Society's Most Scandalous Viscount (8 page)

It hardly mattered. In the daylight he had grown less sure that he would see her again. But who was she? A simple miss who lived in Brighton? She couldn't be. Nothing about her appeared common. Not the multiple shades of gold in her flowing hair or the tide of emotions in her turquoise eyes. He recalled her scent, the sweet softness of her skin and the delicate curve of her waist beneath his palms, and his blood heated with desire. He could find joy in a woman of such tempting beauty. He could forget for a time all the wrongs, and just breathe.

Something whispered to his soul that there was much more to discover. Their kiss had been powerful and delicate. Exquisite and impactful. A longing for more of her attention pulled at him as surely as a compass needle seeks north. He never developed attachment; a good tumble with an assortment of women composed of all particularities created his past, yet for some unidentifiable reason the mermaid's kiss lived in him still, unresolved and impatient. He almost chuckled at the irony. Like most of his emotions, the lack of a resolution haunted.

Another part of him, arrogant male pride perhaps, prodded that he merely needed to lay with
any
woman to exorcise his idle interest. A smarter man would seek a brothel with haste, but he ignored the notion. He'd come to Brighton to settle his affairs, not be towed under by further instigations.

A loud yowl disrupted his ruminations and he lifted his head to eye an overfed tabby in the corner of the stable, its back laid level to the ground, its body collapsed as if ready to pounce on an unsuspecting rodent. There was always room for an adept mouser in the stable although the feline hunter reminded him too much of how he'd soon become prey to his mother's request. As long as this new guest didn't bother Nyx, Kell had no objection to the intruder.

He offered the Arabian a final rub and set out on the gravel walk leading away from the house. Let Bitters handle his mother. The thought provoked a wry smile. Kell needed a release and without a comely female to exhaust his energy, he may as well pierce a few targets and hone his skill. He'd gather what he needed from the shed and return for Nyx. One never knew when a precise shot would prove necessary.

Chapter Seven

“Father, I didn't expect you to visit. I thought we'd agreed I would spend time with Grandmother before returning home.” Angelica struggled to keep her tone even, though by the unreadable expression on her father's face she wondered if she should rail at him in objection to his overbearing countenance or portray the compliant daughter.

“I am traveling to Spetisbury in Dorset to visit St. Monica's Priory. An associate suggested I pay call and I've accepted the invitation.” He paused as if weighing the remainder of his explanation. “It concerns your sister and our future plans.”

The words struck her with unexpected hope. Had Father learned something of value? Could she dare believe her sister would be found? And what if Helen was discovered? The complicated tangle of secrets and lies created further confusion as each layer peeled away. “Yes, of course.” The words rushed out on an eager breath though she fought to squelch the simultaneous clash of optimism and distress. How many times had she anticipated success only to be disappointed in the end? And how did one measure victory if it caused a loved one heartache?

Her father appeared void of the conflicted emotions Angelica harbored.

“As Brighton is en route to Spetisbury, I couldn't pass the thoroughfare without seeing how you fared.”

Assuring himself she resided where she should, no doubt. Checking she hadn't taken flight. He stated the words as if genuine concern prompted his detour, but Angelica knew better than to mislabel his sentiment as compassion. The earl wished for his plans to proceed uninterrupted and her compliance and obedience were key in his intentions. The same had prompted her trip to Grandmother's. While she had no desire to run away as Helen had, she wouldn't commit herself to pious dedication without a firm hold on her emotional future. What was it she wanted from life? And how would it be accomplished while keeping peace with her father? He'd already lost one daughter.

“I hold hope for encouraging news. I miss Helen dearly.” She didn't elaborate, the implications of the conversation heavier than her heart. Her father had all but banished Helen when he'd discovered her indiscretion. Angelica had never felt the absence of a mother figure more keenly. Instead, Helen had turned to Angelica for assistance and she'd given her the only advice she could fathom.
Flee
. Run as far away as possible, although the decision had cost her more than the purse full of coins she'd stolen to abet her sister's flight. She missed Helen with a bottomless ache she could never express with tears or words. Relationships between sisters, separated by a mere ten months, were profound, intuitive, and theirs was no exception. Helen had won her freedom at a dear price: never returning home to her family. Angelica would lose her freedom and keep the latter. Life proposed a delicate balance, often disrupted by the flow of one's choices. No matter they were two of a kind; they existed on opposite sides of reality now. The subject remained off limits with Father and Grandmother, so the frank disclosure struck everyone as unexpected.

“For it is from within, out of a person's heart, that evil thoughts come—sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, malice—”

Angelica mentally silenced the list of sins, accustomed to her father's pious lectures.

“—deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance, and folly.”

He paused in his sermon though she knew better than to interrupt.

“All these evils come from inside and defile a person.” He eyed her, waiting for a response.

“Mark 7:21.” She begrudgingly answered the unspoken question.

“Have you come to accept our discussion of your future or are you too preoccupied enjoying the shameful freedom your grandmother allows whenever you visit?” He swept his eyes across the landscape as if they stood in a disreputable back alley instead of a lovely seaside garden. His eyes settled on her neckline, a conservative scoop on an otherwise plain muslin day gown, yet she felt compelled to raise her hand to her throat, as if the censure of his eyes wrapped around her neck and applied pressure. She would get her words out.

“We agreed I would have this time to accept your decision, did we not?” She raised her chin a notch in silent challenge and dropped her hand. She would do Helen's memory proud and summon courage. She would not be so amendable. Had Grandmother not scurried into the house to offer them privacy when Angelica had come outside, perhaps her father might have measured his words more carefully. The notion faded as it was unlikely.

Since embracing religion and adopting the doctrine of Paley's Natural Theology, Father believed everyone and everything belonged in an order ordained by God. He no longer regarded people as individuals with choices and thoughts. He insisted there was a predestined intent for anyone's existence. This utilitarian view discarded love and affection. Helen had dared step beyond those boundaries. Now Helen was gone. Like a splinter in her heart, the sharp pain of her sister's absence pinched with every breath.

“I agreed, and will not reconsider. But let this conversation serve as a reminder that you have no choices here. You'll not commit the same foolish mistakes as your sister. You are not in control. The plan has been finalized and only time stands in our way. You'll go to the convent and live a respectable life, which will serve to erase the shame and humiliation of your sister. I've an arrangement with the vicar. He is in want of a compliant wife. The situation will proceed smoothly, that is if the vicar will have you.” He flashed a look of annoyance, straightening his ramrod posture to a pillar of propriety. “I am an earl, a respected member of society where I uphold aristocratic mien and deportment. You'll not bring ignominy to our doorstep.” He jabbed his walking stick into the slates for emphasis though his tone revealed all that was left unsaid. “I am your father. I will not be disobeyed twice. Your sister is better off gone.”

“How can you say such things—”

“Very easily, dear. Helen was rebellious and given to a selfish, puerile nature. I'd prefer to explain her absence on occasion rather than support her unjustifiable promiscuous choices and her bastard child.”

“Your grandchild.” However soft she spoke it, her father heard. And how he misjudged Helen's strength and courage.

“No relation of mine.” His bitter tone expressed more than his tone and as Angelica watched, eyes wide from his response, he shifted his shoulders as if shaking off the burden of Helen's existence.

Angelica held her tongue, though her emotions prompted her to object to his high-handed dictates. A kinder man would consider his daughter's happiness. Again she tamped her indignation. Her father harbored a depth of anger at Helen's actions, an act Angelica had instigated. It served no purpose to show disobedience. Not until she could develop a plan of her own. “Yes, I understand.”

“There's nothing left to discuss.” He moved toward the cottage. “I'll not stay for the evening meal. With several hours of daylight remaining only a fool would waste the afternoon, and you'll need the time to pray and make peace with this decision. I can see in your eyes you're in disaccord, but your soul must be cleansed of all rebellion.”

His words were cold and emotionless, and she wondered at his lack of dejection and desolation. Was he not interested in claiming information about his missing daughter? Or had he dismissed Helen as a lost cause, anxious to get on with things and disperse the inconvenient obligation of seeking her whereabouts? Her father was not an affectionate man and rarely offered an embrace or kiss on the cheek in greeting. Now he intended for her to accept a jolting proposition when she returned to London. How sad and peculiar that she longed for any show of kindness from him after knowing nothing of it all her life. She'd watched her sister deteriorate until she could do nothing but disappear. Angelica vowed she would not experience the same.

“Safe travels then, Father. I will see you at the end of the week.” She needed to say the words aloud in further confirmation of their agreement. She clung to these last four days as a lifeline in an ocean of despair. In these last days she had control. All control. She would make her own decisions.

“Very well.”

He said no more and entered the cottage while she widened the distance between them, rushing to the far end of the property and through the garden gate. With no aim or focus, just desperation for distance and time, she moved as fast as her slippers could carry her. There was a copse of trees beyond the far edge of Grandmother's property where a gathering of crack willow, ash, and tall oak cluttered the landscape and provided the perfect refuge. She'd need to hurry to reach their cover before her tears began to fall.

Kellaway righted the lopsided targets he kept tacked to the pines at Black Down. The uninhabited acreage at the periphery of the Surrey border spanned a short distance to the beach and added another layer to the enjoyment of the area. Brighton offered coastline and forest, cliffs and plains. It comprised the perfect respite away from the clamorous bustle of London society and far removed from the tangle of problems left in his wake.

Sheltered by tall pines, the oilcloth targets resisted the weather where he kept them nailed to tree trunks. An accumulation of precise shots perforated the center in a cluster of accuracy. He'd honed his skill to become a crack shot, and here in the forest, time stood still. He could temporarily forget his mother's unexpected arrival or his father's trail of bastards with a few well-placed marks.

Anxious to dispel his ill ease, he removed his pistol and emptied his pocket of the powder bag and cloth to a nearby tree stump. The sudden onslaught of supplies disturbing a ladybug who'd made the poor choice to alight and investigate. Wasting no time, he eyed the bull's eye several paces away. He would polish his abilities this afternoon. Make the distance longer, and challenge his skill. Never mind his mother's arrival, ever since the interlude on the beach the night prior his emotions lay on edge, a level of unresolved tension ever present.

He fixed his attention on the tree line, the dense cluster of pines as crowded as a London ballroom, but with the elegant composure absent in the ton. Trees were dignified companions of age and distinction that whispered of beauty and wisdom, instead of scandal and gossip. He preferred their unassuming beauty. A fleeting image of his mermaid rose to mind with breathtaking clarity. The lady embodied uncommon loveliness. Had he not been so shaken by his visceral reaction to her kiss, he might have acquired her name, or better, tasted her skin more thoroughly.

There was no help for him. He'd gone too long without a woman.

He removed a strip of leather from his pocket, then swept his palms from temple to neck and secured his hair so it wouldn't obstruct his vision. Next he rolled his sleeves and formed a small ball of powder in paper before loading the pistol and taking aim. With his stance at the ready, he leveled his arms and rested his finger on the trigger. His mind focused on the center mark. The air stood silent.

Soon he would enact a change. He'd make a difference. Birds would scatter, leaves would rustle, and the report of his pistol would echo throughout the tranquility of the surrounding weald, relieving the anger, frustration, and pain intertwined in his soul. But now, not even a magpie dared disturb the quiet. His mouth hitched in a shallow grimace at the satisfaction to be wrought. His finger burned on the trigger; still he savored the moment a breath longer.

Nyx whinnied and the disruption drew Kell's attention across the field to where the Arabian grazed on grass in the afternoon heat. Curious about the horse's reaction, he lowered his arms.

Beyond Nyx stood the kiss giver from the night before. The feminine mystery who offered the pleasure that simmered in his veins still. Her head was bowed as though lost in thought, although her attention veered toward the Arabian now. Kell watched closely as she gained awareness of him, not twenty strides away. He placed the pistol on the same stump that held the bag of powder and turned with a slow smile. She stalled, brushing her fingers over her cheeks as if to freshen her face, the slight rise of her brow the only recognition she offered.