The Cruel Twists of Love (42 page)

“
Not so rough with mummy, her tummy sore” Phil warns and Helen laughs by the ironic warning.

“
Sorry Uncle Phillip, can the baby play with my new toy mummy?”

“
What is it?” Helen asks him with some concern.

“
Nanny Elsie bought me a Thomas the tank train set. Thomas can help me putting it together”

“
He too little at the moment and the baby’s not called Thomas, he called Christian” Jackson looks at her crossly.

“Thomas can have my teddy if he likes?” Helen looks at Phil for help.

“Looks like he is called Thomas Helen, so I would give up if I was you. Thomas Christian Taylor not so bad is it?” Helen gives up and relaxes back onto the bed in defeat.

          Phil proudly shows of their son as the sleeping bundle is passed around. Helen hides her pain as Jackson hugs her tightly.

“Come on Jackson where my cuddles? Phillip wants a hug to” Helen grimaces as Jackson wriggles of the bed.

“
Are you Thomas’s daddy?” Phil nods and tickles Jackson. Helen huffs loudly Jackson hated being tickled and Jackson squeals his disapproval and Phil stops tickling.

“
Sorry buddy but you just too wriggly” Jackson wraps his hands around his neck.

“
Mummy is Thomas’s mummy and you his daddy are you my daddy?”

“
Yes, if you want me to be”

“
Mummy, can daddy sleep over?” Jackson says excitably and Helen laughs

“I thought daddy already was” and she blushes remembering last
night, they were hoping she would go into labour and not have to have the caesarean operation because she was overdue on her dates. Phil having his own way had booked her into a private hospital because he didn’t want to take any chances with their health.

“
No in our bed silly, then Thomas can sleep in my bed because I never use it” Helen giggles

“
We see Jackson, but if you want Katie to sleep over you need to sleep in your bed like a big boy” Jackson pulls a face and Phil bends close to Helen and whispers.

“
If only he knew what you got up to at night” Helen blushes. Helen mum hands her Thomas and smiles at her.

“
He is gorgeous Helen, you done us proud. My first grandchild” Helen annoyance flares suddenly.

“Tammy he is our second” Helen’s dad warns her mum and ruffles Jackson’s hair playfully. Helen looks at Elsie.

“Come and meet your new grandson” Helen mum huffs loudly and Elsie pretends to ignore her and gently takes him from Helen’s arms. Elsie sits down on the chair and fusses Thomas warmly. Helen watches her mum moving closer to Elsie and she knows she is going to take him from her

“
Mum why don’t you take Jackson for a drink?”

“
Can I get a teddy from the shop?”

“
We can get a teddy for Thomas later” Helen’s mum says as she takes Thomas from Elsie arms. Helen watches Jackson’s face drop in disappointment.

“
Daddy’s got money and you can get the biggest you want just for you”

“
Come on buddy let’s go find one, I think I saw a huge Tigger just for you” Helen waits until she can’t hear Jackson talking and struggles to sit up in her bed.

“
Mum if you don’t start treating Jackson as my son you will not be allowed near Thomas do I make myself clear?”

“
Couldn’t have said it better myself Helen” Helen dad agrees angrily.

“I love you Tammy but you can be a right bitch sometimes, now will you give Elsie Thomas to hold” Tammy hands Thomas back to Elsie and sits down and crosses her legs. Helen knows her mum is thinking over her threat. Helen feels exhausted and closes her eyes.

“Mummy, wake up” Helen opens her eyes and pretends to jump when she sees the huge Tigger he holding”

“
Wow, now you need to sleep in your own bed and keep him company. I don’t think he will fit in our bed” Helen looks at Phil and smiles.

“
Time to go home buddy we will see mummy tomorrow when she comes home” Helen wanted to go home today and not be left on her own.

“
They going to move you into a ward soon and visiting times are over for today, sorry Helen” Elsie places Thomas in her arms and kisses his head. Helen’s dad picks up Jackson in his arms.

“I blind Jackie boy all I can see is stripes”

“Gramps don’t be silly” Jackson giggles and drops the teddy. Helen’s mum picks it up.

“
Nanny’s got him”

“
What did you say to your mum when we were gone?”

“
Nothing” Helen lies. Phil kisses Helen softly on the lips.

“
Whatever you said it worked”

“
Why can’t I come home? You will be there”

“Helen you just had a major operation so you are staying” Helen starts to cry.

“Now stop that, I will be here first thing tomorrow then we can go home” Phil wipes her tears.

“
Try to get some sleep” Phil kisses her before he leaves. Thomas starts crying as soon as the door closes and Helen shuffles painfully off the bed.

“
You were a little rude by not waking when we had guests” holding Thomas for the first time on her own. Helen can’t get over how small his hands are in hers and she cries for the child she never got to see and hold in her arms.

“
You are a little miracle and a fighter to hold on to life like you did but I‘m so happy you did” Helen sits in the nursing chair and breastfeeds him for the first time.

Chapter 12

                Helen is anxiously waiting for Phil to come home after dropping the children of at
their grandparents. Helen hears the front door close and drops her head.

           Helen sees Phil’s feet come into sight as he stands in front of her
, cuffing her hands together as she kneels before him.

“
Now how are you going to please me?”

“
Anyway you like Phillip”

“
Good girl, I see you have laid out my tools?” Helen watches him examine the whips and paddles and she hoped he would finally use them on her. Helen watches Phil removing his belt and testing it on his hand.

“
Stand” She does what she told and without question. Phil points to the workbench and she bends over it and he straps her wrists and ankles to the legs. Helen allows her screams to come when he beats her with his belt.

           Helen is his slave when they play. Never questioning and never refusing him what he wants. They have their rules they play by and she wears her collar with pride for him in the house when they alone but you would never pick her out in the crowd as a slave. They are equals in their marriage but she gives him complete control in their lovemaking most of the time anyway. She loves Phil completely and he loves her in return. They are not sick or damaged but they loved to play rough sometimes and it made the smooth taste so much sweeter for her. She is his wife and his slave and she craved this as much as Phil did.

           Would she recommend this lifestyle to anyone else, the answer would be no. But did she need this in her life then it would have to be yes.

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