Saddle the Wind (19 page)

Savill said nothing. Warming to her subject, the governess went on:

‘And yesterday, sir, when you allowed Miss Marianne to go to tea at the Farrars’, she came back with mud all over her coat and boots. She told me she had gone out for a walk with Blanche and her brother, and that she had slipped and fallen whilst crossing the heath.’

‘She wasn’t hurt, was she? She didn’t mention it to me when I saw her before she went to bed. According to what she said she had had a very enjoyable time.’

‘Oh, no, she wasn’t hurt, sir. But I just think that – well, to be honest – I think it was a mistake to have allowed her to go in the first place. I hope you don’t mind me saying this, sir, but – after all, as Marianne’s governess, then naturally I do have certain – views.’

‘Naturally.’

‘And I’ve felt the same thing on the few other occasions you’ve allowed her to accompany Blanche back to her home.’ She shook her head. ‘It just doesn’t seem somehow – fitting.’

‘You think the Farrar home is – beneath Marianne, do you?’

‘Well, in all honesty, sir – yes. I don’t really think it’s the ideal place for her to go. You know what some of those places are like, sir.’

He nodded. ‘Some of them, I do – yes …’ He paused. ‘Have you been inside the Farrars’ home?’

Miss Baker shook her head. ‘Oh, no, sir. Mrs Farrar asked me in but I – I declined.’

He was silent for some moments, then he said, ‘I don’t know what the sum of your experience is, Miss Baker, but whatever it is I don’t want it imposed on my daughter. If you recall, I told you at the start that although I wanted Marianne to have every care, I did not want her to be wrapped in cotton wool.’

‘Oh, yes – of course, sir …’

‘And as regards Blanche, it appears that you’ve made up your mind that because she’s from a poor background she is not fit company for Marianne and, in addition, only deserves some kind of inferior education. It was not up to you, though, to make such a decision. On the contrary, it was your responsibility to treat her as you would any other pupil – my daughter or any other in your care. It was not encumbent upon you to make the child feel different or inferior. I gave you your instructions at the beginning and I expected them to be carried out. If they were not – and I made it clear to you – then you would have to find yourself another post.’

‘Sir – Mr Savill – I’m afraid this is all the result of a – a foolish misunderstanding.’

‘Oh? But you assured me that you understood me perfectly.’

He continued to gaze at her for some moments then looked down at his desk and took up some papers. The governess remained standing there. After a few moments she said:

‘Do I take it that I am dismissed, sir?’

He looked up and nodded. ‘You do indeed, Miss Baker. This time, it seems, there is no misunderstanding.’ He paused. ‘I will give you references if you require them, of course. You may leave as soon as you wish, and I trust you will find your next position more suitable than you’ve found this one – and that you’re not faced with
the problem of having your duties conflict with your beliefs.’

When the governess had gone Savill rang for the maid and sent her to fetch Blanche to him. He was still sitting at his desk when there came a light tap on the door. He called out, ‘Come in,’ and the door opened and Blanche entered.

‘Hello, Blanche.’

‘You wanted to see me, sir.’

‘Yes, Blanche.’ He got up, went to her and led her to the chair where earlier Marianne had sat to answer his questions. When she was seated he pulled up his own chair before her and gave her a grave little smile.

‘Are you all right now?’

She nodded. ‘Yes, sir. Thank you.’

‘Good. You mustn’t be distressed any more.’

She shook her head. ‘No.’

‘It’s all over now, all that – that foolish business. It’s all finished with.’

‘Yes.’ She paused, then a frown touched her brow. ‘What did Miss Baker mean when she said all you felt for me was pity – and it’s the only reason I’m here?’

‘Now – listen …’ He paused, searching for the right words, then, leaning forward, he took one of her small hands in his. ‘I want you to forget all that Miss Baker said to you up in the schoolroom today. She didn’t mean it – and anyway she was mistaken. You’re too young now to understand everything, but one day you will and then you’ll see that people have all kinds of reasons for doing the things they do.’

She gazed at him solemnly out of her wide blue eyes. He went on:

‘And I don’t only mean Miss Baker. I mean everybody. You – and me – and Marianne … Like your
coming here to stay with Marianne. When you first came it was for
her
sake – for
our
sake – not for yours.’ He paused. ‘Do you understand that?’

She nodded.

‘Good. And you must remember that. You didn’t come here for what
we
could give to
you
, but for what
you
could give to
us
. D’you see?’

‘Yes.’

‘And that went on for a long time. And we were very – very glad – and thankful to you.’

‘Oh.’ A faint smile touched the corners of her mouth.

He was silent for a moment, then he went on again: ‘And if things change – the reasons as to why you’re here – then you must remember that however much they change it’s still only because of what happened at the beginning – because of what you did for us.’

She nodded. The nod came too quickly, though, and he realized that she didn’t understand.

‘When you were small, you and Marianne – when you were both very small she – she needed you.’ He shrugged and smiled. ‘And because she needed you – you came here to stay with her.’

‘Ah, yes …’

‘And because of all that happened at that time, so long ago, you stayed on with her. And let me tell you that we’re very glad that you did. Both Marianne and I.’

Blanche nodded.

‘One day, of course, you’ll be going back to your own home – to live all the time with your family again.’ He paused. ‘You do realize that, don’t you?’

She said nothing to this, just looked at him. The frown touched her brow again and he could see a little shadow of concern in her eyes.

‘You do understand that, don’t you?’ he said gently.

After a moment she nodded. Then she said, ‘Miss Baker said that I –’

He broke in: ‘Look, never mind what Miss Baker said. Just remember what I’m saying to you now. And remember that you will only return home when your mother decides. It’s up to your mama. Until she decides she wants you back then you’ll stay – and while you stay you must remember that we want you here. D’you understand?’

‘Yes.’

‘Good.’ Gently he pressed her hand. ‘Now you go on back upstairs and join Marianne. She’ll be wondering where you are.’

Blanche stayed where she was. ‘Miss Baker is upstairs too.’

‘Don’t worry about Miss Baker. She won’t say anything to you. Now, run along upstairs.’

After a moment she got down from the chair, moved across the room and opened the door. In the open doorway she turned back and looked at him. He smiled at her.

‘All right now?’

‘Yes, sir.’

‘Good. No more tears?’

‘No.’ She paused then added, ‘I wish I hadn’t cried this afternoon.’

‘Oh – don’t think about that. We all cry at some time.’

She thought about this for a moment. Then she said, ‘Anyway – I’ll never cry for Miss Baker again.’ She shook her head. ‘I won’t cry for a hundred Miss Bakers.’

The new Trowbridge Town Hall had been opened earlier that year, 1889, by the Duchess of Albany to mark the Queen’s golden jubilee, two years before. Now at its imposing entrance Ernest and Fanny stood reading the notice there.

Tonight at 7.30 pm, Saturday, 16th November an
exhibition of the lastest marvel of science

Hear, captured for eternity by means of the Phonograph, the voices of the famous! Listen to the voice of Madame Patti as she sings ‘Una Voce Poco Fa’. Listen to the voice of Tennyson as he recites: ‘O! for the touch of a vanished hand, and the sound of a voice that is still …’

Come Inside and Witness a Demonstration of Edison’s newest invention, as presented by Mr Lloyd, who will also give a versatile and interesting account of the uses of this fascinating and beautiful machine
.

Admission 2/- 1/- 6d

‘It’s a wonderful thing,’ Ernest said. He stood with Fanny’s arm linked with his, she standing back slightly,
a little removed from his enthusiasm. He gave a slow, wondering shake of his head. ‘To think of a machine being able to hold a human voice – and then to be able to give it out whenever you want.’ He had read of the machine when it had first come out over a year ago, but this was the first time it had been seen in Trowbridge. He began to read the notice again, but Fanny gave a little sigh and pulled on his arm.

‘Oh, come on, Ernie,’ she said. ‘It’s ‘alf over now. And besides, it’s too dear.’

He nodded. ‘Yeh, I s’pose you’re right.’

‘Anyway,’ she added, her tone dismissive. ‘It’s only another nine days wonder. Do they truly think folk have nothing better to do than sit down and listen to machines all day long?’ She pulled on his arm again, and reluctantly he turned and they moved off.

Trowbridge was the usual venue of those from the nearby villages who wanted a more alert, lively atmosphere than that found on their own doorsteps, and Ernest and Fanny were no exceptions. Finding little to do in Hallowford on a Saturday night they had walked the four miles from the village. They knew Trowbridge well, particularly Fanny who, like her father, worked as a machine operator at the Castle Court Mill where the world-famous West of England broadcloth was produced.

From the Town Hall they crossed Silver Street into Fore Street where they stopped to spend an hour over coffee in a small coffee shop. Outside again they strolled hand in hand, passing by the cattle marketplace where a brief, pale smell of dung came to them on the November air. They made their way on down Castle Street, coming at last to the bridge over the Biss. There they stopped, standing side by side in the light from the gaslamp, looking down into the dark of
the moving water below. Now, very faintly on the breeze, came the smell from the malthouse. Straightening and moving nearer to Fanny, Ernest put his arm across her shoulder and drew her closer to his side. She gave a little sigh and briefly laid her head on his shoulder. He turned her to him and bent his face to hers.

‘Ah, Fan,’ he murmured, ‘I do love you so.’

‘I love you too, Ernie.’

He kissed her, lightly at first and then more insistently. After a few moments she drew back her head. ‘It’s too public in the lamplight,’ she said. ‘Someone’ll see us.’

‘Ah, to hell with ‘em.’

She chuckled. ‘All right for you to say that.’

Ernest and Fanny had seen one another about the village for most of their lives, during which time they had barely taken notice of the other’s existence. But then in the late summer of last year they had found themselves together at a village dance. Since then they had spent more and more time together, meeting two or three evenings during the weeks and at weekends.

Now, in a sudden rush of affection, Ernest drew her to him, kissed her again and then stood looking down into her face. Sometimes lately he felt hardly able to believe his luck. Fanny was just about the sweetest, prettiest girl he had ever seen. Coming up to just above his shoulder, her neat, trim little figure was dressed in a woollen coat of olive green with a paler green braiding. On her red-gold hair she wore a little bonnet of green velvet, trimmed with ribbon. Her eyes, laughing up at him now, were a greenish-grey. She had a short, pert, freckled little nose and a soft, pink little mouth that turned up at the corners and which, when she smiled, as now, set tiny dimples in her cheeks. It was no wonder
at all to him that Charlie Durbin from Hallowford, and Tim Higham who worked near her at the factory, should both be trying their luck with her. Neither one of them would have her, though; he was determined on that score.

He kissed her again and she returned the kiss. Then as they broke apart she said with a sigh, ‘I suppose we’d better get back home. There’ll be ructions if I’m late.’ She pulled up the collar of her coat and sighed again. ‘Oh, I wish I didn’t have to live at home.’

‘Why?’

‘There’s no privacy – no room. Having to do what you’re told all the time. I ‘ates it.’ She shook her head. ‘I’d like to go away from Hallowford. There’s never anything to do there.’

‘Where else would you live, then?’

She shrugged. ‘Well, I wouldn’t mind livin’ here in Trowbridge. Would you? For a start you could get a better job. One that paid better.’

‘Work in the brewery or in one of the mills? No, I wouldn’t want to be cooped up all day long in some factory. Anyway, I like Hallowford all right.’

‘But you wouldn’t want to live there after we’re married, would you?’

Fanny had brought up the subject of marriage on several occasions over the past few weeks. Ernest wanted marriage, but it just wasn’t possible yet. They were too young.

‘When d’you think it’ll be, Ernie?’ she said, ‘– our getting married?’

‘Oh, Fan – we’ve got some time yet before we seriously start thinking about that. It’s too soon yet.’

‘I don’t know why you say that,’ she responded quickly, ‘– Robbie Soames is getting married – and he’s only eighteen, same as you.’

‘Yes, maybe, but perhaps Robbie Soames can afford it.’

‘Well – I don’t think ‘e’s got that much in the way of money.’

‘No, and ain’t got that much in the way o’ sense, neither. Anyway – I couldn’t leave our mam yet. She depends on me.’ He shook his head. ‘No, I’ll ‘ave to wait a while till the others are a bit older. Our Arthur’s earnin’ a bit now – and our Agnes, too, so maybe after a while, in two-three years –’

‘Two-three years?’

‘Don’t say it like that, Fan. It’s not a lifetime. It’ll soon pass.’

‘Oh, ah, for you, per’aps. Anyway,’ she said with a sigh, ‘– we’d better get on back home.’

Soon after eleven-thirty the next morning, Sunday, Sarah called at Hallowford House to take Blanche down to the cottage. As they made their way down the hill towards the lane Blanche walked slightly apart, silent. Sarah studied her, seeing the preoccupied expression in her eyes. Something was wrong; she had realized it as soon as she had seen her that morning.