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SERENITY
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HELL IS ON THE WAY
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In those ten seconds, my whole life flashed before my eyes.

He turned around as he was being dragged away, still smiling, and waved back. I just grinned. My life had come full circle. Now I was the poor, unfortunate-looking wretch, and the mother was talking about me when she said, “Don’t stare!” And in the innocence of that little boy’s eyes, I saw myself…before all the hateful messages, the bad information programmed into our minds that tells us what’s ugly and what’s beautiful, what is in and what is out, how to feel, what to feel, and who we should want to love and to fear and to hate. Now the circle has closed and I feel like maybe my life will make a little more sense to me—and maybe to you.

So as this pen runs out of ink and the pages swallow up my last words, I feel content. In my life as a prankster, a lover, and an artist, yet another plan has come together. I know if you’re still reading you must have felt something, and if I’ve given you a glimpse through my distorted lens, then maybe we can both agree that life is wonderful and beautiful, no matter what. Don’t believe the lies of the beautiful people; believe in yourself instead.

I look forward to more lessons, and maybe, just maybe, if we cross paths somewhere, anywhere, you will tell me that this book made you feel something differently than before.

I’m gonna put down this pen, pick up my camera, and guitar and go out and change the world…

Are you with me now?

—NIKKI

TRIPOD GIRL 2
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Goodbye My Friends
Sixx:A.M.

Piles of roses at my feet

Friends and lovers gather around me

Whisper farewell one by one

Clear their conscience as they surround me

Close your eyes, you will be okay

No remorse and no regrets

For what I did and what I’ve said isn’t

Life lived right at the edge

And when it’s not you know you’re dead

So goodbye my friends

To hell with the sorrow

We have made amends

It’s time to say

Goodbye my love

By this time tomorrow

It will be the end

Goodbye my friends

Doused my youth in gasoline

Lit a match and laughed while it’s burning

Righting my wrongs word by word

All the lessons I’ve been learning

Close my eyes and I will be okay

No remorse and no regrets

For what I did and what I’ve said isn’t

Life lived right at the edge

And when it’s not you know you’re dead

THIS IS GONNA HURT, the new album by Sixx:A.M.

Go to
www.sixxammusic.com
for more information.

Sixx:A.M.
This Is Gonna Hurt
painting by Kevin Llewellyn

Tune into Nikki Sixx’s SIXX SENSE on your local radio station

Monday through Friday from 7:00
P.M
.–Midnight.

Tune into the Nikki Sixx’s THE SIDE SHOW COUNTDOWN on your local radio station on the weekends.

For more information, local radio station listings, or to listen online please visit

www.SixxSense.com

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Credits

Cover design by P. R. Brown

Cover photographs by Nikki Sixx

Cover painting by Kevin Llewellyn. “Nikki Sixx”. 2009. 40” x 30”.
Oil on panel. Collection of Nikki Sixx, Los Angeles.

THIS IS GONNA HURT
. Copyright © 2011 by Nikki Sixx. All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. By payment of the required fees, you have been granted the non-exclusive, non-transferable right to access and read the text of this e-book on-screen. No part of this text may be reproduced, transmitted, downloaded, decompiled, reverse engineered, or stored in or introduced into any information storage and retrieval system, in any form or by any means, whether electronic or mechanical, now known or hereinafter invented, without the express written permission of HarperCollins e-books.

FIRST EDITION

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data has been applied for.
ISBN 978-0-06-206187-4

EPub Edition © MARCH 2011 ISBN: 978-0-06-206189-8

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