Read Sins and Scars (Sinners Book 1) Online
Authors: K. Renee
“Stav.” She whines, backing away from me. My hand grazed over the tattoo that she just got. Seeing my name on her wrist gets me fucking harder than I’ve ever been. I want to plow into her right now, but I know I’ll hurt her.
“Harlyn come here.” I demand. She sits up and crawls over to me. She gets closer, so I wrap my arm around her and pull her body against mine. “Baby you’re going to forget all about the pain in your wrist when my dick slides inside of that pussy of mine.” She gives me a small smirk and wraps her arms around my neck, careful to not put her wrist against me.
“What are you waiting for?” she bites her bottom lip.
Pushing her back on the bed, I lay on top of her and kiss her mouth. Slowly taking it further, I slip my tongue between her lips, and run my hands down her body until I come to the bottom of her dress. I slide her dress up until I get to her panties. My fingers brush against her pussy, and I can feel her arousal through the silk thong. Sliding it down her ass and legs, I pull it off and toss it on the ground. I sit us both up so I can pull her dress up and over her head. She has no bra on and I take one of her nipples into my mouth as I slowly start to work my finger into her wet heat.
Every thrust of my finger brings moans out of her perfect lips. Never have I had a woman who was so sensitive to my touch. When I add a second finger, she arches her back into the air. “Oh God.” She moans. I work her up quickly, and I feel her pussy clamp down around my fingers as she comes. Her eyes roll into the back of her head as she screams out my name.
While she comes down from her orgasm, I get off the bed and start to undress. When she finally opens her eyes and looks up at me, I can see the satisfaction written all over her face. For the last few month’s I’ve been getting her ready to take me inside of her. If her parents knew where she was going at night, they would ground her for the rest of her life.
Sliding back up the bed, I tower over her and kiss my way up her body. Resting between her thighs, I can feel how wet she still is. “I don’t want to hurt you, baby.” I whisper against her skin.
“I want you.” I can hear the need in her voice and I want to slam inside of her, but I know it would hurt her. Instead, I slowly enter her, going inch by inch until I come into contact with her hymen.
“It’s gonna hurt babe.” I whisper. She nods her head and bites her lip. When her feet urge me to go again, I thrust the rest of the way inside of her and I hear her cry out in pain. Dropping my head to her chest, I try not to move.
“Stav, move please.” I look up at her and give her a questioning look. “I’m okay. I promise.” Nodding my head, I start to move again and I can feel her pussy taking me in more easily and before long, we are both coming. Pulling out of her, I cuddle into her body, and she puts her head against my chest.
“Amazing.” She whispers out of breath.
“I have a feeling that every time with you is going to be amazing.” I press a kiss to the side of her head and we both fall asleep.
Waking up, I don’t feel her warmth. Opening my eyes, I look around the room and don’t see any sign of her. Did she leave? Jumping out of bed, I pull on a pair of jeans and make my way to the bathroom. When I don’t see her, I pull on my boots and a shirt. Walking out of the room, I search the hallway and the bar area, but don’t see anyone. I hear some giggles coming from the kitchen and when I open the door, I see Harlyn and Trix making breakfast.
Silently letting out the breath I was holding, I make my way over to Harlyn and pull her body back into mine. She squeals in surprise and I see the grin on Trix’s face. “I missed you this morning.” I whisper in her ear. I bite her ear lobe and she starts to giggle again.
“We wanted to make everyone breakfast.” She finally gets out. I look over at Trix, and she gives me a knowing look. Her smile isn’t as bright as it normally is, but I have a feeling that it has something to do with not being able to show any emotion towards E. She loves him, and he’s too afraid of what that bitch he’s married to will do when she finds out.
“Where’s the little man?” I ask looking around the room.
“He’s in my room still asleep.” She says shyly. Walking over to her, I pull her in for a hug and whisper in her ear.
“I’ll watch him until you girls are done.” She pulls away and looks into my eyes for a second before she agrees.
I give Harlyn one more kiss before I go to get Blade. When I make my way towards the room we gave Trix, I can’t help but think about Harlyn having my baby. I don’t even know why I would think about it, but deep down inside it makes me happy. I know I’m not father material, but having another little piece of heaven in this fucked up world I live in, would make things worth fighting for even more than before.
Opening the door, I see E standing there watching Blade sleep. Closing the door behind me, I wait for him to turn around and look at me before I say anything. “Prez, I know I shouldn’t be in here, but I had to see him.” Walking closer to my brother, I put a hand on his shoulder and watch Blade with him.
He’s a mini E, and there is no way that he would be able to deny that that little boy is his. Every feature of Blade’s is from him. He looks nothing like Trix.
“Does she know?” I ask.
“That I sneak in here? No, she’d be pissed. I fucked this shit up so damn bad. I want to be part of his life.” He runs his hands over his face, and I get it. If I were in the same position as him, I would be angry with myself. “Tina is starting to put it together. I can only imagine what she’s going to say when she sees him closer up. Trix has stayed as far away from us as she can since she got here. Not that I blame her.”
“Why aren’t you giving her money?” My voice is controlled even though I would love nothing more than to rip into him. I get that he doesn’t want his wife to know about Blade, but he still has a responsibility to that little boy.
He closes his eyes and shakes his head. “For the longest time I didn’t want to believe that he was mine. Trix sleeps with all the brothers.” I don’t let him keep going because he’ll just piss me off.
“She hasn’t slept with any of the brothers in the last year. I told her it was her choice when she came to me. She wanted out of the game, and I give her a job working at one of the clubs at a waitress. That way she was making money and being able to provide for herself.” He turns towards me, and I see the shocked look on his face.
“She only came around for me?” I shrug my shoulders. Shit, I don’t know.
“I only know that she wanted to make a change in her life, and I gave her the opportunity. I could tell she was in love with someone, just didn’t know who until she showed up pregnant and alone. You broke her when you said you didn’t want anything to do with her after she got pregnant. Probably because you thought you weren’t the father, but brother there is no denying that little boy is yours.” He nods, but doesn’t say anything.
“Yet you still called her when you wanted your dick sucked, or a fuck. She isn’t your damn play thing. You will be providing for Blade. I don’t give a fuck what happens in your marriage because of this. Man the fuck up, and take care of your kid.”
He nods and looks back at the bed where Blade is still asleep. “I will Prez.”
“I gave her money the other day. She’s working her ass off and doesn’t have a pot to piss in.” Before I can say anything else, he surprises me.
“Take what you gave her out of my cut. Every time. I want to take care of them.” I nod my head and I see Blade’s eyes open and he reaches out for me. Walking over to the bed, I pick him up. He rests his head against my shoulder and stares at his father.
A little hand reaches out towards E, and he almost looks unsure of what to do. I move closer towards him and he tentatively reaches out and grabs Blade’s chubby little hand. Blade looks up at him and watches his every move. The door flies open and I watch as Tina comes barging in. E looks pissed and I can’t help but shake my head. “You’re fucking that whore aren’t you? Where is she?” She goes to look around the room, but E grabs her and pulls her back towards the door.
“Shut the fuck up.” He growls. She tries to fight him and I feel Blade’s little body start to tense up. When he starts to cry, Tina stops her struggling and looks over at me and Blade.
“You son of a bitch,” she hisses. She tries to get out of his arms to get closer to Blade and I, but E never lets her go. He pulls her out of the room, and I take Blade towards the kitchen to his mom. When I get there, she comes rushing over to us.
“What happened?” She looks nervous as she takes him from me.
“Tina knows.” I reply. I hear that bitch screaming out in the bar area, and it keeps getting louder.
Looking behind the girls, I see all the food that’s ready, and Trix starts to make her way out into the bar with Blade. Grabbing Harlyn’s hand, I drag her out of the kitchen. When we all stop in front of where Tina is still struggling to get away from E, she turns her anger on Trix. She points at Trix and starts screaming at her. “You stupid slut! I will make sure you regret ever touching my old man! That kid is never going to know his father. I’ll make sure of it!”
Trix holds her head up high and doesn’t let the words Tina is spitting affect her. “Get your fucking ol’ lady on a leash E. I won’t have that type of disrespect in front of a child.” I demand. Tina shrinks back, but I don’t give a fuck. I hope that bitch does us all a favor and jumps off a damn bridge. She does nothing but fuck with E and make his life miserable.
I’m glad that stupid bitch is afraid of me. She won’t like what I fucking do if she even thinks about hurting one hair on either Blade’s, or Trix’s head. They are like family, and I won’t think twice about making an example out of her.
E finally drags her ass out of my bar, and Harlyn goes over to Trix and wraps her arms around both of them. They whisper to each other and more people start to make their way out of the hallways and towards the middle of the room. When Trix isn’t shaking any more, she brings Blade back over to me. “I got him.” I kiss her forehead, and she nods before following Harlyn into the kitchen. Before the kitchen door closes, Harlyn gives me a wink and disappears just like Trix did.
“Prospects. Get some tables and chairs set up. The girls made breakfast.” All four prospects go to the storage and start to set everything up. When the first of the dishes come out, the girls set them out on the bar. A few of the other women follow them back and start to help bring out the rest of the plates for them. Paper plates, napkins, and utensils are also brought out, and the kids get their plates first.
When everything is set out, Harlyn comes back over to me and wraps her arm around my waist. Kissing the top of her head, I watch as Blade tries to grab her hair and pull on it. She grabs his little hand and kisses it. She releases me and takes him from me.
Watching her with Blade brings an ache into my chest. I want to give her that so damn bad. I think I want it more for myself than anything else. Watching everyone sitting down eating as a family makes me proud, but I still don’t have a family of my own.
“Stav.” She whispers.
“Yeah?” I ask watching her.
“Have you ever thought of having your own?” She doesn’t say any more than that, and I grin. Pulling her to me, I kiss the side of her head.
“Only if it was with you.” I smirk at her and she grins. “What do you think about that?” She stares at me trying to search my face for something, but I can’t tell if she finds what she is looking for or not.
“Why only with me?” her voice is low and she looks around the room at everyone eating before she turns her attention back to me.
“Because you’re the only woman I want. The only one I would ever consider having kids with.” She gives me a questioning look, but I don’t bother answering her. Leading her towards bar to grab us both food, I see Trix coming towards us with a bottle for Blade. She takes him from her and goes to sit on the couch with him.
Harlyn makes Trix a plate first and then walks it over to her before coming back to me to help me with ours. “Is E’s ol’ lady going to cause another scene?”
“Don’t know, baby. I sure hope she keeps her mouth shut. I don’t want to have to deal with her. I already warned all my men that they need to keep their ol’ ladies on a leash while we are all here under one roof. I don’t stand for this shit.” She nods her head and puts some eggs and bacon on my plate before reaching for the spoon in the fruit bowl.