The Union Quilters (2 page)

“All the other soldiers have families and livelihoods too,” Dorothea pointed out, as she had the first dozen times the proud and protective housekeeper had expressed that opinion. “They can’t all stay home. Nor could Mr. Nelson both advise the president on matters of state and look after things around here.”

Mrs. Hennessey dismissed that with a wave of her hand, as if to say a smart man like Thomas Nelson could figure a way around the impossibility of being in two places at once. “All I know is, you don’t want him to go any more than I do, and he wouldn’t, if only you’d tell him about your condition.”

Dorothea nearly dropped the bundle of food she had packed so carefully. “How did you—” But of course. Every Tuesday, Mrs. Hennessey did the washing. She would know that Dorothea was late. “You must not tell him. Promise me. It’s much too early.”

“Of course I won’t breathe a word. It’s not my place.” Mrs. Hennessy gave her apron a vigorous tug, then hesitated, brushing off imaginary crumbs. “But if telling him would change his mind—”

“He might go anyway.” Thomas believed the Union cause was just and noble, and he was not a man to sit safely at home while other men risked their lives for principles he held sacred. “Would you have him go into battle worried and distracted?”

“I wouldn’t have him go at all, and neither would you.” Mrs. Hennessey regarded her sharply, her blue eyes red and puffy from tears. “You and your parents, and all them folk from Drowned Farm—”

“Thrift Farm,” Dorothea amended mildly, out of habit. As a child, she had lived with her parents and brother in a community of Transcendentalist Christians who had been enlightened ethicists and philosophers but poor farmers. Though the farm had been lost to a flood years before, obliging Dorothea’s family to move in with her cantankerous uncle Jacob, even newcomers to the Elm Creek Valley, like Mrs. Hennessey, considered it a fine subject for jokes.

“Pacifists, each and every one of you,” Mrs. Hennessey declared. “Pacifists and abolitionists. You might as well be Quakers.”

“Might as well,” Dorothea agreed, setting the bundle of food beside the rest of the gear Thomas had left near the front door, wishing she could remember what she had forgotten to pack for his long and dangerous journey away from Two Bears Farm.

She found her husband in Abigail’s room, standing silently beside her crib, stroking her soft, downy hair with a touch as light as a feather. She watched him from the doorway, his slim, wiry frame as familiar to her as her own limbs, his sandy hair boyishly thick, his beard neatly trimmed, bearing only a few threads of gray. His round spectacles caught a narrow shaft of sunlight that slipped between the drawn curtains. Blinking back tears, Dorothea came up behind him, wrapped her arms around his waist, and pressed her cheek to his back between his shoulder blades.

“I’m tempted to wake her,” he murmured, clasping Dorothea’s arms with one hand, resting the other upon Abigail’s head, as pretty and fine as a porcelain doll’s. “To say a proper good-bye, to hear her laugh one last time—”

“It won’t be the last time you hear her laugh.”

“I know, but my little baby will be gone by the time I return. She’ll be walking, talking, a proper little girl rather than a babe in arms.”

Dorothea almost blurted out her precious secret, but she had lost a baby early once before, and she was thirty-one, rather mature to be carrying only her second child. She could not stuff one last heavy burden of worry into his pack just before he set out. “The sooner you win this war for Mr. Lincoln,” she said instead, “the younger she’ll be when you come home.”

“I’ll get right to it, then.”

Dorothea tightened her embrace. “There’s no hurry.”

He laughed softly, amused by her quick contradiction. “We can’t miss the festivities. You and your friends worked too hard to make sure we had a rousing send-off.”

“It was mostly Gerda’s doing,” said Dorothea. “Anneke too.” Anneke Bergstrom was one of Dorothea’s few friends with cause to celebrate that morning. Her husband, Hans, had no plans to enlist, and since he had never become a naturalized citizen after immigrating to the United States from Germany, he could not be drafted if the state failed to meet its recruitment quotas with volunteers. Gerda Bergstrom’s emotions, however, were surely conflicted. Though she was likely relieved that her brother would be safe, she was thoroughly and irrevocably in love with Dorothea’s brother, Jonathan, who intended to enlist as a regimental surgeon. The grand farewell in front of the courthouse in Waterʹs Ford was intended to rally the men’s spirits before they set off for Harrisburg to enlist, but perhaps it would also serve to stoke the women’s courage. Preparations for the men’s departure had occupied their time and thoughts for two weeks, but after the last notes of fife and drum faded and the banners and bunting were taken down and put away, many long, lonely, empty days would stretch ahead of those left behind.

“My modest beloved,” said Thomas dryly, turning to embrace her. “Always giving the credit to others.”

“The rally was Gerda’s idea.”

“Yes, but you organized the ladies of the town, assigned tasks according to their abilities, kept everyone on schedule, and negotiated more than one truce between squabbling parties. I think Mrs. Hennessy perhaps chose the wrong Nelson to send to Washington City.”

Dorothea smiled, wistfully, at the often-discussed suggestion, wishing once again that Thomas could go to Washington rather than to war. “I organized the ladies of my sewing circle,” she acknowledged. “They organized their own neighbors and sisters and friends. I didn’t do everything on my own.”

“The ladies of this town would accomplish little outside their own homes without you to lead them.” Thomas laced his fingers through hers and kissed the back of her hand. She loved his hands, their strength and tenderness, the farmerʹs calloused palms and the scholar’s ink-stained fingertips. “You have a gift, my dear. Use it well. With their men gone, many of your friends will be at loose ends. You could encourage them, help them to be industrious—”

“Yes, I certainly will,” she choked out, fighting back tears, forcing a smile. “I’ll be as stern a taskmistress as I was once a teacher. I won’t allow any of my friends a single idle moment to waste in worry. When you men return, you’ll see how well we women managed in your absence, free at last of the yoke of male dominion.”

His eyebrows rose. “You make me afraid to leave you.”

“You may not recognize our town when you return, so marvelously will we transform it in your absence into a feminine utopia. When the war is over and you tally our accomplishments, you will no longer deny us the vote.”

“You know very well that I could deny you nothing.”

Then don’t go, she almost asked, but she knew her arguments would not persuade him now where they had failed before. Though he considered himself a humanist, he did not share her philosophy of nonviolence. He was willing to fight and sacrifice his own life if necessary to defend those he loved and to protect the noble principles he held most dear. Dorothea was prepared to give her own life on those same grounds, but she would not take anotherʹs life, and that was where their opinions diverged. What she dreaded most of all was that Thomas would not survive the war, but after that, what she feared most was that he would return to her entirely changed by the violence he had seen—seen, and inflicted.

Sighing, Thomas bent to kiss Abigail’s cheek and led Dorothea from the bedroom, leaving the door ajar. Mrs. Hennessey met them at the foot of the stairs, red-eyed, and gave Thomas a fierce hug. “I’ll say the rosary for you every night,” she vowed. “God bless and keep you safe from harm.” He thanked her quietly and asked her to take care of his family while he was away. She pressed her lips together and nodded before fleeing for the kitchen.

With a heavy heart, Dorothea helped Thomas gather his pack and provisions. She followed him to the barn, and as he hitched up the horses, she suddenly remembered. How could she have forgotten something so treasured, so essential to his comfort?

“I’ll be right back,” she gasped, hurrying back to the house. She startled Mrs. Hennessey, who sat at the kitchen table with her head in her hands, weeping openly, and raced upstairs, her heeled boots clattering on the wooden staircase. At the foot of their bed, she threw open the lid to the steamer trunk Uncle Jacob had bequeathed her and withdrew a quilt she had packed away for the summer. She draped it over the bed, sparing only a glance for the painstakingly arranged triangles and squares of Turkey red and Prussian blue and sun-bleached muslin, some scraps carefully saved from her household sewing, others shared by a dressmaker friend and others among her sewing circle. She folded the quilt in half lengthwise, quickly rolled it up into a tight bundle, and tied it off with a wide length of ribbon she had been saving for a hatband. When she returned outside, Thomas had the horses ready and waiting. He watched, silent and perplexed, as she placed the quilt into the back of the wagon with his pack and provisions.

“It’s the Dove in the Window,” she said, climbing onto the seat beside him as he gathered the reins. “I know it’s your favorite.”

“It’s yours as well. I shouldn’t take it.”

“It’s hardly my favorite. I prefer our wedding quilt and the Delectable Mountains I made for my uncle. But even if it were, I would rather you had it.”

He shook his head. “It’s too fine to take on the road. It could be soiled or torn or lost. Likely the army will issue us sturdy blankets with our uniforms.”

“And if they don’t, or if those blankets are delayed?” Dorothea countered. “You’ll be grateful for this quilt when winter comes, even if you can’t appreciate it now.”

“I do appreciate it, all the more so because I recall how hard you worked on it. Think of the conditions we’ll face—”

“I am thinking of the conditions you’ll face.” She felt wretched, helpless, but she fought to keep her voice even. “Take the quilt. It’s not much to carry, and it’ll comfort me to know that it’s keeping you warm when I can’t.”

He fell silent, his eyes searching her face. “Very well.” He chirruped to the horses. “You’re right. If I don’t take it, I’ll regret it later.”

Unwilling to trust herself to speak, she nodded and pressed herself against him on the wagon seat, heartsick, resting her head on his shoulder, imagining she could feel the warmth of his skin upon hers, his arms around her. She longed to lay her head on his chest, pull the quilt over them both, and sleep, sleep until the war passed over them like a thundercloud, holding the worst of its torrent until it cleared the mountains.

 

After her sons finished their chores, Constance sent them back outside to the pump to scrub their faces and necks and behind their ears before they changed into their Sunday suits. She never let them go into town unless they were as clean as a whistle and dressed in their best. The Wrights were a respectable family, decent and hardworking, and if they needed to dress twice as fine as every white family in the valley to prove that point, she would do it. She wouldn’t give anyone cause to look down on her boys, not when ignorant folk could invent plenty of fictitious reasons on their own.

She paced from the kitchen to the front room, calling up the stairs to the attic bedroom George and Joseph shared, to urge them to hurry, picking up darning and setting it down again, restless, keeping busy so she wouldn’t have time to sit and think. She checked Abel’s pack again, though of course nothing had fallen out or otherwise changed since the first five times she had checked it that morning. She wrung her hands, closed her eyes, and took a deep breath. Abel wanted to fight and would be restless and unhappy to stay at home while the battle raged on, and she knew better than anyone in the Elm Creek Valley that the cause was just.

At the sound of the boys’ shoes on the attic stairs, her eyes flew open. She forced a smile as she turned to face them. “Why, don’t you look fine,” she said, straightening George’s collar, smoothing a wrinkle on Joseph’s suit coat. Usually the boys basked in her praise, but now they merely nodded and murmured, “Yes, ma’am,” their voices subdued, their dark eyes solemn. Suddenly, Joseph blinked furiously as if he were fighting back tears. His elder brother, all of eleven years old, nudged him and shot him a look of warning. Joseph swallowed hard and looked at the floor, clutching the banister.

“It’s gonna be all right,” Constance assured them with more confidence than she felt. “He won’t be gone long. You know what a crack shot your father is, especially with that powerful new rifle. He’ll take out any Rebels in firing range before they have time to load their powder.”

“They really gonna let him fight, Mama?” asked George.

“Course they will,” said Joseph with a nine-year-old’s confidence and innocence. “Didn’t the newspaper say Pennsylvania has to send ninety thousand men? He’s not too old.”

Though Abel was fifteen years older than Constance, he was strong and vigorous and sharp-eyed, and while at forty-seven he would likely be one of the older men to enlist that day, he was certainly not too old to fight.

“They wouldn’t turn him away because of his age,” George informed his brother, “but because he’s colored.”

Joseph’s brow furrowed as he glanced from his brother to Constance and back. “But those colored men from Pittsburgh signed up. Father said so.”

“They guarded a railroad,” George retorted. “In the North. They didn’t shoot at anyone.”

“Hey, now,” Constance admonished. “Don’t you mock their service. That railroad moved soldiers and supplies and a lot more besides, and you’d better believe the Rebels would have been very happy to blow it up. Losing those railroads would cripple the North. Any service to the Union is honorable, whether it’s guarding a railroad or firing a gun or patching up folks like Dr. Granger’s gonna do.”

“Yes, ma’am,” said George, chastened, but uncertainty clouded his dark eyes. He surely remembered the two colored regiments that had formed in Philadelphia earlier in the spring—formed and dispersed when the Union refused to muster them in. Constance wished she could assure him that his father would be allowed to enlist alongside the other men of the Elm Creek Valley, but she couldn’t. Until Abel wrote to her from the soldiers’ camp and described the drills, the marching, the uniforms, she wouldn’t believe that the Union would encourage a colored man to shoot at a white man, even a Rebel.