Rockstar Daddy (Decoy Series) (28 page)

~Kendal~

  
Shit! Shit! Shitty shit shit!
Was what I was thinking when I opened my front door. Jax looks so much more sexy standing in front of me than in his pictures. His definitely been working out in the past four years, his shoulders look wider and more rounded with muscle. I smile inwardly when I see his hair is in it's usual mess that I've always seen it in since the day I met him. It's also the messy head of hair our son has inherited which makes my heart melt for this man in front of me. I feel like laughing when I see his not stuck to the dress code for tonight at all, well he does look smarter than in the pictures I saw of him from the music awards. His wearing tight black skinny jeans, I try and ignore the rush of lust when I notice his jeans are a little stretched in his crotch area. So he likes what I'm wearing huh? Well me too as my eyes take the rest of him in, my eyes leave his crotch and travel up to his chest, his wearing a plain white top but it hugs his muscled torso so deliciously. I can see the shape of his pecks and I swallow hard. His wearing a blazer type jacket, it's black but the sleeves and the collar around the neck and down the front of the jacket is a black leather material. It hugs his big shoulders and arms. I feel happy when I see he still loves his high top converse as I see them on his large feet. This gorgeous man still effects me so much I'm fighting myself to run into his arms and let him hold me.

   My happy feeling was crushed when I got into his ridiculously expensive sexy sports car and read the text I received before I came out the house. It's from Harley.

HARLEY:  Hi Kendal, I hope we can have that catch up soon because I really do miss U sexy xx

When Jax got into the car I quickly put my phone back in my bag and tried to start up a conversation. The only thing I could think of was his car and I know fuck all about cars so that was a fail but at least I made Jax laugh. I was shocked when he told me I can tell my boyfriend, where the hell did he get that idea from? Or was he just fishing? But I did noticed his tone was a little angry when he asked but he seemed to relax when I told him I'm single. Odd, why would he care? I bet he could have any woman he wants. Why me? The girl he had years ago and then left him. When we pulled up at Eclipse I was gobsmacked. This place is amazing, it's a mixture of being high class and with a modern style twist. I do notice when we greet the young girl who shows us to our table she quickly undoes her top button of her blouse and adjusts her tits. She flashes her smile at Jax and doesn't even look at me. As we follow her I feel Jax place his hand on the small of my back and my whole body is aware of his hand and his body getting closer to mine. The sparks are still there between us, how can that be? Four years apart and as soon as were together again the pure sexual need returns like we have never been apart.

   Eclipse restaurant is well known for it's food and high class but also they host private areas for a more intimate setting. So I should have known Jax would choose a private area for tonight. The young flirtatious woman, who keeps looking back to take a peak at Jax, leads us to the far corner of the downstairs seating area to a large elevator. She clicks the button and turns around to face us. Well, I say face us, she only has eyes for Jax. This is one of the other reasons I decided it was time to leave Jax, the girls were obvious back then, now there dam right in your face. He is standing here with me and she's still flirting. Talking to him and fluttering her eyebrows and ever so innocently touching her rounded bicep. He still has his hand on my back for crying out loud! You could actually think we were a couple if you didn't know the truth about us but that doesn't faze miss-flirt-a-lot here. Skank.

   Thankfully the elevator doors open and we both step in leaving the skank outside. She pouts at us and then looks back to where she should be standing. Torn between doing her job and staying with Jax.

      "You will be greeted by someone upstairs, or I can come and help you Jax?"

I scoff and she gives me an irritated look and then quickly looks back to Jax. Before I can give her a piece of my mind Jax steps in.

      "No thanks, I'm here with my very beautiful lady here and I don't want to be disturbed."

The elevator doors shut in her face and I burst out laughing.

      "I'm sorry about that Kendal."

I stop laughing and see his frowning down at the floor. I touch his arm and smile at him, he feels bad for me having to go through miss skank out there.

      "Jax, it's fine. I'm just glad you stepped in before I said what I wanted to."

I laugh again and I'm glad to hear Jax does too. That dam sexy deep man chuckle he does. We look at each other and stop laughing, this feels nice. Not awkward at all, I realize that with Jax gone, I not only lost my boyfriend. I lost my best friend. Yes the girls and my guys are my best friends too but with Jax we had that connection. We were friends and lovers, we were in love. I know I still love him, I thought I did but now I have seen him again I know I haven't fell out of love with him. When he told the girl downstairs that I'm his very beautiful lady it made me feel very happy. That happy that I can feel my pants a little damp from my excitement. The doors open and break me from my sexual thoughts and I look to the man who is waiting for us. He takes my hand as I step out and gives me a big smile,

      "Can I show you to your table Miss?"

A hand touches the lower of my back and I know it's Jax by how my body responds to him.

      "Yea, please do."

The mans eyes widen a little and he clears his throat. Jax pulls me away from the stranger and we walk side by side to where our private room is. There's about five doors up here and he takes us to the nearest one and opens the door. The room is beautiful decorated in light blue and white, in the middle is a big white table all set up and ready for us.

Chapter 19

~Jax~

   I feel like such a dick! Only ten minutes with me and Kendal has already had to deal with that shit. I know there just fans but this is one of the reasons Kendal gave me before she ran away from me. I'm happy she laughed though but I could have killed that jackass who tried to take her from me when we got out the lift. Kendal is a beautiful woman so obviously guys will hit on her but not anymore. Especially when I'm around.

   We have boring chit chat after we order our food and now
Kendal's looking a little awkward sat opposite me.

      "Thanks for coming with me. You didn't have to."

She looks up at me and smiles but I know it's forced.

      "That's OK, I came here so it wouldn't be awkward on Saturday."

Well I'm going to ignore the sting from that.

      "So how you been? What have you been doing these past four years?"

She shuffles in her chair a little, interesting.

      "Nothing special. Working and all that. Tell me about you, I bet your story is more interesting than mine."

   "Not really. I can't really trust anyone. I just have the guys to keep me company and Sophie of course. I knew you two would get on great."

She nods and puckers her lips, something she does when she's thinking.

      "That can't be nice, I bet it doesn't stop you getting laid though. Her downstairs for example."

She's jealous I know it and I could dance it makes me feel that good. Why does she sound angry about it? This is what she wanted.

      "I'm not going to lie about that but you can't tell me you haven't had sex with anyone since we split up."

She blushes and I now feel angry.

      "Obviously not as many as you."

No  but just the thought of one guy other than me holding her sweet little body makes me want to kill a bastard. The waiter bringing our food in stops me saying anything back but I decide to change the subject. We need to be on good terms for Saturday. We talk over her friends and she asks me about the guys. I can see by her face she misses them. They miss her, I had to keep Max and Leo back from coming tonight. She looks stunning, I want to hold her like I used to. Naked with no barriers between us. I will have her again.

      "I can't believe this has all happened."

I nod my head in agreement as I finish my food.

      "Yea it's pretty crazy but it's good to see you Kendal. I've always thought about you."

   "I thought about you too. I bought your albums and kept track on you guys. You've done great Jax."

She blushes and I give her a little wink. When she giggles the awkwardness lifts. I can't believe after all of this here she is in front of me. Having dinner looking sexy as sin, all the women I have been with have nothing on this goddess. The rest of the dinner I shamelessly flirt and when we have dessert I move my chair so I'm sitting at her side. I place my hand on her knee and I wish I could touch her allot more but I need to be on my best behavior."

~Kendal~

   Oh my fucking god! Jax has moved his chair and has his hand on my knee. My underwear was wet with arousal now it's soaked. All his done is innocently flirt and touched my knee. I am so horny right now but I can't act on it, it's not fair on Jax. He doesn't know what I need to tell him. I finish my dessert and he asks me about my job.

      "So you're doing what you love then?"

   "Yea, I love going in to work. My boss is awesome."

      "I'm glad, I would hate to go and kick his ass."

I laugh and shake my head.

      "My boss is a woman Jax."

   "Well shit, sorry Kenny you're on your own there."

After the laughing has stopped I'm aware the atmosphere has changed. He scoots closer and tucks my hair behind my ear.

      "I'm glad your doing what you wanted babe. It makes me happy. We both reached our dream."

Well not technically. I wanted to own my own business but obviously having Finley put a hold on that.

      "Not 100% yet but maybe in a few years."

His hand wonders down from my hair and onto my neck. Oh shit. I stare into his beautiful gray eyes and try and forget the guilt deep down in my gut. I keep thinking
'your son has your eyes Jax.'

      "You will make it happen, I know you will."

We stare into each others eyes in silence. I know he can hear my deep lust filled breathing. His eyes go down to my mouth and I instinctivity look at his. Memories of what his done to me with that mouth are flooding back and I need to stop them. I'm already wet enough. He moves closer and I freeze in place. As much as I want to have his mouth on mine I can't do this right now. It's too soon.

      "Jax."

I whisper and he closes his eyes and then leans his forehead onto mine.

      "I'm sorry baby. Shall we get you home?"

The drive home is quite but it's not uncomfortable. It's nice. It's so unreal I'm here in Jax's car. It's a pity I can't tell him yet, this seems like a good time to but I can't. I think I'll meet him on the Sunday, the sooner the better. Before I know it were outside my house.

      "Here we are, thanks for coming Kendal."

   "I enjoyed it Jax, it was lovely. Thankyou."

      "Can I ask you a question before you go?"

   "Sure, what's up?"

He looks a little shy and then looks right at me with those stunning eyes.

     "If your not seeing anyone, then who's Finley?"

I gasp. How does he know about Finley? Where did he hear his name?

      "Sorry, it's just Sophie said today you were seeing Finley and I was just confused. Forget it, it's not my business."