The Sun and Her Flowers (12 page)

this morning

i told the flowers

what i'd do for you

and they blossomed

there is no place

i end and you begin

when your body

is in my body

we are one person

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sex

if i had to walk to get to you

it would take eight hundred and twenty-six hours

on bad days i think about it

what i might do if the apocalypse comes

and the planes stop flying

there is so much time to think

so much empty space wanting to be consumed

but no intimacy around to consume it

it feels like being stuck at a train station

waiting and waiting and waiting

for the one with your name on it

when the moon rises on this coast

but the sun still burns shamelessly on yours

i crumble knowing even our skies are different

we have been together so long

but have we really been together if

your touch has not held me long enough

to imprint itself on my skin

i try my hardest to stay present

but without you here

everything at its best

is only mediocre

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long distance

i am

made of water

of course i am emotional

they should feel like home

a place that grounds your life

where you go to take the day off

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the one

the moon is responsible

for pulling tides

out of still water

darling

i am the still water

and you are the moon

the right one does not

stand in your way

they make space for you

to step forward

when you are

full

and i am

full

we are two suns

your voice does to me

what autumn does to trees

you call to say hello

and my clothes fall naturally

together we are an endless conversation

when death

takes my hand

i will hold you with the other

and promise to find you

in every lifetime

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commitment

it was as though

someone had slid ice cubes

down the back of my shirt

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orgasm

you have

been

inside me

before

-
another lifetime

god must have kneaded you and i

from the same dough

rolled us out as one on the baking sheet

must have suddenly realized

how unfair it was

to put that much magic in one person

and sadly split that dough in two

how else is it that

when i look in the mirror

i am looking at you

when you breathe

my own lungs fill with air

that we just met but we

have known each other our whole lives

if we were not made as one to begin with

-
our souls are mirrors

to be

two legs

on one body

-
a relationship

you must have a

honeycomb

for a heart

how else

could a man

be this sweet

if you got any more beautiful

the sun would leave its place

and come for you

-
the chase

it has been one of the greatest and most difficult years of my life. i learned everything is temporary. moments. feelings. people. flowers. i learned love is about giving. everything. and letting it hurt. i learned vulnerability is always the right choice because it is easy to be cold in a world that makes it so very difficult to remain soft. i learned all things come in twos. life and death. pain and joy. salt and sugar. me and you. it is the balance of the universe. it has been the year of hurting so bad but living so good. making friends out of strangers. making strangers out of friends. learning mint chocolate chip ice cream will fix just about everything. and for the pains it can't there will always be my mother's arms. we must learn to focus on warm energy. always. soak our limbs in it and become better lovers to the world. for if we can't learn to be kind to each other how will we ever learn to be kind to the most desperate parts of ourselves.