Rockstar Daddy (Decoy Series) (7 page)

      "Welcome to our home! Come in and I'll show you round."

Max is the more sensible one of the two friends but he can still be a pain when there together. There both male slags and put there dicks where ever they can which gets annoying when you have to share a tour bus. On our bus there's only two proper rooms where you can get privacy, they both have double beds but the walls are paper thin and you hear everything. Most of the time it's me and Rhys that are on the small bunks because there's no need for us to use a double bed and the amount of girls I've seen on them beds I wouldn't want to lie on them. Leo is the immature one of us all, he can get into a lot of trouble without trying. His mouth has no filter so what he says can land him in to some awkward situations.

   Max leads me into the house and I see it's all open plan. As soon as you step in your stood in the living area. The floor is covered in cream shinney tiles, it's bright because there's a huge glass panel window. There's a big red corner sofa already here, off the living room there an L shape corner where a black table and chairs are placed. Another big glass panel window on the end showing the garden area. On the other side of this huge open space is the kitchen, there's a wall separating it from the living and dining areas but there a big arch instead of a door. The kitchen has everything you need, everything high tech. One wall is just glass with patio doors in the middle to let you out to the garden. The rest of the kitchen is all red and black, a theme I'm already noticing. We walk out the patio doors and I spot Leo walking out a little outhouse. There's a big pool with a jacuzzi area attached. I can totally see these two here, this is a party house. Leo makes his way over with a huge grin on his face.

   "So Jax what do ya think of this place?"

      "Yea looks cool. Its pretty big. What's in there?"

I point to the out house where he just came from.

      "It's like some sick man cave. Pool table, arcade games, there's even a bar!"

Yea I was right, this is a party house. I knew it but I guess I'll stay because I can't be bothered to look anywhere else. The guys take me back  inside. We make our way back though the kitchen and living room. When you open the front door there's a wall on your right and in front of you are stairs with an glass panels letting it look all open. I look up and the glass panels carry on across the landing so you can look over the living area from upstairs. But Max opens a door I didn't notice near the stairs and we go through. I see another door that open straight in front of us, it looks like a long hallway, Leo tells me it leads you to the inside of the garage. We move further into the huge empty room, all it has in here in a large protector screen on one wall. The wall opposite has two large glass doors with long black curtains hanging either side, a cinema room.

     "I think we should use this as a second living room. We need space from each other an we might not always want to watch the same shit on TV."

  I'm impressed by what Max says, he makes a good point and I'm already warming to the idea of moving in with them. Not for too long though, I will eventually need my own place. We leave the room and the guys lead me up the stairs, the bottom of the house is huge so I'm eager to see how big the bedrooms are here, we reach the top of the landing and it's a huge open space. Theres five doors, weird because Leo told me this place was a three bedroom. They point to there room and show the bathroom which is white and silver, all usual bathroom appliances. They take me to the third room and it's a small box room, no en suite bathroom like theres. What the fuck? Max's guitars are leaning on one wall, Leo drum kits on the other. It's a big room but not as big as there huge rooms. I turn to look at them and there smirking.

      "Chill out man this ain't your room."

I must have a stupid look on my fac because Leo continues to laugh and me and Max explains,

      "Look I know we aren't the easiest people to live with so when we saw this house's little secret we knew you had to have it. Come on man."

He walks to the last door right at the end of the landing and when he opens the door he lets me walk in first. I climb the stairs, wall either side and hold onto the banister. When I reach the top I'm shocked. This room is ridiculous. It's massive! I see through the open door there's and en suite decorated in black. The coolest thing though is the glass doors leading to my own balcony, steel poles separate the square glass panels at the end of the decking floor. I can see over the garden but it's the other side so no sight of the pool and jacuzzi so I wouldn't ave to overlook the guys if there entertaining girls. This is definitely my room. I turn and see the guys looking back at me and Leo has a big smile on his face, he knows I'm going to say yes.

      "Soooooooo?"

I give them a nod and they high five each other.

      "Yes! Just think of all the pussy party's we can have here man!"

I cringe. Yep just what I thought typical Max and Leo.

      "You can count me out on the party's. I'll stay away."

Leo rolls his eyes.

       "We knew that, why did you think we let you have the best room in the house?"

   "The last owners built an extension on top of the cinema room."

We talk money and were all set. The rent is pretty high but what do you expect from a house like this? Leo asks me if he can have picks from my fan girls because I'm not going near them anymore. They look at me all wide eyed when I tell them I'm not having anymore one night stands. I don't want that anymore, I don't think I ever did. I want a girl I can care about, I may be front man of a rockband but I'm not at all like a rockstar. I'm not a player and I'm not a dick. At least I think I'm not.

      "Are you sure Jax? You don't know how long it will be until you meet a girl like that."

His actually looks panicked, like I can die or something from no sex.

   "Yea I'm sure. I want what Rhys has. I don't want that cheep shit."

      "Alright Jaxy boy, if your sure."

I nod. I am definitely sure.

~Kendal~

Two months later.....

   I knew I was right about Sophie. She has fit right in with us and is definitely a fellow sister. Over the past two months we have had girly nights at either Maisys or Tanya's apartments, lunches, shopping trips, a couple of nights out when Finley was at my parents on his Saturday nights. I have also not seen Jax yet, the papers still write about them being in town but we haven't seen them. So I decide to try and have fun with Finley and forget about Jax for today. Hopefully. I'm still in two minds about it. I know I should do it, If I see him I might ask for his number so I can get in touch and maybe tell him but at the minute I have no idea of how to get into contact with him anyway.

   Me and Finley are going to the cinema today to watch the latest childrens film. I'm looking forward to it and by the amount of excitement that's bouncing off Finley, he is too. Just as I'm about to make my way downstairs my phone alerts a text message from Tanya.

TANYA:   Summer is approaching so we need a shopping trip. What do ya say? Jess and Maisy can do next Weds + I no u have the day off, Fin will b at school so u will b free! Ask Sophie 4 me, I txt her 2 but not heard back. Love ya bitch xoxo

I don't know how she always knows my work timetables I suppose I do need some new clothes though, I always go out intending to buy for me but end up coming home with things for Finley instead. I can't help it when there's cute clothes everywhere. I bet she hasn't even given Sophie two minutes to reply back to her but I do as I'm told and ask Sophie if she's coming.

ME:   Hey Soph, u coming shopping with us? Its not this Weds,its the Weds after. Tans bugging me cuz u din't txt back u no what shes like! Luv ya xx

I get to the bottom of my stairs and I get a reply

SOPHIE:   I just text her back the impatient woman! Yea Im deffo up 4 shopping. Look forward 2 it  luv ya 2 xx

      "Come on mummy"

Finley walks up to me, hands on his hips and huffing. He looks adorable as always today in his self picked outfit because god forbid he actually wears what I pick out for him. When we went to Jessica and Sams over the weekend Sam had spiked his hair up so now I have to do it everyday. He does look adorable but I'm reminded again who his dad is because I know that Jax spikes his in this signature messy due.

      "Mummy?"

I shake my head clear of my Jax daydream and straighten myself up.

   "Right OK. Lets go."

      "Yessss! Lets go! Lets go!"

I laugh at my little rockstar as he runs out onto our drive jumping at the side of the car, doing his little excited dance.

*~*~*

   I'm sat in the staff room at work with Tanya and she's talking about is the shopping trip. Apparently she took a look in her wardrobe, which I'm pretty sure is full because she's always shopping and thought there was nothing for her to wear. I don't believe that for a second.

      "I just need fresh new clothes Kendal, there all from last summer and the year before that!"

I roll my eyes, I can just see her now chucking everything out of her wardrobe on a mad warpath.

      "I need your advice on my new clothes. You know what your talking about when it comes to clothes."

I scoff, I do not. I get up, see to Finley and chuck whatever on that I fancy that particular day. No thought process into it.

   "I don't plan my outfits Tanya, I'm in too much of a rush in the mornings."

      "Yea well you have this I-don't-try-but-I-still-look-sexy-as-hell look going on."

I can't help it but I lean my head back and laugh out loud.

    "Oh and by the way, no shopping for Finley. Just for you and I mean it."

       "What! I have to. I feel guilty Tan and I have to get him something. Even a toy."

Tanya shakes her head and takes a big sip of her tea.

      "No Kendal. You need to treat yourself, I've seen Finley's wardrobe, that boy has more clothes than me. He doesn't need anything else. This is a girls day out, where going to boutiques and shops for us."

I huff in irritation.

      "Fine but if I see something don't blame me, you know I can't help myself."

I welcome the silence as I drink my tea while Tanya flicks through a magazine. My mind wonders to reading that article from the paper. That was ten days ago now, and the pain in my heart still feels the same as if I have just read it again. Everyone's cautious about what they say to me and it's pissing me off. I am a grown woman and there all treating me like a baby. I still haven't told Sophie who Finley's dad is yet, she hasn't seen Finley yet either. That's partly my fault because I'm still scared in case she recognizes who his dad is and the longer I leave it the worse it is to come clean. I feel terrible not telling her but it is a huge secret and even though I really like Sophie we have only known her for nearly three months. When I know more about this hole fan situation and we have known each other longer then I will tell her. But right now I love the fact Jessica can't grill me when were around Sophie. Ever since I told her about my change of mind about Jax she has been pressing me if I have thought about it more and truthfully I have but I'm scared shitless about the whole thing. Will he be happy he has a son? His bound to get angry with me. Could he forgive me? I do feel shit about about the whole thing and yea I know I did this but I generally thought I was doing the right thing. Now? Not so much. It's hard because four years ago I made this huge discission thinking I was doing best by everyone. Jax gets his dream and I wouldn't get the blame for keeping him from it but poor little Finley is loosing out. I haven't heard anything more about Decoy so until then I still don't know what to do. Jessica tries to talk to me about it but I don't know what I can say to her.