Stone (The Forbidden Love Series Book 1) (13 page)

“Hey, are you okay?” She didn’t answer. “Maddie, you okay?”

     She unlocked the door. I took a deep breath before entering. I didn’t want to see what she looked like after being fucked by that bastard she called her boyfriend. She was sitting on the toilet bowl with her hands on her thighs.

“What’s wrong?” I whispered.

“I…” She lowered her head looking in between her legs.

“Maddie…are you hurt?”

“It hurts…a little.” She seemed panicked.

“Do you want me to check?” I offered. I’ve never seen her like this before. I was hurt. I needed to check her out and make sure she was okay. I wasn’t sexually excited. I was concerned for her well-being. I wanted to take care of her.

“Okay.” She opened her legs slowly, spreading herself so that I can look in between her legs. I panicked at what I saw. She was really red and swollen. The inside of her thighs were bruised.

“What the fuck? Why do you have bruises?” My heart started to thrash against my chest. My blood was boiling. This guy’s a fucking animal. It was her
first
time.

“He…he wasn’t as gentle as I wanted him to be.” She whimpered, her hands shook as she tried to rub the insides of her thighs gently. I wrapped my arms around her.

“Take a shower.” I said.

“Can you stay with me…please.” I nodded and sat on the bowl.

     She would have to face that asshole in a couple of hours. I didn’t know what to do. I was contemplating on going back there and fucking him up, but the kids crossed my mind and I can’t fuck up again, especially since I know now Maddie and the kids are the only one’s I’m living for.

Chapter 9    Maddie

    
I woke up with the worst throbbing pain between my legs. Andrew banged the hell out of me last night. He wasn’t even gentle when he first put it in. He pushed into me so hard and tore me up, I bled profusely on his bed sheets. He got mad that I bled and smacked me across my face. I didn’t know I was going to bleed. My mother never told me I would bleed the first time I had sex. After that, he fucked me every time he woke up to go to the bathroom and let’s just say, this guy pees…
a lot.

      He wouldn’t let me clean up. He wanted me to smell like him the entire night. There were so many moments that I cried out for Stone and I regret every minute of letting Andrew take my virginity. I never believed in God because of everything I went through with my mother, but I knew in my heart, every thrust, every smack, I prayed to God and…I got through it.

     I slept on the couch after taking a shower. Stone understood why.
I can’t face him this morning. I’m so ashamed. So ashamed.

      Daniel crawled up on my lap and kissed my cheek.

“Momma.” He said and smiled and I kissed him back.

“Hey.” Stone said as he stared at me intensely. He was hurt I could see the sadness in his eyes.

“Hey.” I got up quickly, ready to pass him, but he grabbed me by the arm.

“Stay.” He turned on Sesame Street for Daniel and prepared a bottle for Alyssa. “Clarissa’s going to watch them in her apartment. I want to be alone with you.” He said softly.

     I swallowed hard. That was the best offer I had this morning besides a hot cup of coffee. I just wanted to snuggle up with him and wrap my arms around his body as he held me close to his.

“I’m taking the kids to her. I’ll be right back.”

     He grabbed the kids and walked over to Clarissa’s. My cell phone rang. It was Andrew. I stared at the phone, tears welling in my eyes.
I wasn’t going back to that bastard. I wasn’t. We’ll leave. We’ll run away with Daniel and Alyssa. No more Andrew. No more.
I inhaled deeply and answered the call.

“I thought I told you to be at work at seven. You’re late.” He barked.

“I’m not feeling well. I’m taking the day off.” I said firmly but I was still terrified.

“Taking the day off? You really need a spanking, don’t you, you little bitch. You have to ask permission to take days off.” He shouted.

“I’m hurting…Andrew. You hurt me last night. You didn’t make love to me like you said you would. It was my first time.” I choked back my tears.

“This is not up for discussion. Virgin or not. That’s the way I fuck. Like it or not. You’ll get used to it. All subs do.”

“Oh, cut the bullshit Andrew. You’re not into bondage. I don’t know what a sub is Andrew. I wanted to be part of your little twisted world because it sounded exciting…
not torturous
. But whatever it is.
I’m out.
This little bitch sub no longer belongs to you.” I whispered softly. I knew what he was going to say next.

“It’s
him
…isn’t it. You’re fucking your own brother. Let’s see how the courts feel about incest. You’re both disgusting!” he shouted.

“It’s not him…it’s you. You’ll never hurt me again.” I yelled.

“Maybe I won’t, but, if I can’t have you, I’ll hurt those kids.” He said through gritted teeth.

“You son of a bitch, I’ll kill you myself. I swear to God. I’ll kill you Andrew and I won’t blink while I’m doing it.” I hung up the phone and threw it against the wall. Stone walked in just in time to see the phone shatter into pieces on the floor.

“What’s wrong? What happened?” Stone said looking around the kitchen.

“He threatened me. I told him it was…
over
.” Stone walked towards me and kissed me on my lips.

“Let’s take a drive. We need to find out who we really are.”

“No…this is all wrong. It’s not that simple.”

“What do you know?”

“I know Andrew means what he says. He has to go Stone.”

“You mean…like
go
or go on a
vacation
.”

“I mean…go.”

“I can’t just kill him Maddie. Even though I want to. I’m not a kid anymore. I’ll get life or worse…lethal injection.”

“Then what are we going to do?”

“We need to take a drive. Come on…Let’s go.”

` STONE`

     We drove up to Saranac Lake to my father’s trailer home near Airport Road. He had bought a place near Ana a couple of years ago when I got locked up. I guess shit didn’t work out with his new wife. Maybe he knew Ana would give it up for free. He thought maybe he could get in on the fun. Some of the trailer homes in the park were falling apart, others were immaculate. They seemed to be new homes, new owners.  I was glad to see they were trying to keep the place nice. I loved to see the kids running around enjoying their life…
being a kid.
They didn’t have to go through what Maddie and I went through, I had hoped that no child would ever have to. I remembered how our neighbors in Massena, New York were all against my father living there. He gave the trailer park a bad rap with all of the drug dealers coming around.

     We drove slowly passing Ana’s mobile home. Maddie gasped as she saw a little girl sitting on the front steps of our old home. A few tears toppled over onto her cheeks. The memories in that house haunted her…
haunted us.
I can’t even imagine what happened in that house when I left after being arrested. Maddie has never told me. I glanced over at Maddie’s beautiful face. She was wiping her tears with her hands.

  We drove up and parked in front of my father’s home. My father was sitting on a makeshift bench he made out of crates. He didn’t die from lung cancer…
the bastard
…but he was attached to an oxygen tank.

“Hey.” I said.

“Tiny, is that you?” he asked. He was stoned. Higher than a kite. In
zombie world
as we called it. “Hey Annette, get me some blueberry pie, we got guests.” He shouted.

“Dad, I need a copy of my birth certificate.” My father’s new whore came out with two pieces of blueberry pie on a foam plate with two plastic forks.

“He’s been waiting for you to come all these years. I’m glad you made it. He missed you.” She said softly. She was really pretty with big blue eyes. It was a shame my father got her into this mess.

“Don’t I have a brother or sister, Dad? You know, from Ruby?” I asked looking around the trailer.

“No…she died at birth. Drugs. Drugs killed her. She was born prematurely. She didn’t make it.” He said as if he didn’t have a care in the world. I shook my head and glanced over at Maddie. She sat in the car with the door open just staring at my father. She looked at him as if he reminded her of Ana.
Always high. Always doing drugs
. I’m sure she was wondering if Ana was my mother and If my father really knew who my mother was.

“Dad? I need my birth certificate.”

“The county has it son. Just go ask for a copy. I don’t know where that shit is right now.” He practically tipped over when he stood up. “Give me a hug Tiny. I missed you.” I shrugged him off of me.
He never hugged me before why does he want to do it now.

“I was in jail for six years, dad. Why didn’t you visit me?”

“Jail? No you weren’t. You were in the Army.”

“Dad, I got locked up three days before my sixteenth birthday. I was fifteen. Where were you?” I placed my hands in my front pockets to avoid strangling him.

“You were taken care of. Ana took care of you.” He glanced the other way.

“Ana died a little over a year ago after she had Alyssa, Dad. She died of Leukemia.”

“Alyssa’s not mine…is she?” He said slurring his speech.

“Dad are you listening to anything that I’m saying?” I wanted to knock him the fuck out.

“More pie son?”

“Let’s get the fuck out of here before I burn this place down, after I light a match near his oxygen tank.” I shouted. I stared at him directly in his doped up eyes, then started to walk away.

“Where are you going son?” My father shouted. Maddie got out of the car and walked towards me.

“Fuck you dad!” I grabbed Maddie by the arm and sat her in the car. I walked over to the driver side, got in and took off. We got on the road and started driving to the county court house.

     I felt so bad. I was so angry. I was so angry…I began to cry. They were guy tears. The tears a man sheds when he knows he can’t put his arms around your throat and choke the life out of you. The tears trickled down my face slowly. I tried to hold it in but, I couldn’t. It wasn’t like me to feel so hurt. I think it was because Bryan popped into my head.
Who was his father? Was he anything like mine?

                            Maddie

“What is it Stone?” I grabbed his hand.

“What if…you are my sister? I mean…technically. Having the same mother makes our relationship incest.” he whispered.

“Don’t say it Stone…don’t.” I shook my head.
He couldn’t be my brother. He just couldn’t.

“Just know…that I don’t care.” He glanced over at me. I knew he meant it. I didn’t care either. I loved him, but I knew it was wrong to love your own brother.

“Don’t say that either.” I whispered. I closed my eyes.

“Then what the fuck am I supposed to say?” he shouted.

“Just drive.” I held his hand all the way to the court house.

     We arrived at the court house and parked across the street. It felt strange walking around town. We were strangers here. Once inside, we went directly to the office of Birth and Death Certificates. I was so nervous. My hands were clammy and my heart began to race.

“Hi, I’m Andrea. Can I help you?” The receptionist asked.

“Yeah, I need a copy of my birth certificate.” He said softly.

“Sure…Name?” Andrea said staring at him.

“Joseph Shelton.”

“Okay…date of birth.”

“I’m not sure. I always celebrated it on New year’s eve.”

“How do you not know your birthday, son?”

“My father’s a heroin addict and didn’t know my mother, and doesn’t know where my birth certificate is and, we never celebrated my birthday because he didn’t know when I was born. Does that answer your fucking question?” She stood stunned staring at Stone as if he had a gun pointed to her head.

“Your father’s name please?” She asked nervously.

“Mickey Shelton.”

“Okay…let me check.”