“This guy can have anyone he wants. Why does he want me?” She thought. He invited her in and she cautiously walked in. The apartment was big and luxurious. The marble floors from the hallway extended into the apartment and the furniture was a mixture of modern and antique. It was a very classy design and the old and new complemented each other perfectly. He offered her a drink and she asked for vodka with orange juice. Not her favorite drink but she needed something strong. They sat down and he introduced himself and complemented her on her appearance. He was friendly and charming, which was good. They chatted for a few minutes about nothing in particular and both avoided the deal that had been struck in the conversation. After a few minute she was not sure how to proceed. Should she take the initiative or was he supposed to? He wasn‟t making a move so she decided she would. After all she was ready to have this over with as soon as possible. She chugged her drink for more courage and put the glass down. Then she started to unbutton her shirt. He put his own glass down and stopped her without saying a word as he got up and led her into the bedroom. There was a king size bed with satin sheets. He took off the unbuttoned shirt and lay down on the bed. She stood there unsure how to proceed and he motioned her to continue. She figured he meant with unbuttoning and she did. She took her shirt and bra off. Then she took her jeans off and stood there in her panties. He motioned for her to approach and she got on the bed with him. He kissed her gently over her whole body but avoided her lips. He was gentle and seemed to do everything right but it all felt so wrong. She started taking his pants off eager to get things over with and he assisted. They had sex and he had made it as pleasant for her as it could be. He hadn‟t even objected when she demanded he‟d wear a condom. After they got done she quickly gathered her clothes and took them into the bathroom with her. She cleaned up and got dressed as quickly as possible eager to get out of there. When she got out of the bathroom Antoine had gotten dressed again as well and he thanked her gallantly. This was so weird to her. Nothing of it made sense. He had demanded to have sex with her but it had seemed like he had put forth more effort into making her comfortable, which was not possible, than she had put into making him more comfortable. She quickly said goodbye and hurried out of the apartment and to the elevator. She rode the elevator down and blew past the doorman completely ignoring him. She just wanted to curl into a ball and cry. She got into the car with Jake and told him to go and let‟s get home as soon as possible. For a moment she considered asking for the coke but decided against it. She didn‟t want to talk at all even to ask for the drugs. Jake tried to ask her how it had gone and if she was ok but she ignored him while staring out of the passenger side window at the city going by; staring away from Jake. She needed to process it all. They rode in silence all the way home and when they got back to Chicago she walked into the apartment and directly into the bedroom and shut the door in front of him before he could enter. She wasn‟t mad at him. After all she had offered to do it. She just needed to be alone. Feelings of the rape came floating up and she lay down on the bed and sobbed. She lay there for several hours until it was getting dark and soon after she cried herself to sleep. How could things that had felt so right have gone so wrong so fast? The next morning she woke up to the smell of fresh coffee. Jake was standing by the bed with coffee and fresh muffins. He had slept on the couch in the living room to give her space and now he was trying to make her feel better. Still disturbed about it all she graciously accepted the peace offering. She took a sip and looked at him. “I‟m so sorry” he said looking very guilty, “I shouldn‟t have let you do it.” “It‟s done” she responded coldly, “nothing we can do now but move on.” He nodded “I‟m working on something to get the money. It shouldn‟t take more than two weeks” he said. “Ok” she responded. They sat in bed and had breakfast. He said he would stay with her but she told him he should spend his time better. He shrugged, grabbed his coat and left. She sat in bed for a long while sipping the coffee and nibbling on the muffins. Later that day she went outside and found Anisha in their usual spot. It was funny how they never seemed to visit each other and only hung out in that one spot on the steps to their rundown apartment building but the weather was getting better and better so there was no need to go inside. Anisha looked at her and asked what was wrong as she saw Kim‟s gloomy expression. “I did it” she said, “I did the dude.” Anisha looked at her in shock “I‟m sorry” she said, “trust me it will wear off in time. It gets easier too” she added. Kim looked at her with a stern face and said “it doesn‟t need to get easier. It was a onetime thing.” “I hope so girlfriend” Anisha said with a certain amount of doubt in her voice. “I‟ve got another joint. Want to share it?” Anisha asked. Kim nodded. That would help she thought. They talked for a long time and for the first time Anisha‟s job did not come into the conversation. They hugged as they split and they both went into their own apartments. Jake came home early and looked pleased. The deal he had been working on was going well he said. Another week or two and they would be back on track. Then he would finally get honest work and they could move on. Kim felt relieved. It helped knowing that the one time would be the only time. The week went by quickly. Jake had to leave for the week again getting the deal setup but not really disclosing what it was about. Kim thought it was probably better not to know. If it would get them back on track she didn‟t care. They talked on the phone a lot again and it reminded her about when they had first gotten together. She snickered at the thought. Here she was sounding to herself like they had been together for years but really they had only met less than half a year ago. But it started to feel good again and Jake seemed to be doing well and was cheerful on the phone. He asked her how she was doing all the time and more and more she answered that she missed him, which was true, she did miss him. He told her he had more to do and wouldn‟t be back for a little longer. He had been gone for almost a week now. They were really close with rounding things up and he needed a few more days. He would send her some money. If this would finally be the end of this life then she could wait a few more days. Four more days passed. The phone calls with Jake grew longer and so did the talks with Anisha. Finally when she talked to Jake that night he told her he would be home tomorrow. She cheered and told him how much she missed him and he told her he missed her too. The next day Jake got home around noon. They flew into each other‟s arms and hugged as tight as ever. “How did it go?” she asked. “Great” he said, “The day after tomorrow I have to meet with a local guy on Halsted. He is a local pimp with some connection. He has a money man lined up. Once that is set we are ready to go and I‟ll get paid.” Kim tried to remember where she had heard about Halsted, than she remembered. Anisha had told her it was one of the few places they could still work without too much hassle. The city had been cracking down on prostitution and most areas had been cleaned up. Halsted had become the place for street walking. The next day they spent the morning together in bed and in the afternoon Jake had some more things to take care of. She wished he would include her more but she figured he just didn‟t want to bother her with anything after all she had been through in the last month. She went outside and Anisha was waiting for her. “Hey, girl” she said, “I thought you weren‟t going to come.” Kim smiled and sat down. Anisha offered up her joint and Kim declined. She told her about the deal coming together tomorrow at Halsted. Anisha looked up “That‟s where I usually work. You should tag along with Jake and say hi. He must be meeting with Travis there.” “Who‟s Travis?” Kim asked. “He‟s kind of a pimp but doesn‟t really have much in the works of girls. He mostly takes on girls from other pimps. They pay him twenty percent of the take and he holds the money for the girls while they are with the Johns. You don‟t want too much cash on you while you are with a John. That‟s just asking to be robbed. But the main part of his service is that he has a group of local youths running around the area. They can spot a cop a mile away and warn him. He then warns the girls that use his services and it keeps them out of jail. I‟ve used him for the last year now and I‟ve only seen two of his girls arrested and they were too hard up for a fix that they didn‟t listen to him when he told them to clear out.” Kim blinked and thought how whacked this all was but to a lot of people here it was a way of life. They hadn‟t thought about it any differently then she had about the social rules at school. “If you tag along tomorrow you should dress the part” Anisha told her, “It‟s best not to stick out like a sore thumb in an area like Halsted.” “What if someone asks me?” Kim asked with a shudder. “You‟ll be with your man” Anisha said, “They leave you be for the most part and the Johns don‟t like to draw attention to themselves so if you just say no they will move on.” Kim though about it for a bit and had to admit that she was intrigued about it all. Also she had been confined to her apartment with Jake gone so much that she was eager for a break from it. That night as she and Jake watched some TV he told her that he was meeting Travis at five the next day. Travis had great contacts and the money man would be there and it was as good as done. He asked if she wanted to tag along and go out and celebrate afterwards. She nodded and the next day they got up late and Jake left to do more of whatever he did during the day. Kim got some groceries and hung out with Anisha again. She told her she was going to tag along. She had heard so much about it and though not interested in ever doing anything she had gotten curious about the scene. “Don‟t expect any glamour” Anisha has said laughing. At four she went inside and got changed. She wore the short white skirt and pink top she had worn for Jake a while ago. It was sexy but not sleazy and it should allow her to blend in she thought. At four thirty Jake was back to pick her up and together they drove to Halsted. Once there he parked and they got out. Jake introduced her to Travis. Travis was a sleazy looking guy in his mid to late thirties. He wore a lot of gold rings and chains and wore jeans and a Chicago Bulls Jersey that was way too big for him. It had been Pippen‟s shirt in a championship game he boasted. Kim said hi and then spotted Anisha. She looked much different. Usually Anisha wore baggy jeans and a t-shirt or sweatshirt depending on the weather, now she was wearing a really tight spandex neon pink skirt with fishnet stockings and a tiger print tube top and clearly no bra. Kim excused herself and went to say hi to Anisha. Anisha looked her over and nodded in approval. “Not bad” she said smiling. Kim looked at her and joked “I think I failed in not sticking out if that is the dress code here.” Anisha laughed “Never under estimate the convenience of spandex in this profession” she joked back. “You look great” she said, “Think of it as going for the high school cheerleader angle. Guys dig that.” Kim shuddered and laughed off the thought. They chatted as Jake talked to Travis. An old green Taurus stopped next to them with the window rolled down. “How much?” came the question through the window of the car. Kim stood frozen not knowing how to react. Anisha quickly leaned into the car and said “Fifty for you, honey.” The guy leaned over the passenger seat and looked past Anisha. “Not you” he said irritated, “Her” pointing at Kim. Kim was paralyzed with dread. Anisha looked at Kim and quickly told the guy “You can‟t afford her.” He grunted and moved on and Kim and Anisha had trouble containing their laughter. For some reason the situation had seemed comical. Then she noticed the discussion between Jake and Travis was getting heated and Jake was getting very animated. She walked back to him trying to figure out what was going on and to calm him down. As she got closer she heard him say “What do you mean he‟s not coming?” he yelled at Travis. Travis told him that the money man had found a different investment and all his money was tied up. There was nothing he could do. “What does this mean?” Kim asked. “This means the deal is off and I can‟t get Antoine‟s money for him” Jake said angrily while pacing nervously. “How much do you owe Antoine?” Travis asked nervously. “Three grand, due in two weeks” Jake said irritated, “But I‟ve run out of options. I can‟t get the money and Antoine is going to kill me” he added. Travis looked at him puzzled and then said “Man, only three grand. That piece of ass there with you can get that here in a week.” Jake looked at him with fury in his eyes and paused for a moment then balled his fist and stepped toward Travis ready to punch him in the face. Kim quickly jumped between them and stopped Jake. “He‟s right, it‟s our only option” she said trying to calm Jake down. Looked at her and said “you are not hooking” with a stern voice. “It‟s no different than what I did with Antoine except this will actually fix things” she heard herself say shocked at the fact she was suggesting to become a prostitute. “I don‟t want you to” Jake said. “If I don‟t, you will end up dead. I got us into this mess and I will get us out” she yelled at this point more irritated with him telling her what to do than shocked with what she was suggesting.