire time put her fingers in her mouth and whistled. “That’s it! Grow the fuck up boys, or at least take it outside!”

              Logan looked at Drake with pure hatred in his eyes, “How could you Drake? I asked you that day at lunch if there was anything between the two of you before I went for her. You told me nothing was going on and nothing would. You promised me you would leave her alone and look what happened. You fucked her not once, but twice behind my back.”

             
Drake glared right back at him, “Yeah I did fuck her. Twice because once just wasn’t enough for me and I’d do it again if I could.”

Logan tried to lunge for him but Adam was prepared this time and held tight.

“Alright guys, both of you outside now,” he growled as he held Logan back. He marched him off stage and across the bar to the door, Eric following closely behind still holding onto Drake. Jade and I followed behind them at a distance with her arms wrapped around me, hugging me tight.

When I stepped out into the cool night air I breathed deeply. How had my life come to this? I was almost certain I had already lost Logan, not only as a boyfriend, but as my friend too. And Drake, well I never knew where I stood with him from day one. My insides trembled as Eric and Adam released Logan and Drake and stepped back.

“Alright, you want to kick the shit out of each other, be my guest. We’re not going to stop you, but you guys need to get your shit together. Fighting over a girl is fucking ridiculous and you know it. So do what you want, just get it out and over with before our drums suffer anymore,” Eric growled as he and Adam made their way over to where Jade and I stood. 

Logan and Drake stood facing each other, and suddenly I was afraid they would start hitting each other again. I stepped forward until I stood between them.

“Listen to me, both of you. This is so stupid, like Eric said. This is all my fault and the two of you beating the shit out of each other isn’t going to fix anything. I fucked up, not you two. So if you want to take your anger out on someone, take it out on me. I ruined everything,” Tears ran down my face as I looked at both of them, “You both mean so much to me, and I will never forgive myself for what I have done to you.”

I quickly
turned from them and headed across parking lot to my car. As I got in, I glanced up and saw both of them staring at me with identical looks of pain and rage on their faces.

                The texts started a couple hours after I made it home. First from Drake checking on me, then to both of them apologizing for what happened at the bar. I couldn’t really face either of them at this point, not because of what happened tonight, but because I was ashamed of myself and what I had done to both of them, so I ignored the texts. They were both better than this whole situation, better than I was, and neither of them deserved to be stuck with me. 

Rachel had forgotten some of her stuff at home when she came back from break, so she had gone home to see her parents and grab her things for the weekend, which meant
I had the entire room to myself as I moped and refused to answer their text messages as my phone continued to ding. I grabbed a bottle of vodka from our mini fridge and poured a shot straight. Gulping it down, I poured another and drank it down too. If I was going to be miserable, I might as well do it right.

A few shots later, I was lying on my bed staring at the ceiling as it gently swayed back and forth. I giggled at the stupid ceiling.
Life wasn’t so bad,
I thought as the ceiling continued to sway. I’m not sure how long I laid there laughing at the ceiling before I heard a knock on my door. Giggling like a fool, I stumbled from my bed and slowly made my way to the door. Swinging it open, I saw both Logan and Drake standing in front of me.

I smiled at the sight of these two gorgeous men who had come to visit me, “
Heeeey guys! How are you?” I giggled again as I spoke, “Actually, never mind. You’re both pretty damn fine like always.” I turned and made my way back to my bed and fell on top of it. I glanced back at Logan and Drake when neither of them said a word. They were both staring at each other with concern before turning their gazes to me.