The Making of Matt (19 page)

“Too easy,” he said, before crashing his lips to my mouth.

Grinning, I created a wave with my hands, splashing his face and momentarily stunning him while I made my getaway. “First one to shore gets to come first!” I yelled, swimming away like my life depended on it. There was no way I could possibly lose.

Until I did.

“How the hell did you learn to swim so fast?” I asked, the sand squishing between my toes as I joined Alex on the shore.

“Splash was my favorite movie as a kid.”

“The Daryl Hannah version or the Amy Yasbeck one? Because if it’s the latter, I don’t think I can be your boyfriend anymore.”

Alex raised his eyebrows, seemingly impressed. “You know your mermaids. You never fail to surprise me.”

He tossed me a towel from inside the tent and I proceeded to dry myself off, noticing half the candles had blown out in our absence. Ducking, I crawled inside the tent. Alex followed and it was as much of a surprise to me as it was to him, to see Ryder had set it up with pillows and blankets, complete with a sprinkling of rose petals.

We lay, damp and naked, facing each other in the small tent. Alex’s curls had dropped out in the water and a rogue droplet rolled tentatively down his cheek. I caught it with my finger, smoothing it across his lips.

“You’d tell me if you weren’t happy, right?” I asked him, running my hand across his chest.

“Where’s this coming from? I’ve never been happier in my life.”

“Just something Ry said earlier,” I explained. “He suggested you might struggle with the fact we come from different worlds.”

Alex sighed and it made me nervous. “I don’t like that I can’t treat you the same way you treat me. I can’t gift you fancy cars, take you to ridiculously expensive restaurants or fly you around the world. But…I’m learning to deal with it.”

“Alex,” I breathed, propping myself up on my elbow and positioning my face just inches from his. “I’ve had all those things for years, and you know what? They don’t mean anything when you’ve got nobody to share them with. Tonight, eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and sleeping for free on a beach, has been one of the best nights of my life. I don’t need that stuff. I only need
you
. You’re everything to me, Alex, and no amount of money can buy that. Plus, fancy restaurants are too pretentious for my taste anyway. Give me a McDonald’s any day.”

“Now
that
I can do.” Alex smiled and it was the most precious sight in the world. “So you intend for us to sleep here tonight? It’s just, I haven’t brought my meds or-”

“All taken care of.”

I still struggled to understand how in all the time I’d known Alex, all the times he’d stayed at my place, I’d never once noticed him take any medication. When I asked him why I’d never seen him he simply replied, “Because I didn’t want you to.” It stung to know he’d actively hidden it from me, but dwelling wouldn’t help us move forward. It was what happened from this point on that mattered and occasionally I needed to remind myself of that.

Goosebumps mottled Alex’s skin as I ran my hand up and down his arm. “You cold?”

“A little.”

Reaching down, I grabbed the corner of the blanket and pulled it up over our bodies. Draping one leg over his thigh, I snuggled closer.

“When we’ve warmed up,” Alex began, twirling a strand of my hair around his finger. “There’re some strawberries calling my name out there.”

“Plenty of time for that.”

“Does that mean you have something else planned first?”

My pulse thudded in my throat and I diverted my gaze away from his eyes. If I looked at him I would’ve lost the courage to speak. “I was thinking it’s about time I find out what it feels like to have a dick in my mouth.”

Alex laughed, took my face in his hands and set a singular soft kiss on my lips. “Well…when you put it so romantically.”

I wasn’t sure there
was
a romantic way to ask someone if you could suck their dick.

“But remember, Matt, no pressure. We don’t have to do anything until you’re ready.”

“Oh, I’m ready,” I whispered, sneaking my hand under the blanket and resting my palm over his cock. Initially soft, it swelled beneath my fingers, twitching as it begged me to explore. “If not a little nervous that I’ll do it wrong.”

“You can’t do it wrong,” he assured, licking a trail along my jaw. “You touching me could never be wrong.”

My mouth found his and we’d kissed so many times now it felt like going home. I relaxed into him, exploring his mouth with my tongue and his cock with my hand. Blood continued to pool in my dick; any more and I was sure it would explode. “Fuck, Alex…”

“Do you have condoms?”

We’d been told that the risk of transmitting HIV through oral sex was low, next to nothing if he didn’t come in my mouth, but no one could provide a one hundred percent guarantee. We decided together that it wasn’t worth the risk, no matter how small. If we took the chance, the possibility of me getting infected would undoubtedly linger in our thoughts and taint the experience. When I took Alex in my mouth for the first time I wanted what I was doing to him, what I was making him
feel
, to be the only thing on his mind.

Breaking away from him, I rummaged through the backpack at the foot of our makeshift bed until I found the array of condoms and lube Ryder had bought.

“Cherry pie?” Alex noted, picking the box of assorted flavors from my hand.

“You want me to use that one?”

“It’s not
me
who’ll be tasting it.”

Oh, fuck
. I closed my eyes, ashamed of the heat that illuminated my cheeks. I scanned my brain for memories and came up pretty sure I’d never blushed before in my entire life.

Alex caressed my beaming cheek with the back of his hand. “Look at me,” he asked. “Just kiss me, Matt. Stop thinking about it. Let instinct take over.”

Blocking out my thoughts, I focused on Alex; his touch, his scent, his heavy breaths. He propped himself up above me, angling his head to the side and deepening our kiss. My breath hitched as his hand grazed my stomach, walking his fingers down to my cock. I arched my back as he cupped my balls, forcing them further into his hand.

Then he pulled away, leaving me breathless as he stared at me, puzzled. “Um, Matt?” I returned his confused look. “What the hell have you done to your balls?”

Shit
. “It was Ryder.”

“
What?
”

“Well technically it was a masochistic redhead from Elle’s salon, but only ‘cause Ry told her to.”

“Again,
what?
”

“Ugh,” I grumbled. “So Ry told me I should get waxed for you. Given his years of gaysperience, I believed him. Turns out the motherfucker was fooling around. Didn’t find that out until I’d almost had my balls ripped clean from my body.”

Alex laughed so hard a tiny tear leaked from the corner of his eye. So I punched him in the shoulder. “Surprised he didn’t send you the video.”

“There’s a video? Man, I have to see that.”

“Alternatively, you could get back to touching my dick.”

An amused smile taking center stage on his face, Alex nuzzled my neck, quickly settling back into rhythm. He was right when he told me to use my instincts. I knew the moment I was ready to take things further; it was when the taste of his mouth no longer seemed enough. I needed more of him.
All
of him.

My hands on his toned chest, I rolled Alex onto his back. I kissed him for a while longer, unable to pry myself away. Needing air, I released his lips, taking a moment to admire the content expression on his face. Tentatively, I crawled up onto my knees, kissing my way down to his crotch. The hair on his thighs tickled my face as I knelt between his legs and peppered kisses on his balls. His hips bucked, making his cock bounce off my nose, and then he slipped the condom packet between his flesh and my mouth.

Looking into his eyes, I tore open the foil, pinching the soft rubber between my thumb and forefinger. He sucked his bottom lip into his mouth, watching intently as I positioned the condom over his glistening tip and rolled it gently to the base. Unsure where to start, I thought back to all the blowjobs I’d received in my life. The best, and most memorable ones, were given by Alex, and I tried to recall the moves he made on me that made me feel so fucking amazing.

I began by sprinkling feather-light kisses along his inner thighs, slowly creeping toward the base of his cock and then up to his tip. I licked my lips, smiling as the sweet taste of the condom pricked my taste buds, although it tasted jack shit like cherry pie. Gathering moisture on my tongue, I hovered my lips over the head of his cock. It pulsated under my mouth, encouraging me. I closed my eyes, concentrating as I enveloped my lips around his tip.

Oh my God…
It didn’t feel surreal, as I’d expected. Sucking him whole to the back of my throat, it felt like my lips were made to do this to him; like his cock had been molded specifically for my mouth.

“Fucking hell, Matt.” Alex moaned as I moved my head up and down torturously slowly.

He gripped my hair with one hand, piloting my speed and gradually increasing it. His other hand snuck under my chin and he massaged his balls, gently tugging at the loose skin. Each time he withdrew from my mouth I’d flick his tip with the end of my tongue, making him writhe and groan. I stopped sucking momentarily when one of his fingers slid into the corner of my mouth. Releasing him with a soft pop, I watched curiously as he bent his knees and circled his ass hole with his moist finger.

“Holy shit,” I breathed, staring in awe as he dipped it inside himself. That instinct I was working with had me pushing his ass cheeks apart with my hands to get a better view as he pleasured himself. Unconsciously, my index finger landed on his hole, lingering there and enjoying the feel of him moving in and out against it.

“Lube,” Alex whispered.

Mesmerized by his finger, I reached blindly for the small bottle, breaking my gaze just long enough to unlock the pump. I drizzled a generous amount onto my fingers and spread them around his puckered entrance. When he withdrew, I aligned my finger with his and followed his lead into his body.

“
Wow
,” I murmured, utterly fixated. His snug hole was hot around my finger which slipped in and out with ease. Pushing his ass into the blankets, Alex removed his own finger and thrust slowly against mine. My confidence growing, I pushed in another, making him cry my name. By complete accident, my fingers curled into a come hither motion as I pulled them out of him and the move caused his entire body to shudder.

Crawling up and pressing my body against his, our heaving chests pounding against each other, I stretched to the side, picking up another condom.

“I’ve never needed to be inside anyone as much as I need to be inside you right now,” I whispered hoarsely into his ear.

“Then do it. Fuck me.”

Falling back on my heels, I made short work of rolling the condom onto my dick. It throbbed in my hand as I drenched it in lube, desperate to feel him suck me into his body. Alex brought his knees to his chest, exposing the place I couldn’t wait to delve inside. I ran the head of my cock up and down the crevice of his ass a few times before nudging at his tight hole. I pushed with my hips, urging the tip barely inside. A guttural moan crept from his throat and I pushed harder, fighting the urge to come as he swallowed my entire length.

I stilled. “Does that feel okay?”

“More than okay.” Carefully, I withdrew to the tip before sliding back in. “It feels incredible.”

He was so tight around my cock, the delicious friction almost unbearable.

“Oh my God…” I paused, grabbing his legs behind his knees and guiding them over my shoulders. “You’re gripping me so tight. You feel fucking amazing.”

Unable to stop myself, my thrusts grew faster, more forceful, until the point I was pounding him so hard his head distorted the material of the tent. “Take it off,” I instructed, pumping his cock in my hand.

A brief flash of hesitation washed over his face before he succumbed and ripped the condom from his body. “Take over. Let me see you come.”

His hand darted to his cock, smoothing the pre-cum that wept from his tip along his shaft. I fell forward, gripping his neck with my hand and supporting my weight with my forearm. “This feels so fucking good,” I growled into his ear before assaulting his mouth with mine as I continued to drive myself in and out of his gloriously tight ass. I’d never felt so deeply connected to another person. Alex was a part of me and I knew, then, that he always would be. He completed me. Without him, I would break into so many pieces I doubted I’d ever be able to put myself back together. “Fuck, Alex, I’m…”

Pleasure more intense than I’d ever experienced shot down my spine before reaching a crescendo in my balls and exploding into my cock. “I’m gonna…”

“Hell yes. Let go for me, Matt. Give me all of you.”

Alex’s fist pounded his dick between our bodies until a jet of warmth coated my stomach. His ass constricted, gripping me impossibly tighter, and sent me spiraling to the point of no return.