The Honourable Maverick / The Unsung Hero (28 page)

‘You’re only pretending to be my mum.’ Josh was in a darker place than Sarah had ever seen him. It terrified her.

‘And Rick’s not really my dad.’

‘Yes, he is.’ At least Sarah could sound completely sincere about that. He was there for Josh, a hundred per cent. The joy she had seen in his face when they had woken to find Josh was winning the battle had told her that. He loved his son.

‘He just didn’t get the chance to be your dad before this,’ she told Josh. ‘He really does love you.’

And out of all the reasons she loved Rick, this was one of the most important. It was enough for now. They had a bond through Josh that meant that his father would always be in her life. Maybe, when all this was really over, there would be a chance to be close to him again for herself, but it was Josh who needed him most for the moment so Sarah was content to have him focused only on this brave little boy.

He’d been a constant visitor these last few days. Quietly supportive. Positive. Doing everything he could think of to try and cheer Josh up. Yesterday it had been
a photograph of Harry, wearing a brand-new collar. He’d brought a matching lead in and hung it over the end of Josh’s bed.

‘Waiting for you, buddy,’ he’d said. ‘For when you’re ready to take Harry on his first walk.’

But Josh had barely looked at the photograph, which was now pinned beside the first picture of the dog on the corkboard. The contrast between this pristine print and the first one with its curled edges from being held too much was horribly poignant.

Josh noticed what Sarah was looking at.

‘He doesn’t want to live with us,’ he said sadly. ‘Or with Harry.’ He was crying again. ‘I’m too sick and. and I’ve got no
hair.’

Rick turned away from the door.

They hadn’t heard him open it or seen him—stopped in his tracks by the sound of his son crying. He’d been shocked enough to wait, trying desperately to think of what he could possibly do to make things better.

He needed to find the right thing this time but he couldn’t think straight. He needed to be somewhere he couldn’t see the bowed shoulders of the woman he loved or feel himself being torn apart by the sound of a small boy’s sobs.

The shower was the best place to cry.

Even though she was only a few feet away from Josh in the
en suite
bathroom, Sarah could let herself go and Josh wouldn’t know how miserable she was. She could have a good cry and then patch herself up and carry on being strong and cheerful.

She’d done it before, many times, so why did today feel so much harder? Maybe she was just too tired. Or perhaps letting go of that dream she’d had about her future was taking away too much joy. Sarah gave herself a stern talking to as she dried herself and got dressed again. She’d only postponed the dream, hadn’t she? Not given up on it completely. She should be over the moon that Josh was really getting well this time. That the bone-marrow transplant had been pronounced a success. There was every chance that Josh was now on the road to complete recovery.

His hair would grow back and he’d be able to go to school and be with his friends and she’d find somewhere they could live and keep Harry. And Rick would visit them and they’d be almost—but not quite—a family.

And that was almost—but not quite—enough.

The murmur of voices came through the door of the
en suite.
Sarah turned the handle carefully and opened it quietly. Josh didn’t notice because he was staring, open-mouthed, at the visitor who sat with one hip perched on the end of his bed.

Who was it?

The adult figure in the gown had a completely bald head.

Confused, Sarah stayed where she was.

‘So…what do you reckon?’

‘No.’ Josh shook his head firmly but he was smiling.

Smiling.

And Sarah had recognised the visitor’s voice. How could she not, when that deep rumble was so familiar now? So beloved she could feel it in every cell of her
body? The knowledge that Rick had shaved off his gorgeous hair, presumably to convince Josh that he wasn’t a freak, undid any resolutions she’d made to present a cheerful face. Tears were streaming down her cheeks and Sarah had to hang on to the door handle and struggle for composure.

‘He wouldn’t mind,’ Rick was saying. ‘Dog’s hair grows back too, you know.’

‘He’d look silly.’

‘But we’d know he was still the same Harry. It wouldn’t matter what other people thought. Do I look silly?’

‘No-o-o.’

‘He’d get a bit cold, though, so maybe you’re right. We’d better not shave Harry. How ‘bout Sarah?’

Josh actually giggled.

‘No.’ It was Rick who dismissed this new suggestion. ‘I love Sarah’s hair just the way it is.’

‘Me too.’ Josh was still staring at Rick. ‘Do you love Sarah?’

There was a hesitation. A silence in which Sarah stopped crying. Stopped breathing even.

‘I do.’

It was a wonder they didn’t hear the ragged breath Sarah took then. Maybe they did and turned to look at her but she had closed her eyes and was hanging on to the door handle for dear life, letting a wave of pure joy course through her, body and soul.

‘She’s pretty special,’ Rick continued. ‘You’re very lucky to have her for a mum, Josh.’

‘She’s not really my mum.’

‘Isn’t she? What do mums do that Sarah doesn’t do?’

Josh thought about that for a few seconds. ‘Nothing, I guess.’

‘And she loves you to bits, doesn’t she?’

Josh nodded.

‘So you’re lucky. If Sarah loved
me,
I’d feel like the luckiest man on earth.’

She couldn’t stand here and eavesdrop a moment longer. Sarah opened her eyes to find that Rick had known she was there all along. He was watching her.

Her breath caught again, somewhere in her throat. Without his hair, he looked so different. His eyes looked bigger. Darker. He looked vulnerable.

Heroic.

Two sets of dark eyes were fixed on her and the room was so quiet. They were waiting for her to say something and there was only one thing she needed to say.

‘I
do
love you, Rick.’

‘He’s got no hair,’ Josh said happily.

‘I can see that.’ Which wasn’t entirely true because right now Sarah could see nothing but Rick’s eyes and what they were telling her.

She could see
so
much love in them. They drew her closer. She had to touch him.

‘It’ll grow, you know.’ Josh sounded supremely confident.

It would. Like the love. Sarah was very close to Rick now but they weren’t touching yet. They didn’t need to.
The connection in the smile and gaze they were sharing was strong enough to feel physical.

‘Are you going to get married, then?’ Josh asked. ‘And be like a real mum and dad?’

‘I hope so,’ Rick said softly.

‘So do I,’ Sarah whispered.

‘When?’

‘Maybe when you’re completely better,’ Sarah said.

‘When our hair’s grown back,’ Rick added.

‘Can Harry come?’

‘Of course. He’s part of the family too.’ But Rick’s attention was elsewhere now. He was leaning closer, intent on kissing Sarah.

Josh made a disgusted sound. ‘You can’t do that in front of me,’ he said. ‘It’s gross and I’m just a kid.’

Rick had Sarah in his arms now. She knew she was still standing on the floor but she had the oddest feeling that she was flying.

‘You’re
our
kid,’ Rick said firmly. ‘So you’ll just have to get used to it, buddy.’

And then he kissed her.

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© Alison Roberts 2011

ISBN: 978-1-408-92438-9