The Cruel Twists of Love (30 page)

“I’m just a sole who’s intentions are good”
Helen closes her eyes and she starts to dance allowing her to lose control of her fears of looking foolish and allowing the melody wash over her body when she sexually dances for Phil.

“
That not a song to make love to, it too dark” Helen smiles and he groans when she moves her hands over her body and she slowly dances for him, teasing him with her hands over her body that he is unable to touch. When the song comes to an end Helen sits astride him and holds the belt to intimidate Phil as Wicked Games starts to play

“NO Helen” Helen can see the fear in his eyes

“I never hurt you Phil, but the fear not nice is it?” Helen hit’s the palm of her hand and testing the sting when she watches Phil face turn angry before her and he struggles.

“
That the Phil I need to talk too” Helen tightens his restrains with some tape that was on the bedside cabinet.

“I make a deal with you Phil, I do anything you want me to do if you start being honest with me” Helen can see Phil thinking over her proposition.

“Anal sex?” Helen closes her eyes and nods

“
Only if you start being honest with me”

“
A weekend of anything I want to do but not now but when I say” Helen nods and Helen strokes her stomach lovingly, this is for you she thinks to herself.

“I never hurt the baby Helen, so it
will be after the birth” Helen looks down at Phil and gives him a nervous smile

“
We are equal in this marriage Phil, a partnership of love but if it built on lies and fear then we never works, do you want me to fear you?”

“
Yes Helen, your fear turns me on”

“
How would you feel if our baby lived their life in fear of you?”

“I would never hurt the baby Helen, I told you. Why
are you doing this now?”

“
Our child will pick up on my fear Phil and that not right for a child, as much as I love you I need to put our child first” Helen can see the pain in his eyes when he thinks of the damage it could cause their child

“
You need to help me to stop Helen, I don’t know how to on my own”

“
Then talk to me”

“
You leave if you know the real me”

“I give myself to you in body and
soul till death do we part” Phil looks at her with trepidation.

“I will leave if you don’t talk”

“What do you want to know?” Phil closes his eyes in shame

“
Everything Phil, but you can start with Carol”

“
She was my perfect pretend girlfriend, while I had my fun with my slaves until she started pushing for marriage. She followed me the night you were attacked because it was my turn to watch you.”

“
Your turn?”

“
You were handpicked for the club. Carol spotted you and thought you were the perfect submissive” Helen heart is racing with raw anger when she sits listening, she can’t say anything or he will stop talking to her she warns herself, but she needed to know more.

           
She waits but he gone silent. Helen gently kisses his chest to reassure him to talk. She feels Phil take a deep breath when she places small kisses over his chest and kissing his nipple gently.

“
The club is where we take our slaves to beat and share with the other doms”

“
That what you wanted to do with me?” Helen wipes the tears away and continues to kiss his chest

“
You don’t have to kiss me Helen I know you must hate me, it was my first time to break someone in for the club”

“
Why would I let you use me like that?”

“
Because I would have broken you Helen, there be nothing left of you but fear in what I would do if you didn’t go”

“
Why did you stop?”

“I couldn’t do it Helen, not to anyone but I felt I needed to protect you from the others, I took the photo when I saw you and sent it to the
others at the club and told them you gave it away for free and not worth breaking” Helen let’s out her breath with her relief.

“
Do you still go to the club?”

“
No”

“
So when I asked you if you wanted a submissive you lied to me”

“
No, a slave has got no control, over anything”

“
Do you still want a slave?”

“NO
, I would kill anyone who lays one finger on you”

“
But you can?” Phil closes his eyes

“It the only release I know when I mad at something or someone but sometimes it’s just for fun
. I need your help please, you make me feel normal”

“
We find a way Phil and I’m sorry I had to do this on our wedding night but you would never have talked to me if I hadn’t”

“I beaten women for fun Helen, how can you forgive me?”

“I haven’t forgiven you Phil, only you can do that. But I’m willing to take you for better or for worse, in sickness and in health” Helen kisses Phil on his lips gently and closing her eyes when she deepens the kiss and holding his face in her hands.

“
Let me go Helen” Phil whispers so softly

“I promised to make love to you and you supposed to have the pleasure after the pain” Helen places a finger onto Phil lips and kiss
es Phil quickly on the lips.

“I’m not finished Helen. Carol wanted to shave your hair to show people that you were my slave she heard
Maggie coming back and panicked that why she used the bleach. She used to come with me to the club and she was the one who picked you out for me. The other girl she cut was our old slave Helen that why she didn’t press charges she liked pain, but Carol was mad that we were spending time together without her”

“
You said she followed you?”

“
She did, she knew how I felt about breaking someone’s mind and she was making sure I carried it through but she thought that prick was your boyfriend”

“
How did you know I be at the Blacksmiths?”

“
We didn’t, but we had been searching the pubs and clubs for weeks but I got lucky that night, I saw you catching the bus just as I was leaving work”

“
Did you want me for a slave?”

“I never wanted anything more the way you moved
, drove me mad with lust”

“
Do you still want me as a slave?”

“NO, how can you ask me that?
Don’t you know me enough to know how I feel about you? I loved you Helen from the first night you stayed in my arms”

“
But we didn’t sleep together?”

“
That why Helen, you gave me your trust from the very first day. I never felt so contented lying there stroking your back when you slept it was heaven for me”

“
When did you know you love me?” Phil looks at Helen lovingly.

“
In the car when you stroked my legs. I was only yours from that night” Helen cuddles down next to Phil body surprise by how open Phil’s been with her and not really struggling with his restraints.

“
Why didn’t you sleep with me that night?”

“I still wanted control over you, and that night you were in control”

“Have you told me everything now?”

“
No but you leave me if I tell you more”

“I swear on our baby’s life I will stay, but you need to tell me everything”

“Untie me Helen then I will tell you” he pleads

“
Alright, I’m a little scared that you will hurt me but I will set you free” Helen looks for the scissors on the bedside cabinet but before she can cut Phil free he pulls loose from his restraints

“
Sorry Helen, but you crap at tying someone up” Phil grabs Helen violently and pushes her down onto the bed.

“
You promised you tell me” gazing up at Phil in terror

“
Let’s make love first only it might be my last chance” Helen gently moves his hand to her stomach

“I promised Phil on our child that no matter how bad it is I will stay” Phil closes his eyes in shame

“I said I would Cuckold you” Helen tries to ask him what it was but the fear traps the question inside of her

“
Say something Helen please” Phil whispers into Helen neck when he holds her down. Helen can feel Phil shaking when he pins her to the bed.

“I don’t know what it is Phil” Helen says in a small shaky voice

“I not mad Helen, just scared you leave me don’t be afraid of me please” Phil kisses Helen tenderly on her neck. Helen closes her eyes when she waits for Phil to tell her the worst and praying she could keep her promise to him

“
Cuckolding is where I would lend you out to other people, you were promised to Keith and a few of his friends for a discount on the kitchen” Helen struggles from Phil’s grip this is too much for Helen to cope with. How could he even think she would allow that creep to put his hands on her she thinks horrified and the bile builds up in her stomach.

“
Let me go Phil, I going to be sick” Phil moves off Helen quickly and she runs to the bathroom when she holds her mouth. Helen vomits violently in her hand before she can reach the toilet and kneeling when she feels the build again in her stomach. Helen hears Phil moving behind her when she is sick again. She takes a deep breath trying to calm her nausea.

“
So I was supposed to fuck him when he finished the job before Christmas, but I spoilt your plans when I wouldn’t let him in”

“
No Helen I was going to watch you fuck him, you didn’t tell me he came here alone? I told him to wait until you were ready” the anger in his voice making Helen jump

“I would rather die than allow that pig to touch me, how many were you expecting me to fuck for a cheap kitchen?”

“Ten men some were bringing their friends or partners so about fifteen to twenty people, a small party really” Helen holds her stomach when she is sick again. Helen flushes the toilet and she takes panicking breaths. She hears Phil moving beside her and he strokes her back gently.

“
Deep breaths Helen, there a good girl” Helen closes her eyes and she concentrates on her breathing.

“Alan was right I do deserve more than you
so when am I suppose to fuck them?” Helen waits for Phil anger at the mention of Alan name, she wished she was dead than allow herself to be used like a prostitute.

“
You talked about us to him at Christmas?” she can hear his anger in his voice.

“
No on my birthday that why I tried to end it with you” Helen waits for the blow she knows will come from him. She strokes her stomach and she apologises in her head to her unborn child. She hears Phil scream and she braces herself not to fight him and allow his anger to take her away from this nightmare. Phil stands quickly and moves away from her

“
Did you sleep with him?”

“What one more man to fuck w
hen you expect me to fuck men for discounts”

“F
uck Helen, what you trying to make me do?” Phil throws something at the bathroom mirror and smashing the mirror to pieces”

“
So when do I fuck these men one at a time, or all at once? I need to know Phil so I can build up my energy and I will kiss your feet after I fucked them all to thank you for the pleasure”

“
Don’t do this Helen I’m close to losing it with you” Helen stands and looks at Phil and she moves closer to the sink under the broken mirror. Helen picks up her toothbrush and puts some toothpaste on to it. Phil grabs her hand before she can brush her teeth.

“
Their maybe glass in it from the mirror, are you mad?” Helen shakes away from his hand and goes to brush her teeth she needed to feel a little pain to overcome the raw pain inside of her and she closes her eyes when she feels the sharp glass in her toothpaste. Helen spits in the sink and rinses the blood down the sink with some mouthwash.

“I didn’t sleep with Alan. Like the fool I am, I love you and could never
do anything to hurt you so when do I have to do this?” Helen closes her eyes in defeat and soothing her unborn child with her hand. Thinking of the life she promised on that she wouldn’t leave him. Helen hears the bathroom door close and Phil walking downstairs and she follows him nervously.

          She finds Phil in the kitchen, looking around him with confusion on his face.

“I better work hard with all the work Keith put in”

“I called it off after Christmas Helen, I realised I could never share you with another man” Phil buries his face in his
hands and crumbles to the floor and he cries.