Authors: Xanthe Walter
man - that looks painful. Way to go, bro; you're
such a fucking badass!"
"What…?" Rick fumbled for the remote and
turned over to the news channel.
"TV star Richard O'Shea was pulled over for
a speeding violation earlier today," a smug
sounding presenter said. "It looks as if O'Shea has
a lot in common with the character he plays on the
hit TV show
Collar Crime
- trouble magnet Agent
Alex Tanner!"
"What the hell?" Rick stared at the TV in
horror.
"You're one bad dom-fucking dom!" Cilla
hollered down the phone.
"Yeah, whatever. Fuck off, Cilla." He
snapped the phone shut and turned his attention
back to the news.
"It hasn't been a good day for O'Shea - our
sources tell us he took six in the studio discipline
room earlier in the day too - and then another six
this evening at the Justice Hall. Even Alex Tanner
doesn't usually get into that much trouble in one
day!"
Rick watched, in stunned surprise, as they
showed some grainy cell phone footage of him in
the discipline room at the Justice Hall. He could
feel the embarrassment deep in his bones as he
watched every single humiliating second of it. It
only made it worse when he realized that whoever
had taken the footage had to have been standing…
right in the spot where Susan Antonio had been.
"Shit. What a crappy thing to do! I was nice to
her as well," he muttered, feeling completely
betrayed. It wasn't, strictly speaking, legal to video
other people's punishments, so maybe Susan
Antonio hadn't been the sweet innocent he'd taken
her for. She clearly didn't seem to have any
problem breaking the law, even straight after being
punished for it.
His cell phone rang again, but he ignored it.
The only person he was worried about was Petra -
he hoped this didn't mean his job was in danger.
He sent her a text, apologizing and saying he'd
explain at work the next day. He really wasn't up
to any kind of conversation with his boss tonight;
he'd probably only say something to make the
situation worse.
He turned off the TV and stared blankly at the
carpet for a long time, feeling like the entire world
was against him. The doorbell rang, and he
wondered if it was the press, wanting some kind of
stupid interview. He supposed it was better to get
it over with, so he rolled off the sofa, walked
slowly to the front door, and opened it.
"Hey, Rick - are you okay?" Matt was
standing there, holding a pizza box in one hand and
a bottle of wine in the other. He was wearing dark
chinos and a blue shirt that brought out the color of
his eyes. He looked like he was dressed for a date,
except for the denim jacket slung over the top,
which didn't match his outfit at all, and the silver
scarf draped around his neck.
"What are you doing here, Matty?" Rick
asked tiredly.
"I saw you on the news." Matt pushed past
him and walked into the house. "You looked like
shit, and I figured you hadn't eaten, so I thought I'd
bring something over. Pizza and sympathy?" He
held up the pizza box.
Rick gave a little chuckle and shut the door.
"No need, Matt. I'm fine. Okay, so this hasn't been
the best day of my life, but I'm fine."
"Bullshit." Matt's eyes blazed angrily. "I can
tell you're hurting, and I don't blame you. How
dare they show that footage? Nobody should have
been allowed to film you! That's infringement. Do
you know who it was? You could bring a case
against them."
Rick thought of Susan Antonio quietly
snuffling into her tissue beside him on the bench.
He thought of her thin shoulders, scuffed shoes,
and the hole in her blouse and decided he didn't
mind her making a fast buck out of his misery.
"Yeah, I know, but I won't bring a case. I'd rather
let it drop."
"Good luck with that - it'll be all over the
papers tomorrow."
"I know." Rick ran a tired hand through his
hair. "But if I don't make a big deal of it or
complain about it, then it'll pass over more
quickly.
Matt nodded, thoughtfully. "You know, for an
idiotic lunk, you're actually quite sensible at
times."
Rick managed a faint grin at that. "Did you
say something about pizza?" he said, brightening a
little as his stomach began to growl.
"Yup. C'mon - you can eat lying on your
stomach, can't you?" Matt grinned at him.
"Sure - I've had plenty of practice!" Rick
wished he hadn't said that the minute it was out of
his mouth. "You know - from on the show," he
added quickly to cover his mistake. "Alex is
always eating that way after the chief has punished
him."
"Yeah. Sure." Matt patted his arm. They went
into the living room, and Matt took off his jacket
and scarf and hung them neatly over the back of
one of the chairs, while Rick eased himself down
onto the sofa with a sigh. "You really are having a
crappy day," Matt said, handing him a slice of
pizza.
"Yeah, but it's looking a lot better now," Rick
said, looking at the pizza, his mouth watering.
"Pepperoni and onion? My favorite!"
"I know." Matt went over to the sideboard,
found a couple of glasses, and brought them back
to the coffee table. Then he opened the wine and
poured them both a glass.
"Wine - very civilized," Rick said, taking a
sip. "And expensive!" He let out an appreciative
sigh and glanced at the bottle.
"Of course." Matt inclined in his head. "You
might act like a complete philistine, but I've
noticed you always seem to know a good wine
when we have a cast party. So - how do you feel?"
"Sore." Rick winced.
"I'm not surprised - twelve hard licks in one
day - that has to hurt. What's it like?" he asked
curiously.
Rick took a bite out of his pizza. "You've
never taken licks in public?"
Matt shook his head. "I try to never get into
trouble. It's really not that hard, Rick; you should
try it someday."
"Ha ha." Rick made a face. "Seriously - you
never got disciplined at work ever?" Matt shook
his head as he bit into his pizza. "How about at the
Justice Hall?"
"Nope." Matt shook his head again.
"How is that even possible?"
"Actually, it's quite normal for most people."
Matt rolled his eyes. "You're the freak here, Rick."
"And you're the control freak." Rick grinned.
"Never getting into any trouble - ever?" He raised
an eyebrow. "You need to cut loose and take some
risks, Matt. You might find you actually have some
fun."
"Yeah, because it definitely looked like you
were having fun on that news item earlier," Matt
responded tartly. "And you didn't answer my
question - what's it like?"
"Painful. Hey - didn't you have a date with
Ermentrude tonight?" Rick asked, changing the
subject.
"Yeah." Matt's face had that pinched look it
always got when he was unhappy.
"What happened?"
"She dumped me."
"What? Is she an idiot?" Rick tried to sit up
and then winced and flopped back down again.
"Are you upset?"
"No. That's the weird thing. I think I should
be, but I'm not. I'm more mad, I think."
"That's good! Don't be upset - be mad. You
totally didn't deserve for her to treat you that way."
"That's not it; I wish it was. I think I should've
got mad at her a long time ago, but I didn't.
Anyway, I'm not mad at her - I'm mad at myself. I
knew I wasn't enjoying being with her, and I
should've ended it, not her. Damn it!" Matt kicked
the pizza box and it went flying halfway across the
room. He made an apologetic little noise and
dashed over to get it and bring it back to the sofa.
"Well, I'm angry with her, even if you aren't,"
Rick said. "I always hated the way she ordered
you around and treated you like you were
something she'd scraped off her shoe."
"Really?"
"Yeah, Matty. She wasn't good enough for
you. Never could understand why you stuck with
her."
"Me neither." Matt sighed.
"Well, I'm glad it's over," Rick said between
bites of his pizza. "You should play the field, Matt.
You're a good looking sub - doms everywhere
must be falling over themselves to sweet-talk you
into bed."
"I'm not like you, Rick. I don't think I'd enjoy
playing the field."
"You're young - have some fun!"
"See, to me, that isn't fun." Matt bristled. "I
want to connect with someone, Rick! To find a
dom I can really trust and relax with and not…"
"Not?" Rick raised an eyebrow.
"Not have to count with." Matt's pale skin
flushed an endearing shade of pink. "I wish I could
switch off my brain and not have to count
everything all the time."
"It was worse with Emily, wasn't it?" Rick
said. "I could tell. She made you nervous and when
you're nervous the OCD is worse. Also, you yell at
me more on set." He winked.
Matt laughed. "Well, you do deserve to be
yelled at a lot of the time."
"I know. What can I say? I'm trouble - and
today that caught up with me, big time." Rick
glanced over his shoulder ruefully.
"I'm an OCD freak who can't keep a dom, and
you're an idiot who can't keep out of trouble." Matt
grinned and held up his glass of wine. "What's left
to do but celebrate?"
Rick laughed and clinked his glass against
Matt's. "You're right. At least we can be screw-ups
together!"
He finished his pizza and lay back down with
a sigh, yelping as his sore ass made itself felt.
"Do you want me to put something on that?"
Matt asked, getting up. "Where do you keep the
ointment?"
"What ointment?"
"Whatever you use on your subs after
discipline?" Matt raised an eyebrow.
Rick felt irritated, even though it wasn't
Matt's fault. "I wouldn't know. I've never
disciplined a sub in my life."
"What?" Matt folded his arms over his chest,
looking perplexed. "Seriously, Rick?"
"Seriously. Who the hell am I to discipline
anyone for anything? I'm the biggest screw up there
is!"
"But have you never done a really hard
spanking session with a sub because they enjoyed
it?"
"No, because I wouldn't enjoy it; it's not my
thing," Rick said firmly.
"Really? What is?"
"Hah - that's between me and my subs!" Rick
grinned up at him.
"So you hate spanking?"
"No!" Rick was outraged. "I love spanking -
that's the point! That's why I'd hate to swing a strap
around and do a really hard-core discipline scene.
For me, spanking is… well, it's beautiful!" He
smiled as he remembered spanking that sub he'd
picked up last night. "It's an act of intimacy,
affection and sensuality - I adore pulling a sub
over my knee and building up a spanking like
playing a piano or painting a picture. Just to whale
down with some implement for the sake of it, even
if the sub gets off on it - that really isn't my scene
at all. It's not me, or how I like to play."
Matt gave a little whistle. "Wow - that's
almost poetic, Rick. Just when I think I've got you
figured out, you go and surprise me. I've never met
a dom like you before, although half the time I'm
not convinced you are a dom."
"Well, I am," Rick said flatly. "Just not that
kind of dom. Look, spanking is a really personal
thing for me, Matt. It's special, and a really big
deal. I hated being down at the Justice Hall not
because I took licks but because I had to watch
other people taking them - especially subs. It was
like watching something that's incredibly important
to me being trampled into the dust. It set my teeth
on edge."
Matt sat back down on the sofa again. "You
actually mean that? It really did upset you?" He
sounded surprised, and Rick realized that Matt had
never seen this side of him; then again, he never