The Mistress of Black Grove Manor (104 page)

Sarah ran until her legs ached.  She wasn’t even sure where she was, but when she came to a stop she looked around.
It looked like she was down town.

Panic set in.  She didn’t know how she had gotten here, or how to get back.  She didn’t know Jen’s address. 
But I have her number.
And what if Jen didn’t answer?  Then she’d be stuck calling until she got an answer- who knows how long that would be.

Gott, please give me strength.
She prayed as she headed towards a payphone.  Tentatively she reached for the phone and picked it up.  It rang twice before someone picked up.

“Hello?”

Sarah’s heart skipped a beat.

“Dylan.” She let out a soft breath.

“What’s wrong?”

“I… don’t know where I am.”  Sarah took a deep breath trying to focus herself. “I mean, I’m… down town maybe? There are lots of people…”

“Can you see any street signs?”

Sarah looked around.  “Um… Block?  And 13
th
?”

“Alright, just… I’ll be there in a few.”  He didn’t sound happy at all about it.

“I can-” Without another word the phone line went dead. 
He must have hung up on me.
She was going to tell him that he could just give her directions.  Sarah exited the phone booth and looked around.  There was a lot around, but most of it didn’t peak her interest at all.  Most of it looked like clothing stores, and there were some café’s.  Sarah headed towards the closets one.  If Dylan was going to come pick her up the least she could do was buy him a coffee.

Chapter Four

“Danka for picking me up,” Sarah’s cheeks flushed.  She felt so foolish needing Dylan to come pick her up. “I got this for you.” She handed him the coffee she had spent $8 on.  She wasn’t even sure if it would be good, or if that was the normal price for coffee but it seemed a little high if you asked her.  She still payed the price.

“Danka.”  He took the coffee from her and took a sip.

Sarah turned to stare at him with wide eyes. She couldn’t believe that he had just used that word.

“And it was no trouble, I was just sitting there watching TV anyways.”

They turned down the street and Sarah stared out the window, watching as they passed people and stores.

“So,” Dylan cleared his throat. “do you want to talk about what happened?”

What was there to even say?  Sarah took a deep breath.  “I went over there to surprise him,”  She really should be figuring out that it’s a bad idea.  “And he was talking to one of his friends… he’s been lying to me.”

“About what?”

“I… I don’t know, honestly.” She felt silly saying it, but it was the truth.

Dylan made a noise but didn’t say anything else until they turned into a parking lot.  Sarah looked around, the beach was in front of them.  She turned to Dylan, opening her mouth.

“Come on, let’s go for a walk.” He said, opening his door and stepping out of the car without another word. He slammed the door shut before Sarah opened her door and jumped out, running after him.

“Wait,” She called. “Where are we going?”

Dylan held his arm out to her.  Tentatively Sarah took it, allowing him to lead her down to the beach.  Sarah hadn’t been to a beach since she was little.  There was a small lake where they went swimming back home, but it wasn’t sandy or clear- not like this beach was.

“Are you going to break up with him?”

Sarah’s cheeks flushed.  “No.  There’s no need for that, we’re not
actually
together.”

“I thought…” He trailed off, waiting for her to fill him in on the details.

The breeze whipped around them, blowing strands of brown hair from Sara’s bun. “We’re not
officially
together.  See, we’ve known all our life that we were going to be married.”

“You mean, it’s like an arranged marriage?”

“Not… quite.  Growing up, my m-” Sarah paused.
Just use Amish words, he already said he didn’t mind.
“my maemm said that it was like I already knew my role in life.  Like Gott had showed me the second John and I met.  Growing up, playing house… I was his wife.  No one else’s, ever. I was given my path by Gott a long time ago.”

Dylan nodded, like he understood everything she had just said.  “I see.  So you don’t think… that God can change those plans for you?”

Sarah’s brow furrowed as they walked.  She was suddenly very aware of how close he was to her, and his warm arm where her fingers held onto him.  “I don’t see why he would do that.  Do you believe in… God?”  It felt strange to say it the English way. 

“I do yes.  For the longest time, I thought I had my path, too.  I thought I was meant to be alone.”

“You don’t think that anymore?”

“No.”

They walked together in silence for a few minutes.  Sarah watched as people enjoyed the sunny weather and children played in the water.  She felt yarning tug at her gut.  The yarning to return home, or to be a child again. 
Things were much less complicated.
She thought blowing out a deep breath.

Although she wasn’t alone the walk helped to clear her mind, and in its own way it was nice to have someone with her while she walked. It wasn’t until they had made their way across the beach and started to climb a hill that Dylan spoke.  

“So, explain this whole Amish thing to me.”

“What?”

“I mean, I read up on it last night.  Shouldn’t you be, like, married or something by now?  How old are you?”  For a split second when Sarah turned to him he looked worried.

“17.”

“Oh, good.”  Dylan stopped walking.

“Why is that
good?
”  Sarah placed her hands on her hips? 

“Well if you were younger than that, I’d feel pretty bad about kissing you.”

Sarah’s jaw dropped.  She stared at Dylan as he closed the distance between them.  He reached out, his hand touching her waist gently.

“Is it okay for me to kiss you?”

Sarah stared at him blankly.  Her mind scrambled to say something, but words escaped her.  She just stood there. 
Do something!
A small nod.  That would be enough.

And it was

Dylan smiled as he saw her nod, his eyes locked on her and his free hand reached out, touching her cheek ever so gently.  Sarah had never been kissed before.  She had no clue what she was supposed to do- not really.

Dylan’s warm lips touched her gently.  The fingers that brushed her cheek moved back, tangling into her hair as his lips pressed against hers.  His kiss deepened as moan, ever so soft, passed through Sarah’s lips.  Her heart raced as he lips moved against his, returning his kiss.

Dylan pulled away from her.  His eyes sparkled as he placed one more soft kiss on her lips and cleared his throat, stepping away from her as he did so.

Sarah wanted to protest.  Suddenly she wanted him close to her.

“So, this whole Amish thing…”

“Wh-what about it?”

“Well, why aren’t you guys married yet?”

Sarah’s cheeks flushed.  It wasn’t uncommon for someone her age not to be married. “John had some personal issues to deal with last year.”  Sarah turned away from him, guilt tugging at her stomach as she thought of John.  She was supposed to be marrying him and here she was kissing another man! 

“And now? Are those issues dealt with?”

“I believe so…”  Sarah had to admit that she didn’t know.  She couldn’t help thinking about what she’d overheard earlier.  “But there is something he’s not telling me.”

“Are you going to ask him about it?”

“Maybe.”

Sarah knew that she wasn’t his wife, or even his girlfriend, and she had no right to expect him to answer her, but it would be nice to know what he had been hiding from her. 
I deserve that much, don’t I?
 

Sarah turned away from Dylan and made her way up the hill, he followed her silently but she could feel his eyes on her the entire time.  At the top of the hill she sat down, looking out at everything in front of her.  It was gorgeous.

Dylan sat down beside her, reaching out and taking her hand.  Their fingers tangled together. 

Gott…
Sarah thought.
Please guide me.  I am in need of help now more than ever.  I just kissed a man who I hardly know.  He’s an Englisher!
As if that somehow made it worse.
Guide me, please because I don’t know what to make of any of this.  John… John lying to me… him not calling me today… and Dylan kissing me. 
Was it a test? 

If it had been she had failed.  She’d allowed herself to be kissed by him. 

“Excuse me,” A man said behind them.  Sarah turned to see him.  He looked like he was a few years older than her father, with grey hair and big round glasses.  He wore a black spring coat- but more than his looks it was his camera Sarah noticed.  “I couldn’t help noticing you two as you walked up here and I have to say; you two look absolutely in love.  May I take a picture of you two? Just from the back.”

“Uh.” Dylan was left speechless, and so was Sarah.

We look in love?

They weren’t supposed to look in love!  They hardly knew each other!

The camera band swayed in the wind, the keychain moving along with it.  Sarah gasped.  The yellow and green star was something she had seen all her life.

The man turned to her, confusion written all over his face.

“Sir, beg my pardon for being rude but, were you raised on an Amish community? I just ask because your keychain-”

“I was.”  The man cut her off.  He studied her for a few seconds.  “And I’m willing to bet you were as well.”

“Jah.”  Sarah let her nature take over, a soft grin spreading over her lips.  The man returned her grin.

Sarah cleared her throat, realizing she hadn’t given him an answer. “To answer your question, jah you may take a picture of us.”

“Danka, ma’am.”  His eyes twinkled as he spoke. 

Sarah forced herself to turn back the way she had been sitting.  She moved closer to Dylan.  A chill ran down her spine as he reached out, touching the small of her back ever so gently, and high enough to show his respect for her.

Sarah closed her eyes, leaning against his shoulder softly.  She blew out a deep breath of relaxation. 

Gott, why does this feel so right if I am meant to be with John?
  It wasn’t God who answered her, it was Dylan’s voice in her head that made her heart skip a beat.
“So you don’t think… that God can change those plans for you?”

Was it possible for God to change his plans for someone?  Or had one man always been Sarah’s life path?  If it hadn’t been for John she wouldn’t have come here in the first place.  And now, here she was with Dylan. 
How else would we have met?

“Danka,” The man said behind them. Sarah turned quickly to see him standing behind them. “For allowing me to take your picture, and for allowing me to use words I grew up with as a kinner.”

With a nod he left Dylan and Sarah alone.

“What’s kinner mean?” Dylan asked after a couple seconds.

“Child.”

“Oh,” Dylan nodded. “So, do you learn… English in school?”

“My maemm taught me most of what I know.  She was English.”

“She was?”

“She met my deatt while he was working one day, with his deatt.  They ran a furniture shop together. Maemm, and her mother, came in one day to buy a table.  Maemm says that her mother knew the second they maemm and deatt saw each other that they were meant to be.  So every week my Grohsmammi would find an excuse to go there.  Until finally, my deatt asked if they’d like to join himself and his father at an event one night.  Grohsmammi answered before meamm had a chance to.”

“So… it’s not uncommon for… an English person to join your community?  It’s not frowned upon?”

“Nee, it’s not common,” She saw the look of disappointment cross his face, then she realized why he had asked. Her heart did a back flip. “but it’s not frowned upon.  My community believes that Gott has a plan for all of us, and that sometimes he does not work the way you think.  If Gott has sent someone a wife, or husband, who is not from the community we do not judge.”

Dylan nodded, taking it all in.

They spent the entire day up on that hill.  It felt like they had known each other for years by the time they made their way back down and to the car.  The drive home wasn’t long, but they did stop to grab Chinese food for dinner.

“If you’re only going to be here for a little while then you’d best experience the most amazing parts of the English world,” Dylan said as they made their way into the house. “Maybe tomorrow we can do some sightseeing.”

Sarah stopped in the doorway, seeing Jen on the couch.

“Hey.”

Jen gave her a nod. “Hey.  Your boyfriend has been calling for you, it seems like he’s really worried.”

“Oh.”

Sarah felt guilt tug at her stomach.  Jen looked from Sarah to Dylan, as is being able to see right through them.

“I… I’m going to go call John.”  Sarah said, not wanting to face Jen at the moment.

She made her way into the kitchen and to the phone.

“What did you do?”  She heard Jen hiss.

“Don’t get mad please… but…”  She didn’t hear the end of Dylan’s sentence.  She tried, even though she knew it was wrong.  But she didn’t hear him, so she reached for the phone and dialed John’s number.

It rang once before someone picked up.  “Sarah?”  John sounded desperate.

“Jah.”

“I was so worried.  I…” He fell silent.

Sarah waited for him to say something.  Finally, after thirty seconds she cleared her throat.

“There was something you wanted to tell me?”

“Yes,”  He cleared his throat.  “I… I’m not going back.”

Sarah shouldn’t have been surprised, but she was.  She felt her heart drop into the pit of her stomach. 

“I see.”

She tried not to sound as hurt as she felt.  It wasn’t that he wouldn’t be marrying her, it was that he had been her best friend for all her life, and he was leaving. 

“I-”

“Have you told anyone else?”

“No.  I just wanted to tell you, so that you can go back.  I know you never wanted… this.”

Nee.
She didn’t want to leave.  Jen and Dylan… despite the fact that they’d only known each other a little while she would miss them.  They had become friends to her and she didn’t want to lose that.