The Cinderella Reflex (24 page)

“Play some music!” Tess hissed at Ollie. She hunkered down beside Helene. “Is she okay?” She looked fearfully at Rosa, who had two fingers on Helene’s wrist. She turned back to Sara who was hovering in the doorway. “Ring for an ambulance!”

“She’s okay,” Rosa said soothingly. “She’s just fainted.”

Tess looked at Helene. Her bright-red lipstick was like a gash against her pale, translucent complexion. Beads of moisture gathered on her forehead and she looked clammy and sick.

“I’m not taking any chances,” Tess decided. “Sara! Dial the emergency services.”

“Honestly, there’s no need,” Rosa said calmly. “I was a nurse in a former life and I know what I’m talking about. Look – she’s coming around already.”

Tess looked down as Helene’s eyelashes fluttered like spiders on her cheeks. She opened her eyes, and looked about her, dazed.

“We need to get her out of here, it’s too hot. She needs something to drink.” Rosa gently helped Helene to sit up. “Are you okay, love?”

Helene blinked, looking as if she didn’t know where she was.

Rosa and Tess helped her to her feet. Then Tess left Sara in charge and followed Rosa, who was guiding Helene towards her office.

“I’m fine,” Helene insisted. “You can go back to the programme, Tess.”

“Yes, you can,” Rosa interjected. “But only after you get her a cup of hot sweet tea.” She turned to Helene. “You look very shaken, love.”

“I’m just a bit – maybe I will have something to drink then.” Helene’s voice was fading again.

Tess rushed to the kitchen and rooted in the cupboards for something sweet. She returned with a tray of tea, as Rosa had instructed, and a packet of chocolate biscuits. She stopped outside the office, balancing the tray on her hip and angling herself so she could push open the door without having to disturb Rosa.

She could hear Helene’s voice, explaining plaintively, “When you asked me if I felt ten years younger I remember thinking ‘I’ve never felt worse in my life, actually’. And then I must have fainted. But it’s true. I feel fat and fed up and exhausted all the time lately. This morning I felt so tired I actually threw up. I knew I was on air first thing so I didn’t bother with breakfast. That’s obviously why I fainted, because nothing like this has ever happened to me before. But I’m fine now. I’m going to tell Tess I’m okay to go back on air and finish the slot.”

“Tired? Fat? Morning sickness?” said Rosa. “The Stork card appearing in the Tarot? What does all that say to you, Helene?”

“What?” Helene said in a strange, high voice.

Tess froze at the door. Helene was
pregnant
?

Then she heard Rosa again, asking urgently, “Helene! Helene – are you okay?”

Tess barged into the office and plonked the tray down on the desk. Rosa was holding Helene’s head in the crook of her arm and fanning her face with the script Helene had prepared for her
Ten Years Younger
slot. A slot which she definitely wouldn’t be resuming any time soon.

Because Helene had fainted again.

Chapter Sixteen

Helene lay on her sofa, Grandma Rosa’s words echoing in her head. “
Tired? Fat? Morning sickness? The Stork card appearing in the Tarot? What does all that say to you, Helene?
” That’s when she’d fainted for a second time, when she’d heard those words, words that were both bizarre and terrifying. But words that Helene knew she couldn’t ignore nonetheless. Not when she remembered how she’d almost been sick on the side of the road on the way back from the spa, and how bone-tired she was lately. And how her boobs were really sore.

Of course, there were perfectly reasonable explanations for all those symptoms, other than pregnancy, she reasoned. Food poisoning from that wretched spa, for one. And who wouldn’t be extra tired with all the additional pressure at work? As for sore boobs, they were a normal symptom of PMT – everyone knew that. Helene had never had that particular symptom herself, but she was nearly forty, her body was changing.

The most relevant symptom – an overdue period – was difficult for her to work out because her monthly cycle had never been regular. And the real test – a pregnancy test kit – was not something Helene wanted to think about right now.

She had enough to worry about. Like how much of the conversation with Rosa had Tess Morgan overhead? By the time Helene had recovered from her second fainting fit, Tess had a taxi waiting outside to take her home. She had insisted on escorting Helene to the cab, making her promise to see a doctor as soon as possible.

Helene had no intention of doing so, at least not today. Richard was on his way over. He’d been listening to the radio when she’d fainted and had phoned her when she was in the taxi, wondering what had happened. She had successfully sidestepped his questions, but she was going to have to tell him
something
when he arrived
.

It was typical, she mused. All the nights she’d wanted him here and he hadn’t been available, because he’d been busy with work or his kids or the eternal “family stuff” he had to attend to with his wife. Now tonight, when all Helene wanted was to be on her own, to gather her wits and to think, Richard had brushed aside her protestations and insisted he’d be over just as soon as he finished work.

Helene hadn’t the strength to argue. As soon as she got home, she switched her phone off and crawled into bed, literally pulling the duvet over her head. When she woke up, three hours had passed. Her head still felt muzzy but that was probably because she still hadn’t eaten. Richard was bringing food later so she’d wait for that.

She spent the rest of the afternoon pampering herself. She switched on some music and relaxed in a warm bath, mulling over what to tell Richard about what had happened earlier. She didn’t want him to get even a hint that she might be pregnant. What was the point in frightening him when it might not even be true? They had only barely made up after their row at the press conference. Richard had apologised for his behaviour, explaining how he had completely freaked out when he realised Jack McCabe had cottoned on to the fact that he was having an affair.

“I overreacted and took it out on you. It wasn’t fair,” he’d said tenderly, taking her hand in his and kissing her slender fingers.

No, it wasn’t, Helene thought, hauling herself out of the bath. But that didn’t mean it wouldn’t happen again, if the going got tough.

She stretched out to paint her toenails, clearing her mind by concentrating only on each brushstroke of black varnish. By the time the doorbell announced Richard’s arrival she had decided she would ask all about his plans for her fortieth birthday party, as a way of distracting him.

She opened the door to find him half-hidden by an enormous bouquet of flowers – extravagant white lilies and blowsy red roses nestled in a sea of artfully arranged greenery. He held a brown-paper carrier bag.

“Food!” He thrust the flowers at Helene and strode past her, straight through to the kitchen. “I’ve got your favourite.”

Helene hovered in the doorway to the kitchen, trying not to gag at the distinctive scent of the lilies and watching Richard as he produced a smoked-salmon salad from the bag and a container of handmade ice cream for dessert.

As she watched him bustle about her tiny kitchen, looking for cutlery and crockery, she thought how handsome and virile he looked. The silver streaks in his dark-blond hair made him look sexier, not older. He had his contact lenses in and his eyes were vividly blue. She still found them mesmerising. Smiling, she found a vase for the flowers and sat down at the table.

As they settled down to eat, he looked at her keenly.

“So? What happened this morning?”

“I fainted,” she shrugged. “It must have been a bug. I’ve slept it off, I think.”

He watched her push her food around her plate. “Aren’t you hungry?”

“I am.” She forced herself to eat a forkful of salmon. “So – what about my birthday bash? Where’s it going to be?”

Helene had originally thought of asking him to throw the party in a public place, simply because she knew it would be so difficult for him – a foolhardy test for him to prove his commitment to her. Now, with a secret of her own to keep, she didn’t have the appetite for that sort of game-playing.

“I thought we could have it here.” Richard looked around the cramped apartment. “I mean, you don’t have that many friends, do you?”

Helene’s features darkened, and Richard quickly changed the subject. “Look, we can talk about that later. I have some news.The party for the relaunch of Atlantic has been brought forward so we need to have your party before that, so they don’t clash.”

Helene stared at Richard in dismay. “But that means we’ll need to have our pitches for
It’s My Show
in earlier! People have barely had a chance to develop their plans.”

“I’m not sure that’s true, actually.” He stroked his chin thoughtfully. “My desk is piled up with proposals already.”

“Really? You’ve seen the proposals?” Her eyes widened. “What are they like?”

“I didn’t play a blind bit of attention to them.” Richard shrugged. “I opened them – just to show willing – but I didn’t bother reading them. It’s not going to be my call, after all. That PR woman, Paulina Whatshername …?”

“Fox. Paulina Fox.” Helene was still thinking of the proposals on Richard’s desk.

“She’s going through them.” He leaned back in his chair and linked his hands behind his head. “Once the launch party is over I’m hoping I’ll be out of there for good. And it won’t be a moment too soon.” He smiled secretively. “It will be a whole new chapter for me.”

Helene felt a surge of panic. A whole new chapter for
me
? Surely he’d meant to say
us
?Even though Richard had been behaving oddly lately, she had no intention of giving up her dream of a future with him without a fight.

But then he stood up, walked around and pulled her up into his arms and she thought how lucky she was to have such a dynamic man in her life.

For once, there appeared to be no dramas chez Armstrong and Richard didn’t seem to be in a hurry anywhere. They spent the rest of the night chatting, drinking wine and making love and Helene completely forgot about her pregnancy scare.

He stayed much later than normal. She noticed the time glowing in red neon on the clock as he slipped out of her bed to go home. Four o’clock. She smiled drowsily in the dark. He’d never stayed so late before. Unless they were away for work, he would always be tucked up in his own bed by now. It was a start.

At breakfast, she felt absolutely fine, with no queasiness whatsoever. She made herself eat a breakfast of tea, toast and a boiled egg, and by the time she got to work, she was chiding herself for giving any credence at all to Rosa’s prediction.

She swapped her high heels for the pair of flats she kept under the desk, switched off her phone and spent the next two hours working on her pitch for
It’s My Show
. She thought Jack McCabe was proceeding with unseemly haste but, then, wasn’t that what he was famous for – being a human dynamo who forged ahead with his plans and expected everyone else to keep up or drop out? Well, he wouldn’t find Helene wanting on that score.

In fact, she could feel the adrenaline surging through her now that the deadline had been shortened. She decided she would continue with her
Ten Years Younger
series and air it each day over the coming weeks, giving herself maximum on-air presence. She could also take credit for Grandma Rosa’s slot, which, judging by the amount of calls Sara had taken from listeners wanting to know more about
Psychic Granny
, was destined to be a huge success.

She would weave
Psychic Granny
into her new show proposal, which would be called … Helene’s brow furrowed as she tried to think of a name. Finally, she scribbled down ‘
The Silver Surf Hour
’. She held up her A4 pad to consider it. The name wasn’t strong enough – too clichéd – and it was a risk not going after the youth market, but then everyone else would be pitching for that. She was going to go with her hunch that there was something in this grey-power trend Rosa had mentioned. If Helene could convince Jack McCabe that she could capture a sizeable chunk of older listeners with disposable income she would illustrate that she knew something about the business side of radio as well as having an obvious creative streak.

She smiled to herself. All those hours listening to Richard droning on about the pressures of his work had come in useful after all. And, she thought happily, at forty she would practically seem like a teenager to her target audience. Helene put her memo pad down on the desk, allowing herself to bask in the familiar fuzzy, warm feeling of knowing she was on to something. This was why she did it, she realised. This was why she put up with all the long hours and the dramas and the histrionics.

She reached into her bag for a mint and a business card fell out. She picked it up and turned it over. It was for the Travel Café. Of course! She could get Matt to come in and do a
Gap Year for Grown-ups
slot, keeping the positive-ageing motif going. Genius! She picked up the phone, twirling a strand of hair around her fingers as she waited for someone to pick up.

“Travel Café! How can I help you?”

“Hi, Matt. It’s Helene Harper here. From Atlantic 1FM.”

“Helene! It’s great to hear from you again. How
are
you?”

She looked at the telephone receiver, slightly taken aback at how pleased he sounded. She was used to people being defensive, or wary or even sycophantic when she spoke to them. But not genuinely happy to hear from her.

“I’m fine,” she said cautiously. She started to explain about her idea but she only got so far before Matt interrupted her.

“Oh my God! I’ve just been sitting here thinking that what I need right now is a bit of publicity to really get the café out there, you know? And then
you
ring. Talk about serendipity!”

He sounded so enthusiastic that Helene felt a pang of guilt. She had been thinking of using Matt for her own ends, not about what it might mean for him. Still, she thought, if it was mutually beneficial all the better. Helene outlined her idea a bit more and waited for his reaction.