The Lonely City (34 page)

121
‘
SCUM gets around
. . .’: Valerie Solanas,
SCUM Manifesto
, p. 61.

122
‘
When I stopped working
 . . .’: Charlotte Chandler,
Ingrid Bergman: A Personal Biography
(Simon & Schuster, 2007), p. 239.

122
‘
Often I just go where
 . . .’:
People
, Vol. 33, No. 17, 30 April 1990.

123
‘
Just the kind of thing
 . . .’: Andy Warhol,
The Andy Warhol Diaries
, p. 634.

123
‘
A LONELY FORM
 . . .’:
Life
, Vol. 38, No. 24, 24 January 1955.

124
‘
That’s how I express
 . . .’: Barry Paris,
Garbo
(Sidgwick & Jackson, 1995), p. 539.

126
‘
Scottie, what are you doing
 . . .’:
Vertigo
, dir.Alfred Hitchcock (1958).

128
‘
The instant of photographing
 . . .’: Nan Goldin,
The Ballad of Sexual Dependency
(Aperture, 2012 [1986]), p. 6.

129
‘
third gender
 . . .’: Nan Goldin,
The Other Side 1972–1992
(Cornerhouse Publications, 1993), p. 5.

131
‘
I saw the role
 . . .’: Nan Goldin,
The Ballad of Sexual Dependency
, p. 8.

131
‘
I decided as a young girl
 . . .’: ibid., p. 145.

132
‘
I want to make somebody
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
Brush Fires in the Social Landscape
(Aperture, 2015), p. 160.

133
‘
I always consider myself
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
Close to the Knives
, p. 183.

133
‘
In loving him
 . . .’: ibid., p. 17.

CHAPTER 5: THE REALMS OF THE UNREAL

All material from Henry Darger’s memoir derives from Henry Darger,
The History of My Life,
Box 25, HDP.

155
‘
My dear friend Miss Catherine
 . . .’: Henry Darger, letter to Catherine Schoeder (Katherine Schloeder), Folder 48:30, 1 June 1959, Folder 48:30, Box 48, HDP.

156
‘
Saturday April 12
 . . .’: Henry Darger,
Journal 27 Feb 1965 – 1 Jan 1972
, Folder 33:3, Box 33, HDP.

158
‘
The intention consisted
 . . .’: Pierre Cabanne,
Dialogues with Marcel Duchamp
(Da Capo Press, 1988), p. 46.

164
‘
This endless stream
 . . .’: John MacGregor,
Henry Darger: In the Realms of the Unreal
(Delano Greenidge Editions, 2002), p. 117.

165
‘
to play, to be happy
 . . .’: ibid., p. 195.

170
‘
Grahams bank
 . . .’: Henry Darger,
Predictions June 1911 – December 1917
, Folder 33:1, Box 33, HDP.

173
‘
the sense of being alone
 . . .’: Melanie Klein, ‘On the Sense of Loneliness’, in
Envy and Gratitude and Other Works 1946–1963
(The Hogarth Press, 1975), p. 300.

173
‘
an unattainable perfect internal
 . . .’: ibid., p. 300.

174
‘
It is generally supposed
 . . .’: ibid., p. 302.

CHAPTER 6: AT THE BEGINNING OF THE END OF THE WORLD

180
‘
I might as well look
 . . .’:
The Nomi Song
, dir. Andrew Horn (2004).

182
‘
I still get goose pimples
 . . .’: Steven Hager,
Art After Midnight: The East Village Scene
(St Martin’s Press, 1986), p. 30.

182
‘
Everyone was a freak
 . . .’:
The Nomi Song
, dir.Andrew Horn (2004).

182
‘
you were witnessing one of
 . . .’: ibid.

184
‘
He was always thin
 . . .’: Rupert Smith,
Attitude
,Vol. 1, No. 3, July 1994.

185
‘
He began to look like a monster
 . . .’: ibid.

186
‘
A lot of people took off
 . . .’:
The Nomi Song
, dir.Andrew Horn (2004).

186
‘
I remember seeing him
 . . .’: ibid.

187
‘
bodily signs designed to expose
 . . .’: Erving Goffman,
Stigma: Notes on the Management of Spoiled Identity
(Penguin, 1990 [1963]), p. 11.

187
‘
reduced
 . . .’: ibid., p. 12.

188
References to Margaret Heckler and the White House press conference are drawn from Jon Cohen,
Shots in the Dark:The Wayward Search for an AIDS Vaccine
(W. W. Norton, 2001) pp. 3–6.

189
‘
There is one, only one
 . . .’: Pat Buchanan, ‘AIDS and moral bankruptcy’,
New York Post
, 2 December 1987.

190
‘
Then came the sledgehammer
 . . .’: Bruce Benderson,
Sex and Isolation
(University of Wisconsin Press, 2007), p. 167.

192
‘
found herself frightened
 . . .’: Michael Daly, ‘Aids Anxiety’,
New York Magazine
, 20 June 1983.

192
‘
a community of pariahs
 . . .’: Susan Sontag,
Illness as Metaphor and AIDS and Its Metaphors
(Penguin Modern Classics, 2002 [1978/1989]), p. 110.

192
‘
I used my own
 . . .’: Andy Warhol,
The Andy Warhol Diaries
, p. 506.

192
‘
I didn’t want to be near
 . . .’: ibid., p. 429.

193
‘The New York Times
had a big article
 . . .’: ibid., p. 442.

193
‘
We went and watched
 . . .’: ibid., p. 583.

193
‘
You know, I wouldn’t be surprised
 . . .’: ibid., p. 692.

194
‘
Then they picked me up
 . . .’: ibid., p. 800.

194
‘
the other news from
. . .’: ibid., p. 760.

195
‘
risk-taking individuals
 . . .’: Sarah Schulman,
Gentrification of the Mind
(University of California Press, 2012), p. 38.

197
‘
Peter was probably
 . . .’: Stephen Koch, interview with author, 9 September 2014.

198
‘
You know why
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
Close to the Knives
, p. 106.

198
‘
the rabid strangers
 . . .’: ibid., p. 104.

198
‘
If you want to stop AIDS
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
7 Miles A Second
(Fantagraphics, 2013), p. 47.

199
‘
that beautiful hand
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
Close to the Knives
, pp. 102–3.

200
‘
The beginning of the end
 . . .’: Sarah Schulman,
People in Trouble
(Sheba Feminist Press, 1990), p. 1.

201
‘
merge one’s body
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz, untitled manuscript, Fales, Series 3A, Box 5, Folder 160.

201
‘
If I could attach
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
7 Miles A Second
, p. 61.

204
‘
My rage is really about the fact
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
Close to the Knives
, p. 114.

205
‘
One day politicians
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
Untitled (One day this kid)
, courtesy of the Estate of David Wojnarowicz and P.P.O.W. Gallery, 1990.

206
‘
I use images of sexuality
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz vs.The American Family Association and Reverend Donald E. Wildmon, 25 June 1990, in Bruce Selcraig, ‘Reverend Wildmon’s War on the Arts’,
New York Times
, 2 December 1990.

207
‘
I didn’t want to ruin
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz,
Memories That Smell Like Gasoline
(Artspace Books, 1992), p. 48.

209
‘
He’s loved
 . . .’: David Wojnarowicz, unpublished journal entry, Fales, Series 1, Box 2, Folder 35, 13 November 1987.