The Queen's Handmaid (26 page)

The roofline of the palace stretched ahead of her, a half wall of protection between its floor and the open air. The city of Jerusalem lay at her feet, vast and glittering with yellow torchlight under the colder sparkle of the stars. She walked the edge, listening to the night. In front of the Temple only a few torches flared, and the Mount of Olives was a wavy purple line across the sky.

“Lydia?” A silhouetted figure perched on the half wall shifted toward her.

“David! What are you doing out here?”

He turned back to the city with a shrug. “Nothing.”

He had been like this since Jericho. At odds with himself and the world.

Lydia walked to him, stood alongside for a moment, then impulsively climbed to the wall and sat, legs dangling over the edge as his did.

David glanced at her seated position, then up to her face, a glint of his old self in his eyes, but the light soon went out.

They sat in silence except for the lonely roll of cart wheels against stone somewhere below, and the snorts of animals in some distant pen.

“Cold and beautiful, isn’t it?” David’s voice sounded empty, hopeless.

“Are you still working in the gardens?” She would try to distract him from his dark thoughts.

He snorted. “Pulling weeds and picking flowers like a slave. Is this what I have worked for all these years?”

“Were you so much happier as Aristobulus’s manservant?”

“At least I had the respect of those downstairs. But I cannot blame them for tossing me out into the gardens. I did nothing to save him.”

Lydia covered David’s hand with her own. “You bear no guilt.”

She had said nothing to David of what she overheard between Salome and Cypros. He was so angry over what he believed to be an accident. If he knew the truth, there was no telling what he might do. But if anyone bore guilt, it was her.

She braced her hands against the hard stone and studied the tan roofs beneath the black sky. Would not think about blue skin, nor muddy Nile water.

“If they are going to keep me in the gardens, perhaps I should simply go home to Nazareth. Become a shepherd.”

“Is that what you want, David?”

“No, it is not what I want! I want to build things.”

She narrowed her eyes at him, laughing. “Build things?”

He sighed, as though a secret had been let out. “With stone. I want to build things with stone. I have so many ideas. Drawings—” He broke off and looked away.

“David, do not be ashamed of it! It’s a wonderful thing to create something of beauty with your hands.”

“Well, it will never happen. I should have been apprenticed years ago. Instead, I am here. And rather than building something that would improve our land, I am serving the man who would consume it for his own pleasure. And wondering if there is to
be any justice anywhere, whether we will ever be anything but Roman chattel.”

A breeze lifted Lydia’s hair and carried the odors of the city with it, animal dung and cooking smoke. Familiar, homey smells and yet here above the city, they were both so far removed from anything like family. They had only each other.

She swung her legs out over the open space, and a desire to tell him secrets of her own built in her heart.

What was happening to her? First her revelation to Mariamme of the pendant, and now the scrolls?

But something was stirring, she could feel it. Her vow in Jericho. The discovery of Alexandra’s matching discs, the frightening threats of Salome. A danger, a shift in what was to come. Words invaded her thoughts like a prophecy.

“You will need your friends.”

She had long believed herself friendless. Why did she resist opening herself to people? She could never believe anyone truly cared to listen to her thoughts or see her heart. Now, for the second time tonight, she felt the inner push, like someone’s hands on her shoulders prodding her over the roof ledge, the terrifying urge to leap.

“There is something I want to tell you.”

He was barely listening, his attention on the city below where neither belonged.

“David, it is important.”

He turned dull eyes on her.

She clasped his cold hands.

His expression grew troubled. “What is it, Lydia? Has something happened?”

Yes, too many things. Where to start?

She focused on their joined hands. Began with Egypt. With Samuel and his furtive teaching of a young, abandoned servant girl growing up in the palace without a family.

And she told of the night of his death, in halting, emotion-choked words, and of the scrolls, even now hidden in her bedchamber, that told of a Messiah who would come to reign over Israel forever. Of the Chakkiym, who never appeared on the Day of Atonement, despite her faithful waiting. She told it all, her gaze never leaving their hands.

He did not say a word through the telling.

When she had finished and raised her head, she found him openmouthed, eyes shining with unshed tears. “Lydia.” One whispered word, but in it all the hope of a nation.

A chill stole over her, raising the hair on her arms, the back of her neck.

She shook her head. “I do not know why I was chosen to play this role. It would have been better if it had been someone like you—”

“No. No, HaShem, blessed be He, knows exactly whom He chooses and why. This is your destiny, Lydia, from the time Samuel found you and began your teaching. What other Egyptian orphan had such training in the ways of the Jews?”

She pulled her hands from his, suddenly too chilled to remain on the wall, and stood.

“I will help you, Lydia.”

She smiled, her own eyes clouding.

He swung his legs over the wall and joined her. “We will find the Chakkiym together. We will deliver the scrolls that will save Israel.”

He was so important to her. Too valued. And his youthful
confidence restored some of her own. She took a deep breath and nodded.

The grate of a cart rolling to a stop outside the palace doors drifted up to them. David peered over the edge, then took a step closer to lean farther.

“Isn’t that—?” He inclined his head and waved Lydia forward.

A man had alighted from the cart and was directing two slaves to remove crates from the back.

David glanced at her. “Isn’t that the manager of the Jericho palace, Simon?”

What? Lydia looked over the edge, heart stuttering.

As though he sensed himself being watched, the man lifted his head toward the roofline.

Even from three stories above, Lydia recognized the angular jaw, the set of his shoulders, the smile. He raised one hand in greeting.

Her own hand rose in response.

Simon had come to Jerusalem.

Twenty-Three

L
ydia forced herself to a slow walk from the darkened roof to the street level of the palace. By the time she and David reached the leafy front courtyard, Simon stood inside the atrium, commanding slaves to work faster bringing cases and crates through to the kitchen in the back of the palace.

He stopped in mid-instruction when he saw Lydia and broke into a smile.

Warmth spread through her.

He nodded to them both. “David. Lydia. I trust you are both well.”

Lydia crossed the tiled courtyard and clasped his hands. “What are you doing here?”

“I sent for him.” Mariamme strolled from the smaller of the palace’s two dining chambers. She caught Lydia’s eye and winked.

Lydia pulled back from the friendly greeting. Why had the queen said nothing earlier? It was no wonder that Mariamme had given her the mild warning, however, if she knew Simon was already en route from Jericho.

Mariamme gave Simon a polite bow of the head. “Welcome, Simon.” She turned to Lydia and David. “When I saw the way Simon ran the palace staff in Jericho, I knew his talents were being wasted in a palace where we only visit. I sent for him to manage the palace here in Jerusalem.”

Lydia’s pulse settled down to a steadier rhythm and she smiled in agreement. As though the queen needed her approval.

“But I am glad you are both here.” Mariamme drifted sideways to a wide bench at the base of a red column and lowered her heavy frame to sitting with a sigh. “I will soon be confined to my bed to await the baby’s birth, and then to recover.” She rubbed a hand over her belly. “Lydia, I will have little use for you for a while.”

Lydia started at the queen’s words, feeling a stab at being unneeded.

Mariamme held up a hand. “But I have been thinking. About where you could be even more useful.” She raised her gaze to the courtyard and the second-level balconies. “My husband has an insatiable appetite for construction, as you know. But while he erects palaces and walls, aqueducts and harbors, around this land, he has no eye for the refinements of his buildings. This palace has structural beauty, perhaps, but none of the softer side of adornment.” She smiled at Lydia. “All but one chamber, that is. My own.”

Simon cleared his throat. “I would guess that Lydia had something to do with that?”

Mariamme glanced sideways at him. “You seem to have taken her measure already, Simon, in the short time of your Jericho acquaintance. Yes, you are correct. And so while I am confined to rest, I want you two to work together again, as you did the night of . . . the night of the banquet in Jericho.” Her eyes clouded for a moment, but she recovered quickly. “Lydia, you will give Simon
your ideas. Simon, whatever Lydia needs, from supplies to slaves, should be arranged.”

Lydia glanced at Simon. Would he resent the immediate interference before he’d even settled into his new role? But he was nodding with Mariamme and seemed already to be making mental plans.

“My lady?” Lydia pulled David forward from where he had been hovering behind. “Since our return to Jerusalem, David has been working the gardens. But I think he would be put to much better use working in the palace, overseeing any repairs or renovations in structure. He has a builder’s eye and talent.” Or at least she assumed he did.

Mariamme did not look at David, almost as if she were unable. He was only two years younger than Aristobulus and had been her brother’s manservant. “Whatever you want, Lydia. David, you need not return to the gardens. You will answer to Simon.”

“Yes, my lady.” His chest puffed out with the eager words.

Mariamme stretched and pressed a hand to her lower back. “And now I believe I am ready for bed.” She stood and started toward the wide front staircase, then paused and looked over her shoulder. “Lydia?”

“I am coming, my lady.” Apparently Mariamme had forgotten her earlier assurance that she would find a slave to attend her tonight. Lydia gave one backward glance to Simon, who leaned against the trunk of a small palm, watching her exit with a pleased expression. Further conversation would have to wait for morning.

And by the morning she already had a hundred plans for the palace, conceived while she lay awake through half the night, alternating between ideas of paint and fabric, visions of bronze discs and pendants, and thoughts of Simon.

Perhaps he had been awake most of the night as well, for she found him already established in the palace manager’s small room off the kitchen, no trace of the servant who had been in the position previously. The small window, cut high in the wall, faced the rising sun and bathed the room in yellow, sparkling off dust motes in the air. Simon’s dark hair was mussed as though he had not slept, waves curling at his temples where he had run a hand through.

He turned at her entrance and extended a hand to a chair beside his desk. “Good morning.” A tray of soft breads, tan and crusty, and a comb of golden honey sat on the desk, and the room smelled of fresh bread.

She slid into the chair, a bit breathless. “I am excited to work with you. Thank you for being willing.”

He raised an eyebrow. “It is probably due to your success with the Jericho banquet that I am here at all, so I should be thanking you.”

“I have so many ideas—”

“Ho! Already? Shall I take notes?”

She grinned. “Perhaps you should.”

The day passed quickly, filled with strolls around the palace, pointing and exchanging thoughts, then a return to Simon’s chamber to sketch out details and make lists. They worked well together, each feeding the other’s creativity and organizational skills. Lydia warmed to the task, feeling more useful than she had in months, and Simon hailed her ideas as inspired.

Another day passed as the first, and then another. In the sheer joy of working alongside Simon, doing what she loved, Lydia nearly forgot about the pendant she wore under her tunic and Mariamme’s promise to ask her mother about the matching
discs in her chamber. Her desire to locate the Chakkiym and rid herself of the scrolls before Salome took any more action against her abated.

Lying on her bed on the third night, she forced her thoughts back to Samuel’s task with a twinge of guilt. How could she have let another day pass without moving forward?

But working with Simon had been so . . . lovely. She laughed to herself. Would any other palace staff believe it so? He was passionate and principled, and too often his desire to set things right ruffled feelings. But with her, he was different. He treated her ideas with respect and never directed her actions as though she were his servant.

She rolled over, pulling the bedcovering to her chest in tight fists. It did no good to think these thoughts. She was the queen’s principal maidservant, a position coveted by every servant woman in the country. As such, she would serve the queen alone all her days, becoming her most trusted ally. The maidservants of royal women became almost like mothers or sisters to their queens, and their loyalty was never divided. There was no room for men in such a life.

Besides, what was she thinking, even opening herself to the possibility? Had she learned nothing in her twenty-four years? When had there been anything but rejection, abandonment, and good-byes in her life?

She fell asleep still clutching the bedcoverings and vowing to begin her search for the Chakkiym in the morning.