Read The Present and the Past Online
Authors: Ivy Compton-Burnett
âAnd do you expect me to answer it?' said Ainger, leaning back.
âYes,' said Mrs Frost.
âWell, I will not disappoint you. I will specify the shape, as Kate expresses it. It is to be that of the former mistress.'
âSo she is to be allowed access?' said Kate.
âThat is the word,' said Ainger, in sympathy with it.
âAnd what a word!' said the general man, finding himself less so. âSo this is what education does for you.'
âIt might have done more for us,' said Kate's assistant. âWe might be in houses of our own.'
âThe damp and cramp would be your own too,' said Halliday. âThey wouldn't be anyone else's. Look at Mrs Frost, presiding at her table as if she were under her own roof.'
âMust you look at me?' said the latter, with her eyes down.
Mrs Frost was a short woman of fifty-eight, with a figure that expanded from shoulders to hips, a flat-featured, ruddy face, and large, shallow-set, hazel eyes, that seemed to fall before they revealed their expression. Thomas Halliday was a lean, wiry man
over sixty, with a long, scraggy neck, cheeks at once leathery and pendulous, indignant, greenish eyes and a habit of throwing back his head in token of disgust. He had been in the household for nearly fifty years, and had advanced from page-boy to general man and advanced no further. There was something about him that disqualified him for personal attendance on the family. Mrs Frost had been asked if she knew what it was, and had replied simply that she did.
âYour place was given you out of esteem for your parents,' he said to the under-housemaid. âYou were fortunate to get it.'
âBut was it a mark of esteem for me?' said Madge.
âEsteem may come,' said Ainger. âPersonally I have no complaint.'
âAnd the family did not know you apart from any other lad.'
âThey did not, Halliday. But they know me now. I think they would say so.' Ainger leant back in his chair and threw one leg over the other in the manner of his master.
âI am content to be what I am,' said Halliday. Would not you say the same, Mrs Frost?'
âNo,' said the latter.
âAnd a contented mind is a continual feast.'
âAnd the only feast you will get,' said Madge. âSo it is as well to be satisfied with it.'
âA continual feast,' murmured Mrs Frost, glancing at the stove behind her. âI should have a contented mind.'
âWhat more do I want?' said Halliday.
âYou don't want anything more,' said Madge. âThat may be why you don't have it.'
âWhat better work is there than ours? What kind is more respectable or accorded more respect?'
âMost kinds,' said Mrs Frost.
âWhat kind accords more respect to other people?' said Madge.
âI do not grudge it,' said Ainger. âIf you think I do, you mistake my attitude.'
Madge gave a laugh that seemed to be meant to be heard, and turned her eyes about her. Her large, blue eyes and full-coloured face seemed more insistent than herself, and she was more aware
of them. Her figure was short and ungainly, but of this she did not allow herself to be aware. Her superior had a tall, trim form, small, in consistent features, small, round, dark eyes and an air of general acceptance of things. Madge was thirty and Kate forty-six, and both looked about their age. They were companions rather than friends, and would have parted without distress.
âWell, has the master one wife or two?' said Madge. âIt seems that the higher you are, the more you can have. Solomon had hundreds.'
âAnd was said to be the wisest man,' said Kate, in a serious tone. âBut I doubt if the master is wise in transcending the number.'
âThe higher you are, the more you can have of a good many things,' said Ainger.
âAlways wanting more, more, more!' said Halliday.
âI cannot imagine you a wife, Mrs Frost,' said Kate.
âNeither can I.'
âHaven't you ever been one?'
âYou can see what I have been.'
âAre you ashamed of not being one?' said Madge, laughing.
âYes,' said Mrs Frost.
âMr Halliday ought to propose to you.'
âAre you sure he has not done so, Mrs Frost?' said Ainger. âYour secret would be safe with me.'
A boy of fourteen entered the room, came to his seat and began at once to eat, as though to cover some consciousness.
âWell, Simon,' said Halliday, without expression.
âWell, my lad,' said Ainger, with one of authority and threat.
âHe has put on his page's suit,' said Madge, in a tone of mild excitement.
âHow long is it since you discarded it, Mr Ainger?' said Kate. âThe very same suit, if I remember.'
âYou do remember,' said Mrs Frost.
âTwenty-four years,' said Ainger. âTen years before the boy was born.'
âSo the world was prepared for his entry,' said Kate, sighing.
âHe has polished the buttons!' said Madge.
âThe only improvement he could make,' said Ainger. âAnd 1 never thought it was one. It drew attention to the garb.'
âIt is comical,' said Kate, in acquiescence. âBut it suits Simon better than it did you. He looks more at home in it.'
âThat is what he is. He is born and bred for what it indicates.'
âAnd what were you born and bred for?' said Halliday.
âI was bred for that, Halliday. I make no secret of it. I was born for something else, and I can feel I have attained it.'
âPut into words what you have attained.'
âAh, it is difficult to do that for you, Halliday,' said Ainger, leaning back with an appraising eye on his colleague.
âSimon left school yesterday,' said Madge.
âIt is not very difficult to leave something off,' said Kate.
âDid he find that knowledge was power?' said Mrs Frost.
âMoney is power,' said Simon. âAnd you get money by working.'
âNot much for your kind of work,' said Ainger.
âIt is the same kind as yours.'
âNow remember this,' said Ainger, leaning towards him. âYou know nothing about my kind of work, and will always know nothing. It is hidden from your eyes.'
âAnd from a good many people's,' said Halliday.
âWhen Mr Ainger rises further,' said Madge, âwe shall remember that we sat at the same table with him in his humble days.'
âAnd he will remember your doing so, Madge,' said Ainger.
âWill he return to claim one of us?' said Mrs Frost.
Madge looked towards the window with wide eyes.
âWhomever I married,' said Kate, âI should not forget my early associates.'
âYou would be too weighed down and worried to remember anything,' said Halliday. âYou are better as you are.'
âTalking of marriages,' said Kate, âthe master's situation invites inquiry.'
âI can meet it,' said Ainger. âI have his confidence. He feels that a mother's feelings command respect. I am a confidential servant.'
âFor what that is worth,' said Halliday.
âIt is worth something to the rest of us,' said Madge, âas we are the other kind.'
âEveryone is a servant in his way,' said Halliday. âThere is no essential difference.'
âOnly an actual one,' said Mrs Frost.
âIt is hard to see how anyone in Mr Ainger's situation can rise higher,' said Kate. âIf there was any method, we might all resort to it.'
A bell sounded in the passage and Simon became alert.
âAnswer it, my boy,' said Halliday. âYour moment has come.'
âYes, answer it,' said Ainger. âI don't want to insist on the prerogative.'
Simon did so and returned flushed and satisfied.
âI did what they wanted. They said they hoped I would do well.'
âWell, it is to their advantage,' said Kate. âBut they confront their own demands.'
âAnd fulfil them,' said Ainger. âYou see it when you are in contact.'
âWill the two Mrs Clares become acquainted?' said Kate. âThat is the question I have been asking myself.'
âAnd what answer did you give yourself?' said Ainger.
âIt seems there is bound to be encounter.'
âWhat is it to do with us?' said Halliday.
âAs much as anyone's affairs are to do with anyone else,' said Ainger. âThat is, nearly as much to do with us as our own.'
âAnd a cat may look at a king,' said Kate, with a sigh.
âI do not see myself in that light,' said Halliday, âand I have reason to think other people do not. Talking of being a cat, Ainger, we might as well say a laughing hyaena.'
Ainger leant back and did his best to establish the comparison, and Halliday opened his mouth and did no more. The bell rang again and was answered by Simon, who returned and crossed the kitchen with a withdrawn expression.
âThe ash-trays forgotten,' said Ainger, idly.
âBy whom?' said Halliday.
âBy me. I have other things to think of.'
âThe master's affairs,' said Kate. âIt is true we are dependent on you for them.'
âYes, he and I often indulge in a masculine talk. I am asked for my opinion. But I sometimes know better than to give it.' Ainger shook his head.
âAre you not allowed to disagree?' said Madge.
âIt tends to be complex, Madge. As must arise from contact.'
âThe trays were not polished,' said Simon, as he returned.
âThey will be in future,' said Ainger. âAnd by you. Say “Yes, sir”.'
âYes, sir,' said Simon, without reluctance.
âHe promises,' said Kate, resting her eyes on Simon.
âIf I were the mistress,' said Madge, âI would not consent to meet the first Mrs Clare.'
âYou would do what your place required of you,' said Ainger. âYou betray your unfitness.'
âWell, fitness for it would not be much good to me.'
âIt would not help her,' said Kate.
âI can imagine Mrs Frost in any place,' said Halliday.
âSo can I,' said Mrs Frost. âI have done so.'
âNot that we should like your present place to be filled by anyone else.'
âA sentiment I endorse,' said Ainger.
âI hardly expected this,' said Mrs Frost, looking down.
Simon laughed, and Ainger looked at him sternly.
âThe boy may listen to the talk,' said Kate.
âBut not suggest commentary on it.'
The bell rang once more, and Simon returned from answering it and addressed Ainger.
âYou are to answer the bell yourself, and not always send me.'
âNot always send you!' said Ainger, rising and leaning towards him. âAnswer the bell myself! Answer it myself, did you say? Tell me what they really said.'
âThey said what I told you. It is not my fault.'
âAnswer the bell myself!' said Ainger, his feet moving rapidly. âThat is what you say to me! Say it again, and let me see what they meant by it.'
âI see,' said Mrs Frost.
âSo do I,' said Halliday.
The bell rang again with some force, and Ainger sped from the room as if he also saw it.
âA confidential servant seems much the same as any other,' said Halliday.
âThey may want to make some confidence,' said Madge.
âI suppose they always do,' said Mrs Frost.
âThere is nothing incompatible,' said Kate.
âServing other people can't take us so far,' said Halliday.
âIt must take them further,' said Kate. âIt is to be accepted.'
Ainger returned with a flushed face, humming to himself, and sat down idly in his place.
âFetch me that parcel on the pantry table,' he said to Simon presently.
Simon brought it to him.
âUnpack it,' said Ainger sharply, as if the direction should have been superfluous.
Simon disclosed a box of cigars, and Ainger took it and strolled to the door.
âSo the cigars spend a time with Mr Ainger before they go to the master,' said Madge.
âThere is no need to form pictures,' said Kate.
Ainger returned with some cigars in his hand, sat down and felt for matches.
âA mark of the master's regard,' he said as he lighted one. âI thought it was wise to answer the bell.'
âSo did I,' said Mrs Frost.
âAh, people can't always take your place,' said Halliday, with his eyes on the cigars.
Ainger handed him one, as if in response to a request, and he began to smoke.
âYou haven't reached this stage yet, Simon.'
âNo, and I never shall. It is a waste of money.'
âNot when you don't pay for the cigars,' said Madge.
âWell, that is on some occasions,' said Ainger, âwhen the master feels in a comradely mood.'
âThe parcel was addressed to the master. Why wasn't it taken to him?'
âWas he to unpack it himself?'
âIt wasn't sugar or tea.'
âAnd if it had been, you might have had designs on it yourself,' said Ainger, producing mirth and ignoring it.
âIn all the years I have been in this house,' said Halliday, âI have never had a cigar offered me.'
âNeither have 1,' said Mrs Frost.
âWell, it happens to me sometimes,' said Ainger, watching the smoke rise from his.
âI wonder the master likes to ring for you,' said Madge.
âI don't know that he does. I sometimes catch a hint that it goes a little against the grain. He is in the grip of circumstances.'
âHe has a peremptory hand on the bell,' said Kate. âNot that it is an indication.'
âIt is generally the mistress who rings. And with regard to her I have no claim.'
âI have a respect for the mistress.'
âAnd she would expect it¿ Kate, and is entitled. But my bond is with the master. And it would not be with both. There are reasons.'