Sleeping With Paris (2 page)

Jeff

My heart melted all over again, just like it had the first time I opened his email. God, I loved this man.

Just as I was opening the first picture, an instant message popped up on the bottom right-hand side of Jeff’s computer. I wasn’t a nosy fiancée; I trusted Jeff. I couldn’t help but read the bubble on his computer screen though. It read:

Brooke:
You there?

Brooke who? Must be a colleague, I reasoned. But then another message popped up:

Brooke: Give me a call when you have a minute . . .

I racked my brain trying to remember if Jeff had ever mentioned anyone at work named Brooke. Nothing came to mind. I considered responding to her and pretending to be Jeff to see what she would say, but then I thought better of it. I had nothing to worry about. I had faith in Jeff and in our relationship—so much so that I’d decided to pack up my life in DC, quit my French teaching position (which, by the way, I loved)
and
 my summer translating job (didn’t care for that one so much) and move to Paris with him. So, whoever this Brooke person was, she was probably harmless.

But then, another message popped up.

Brooke: I really want to talk to you . . . xxx.

A sickening feeling told hold in the pit of my stomach as I stared at the
xxx
. Who
was
this girl?

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath and told myself to relax. She was probably just an old law school friend who was still hung up on Jeff. She obviously didn't know that he was engaged now, that we were moving to Paris together, and that he was in love with
me
.

But then I thought about my college boyfriend who'd been cheating on me for the entire last year of our three-year relationship. I remembered how blindsided I'd been. Wondering how I could've missed his infidelity when all along, it was right there under my nose.

Jeff wasn't like my college boyfriend though. He'd fallen for me so quickly, so completely. He was sweet and honest. He wore his heart on his sleeve. He was different from all the rest. Which was why I'd fallen head-over-heels in love with him and why I hadn't hesitated to say yes when he'd proposed only six months after we met.

But when I opened my eyes and read Brooke's messages again, especially the
xxx
part, I couldn't ignore that nagging gut instinct telling me something wasn't right.

Hoping Jeff stayed out of the office longer than a few minutes, I launched into detective mode. With our impending move only days away, I figured a little investigation couldn't hurt. And besides, I was
sure
it would turn out to be nothing.

I pulled up the Internet history on Jeff’s computer, scrolled through the most recent websites visited and let out a sigh of relief. Nothing alarming.

But then, at the bottom of the list, my heart dropped.

Match.com
popped out at me first. Then I saw
Yahoo Personals
. And, last, but definitely not least,
eHarmony
. As my stomach began doing flip flops—
not
the good kind—and the blood rose to my head, I clicked on the
Yahoo Personals
link.

There I saw a picture of Jeff, a picture I had taken on our engagement night, posted next to a caption that read:

Successful lawyer looking for fun in the Nation's Capital
.

My hand trembled over the mouse as I blinked my eyes to make sure what I was seeing was real. This had to be a joke. There was no way, no way in hell, that my fiancé, Jeff, the love of my life, would ever do something so deceitful. He wouldn’t hurt me like this. He just wouldn’t.

I desperately skimmed the page for some glimmer of hope.

Member since April.

It was now September.

My hands continued shaking as if I was holding a loaded gun and wasn’t sure if I should pull the trigger or let it drop.

As I scrolled further down the page though, I saw it. The clincher. The mother of all blows. A message from a red-headed, big busted girl named . . . Brooke. It read:

I've had such a wonderful time with you this week Jeff, I can't wait to come visit you in Paris . . . xoxoxo, Brooke.

Brooke. All I could see were her giant boobs bursting out of her porn-starish shiny blue tube top. Red hair. Boobs. xoxoxo. Brooke.

My vision blurred, refusing to see what was staring me in the face. I shook my head in an attempt to regain composure. This could not actually be happening two days before we were moving to Paris together. And less than six months after Jeff had proposed.

It had to be a mistake.

I clicked on the instant message from Brooke and without thinking, I responded.

Jeff: Hey

Brooke: There you are sexy. Busy day at the firm?

My hands quivered over the keyboard as I continued, not caring in the least that Jeff could be coming back at any second.

Jeff: Crazy busy. You?

Brooke: Feeling a little tired after last night . . .

What the hell happened last night? Who did she think she was?

Jeff: What happened last night?

Brooke: lol. Like you don’t remember.

Jeff: How could I forget? I love hearing you talk about it though . . .

Brooke: You kept me up all night!

Stupid whore. I was going to kill her. Just as soon as I killed Jeff. Filthy, scum of the earth bastard.

Jeff: Tell me more. I love it when you talk naughty.

Brooke: You really want me to give you the details?

Jeff: Work is really boring today . . . throw me a bone.

Brooke: Well, I remember your naked body on top of mine . . . does that jog your memory?

I could feel my breakfast making its way back up through my stomach. But I had to get it straight. I couldn’t lose Jeff without knowing for sure.

Jeff: Yes, but I want to hear you tell me the full story. All the details.

It took a few seconds. But then I got more clarification than I had ever wanted.

Brooke: lol. Well, first there was the time in your office last night, and then all night long at your place, and oh yeah, this morning in the shower. And, that’s right, one last time on the kitchen counter before you left for work.

A fiery hot, uncontrollable rage boiled up inside of me as I remembered Jeff calling me the night before to cancel our dinner plans. He said he had to stay late at the firm. It had become the routine for the past few months. Staying late. Lots of work to do. Can’t make dinner. Sorry babe, I love you.

God, I was such a fool.

Just then, Jeff burst through the office door.

“Hey babe, no more summer days in a cubicle! And you brought champagne, how sweet.”

I stared up at Jeff in disbelief, at a complete loss for words. There he was—my 6’3”, blond, blue-eyed, gorgeously-built fiancé. The man I had trusted with all my heart, with every fiber of my body. The man I was going to build a life with. How could he have done this to me?

As my eyes darted from Jeff to the screen and back to Jeff, a stray tear fought its way down my cheek.

“Babe, what’s the matter? What’s going on?” he asked as he rounded his desk to comfort me.

I rose with more force than I knew I had in me at the time and glared at him. “
You
tell
me
what the hell is going on.”

“Charlotte, what are you talking about?” he asked defensively as a hint of panic passed through his eyes. “Are you okay?”

“No, Jeff, I’m not okay.” I wiped the tear from my face, determined not to let any more of them fall. “Tell me what’s going on. Who’s Brooke?” I demanded as I pointed a trembling finger at his computer screen.

He glanced at the screen long enough to see the nasty sex talk from Brooke, and then looked back at me with desperate, pleading eyes. “I can explain, it’s not what it looks like—”

“Then what the hell is it?” I rounded the desk to get away from him and that revolting computer screen. “You’re sick. How could you do this to me? To us?”

Jeff ran a shaky hand through his wavy blond hair and shook his head. He didn’t have an excuse. Because there was no damn excuse.

“How long? How long have you been seeing her?”

“Charlotte, don’t—”

“Stop lying to me. Just tell me how long it’s been.” My legs felt like they might give way, but I forced myself to stay standing.

“About a month,” he mumbled as he locked eyes with the floor.

“And these websites? All of your online profiles? How long have you been doing that?”

Jeff shook his head in silence, his eyes darting frantically around the room as if he was desperate to escape. Desperate to jump out of his skin and be anywhere but here.

“Answer me.”

“Charlotte, I love you. I didn’t mean to hurt you, really,” he pleaded as a couple of stray beads of sweat rolled down his forehead.

“You sure have a sick way of showing your love.” I couldn’t take any more. I had to get out of there. I pivoted on my wobbly legs and bolted for the door.

“Charlotte, don't go. We’re leaving in two days. We can work this out. We can get through this!” Jeff grabbed hold of my arm, but I yanked it back and smacked the champagne bottle in the process. The tall bottle of Veuve Clicquot flew through the air in slow motion, then shattered all over the shiny hard wood floors. I stared at the shards of glass and fizzy bubbles that circled our feet, my heart aching for what should've been a celebration of our love, but what had now become the aftermath of Jeff's deception.

I lifted my eyes to his, knowing that this was it. No matter how much I'd loved Jeff, I couldn't stay. “
We
are not leaving in two days. I’m not going anywhere with you. I’m not marrying you, and I’m not moving to Paris with you.”

With that, I left him bewildered in his office and stormed outside into the stifling DC heat.

Two

vendredi, le 24 septembre

Wine and girlfriends—don’t leave home without them.

I stumbled over the red brick sidewalks of Georgetown in a daze. How was it that my life had taken such a hideous turn in a matter of an hour? How was it that the man I thought I knew, the man who I thought loved me more than anything, could be someone else entirely, someone who cheated on me? Someone who was stupid enough to broadcast himself on online dating sites and think that I would never find out?

I felt like a complete idiot. Had there been other girls besides Brooke? Was Jeff still going to go to Paris? Without me? With that red-headed porn star on the website? Was he ever planning on telling me about her?

Suddenly, all I could see was the grotesque image of Jeff and Brooke having sex. In Jeff’s bed. The same bed I had slept in with him only two nights before . . . and the bed where they had apparently slept together just last night. The thought of it made me want to double over and heave. He was
mine
after all, not
hers
or anyone else’s. I was the one wearing his ring, I was the one he had invited to go to Paris with him, and I was the one he loved.

At least I’d thought he loved me.

I hadn’t even realized which direction I was walking until I turned the corner of Prospect and 33
^rd
Street, just a couple of blocks away from the university and down the street from my best friend Katie’s house. Katie and I had grown up together in Ohio, shared our college years as roommates, and now Katie was in her fourth year of medical school at Georgetown. I knocked on her door, praying she was home.

“Hey lady,” Katie greeted me in her usual cheery tone as she swung the door open. But once she took a look at my red, splotchy face, she ushered me into the living room. “What’s the matter, Charlotte? What happened?”

I sank into Katie's cushy gray couch and spilled all of the nasty details while she stared at me in disbelief. 

“He put himself on
three
online dating sites? That's disgusting. I mean, he's thirty-two for God's sake and
he
was the one who was so intent on getting engaged after only a few months! This just doesn't make any sense. I'm so sorry, Charlotte.”

“Why does this keep happening? Why does every single guy I date cheat on me? What is wrong with me, Katie?”

She grabbed my shoulders and looked me in the eye. “There's nothing wrong with you, Charlotte. You're wonderful. You're the best thing that ever happened to Jeff. He didn't deserve you.”

“This never happens to you though. There must be something with
me
, something that I do, that makes men want to run around on me.”

Katie shook her head. “I haven't had as many long relationships as you have. And the guys I've dated . . . well, they're just
different
than the type of guy you usually date.”