Summer Beach Reads 5-Book Bundle: Beachcombers, Heat Wave, Moon Shell Beach, Summer House, Summer Breeze (150 page)

“I’ll see you in the morning, Anne,” Herb said. He looked at her for a moment; then he briefly, quickly, kissed her forehead. “We’ll work this out, somehow.”

He went down the stairs. Anne had carried her toothbrush and her comb and brush in her purse. Her luggage had been transferred, she hoped, to Stangarone’s. Tonight she would sleep in her underwear and slip. She remained dressed as she used the bathroom, for the house was cold.

She stepped out of the bathroom. Across the hall, the door to the big bedroom was open. Ilke stood there, clad in a rose-colored flannel nightgown. She looked like a very large fat child.

Anne hesitated. What could she say to this woman, her husband’s lover?
I hate you. I wish you didn’t exist. You have ruined my life.

Before she could say anything, Ilke spoke. Her voice was low but compelling. “He always choose you,” Ilke said. “I know he always choose you.” Then she shut the door.

Anne waited, feeling unfinished, wanting to say or do something—but what? If she were Gail, she’d snap back, “You’ve got that right, toots.” But she wasn’t Gail. She stumbled to the bedroom, dropped her dress, peeled off her ruined nylons, and slipped under the down quilt. She was asleep at once.

In her dreams, a woman was crying. Anne woke slowly. For a moment the dream stayed with her and she wasn’t sure just where she was. In her Boston bed? On Nantucket? On a rocking bunk? No, in a German bed.

And a woman was crying. From the other room came a deep and primal lowing, almost a mooing. Anne sat up and swung her legs over the bed. Some instinct inside her, something she’d never known existed, urged her to listen. To
react.

Through the window, the sky was bright blue. She glanced at her watch. It was after nine! She pulled on her clothes and hurried into the bathroom, then down the stairs and back to the kitchen. A pot of tea had been made, but it was cool now. Herb had already gone to work.

Upstairs, the urgent sounds, deep and primitive, continued.

Buck up, Anne
,
she told herself. She climbed the stairs and knocked on Ilke’s door.

“Come!”

Cautiously, Anne peered into the other woman’s room. Ilke was lying on her side, her arms wrapped around a pillow. She had part of the pillow stuffed into her mouth.

Anne asked, “Are you all right?”

Ilke’s body suddenly arched and stiffened. Her fingers went
white as she clutched the pillow like a life preserver that would keep her from drowning in her pain. The bed linens were tousled, the quilt fallen in a heap on the floor at the foot of the bed. Ilke’s flannel nightgown had ridden up in a bunch around her hips, exposing long thin legs and a thatch of pale brown pubic hair. Anne looked away, embarrassed. Then the long low moaning began, partly stifled by the pillow. Anne clasped her hands. What should she do? What
could
she do?

After a moment, Ilke relaxed. Panting, she said, “My labor has started.”

“But isn’t it early?”

“Yes. But it happens.”

“We need to call the doctor.”

To her amazement, Ilke laughed. “I don’t need a doctor. I am only having a baby.” She began to moan again.

Anne found herself wringing her hands in response. “What can I do?”

When she could catch her breath, Ilke said, “This could go on all day.”

“Good God.”

“You could bring me water.”

Anne took the glass from the bedside table and hurried across the hall into the bathroom. She had heard stories about the agonies of labor, but this was the first time she witnessed someone enduring it. It frightened her; it made her wonder whether she would ever want to bear children herself, if it meant undergoing such extreme pain.

Back in the bedroom, she knelt by the bed, slipped her hand beneath Ilke’s head, and supported her as she drank thirstily from the glass. Ilke’s hair was as soft as silk.

“Thank you,” Ilke said. “It is a help to me that you are here.”

“Is there someone I could call?”

Ilke grimaced. “We have no telephone.”

So this was up to Anne. She couldn’t go off and leave the woman alone. She pulled a chair up to the side of the bed. For the next two hours, Ilke writhed and panted and growled, no longer
bothering to stuff the pillow into her mouth, but groaning, her throat arching upward, her head falling backward, her hands clutching the sheets. Her hair grew damp with sweat, and from time to time Anne would lean over to dab a moist cool cloth against Ilke’s forehead. It seemed a foolish, silly thing to do, in the face of the woman’s pain, but Ilke, when she could talk, thanked her.

When the contractions eased, Ilke rested. Anne surveyed her surroundings. The floor was covered with a thick wool Persian carpet, so Anne assumed Ilke’s family had had money before the war. The drapes were heavy and glossy, patterned with cabbage roses and swirling vines. Framed portraits of relatives hung on the wall, and on the dresser stood a photograph of what must have once been Ilke’s family, parents and brother, all of them standing on some seashore, smiling in the sun. Ilke had lost them all.

Anne bent her head. What would she do if she lost her parents? She seldom saw them, wrote to them only occasionally, but they were the center of the spinning earth to her, they were gravity. Herb was—at least Herb had been—her sun, her moon, her stars, her wind and weather. But her parents were the profound security of her sense of life; they provided the reliable ground she walked upon. To lose them? Unbearable.

Her thoughts were interrupted by a new noise from Ilke, a shout.

Ilke rose up in bed, now obviously frantic. She yelled at Anne in German, loud, guttural, gut-wrenching noises.

“What can I do?” she asked.

“Help me!” Ilke screamed.
“
Gott in Himmel!
”

To Anne’s surprise, Ilke propelled herself off the bed. She leaned her arms on it, bracing herself as she planted her feet wide on the floor. She was
bellowing
now, and she did not rest; her yelling was long, continuous, agonized. Anne saw that the bed linens were soggy with blood and mucus and water, and Ilke’s legs shone with moisture. Ilke pulled her gown up to her chest, exposing her taut swollen belly and her thin flanks. Anne was embarrassed and helpless and terrified.

She knelt next to Ilke. She had to yell to make herself heard. “How can I help you?”

“Get blankets. Get scissors. This baby is coming. You must catch the baby.”

Catch the baby?
Anne stared, confused.

“Scissors on the dresser. Now!
Scheiste!
”

Anne was surprised people weren’t pounding on the door, running up the stairs, demanding to know what was happening here. Ilke’s screams were earsplitting. She gathered herself, stood up, found the scissors, and brought them back. In the moment that she had stepped away from Ilke’s side, the other woman’s face had turned scarlet, almost purple, as she expelled her breath in a long continuous grunt.

A flood of bright red blood splattered onto the floor between Ilke’s legs.

“Help me!” Ilke pleaded. “Hold me. Support me.”

Anne knelt behind the other woman. She braced her hands on Ilke’s hips and felt the earthquake shuddering of her body. Ilke was screaming, and Anne had the mad desire to scream, too, to scream in terror and sympathy, and then Ilke’s legs moved, as if she had suddenly become bowlegged, and her body seemed to crack, and Ilke yelled, “Baby coming!” and Anne moved her hands beneath Ilke’s swollen crotch and felt the wet silk of a baby’s head.

All she had to do was keep her hands there. The baby, slippery as a seal, slid out into Anne’s hands. It was red and slimy with mucus and blood, and its umbilical cord was like a red, pulsing vine. It opened its mouth and cried, the sound high and weak compared to its mother’s shouts. Somehow Anne maneuvered the baby around so that Ilke could see it. As she did, the afterbirth spilled out onto the floor, staining the rug with red.

Ilke was panting now, and her entire body trembled. She crawled up onto the bed and held out her arms.

Anne gave her the tiny, squirming, wailing baby. She said, “You have a son.”