The Beast of Renald (The Northern Knights) (36 page)

Raven’s rage-filled scream erupted from his bloodied lips. ‘I will have the last word. It is my right!’

‘Aye, on that, for once you and I agree. The last word shall be yours.’ Darc tightened his legs around him as he withdrew his dagger from its sheath and held it to Raven’s throat. Their gazes locked and he commanded. ‘Speak it.’

‘I will kill you!’

How quickly the tables had flipped. Darc spoke his words slowly. ‘
Not a chance
.’ His tone cold, held no emotion. Raven’s crazed cackle filled the night.

Darc slid his blade slowly into the side of his brother’s neck. Blood squirted everywhere. Eyes of surprise widened in Raven’s face, his mouth worked but no sound came out as his body jerked.

Darc leaned on the blade and held his brother’s gaze, seeing the finality; truth and horror register within them.

Darc uttered one word.  ‘Raven.’

Ominous black clouds gathered and rumbled overhead, but Darc paid little heed to them and his men as they stared at his blood soaked form when he strode out of Raven’s hovel.

He took a nearby burning torch from its post and laid it to the thatch roof. He walked around the building until all four corners were ablaze before dropping it to the ground. Then he walked away from his men and into the nearby wood just as the thunder grew in intensity not stopping until he came to a tall thin tree where he bent over at the waist and emptied his stomach.

CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN

A feeling of foreboding settled around Caroline and it did not leave her till she heard the sound of riders. She ran to her window to see her husband’s men entering the inner ward. The men stood around talking before heading for the knight’s quarters. Darc was not with them.

She did not know how long she sat there but hours later voices drew her from her light sleeping to see him down below. Even though it was night, she could see he was covered head to toe in something. Without pause she rushed from her chamber and flew down the steps, a startled sleepy-eyed Melbert hot on her heels. Caroline ignored him and searched for Darc but he was not in the hall or anywhere else she looked.

When she had searched nearly each end of this side of the castle, Melbert all the while protesting and mumbling at her back, Caroline found herself back near the great castle doors, her shoulders slumping in defeat.

Just then she heard footfalls and turned to see him coming her way.

She’d been right, bloodied and a bone weary expression on his face, Darc strode toward them, he had removed his mail and gambeson. He looked at her, but Caroline felt as if he was looking right through her.

‘Wh-What has happened?’ she croaked.

His glance shot over her briefly afore he turned his dark gaze on Melbert. The chastened look made the soldier bow his head. Caroline came to his defense. ‘’Twas not him, husband. I do not wish for him to get in trouble because of my concern for you.’

That seemed to penetrate the dark fog around him and he dismissed Melbert with a wave of his hand. Then he turned on her. ‘Why are you not abed?’

‘I could not sleep. Where do you come from with so much blood on you? Are you injured?’ she did not think he was for most of it though fresh, had dried. A few cuts were open on his arms and shoulders, but not enough for all the blood on him and dried in his hair.

‘Nay. No dire wounds. You worry for me? Do not, wife. I am well. Return to your bed. I have a bath waiting for me in my chamber and I wish to partake of it ere it loses its heat.’ He waved out an arm before him in the direction of the stairs for her to go first. Caroline stayed rooted to the spot.

‘Darc? Was there a battle? Will you not tell me?’

‘Aye. There was a battle but nothing for you to concern yourself with.’

‘I-‘

‘Enough! I am in no mood for your talkativeness this night. Seek your bed and leave me be with your pestering, woman.’

Pestering!? Caroline stared agog at him. She was so hurt and angry at his outburst that she could not speak at first. Then she snapped. ‘See if I give a care about your hide ever again!’ She ran past him toward the stairs.

Caroline’s stiff spine lasted until she reached the landing. There her tears betrayed her and she dashed down the hall to her chamber.

Darc stared after her. He had mounted the stairs right behind her and seeing her swipe away her tears as she ran from him, swelled up another deep ache in his chest to sit with the one already there. He should have gone after her, but he did not.  He had spoken the truth. He did not want to be near her this eve. Hell he did not know what he needed. Cursing aloud he walked past her chamber to his.

CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT

After last eve Caroline should have known the chilly morning and dark clouds bore no good for her day. Leaving the chapel with Kelbie in tow, Darc came and ordered Laur to take the boy.

‘Come.’ He said to her.

Caroline did not budge from where she stood. Something was terribly wrong. The look of him was the look she had seen when she first saw him upon his warhorse those many moons ago. She shook her head back and forth. He looked dangerous and her.

‘Do not even think it, wife.’ He growled and snatched her hand and all but dragged her behind him. Her protests were all for naught for his strong hold did not yield.

Once the door to the room off the hall slammed behind them, Caroline was breathless and tried to push her wrist free. ‘What is wrong with you? You are hurting me.’ He released her at once.

A cold blast of air hit her as he walked past her further into the room. ‘That would not have happened if you would just obey me without preamble, wife. But it no longer matter now. Sit down.’

‘Shaking, Caroline said, ‘Nay.’ She was not lying, she was too upset to sit. ‘What is wrong? Are you behaving thus because of last night?’

A loud groan escaped him. ‘Sit down!’

Caroline rushed to do as he bid and took the seat near the table, her whole body shaking. She was frightened and angry at this side of him she had never seen. When he did speak ‘twas her turn to explode. He did not talk of what happened last night. He’d started in on his accusations and Raven.

Caroline shot to her feet, anger and disbelief now shaking her. She had been so worried over his bloody appearance yestereve and this was all he was consumed with?

‘How dare you continue to accuse me unjustly? Are you mad? Why speak aught? You will not believe a word I speak.  Raven kept me in a cell. And he did not touch me. Why must you continue to bleed this wound? Has it not done enough damage?’

Darc’s gaze impaled her.  ‘Answer the question!’ he roared.

Caroline shook her head. ‘I have done so time after time. This must stop, Darc if we are to move beyond it.’

‘I have no plans to move past it. Just answer the question. And
this time
give me the truth if you can speak it.’

‘’Till I give you the answer you wish to hear is more like the crux of it. You wish not for the truth, husband. You wish for me to fuel this devil of a fiery beast inside you so you can allow it to continue to live and rob you of any joy you may or could have. ‘Tis like a festering boil inside you and I must tell you ‘twill burst one day.’

His dark gaze of non-yielding unnerved her. ‘Then let it.’

Caroline closed her eyes against her anger and the pain, and took a deep breath. ‘No one can help you but yourself in this, Darc. I am worn.’

He glared at her, hurt and pain in his own blue stare, the flecks of green burned brightly. ‘I have exhausted you? Am I to take that as Aye, he had you?’

Caroline gave him her own growl of pent up frustration. ‘I refuse to do this with you. We have spoken of it nigh a hundred times. I gave you the truth, you did not accept it. I refuse to carry on with this. ‘Tis best to leave it be. Do you not think ‘tis time to do so?’

The look he gave her gave her the answer. Tears pricked her eyes and she threw her kerchief down on the table next to him. ‘Well. I pray you are not besieged by a night terror tonight and that you are able to get some rest!’ she meant it for the dark circles under his eyes bespoke of how little he’d been getting since the night Raven had returned her. Aye, she knew he still suffered the dreams for she’d heard him but had not gone to him. And she wouldn’t as long as this strife remained betwixt them. ‘The answer is nay, again. Raven did not have me. I almost wish he had. Mayhap it would put an end to your madness and my grief.’

‘If cutting off his head did not ease my madness, I doubt the truth of your deceit will, wife.’

Caroline froze and whipped around to look at him. He had risen to his feet and was glowering at her.

‘What say you? Did he not burn in the fire?’ Caroline found herself asking, confused. What did he mean?

He stalked right past her and simply said, ‘Nay. But this time he is most assuredly dead. If it upsets you, I do not apologize.’

She ran to catch up to him as he exited the room. He jerked away from her touch at his elbow. The castle guards turned away but Caroline knew they listened. Mildred and the buxom maids peered around the corner.

She stood in front of him and he stopped, but did not look down at her. Caroline shoved at him. He did not budge. ‘Tell me what happened.’

‘I need tell you no more than I already have. You dare much, wife.’

Caroline would have thrown a retort but she was too aghast over this new information. ‘That is why you are dreaming again.’ She said more to herself than him, but he heard. ‘Oh, Darc-‘

 His glare stopped her. ‘Best you get above stairs now for my patience is gone for you.’

Her aim to try to soothe him evaporated at his order. ‘And mine for you!’ she threw back at him. She ignored his insulting grunt as she turned her back on him and mounted the stairs for her chamber. Raven had not died in the fire. So that was where all that blood had come from on his armor. And explained the dreams, his anger.

The man was full of emotion, the pain…She’d seen it clearly in his eyes. His black mood and aim to blame was somewhat making sense to her. She did not fully understand his insistence about her and Raven nor would she excuse it. But she could not deny her heart ached for herself and Darc.

Instead of talking to her, Darc was so easily and willing to throw all the things they had shared and built thus far away. Heartache filled her to bursting. She was not aware she cried till she tasted the salt and wet of them on her lips. She had to wash her face clear before she saw Kelbie.

Raven had been so wrong. Darc was far from being besotted with her. He did not care.  ‘Twas she that was the one besotted with the giant Norman beast and there was little she could do to change it. No matter how hard she tried or how angry he made her. His hatred, the obsession he held for  his brother still burned inside him and blocked out all else even though Raven now lay truly dead. Caroline let out a ragged breath, feeling bereft and continued up the tower steps.

CHAPTER FORTY-NINE

The cold snap remained for the whole week and Caroline yearned for a day of sunshine and for the sun to beat down on her face. Kelbie was talking better now, eating well and full of energy despite the adults around him with sour moods. For him and the babe she carried, Caroline did her best to stay in a cheery mood.

Life went on in the castle and in the village despite the discord betwixt her and her husband. Aye, it was known to all around them, but no one pretended any different. And Caroline was glad and sad at the same time. Darc rarely showed himself and brooded in his darkness. No one spoke to him for fear of his bark as he went about seeing his men trained. She did notice he spent more and more time in the village.

He had moved Agnes and Cal from the east wing. Caroline had no idea where they were now. When she had visited them that day, Agnes had revealed naught, too afraid to speak. So all Caroline had done was talk a little to Cal. He reminded her so much of Kelbie. A sweet little boy. And the more she looked at him, his resemblance to Darc showed more and more.

Her morning and noon sickness had not bothered her in a week and she was feeling so much better now. Light flutters and changes in her breasts told her her body was changing even though her belly was naught more than a slight bump. Still she adored it and cradled it plenty throughout the day.

Things had to change here. They could not continue to go on the way they were. Her heart bled every day with the hope Darc would come to her. But he did not. As she had known, ‘twould be her that would have to make the first step. Missing him, worrying about him and the love she held for him consumed her.

Caroline swallowed her pride and went to him.

Her first mistake.

Darc’s headaches had never been worse than they had been over the past weeks. Since he had burned down Raven’s shack. The dull pain in his head was so painful; his vision had been blurred a few times. The only solace he seemed to get, the only reprieve was total darkness. He heard someone at the door and knew who it was before she knocked. Her soft footfalls were distinguishable from his guards.

He might as well get it over and done. What he had been thinking day and night to say to her. No time like now. She had come to him. He threw open the chamber door and her petite form took a step back. He growled and told her to enter and forced himself not to look long at her pale face.

Yet his eyes followed her entire form as she swept inside past him. Her scent hit him like a pile of stones, staggering him where he stood. Inhaling deeply and gritting his teeth against the effect she had on him, he slammed the door.

‘’Tis like night in here.’ She exclaimed and he heard her rummaging about and he turned away when the flare of the candle lit up the room. He grumbled and went to the trestle table. She followed, her body illuminated by the single candle she carried over. Darc shut his eyes and stopped breathing.

Caroline stared aghast at the changes in him. His pale face, dry lips and thick beard. He had furs around him, but he still trembled and his eyes were shut. Her heart went out to him. The man grieved and he did not even realize that he was.