To Love and Obey (13 page)

“About?”

“Tonight.” She let out a small sigh. “About everything that happened.”

“And how does that make you feel?” He asked.

Zerrin carefully thought for a moment. “Enlightened.”

“Oh?” Nick propped himself up with an arm. “Do tell.”

“There are a lot of things I want to explore and discover,” Zerrin felt like a different person already, “I know there’s more to a D/s relationship than just sex; it’s a partnership. I’m curious about it. I want to know more.”

“I’m glad you do,” Nick caressed Zerrin’s face. “It’s going to be challenging, though. It won’t be easy, and I’ll intentionally test you on every level to see if this is what you really want.”

“I really want this, Master,” she nodded, “I want this more than anything.”

“Good,” Nick grinned, “we’ll start your full training tomorrow morning.” He reached over and grabbed another condom out of his bedside drawer. He handed it to Zerrin, who pulled back the sheets and saw her Master’s cock hardened and ready for her. She tore open the condom and slipped it on him before he climbed on top of her again, his cock teasing her entrance. “But for now, let’s continue what we started earlier…”

Eleven

Dear Diary,

The last few weeks have been simply amazing.

After my last entry, I submitted my written assignment. Then a short time later, Master surprised me by getting me out of bed.

He led me to a room in his home that I wasn’t aware of at first. I guess it’s his playroom. It’s where he keeps all the BDSM stuff. He had me get on my hands and knees and he spanked me with a paddle. It was a different feeling from his hand and I actually prefer it, to be honest. He then used a vibrator on me and I must’ve woken up the neighbors. There was no way I could have kept quiet.

Then we had sex a few times. Actually, no. We had sex once where we did it on the couch after I gave him a strip tease. That was hot. Then he tied me up to the headboard. But the last time, though…we made love. There were no restraints, no bondages, nothing. It was just us, our bodies and the moonlight. He kissed me all over my body, paying special attention to my breasts and the back of my neck and thighs. He’s already figured out my “spots.”

And the way he made love to me…my God! His dick is just so thick and long. We held hands, looked into each other’s eyes, and moved together as if our bodies were created specifically for one another. Then afterward, he asked me if I was okay, if I needed anything, if I was warm enough. I don’t know if he had done that with his past girlfriends and submissives, but it felt like he was giving me just a little extra treatment.

Since then, we have set days and times when I fully submit to Him. One day during the weekend and a couple of days during the week. Master doesn’t realize this, but I continue serving Him even when He doesn’t ask me to. I finally got used to doing yoga to the point where I’m addicted to it. I still have my occasional cheeseburger, though I cook at home a lot more now. I don’t even like to drink soda anymore. And I’ve already lost ten pounds! I can finally say I fit a size 12 without lying about it. My goal is to be a size 8. I’m working on it.

Master has really transformed my life in so many ways. I feel like I was lost before I met Him and now I’m found. Is it too soon to fall in love?

Zerrin closed her journal entry and smiled at the memory. There was something magical about the new bond between her and Nick. She hoped she wasn’t reading too much into it. She quickly put on her sneakers. She had fifty push-ups to do.

****

Breathe. Breathe through your nose. Concentrate on the wall. Focus on the air surrounding you. Breathe. Breathe through your nose.

Zerrin was holding steady in the Warrior II pose in the middle of the living room. Her arms were extended on both sides while her feet were spread apart and her right knee slightly bent over her foot. She looked over her right pinky and focused on the wall full of artwork. It was the only thing she could focus on.

Her thighs were burning and her arms were felt like they were being stretched from limb to limb. She had been in the position for only thirty seconds, but it already felt like a lifetime. Her Master had told her she was going to hold the pose for one full minute.

Sixty long seconds. Zerrin had enough after fifteen and she had another forty-five to go.

“This position builds stamina and strength,” Nick spoke quietly as he walked around Zerrin, lifting her arms ever so slightly and examining her pose. “In fact all of yoga strengthens you from the inside out.”

Zerrin wasn’t allowed to talk. Instead she kept her focus on the wall ahead of her as she listened to her Master.

“Remember, every single task and assignment you do is simply for your benefit only, not Mine,” Nick glanced over Zerrin’s body. “You may release the pose.”

Zerrin gently eased her arms down and stepped her feet inward so she could do Mountain Pose. “Release,” Nick quietly ordered and Zerrin complied, “now do Warrior II in the other side.”

Zerrin released a deep breath and spread her feet again. She turned her left foot out, her right foot in and lifted her arms to shoulder height. She once again looked over her pinky finger and focused on the outside view of New York. It was bright and sunny outside, perfect weather to go out and enjoy it, instead of being stuck inside doing another exhausting and painful yoga pose.

“This pose is also teaching you focus and discipline. I know it’s uncomfortable, but eventually you’ll get used to it,” Nick walked around Zerrin and adjusted her arms accordingly. He watched her intently, with his chin resting on a thumb. He concentrated on her eyes and saw how she was struggling to remain steady and focus on the outside view. But he remained hopeful and knew that eventually she would be able to do that pose with no conflicts. “Release your arms.”

Zerrin released her arms. She turned her feet in and stepped them together. She was breathing hard through her nose and her chest heaved up and down. She knew somehow during all of that, it would be worth it at the very end. It reminded her of what her grandmother used to tell her, “You don’t have a rainbow unless you go through the storm first.”

“Kneel with your head down and eyes on the floor. You will remain like that until I further instruct you.” Nick ordered.

Zerrin retrieved her special kneeling pillow and placed it on the floor. She then knelt on it with her head and eyes downcast. Within a short time, she had come to like kneeling on the floor, waiting for His next direction and being near Him at His feet. She was never on the floor very long and hoped maybe one day, Master would extend her time there. She could mediate and focus on pleasing Him and her perfecting her role as a submissive.

“Open your eyes and rise up,” Nick ordered and Zerrin complied. “Lay out the clothes you want to wear and I will examine them to see if they’re to my liking. If they are, I’ll leave them alone. If they’re not, I’ll put something else on the bed for you to wear instead. When you shower, shave every body part. I only want hair on your eyebrows and your head. Everything else is bare. When you’re done, come see Me.”

“Yes, Master,” Zerrin hurried upstairs.

Nick listened for the shower to turn on and he went upstairs to examine Zerrin’s clothing she picked out for the day. It was jeans and a plain t-shirt. He searched her overnight bag for something else and found a rainbow-colored top. He chose that instead for her. He loved how colors complimented her skin tone and wanted her to wear more of them.

Their relationship had blossomed into something beautiful, even magical. Sure, he’d had sex with Whitney and Stacey, but that was purely physical. Every time he made love to Zerrin, he was opened to something new and wonderful. Their lips met repeatedly, passionately and deeply kissing as they met throughout the night, pleasuring and exploring each other with their mouths and hands. Zerrin surrendered her body and soul to him as Nick opened himself to monogamy and commitment with someone he considered his equal.

Was he in love? Nick wasn’t sure about that. Sure he had a profound affection and appreciation for Zerrin, much stronger than what he had for any of his other submissives. He would admit he only wanted to be with her and only her. But in love? That was something foreign to him.

****

“Today, we’ll be going over how you are going to serve Me,” Nick instructed to Zerrin outside on the balcony. After Zerrin did her morning workout, she met with Nick for breakfast. Now He was continuing His submissive training on her. “How you are going to act in public, private, around friends and family and other situations. Are you ready?”

“Yes, Master,” Zerrin nodded.

“At school, I’ll be Professor D’Amato. In public, I’m Nick. If you sense my tone has changed, you will address Me as Sir.” Nick explained. “In private just the two of us, I’m Master or Sir when we’re getting ready to do a scene. In private among our respective friends and family, I’m Nick or whatever name you choose to call Me.”

“Baby?” Zerrin smiled. “Would I be allowed to call you,
baby
, Master?”

The way Zerrin said baby rolled off her tongue and it sounded so sensual, Nick felt his cock twitch in his jeans. “Yes, that’s allowed,” He maintained his composure. He cleared his throat and continued. “When you are here, you are to serve Me. You are to be kneeling with eyes down, until I address you. You will have a special pillow you will use to kneel to protect your knees. You will begin all of your sentences with ‘May I?’ You will cater to My needs, asking Me what I want and what I need before you think about yours. You will give Me a full body massage once a week when you spend the night here.

“Your clothing will be pre-approved by Me. If you want to change anything about your appearance—clothing, hair, makeup, physical assets—you need My permission first,” Nick started back inside the home. “Follow Me.”

He led Zerrin back upstairs to the playroom. He opened up French doors and revealed a walk-in closet. Zerrin’s eyes widened as she looked at all of the implements on the walls. From floggers to paddles to whips in various sizes and shapes. Another shelf had many sensory deprivation toys from masks, ball gags, and plugs. Zerrin looked carefully at one particular instrument. It was a silver vibrator attached to a box with several small black pads. She was scared yet intrigued.

“After I use an implement on you, you will take care of it. You will wash it off and place it back on its hook or place in this room. And before you place it back, you will give it a small kiss.” Nick instructed His submissive. “Any questions?”

“This, Master,” Zerrin pointed to the vibrator, “what is this?”

“Ah, yes,” Nick walked over to the shelf with the vibrator, “this is the silver bullet. It’s not for everyone, and you have to be in a certain mind frame to use it. It’s a form of electro stimulation.”

Zerrin scanned her memory. She recalled seeing that as a yes or no question on the contract and she swore she answered no. She silently pouted. She wanted to try the
silver bullet
.

Nick noticed the new interest in Zerrin’s eyes. There was a little bit of a question in them but there was more interest and desire. “Are you interested,
tesoro
?”

“I’m curious.” Zerrin blinked to remove the thoughts out of her mind. “I’m just curious.”

Nick leaned in closer to His submissive and whispered in her ear. “You know you’re allowed to change your mind about what you want and what you don’t want?”

Zerrin’s tongue darted out to quickly moisten her lips. “Yes, Master.”

“Good. I just want to make sure you know that,” Nick smiled. “Remember you’re the one that calls the shots here. I just facilitate your wants, needs, and desires.”

“I know, Master,” Zerrin smiled, “I just have a lot to take in.”

“I don’t expect you to know everything off the bat and there are some things you will forget. It’s okay. It’s a learning process and I’ll guide you along the way,” Nick smiled, “but this is not a test on what you need to know or what you’re going to be graded on. This is something you’ll do for the rest of the time we’ll be together.”

Forever?
The question popped in Zerrin’s mind and glared in front of her face. It was her weakness—confusing how a man was in bed with how he felt about her. “Thank you for the knowledge, Master,” she chose her words carefully.

“You’re welcome,
tesoro
,” Nick smiled warmly at her, “but let’s have a fun day today. I’m going to take you another special place I hold near and dear to me. I think you might like it.”

“Oh?” Zerrin was curious. “What is it?”

“The Boundary.”

Twelve

The Boundary was a BDSM lifestyle club located in an unassuming brick building in a historical part of New York. Inside it boasted a large kitchen, reception area, and separate quarters for the group’s monthly activities. Members could rent part or all of the building for a reasonable price for weddings, receptions, and other special events.

Nick told Zerrin to dress down for that afternoon’s meeting, but she didn’t quite grasp what he meant. She took a chance and wore simple jeans paired with a black tank top and heels. She put her hair in a ponytail and wore her signature glasses. Looking at herself in the side-view mirror of Nick’s Mercedes, she wondered if she wore
too
much clothing.