The Lost Flying Boat (9 page)

Bull called that he should tell that to the navy.

‘Apart from which' – Wilcox's coughing sounded as if his chest was full of inmates trying to get out of a jail that had caught fire – ‘the Sunderland was the most beautiful flying boat that ever was, and a treat to work on, as everybody knows. There was space, and two of each for the crew.'

‘Sometimes,' said Nash.

‘The lovely old bag was big enough to live in.' Wilcox said he would make a house out of one, fly to another place when he got browned-off, which would be pretty often, you can bet.

Appleyard staggered out to be sick, and by the time he came back the laughs had turned to jeers at Wilcox's idea. The black waiter brought a dozen more bottles. Armatage denied the supremacy of the Lancaster, and gave his vote to the Spitfire. There were tears on his cheeks – or was it because his spilt beer had ricocheted from the table? The good old Spitfire saved the best country in the world from the iron heel of Germany. It bloody had – say what you like. If they hadn't kicked the living shit out of the Messerschmitts at the Battle of Britain, where would we have been today, mate, eh?

Maybe the Spitfire wasn't the most renowned plane of the war, I said, and that if given time to consider the matter at leisure – as I had while staring at the beer label and sending its words out in morse – I would decide that the Sunderland qualified for that honour. This led us to compare the performance data of the Sunderland with the vital statistics of the Lancaster, and from that point, all things being equal, we went on to correlate the relative sizes of the three planes and, knowing that the Spitfire was the smallest, and the Sunderland the biggest, embarked on a passionate discussion as to how many Spitfires could be parked on the wings of a Sunderland.

Out came pencils and bits of paper. The number increased as more gin was swilled and beer put back. In our cooked brains even the exact wingspan of the Sunderland wasn't known, never mind the distance from leading edge to aileron. Yet it did not matter, because the Sunderland seemed to grow into the size of the earth itself, and what had peeled off from the original discussion as a technical dispute now became metaphysical. If you folded the wings of Spitfires and packed them close, they would make a platform for other folded Spitfires to be parked on top, and so on, and so on, thus building a tower of aircraft until you reached heaven or the structure capsized and sank without trace.

The sombre picture brought on silence, until in the extended right-turning part of the L-shaped room where Bennett and Rose were having their own pre-flight drink or two, I heard the Skipper say: ‘How do we go, Navigator?'

‘In a straight line, Captain' – walking between two carpets.

‘There's no such thing. It's either a fixed Mercator course, or the shortest distance on a Lambert Conformal. A rhumb line isn't the shortest distance. A Great Circle is, but can't be a straight course, now can it, Mr Rose?'

‘Don't mix me up, Skipper.'

Bennett opened his box of imperfect Partagas cigars and slowly covered a specimen with white cigarette paper. ‘A straight line is the longest distance. A curved line means less miles, but who steers a curved line? And who goes the shortest way? The earth is a funny place when you want to get from point to point. Does your life from cradle to coffin go on a rhumb line or a great circle? Both have advantages. A rhumb line uses more fuel, but a great circle gets you there sooner. A rhumb line is less trouble: you set course and arrive at a certain time, providing there's no wind, which there always is. On the other hand, a great circle needs more planning, as well as work to make sure you stick to it. It's six of one and half a dozen of the other, I'm afraid, because on either system you're at the mercy of malign tides and tricky winds, and the homely pull of the earth.'

‘I'll make your course straight enough to do a great circle,' Rose slurred, ‘which is the best of both systems. Or the best of this one, and that's a fact – if facts are needed.'

‘They are,' Bennett said. ‘Believe you me.'

‘I'll work out the convergency angle, and calculate the different distances.'

‘You've been to the right school. The only bogey will be the weather.' Leaning over the table to unroll his chart, Bennett splashed whisky across the southern half of Madagascar. ‘Whether it's summertime or not in that land of glaciers and fjords, the weather is the thing. And the compass needle swings fifty degrees out of true.'

Rose turned his face away. ‘The left hand as usual won't know what the right hand is doing.'

‘Does it ever? It's immaterial.' Bennett poured whisky for his navigator, and more for himself. ‘Only the planispherical stars will give anything like true direction, if they can be seen. And only the configurated scratchmarks of land the actual position, providing it can be found.'

‘If only the earth wasn't round,' said Rose. ‘How simple life would be! I'd never think about the end, if there was a danger of falling off the edge.'

‘You're alive as long as you don't fear dying,' Bennett told him. ‘Life is full when you aren't aware of spending your strength freely and yet are doing so. You get the best out of life when you act knowingly, and still don't know. Being close to revelation is never close enough, though all of us were near it when candle flames burned bright over a city in the process of devastation. In the total trips more than six hundred tons of bombs were unloaded, making nearly a hundred tons for each crew member. The Rubble Churners. The Fire Raisers. The Second Fronters. God's appointed Wrath.'

‘There is no guilt where I come from,' said Rose. ‘The Knights of the Apocalypse rode in squadrons of Lancasters to excoriate evildoers. I've seen too many perfect knights go down to feel pity for those on the ground.'

‘A thousand Lincolns were being prepared,' Bennett said, ‘to create a desert from a former empire and call it quits.'

‘What the world's come to's no business of mine,' said Rose. ‘The world made me what I am.'

‘I rather think it was your parents,' said Bennett. ‘When you begin to scratch, you itch. I'm drunk, Rose, and don't like it. The life force under the skin crawls and irritates. In the gap between moments you mindlessly scratch, and unwanted words are born. You resent the disturbance that has no name. Where it comes from you neither know nor care, but because you stare and don't shout doesn't mean its hooks aren't there. All in all, I'd like to stick a label on that door that opens onto the maelstrom. I hope the lock's secure.'

‘So do I,' said Rose.

Wilcox built up the empties till his tower was a foot from the ceiling. His hand shook on lifting a full glass to drink, but when he set a bottle one stage higher his grip was steady and eye accurate, a liverish tongue pressed into acquiescence by his teeth to stop the coughs breaking.

The structure collapsed, and we each caught an armful without any bottle cracking, though it seemed strange that our laughter didn't shatter one or two. A clergyman and his wife, a red-faced farmer, and an old English colonel had already evacuated themselves from such aircrew behaviour. Nash remarked that it felt like the pre-ops mood in the worst days at the end of 1943, when kites were dropping out of the sky like coffins. You didn't even have the heart to go into the bog for a last wank before take-off, superstitious that it might be the last. This over-loud recollection drove the final spectator into the lobby.

Beyond the point of no return, the waiter came with a bucket to empty the ashtrays. He put six more bottles on the table. Bull said it was his turn to pay, and fell down unconscious, clutching the money. Nash thought we had better make our final choices, and I told him I now plonked for the Lancaster, but how final is final?

‘More final than you think.' Wilcox looked as if he ought to know. ‘The die is cast. I'll take the Sunny Sunderland.'

Which left Nash with the Spitfire. ‘I'm the tallest, so get the smallest. Always the bloody same.'

We sat on the stairs singing: ‘One step forward, two steps back', a bitter kind of boozy refrain, which set us grabbing ankles to stop further progress up or down. But we got to our doors and said goodnight. There's a purpose in hilarity. We were in it together, bespoke tragedians stitching our lives like figures dangling in a paperchain. But in that split second before oblivion I wondered what it was that we were in.

18

Because the oil supply to the port inner engine was giving trouble, it was not until two mornings later that we sat on either side of the motorboat to go on board for departure. Even so, we wouldn't be airborne for twenty-four hours, till a favourable weather front moved in to see us off.

I felt as pasty as the others looked, a mush-breakfast of coffee and buns like mortar in my stomach. Nash was so stricken by a fit of belching that at one splintering emission Appleyard commented that if he carried on like that he'd come apart at the seams.

Choppy water was like the shifting tiles of a grey roof. I had never been seasick, but felt there was no point in worrying about what might not come. I suppose we all thought the same. ‘If it gets rough, hard-tack will be on the cards,' said Wilcox.

Bennett wore an overcoat, an airforce type cap and leather gloves. ‘You'll organize the mess and serve proper meals, even if you've as many sealegs to get used to as a centipede.' Noticing that Bull shivered in the wind, he told him that without a jacket he was improperly dressed, a phrase we found quaint, under the circumstances. ‘You didn't think you'd need one? On this trip you're not only paid to do as I tell you, but to think for yourself as well, when necessary. Anyone who can't work that kind of balancing trick won't be much good to himself or others.'

Bull did not need a sermon to point out his mistake. He winced at the stricture, and spat into the water. A red band beyond the harbour showed the sun, up but not apparent. An area of cloud fused into pink, then merged with a seam of muddy grey. We turned an arm of the inner mole, and were covered with spray as the boat winged from side to side. The horizon was cut from view by the white port-holed flank of the flying boat rising above the lap of water, and Wilcox interrupted his early morning cough to say that you couldn't go on board without feeling a lift at the bottom of the stomach. ‘Every time, it's as if you've never been on before.'

Appleyard likened the experience to a woman he hadn't seen for a while. ‘I might not be expecting to go to bed with her, but I'm happy to be close, all the same.'

Sun broke up the rolls of cloud, and Bull smiled at its warmth, out of the hump into which the skipper had put him. ‘Dropped a clanger, didn't you?' Nash said in a low voice.

‘I often do,' Bull answered. ‘Law and Admin's a bit strong on this trip, though, ain't it?'

The boat went under the chill of the starboard wing. ‘It's going to be a hard one,' Nash said, ‘that's why.'

A gull swung by the float and looked in at the hatchway, as if knowing that our twenty-five tonner, on coming to life, would lift to heights it could never attain. Or was it scouting for choice leftovers? ‘He's more like the bloody adjutant than the old skipper,' Bull grumbled. ‘I only came for a good time.'

‘You'll end up with a good dose, the way you've been going on.'

When he borrowed money from each of us we couldn't understand how he had spent up so quickly, till he said he'd been and found a nice black woman to pass the time with. We accused him of shooting a line, because you couldn't do such a thing in this country. But Nash, who knew better, called in disgust: ‘He'd even shag an oak tree felled by lightning.'

Our pinnace nosed under the wing towards the tail, high out of the water. We were going a circle, as if Bennett wanted the man at the tiller to give us a last view until disembarking at Kerguelen. The bird caught the wind and came round again, button-eyes staring side-on at floats, hull, stern, wings and engines as if reconnoitring every plate and rivet on the mindless assumption that sooner or later an explanation would appear as to what connection the
Aldebaran
had to earth and sky, thus releasing the gull to fly away with curiosity satisfied. When the bird alighted on the cowling of the inner port engine, Bennett said: ‘Get it, Nash. But don't sink the bloody ship!'

As we swung for the door Nash held a pistol at arm's length for a steady aim. The crack disturbed a feather of the gull's head, causing it to lift, roll along the wing then, apparently, recover and fly away. ‘Just as well you missed.'

‘Scared it, at least.'

‘Can't have it shitting all over the paintwork,' Armatage said. ‘Shit from a white gull peels it off. Why is the shit of a white gull black?'

The boat bounced against the rubber tyres and Wilcox, with a final landbound fit of coughing, leapt in through the hatch. ‘Because they eat black puddings,' Bull said.

‘They don't have 'em in these parts,' said Appleyard.

‘They do,' Bull grinned, ‘and they're lovely.'

Bennett counted us in, the pinnace held firm by Appleyard's knots. Conscious that the holiday was at an end, I went over. We were on watch from now on. Duty was the word, and work our pastime. He called for all hands to get in the kit and last remaining stores. We were sweating. Armatage threw each piece into my arms, and I passed it to Bull. We were allowed one holdall or case, which Nash promised would go over the side if we developed a weight problem. Wilcox smiled when everything was stowed. During the work he hadn't coughed. Bennett climbed the ladder to the flight deck as if going up a monkey-climber in the back garden. There was a smell of petrol and stale food, of diesel oil and seaweed, which gave the kite a maritime personality – dead though it yet was.

Fore and aft, from floor to ceiling, the cavern of the boat's body caused me to wonder why I had waited so long to make its acquaintance. No aeroplane I had been in was so spacious. The cubic footage daunted me as far as getting to know each cranny, yet the size promised comfort and security. The unmistakable smell of a service aircraft, together with the rise and fall of the boat, brought a whiff of sickness as I went up the aluminium ladder. To the right, behind the cockpit, Rose lifted the lid of his navigator's table to discover a loose screw in one of the hinges, and asked Wilcox, at his knobs and levers panel, to lend a screwdriver.