Reckless (20 page)

“Always sweetheart, I always will want you to.”

“It’s nice being here Sean, it’s freeing, clears my head and gives me a chance to regain my strength and deal with my grandmother’s death. And I haven’t been to my father’s, nor my mother’s grave in years, either.” I lay my head against hers wanting to argue with her but am unable to. “Give me a few weeks and I will be back in time to play your groupie girl in your stupid movie you tricked me into doing.”

“I didn’t trick you … groupie.” She smiles nodding, as I trace my fingers along her face. “I guess I can deal with that, not happily but I will deal with it, as long as you call me every day and night.” She laughs at my ridiculous pouting. “I love you. Don’t ever doubt that, no matter how much you drive me crazy I will always love you.” I said taking her lips into mine softly. Smoke tired of waiting, pokes his head into my arm. “I’m leaving, give me a minute,” I said to him earning a frustrated snort.

“You better go, or you’re going to be rushing and I know how you are when you are stressed.”

I kiss her one more time, before pulling away. “I love you Ava.” I yelled to her as I walk back towards the house.

“I love you too,” she yelled back joyfully.

I can’t wipe the smile off my face as I race to catch up with the car that has come for me. When I reach the house, I race to the porch grabbing my bag and shake Jack’s hand before forcing him into an impromptu hug.

“Okay now, enough of that. Just get on out of here before you piss me off.” Jack said waving me on.

“You’re a mean old bastard, Jack.” I said as he shakes his cane at me. I laugh handing the driver my bag and relaxing back into the car, “Oh Jack, sorry about the bed?” I said knowing the stir I was about to cause.

He scrunches his eyebrows, “What did you do to my bed?”Jack wobbles quickly on his cane reaching the back bedroom in a loud huff. “Son of a bitch!”
I don’t know how much it costs to fix an old bed but whatever it is it’s worth it just to have this moment.
“You broke my bed!” He yelled walking out fast as we start to pull away, “I’m going to kick your ass, Sean! Where’s my gun!” He said turning around and searching for his shotgun. “Knew I should have shot him the first time I saw him,” he mumbled as he continues to search.

“Mean old bastard,” I mumbled. As we leave, I catch sight of Ava riding Smoke across the clearing, hair blowing behind her, bright smile on her face and the sparkle back in her eyes. I lean back in my seat enjoying the view.

Rebecca

It is days before I hear from him but my anger has not diminished any. “What the hell were you thinking?” I yelled.

“Shut up Rebecca,” Joel huffs back.

“Joel, I just don’t get how you could be so foolish.”

“I’m still in pain here why are you giving me hell?”

“That’s your own fault, you should have shut your mouth and let him get it out of his system rather than piss him off even more.”

“I couldn’t help it, I enjoyed pissing him off.”

“Well you certainly succeeded in doing that.”

 
“Don’t lecture me, at least I saved your ass.” Joel sighed.

“I believe I actually saved your ass - sweetheart. I did accidently lose your drugs, throw out the mask before the cops arrived and refuse to press charges against you. Without me, all they have is Ava’s word against yours. They have no case against you baby, thanks to me.” Joel mumbles his praises reluctantly. While I sink down deep into my seat, “Now, I am going to have to become the greatest friend in the world to Sean.”

“He’s letting you stay in the guesthouse?” Joel asks in shock.

“Baby, he understands that I am scared of you, after all, you did beat me up. Sean loves to protect his women.” He laughs nearly causing me to laugh. “Laugh if you want but you need to stay clear of him before you get yourself killed.”

“I didn’t know you cared?” He smarts off clearly taking a drink in between breaths.

“Well your life insurance hasn’t been paid in months, so I don’t have much of a choice do I?”

“Touching, I think I will hang up the phone before I get all misty eyed.” I laugh at him, knowing he still loves me.

Over the next couple of weeks, while Ava is gone, I am able to work my way back into Sean’s good graces. I am the perfect houseguest. I have his dinner heated and ready for him every night. Make light conversation about his day and wish him well for the next. And I always make sure to leave early and way before he thinks about asking me to and most importantly, I never push him to talk about anything sexual or even close to. He is lonely and even more so as each day passes but today is the day I make my move. With my killer dress on, I meet him at the set, making sure to take a taxi so he will have to drive me home. Waiting for him in his trailer, I greet him with a vibrant smile when he opens the door.

“Hi,” I said lengthening my bare legs out in front of him.

“Hi. What are you doing here?” He said looking around nervously.

“Well you looked a little down last night so I thought we would go out to dinner tonight.”

“I don’t …”

“I will not take no for an answer Sean. Besides I am dying to get out of that house for awhile and I am already dressed.” I said standing up and twirling slowly for him. “Please don’t make me go home disappointed in my new dress.”

“Rebecca, I don’t think I am in the mood, it’s been a long day.”

“Oh don’t act like an old man, take me out for dinner, then we can go home. What’s an hour or two of your time going to hurt? And wouldn’t you like to get out and eat with other people for a change?”

He sighs loudly, “Yeah, okay, that actually does sound better than going home and staring at the walls.”

I clap excitedly, “This is going to be so much fun!”

Sean takes me to a restaurant that knows him well. They greet him by his first name and makes sure we have a private table away from prying eyes. They treat me like a queen and I make sure to act the part so no one will think of treating me any other way.

Sean pulls out my chair for me, “Thank you,” I said sitting down and trying to hold back my smile.

“You’re welcome,” he said sitting down across from me.

“See you look better already,” I said.

“I feel better, and I hate to say it, but you were right. It feels good to be out of the house for awhile.”

“Wow did Sean Grant actually admit that I was right about something?”

He laughs, “Don’t get used to that.”

“I wouldn’t dare.” I said as his eyes wander the room. “So how did everything go today?”

“Good I guess. Your husband showed up today.” He glances over at me with a scowl.

“You didn’t kill him did you?”

“No, he was smart enough to stay clear of me.”

“How does he look? Does he still look like he was run over by a semi … twice?”

Sean smiles, “I don’t know about twice but at least once.”

I roll my eyes playfully, “He did deserve it, and I can’t say I miss him.”

Leaning on the table towards me, his green eyes focus on me, sending amazing sensations through my body, “Why did you marry him?”

“Ummm, well, he was security I guess.”

“That’s it? Security? You married him for security?” I nod taking a drink. “No perfect romance that caused you to fall deeply in love?” He said leaning back in his chair and pressing his soft lips to his glass.

“Me romance, love? You no better than that.” I laugh.

“You don’t think you could ever fall in love?”

Looking away from him, “No.”

“No? So you have never been in love?”

“I was once,” I said concentrating on my food.

“And who was this Romeo that swept you off your feet and destroyed the chances for every other man?” He asked smiling.

“You.” I said erasing his smile instantly. “It’s true, you’re the only one I have ever loved and if that couldn’t work out I can’t imagine that love is all that wonderful. So I chose security.”

“I don’t think what we had was love, Rebecca.”

“Then what was it, Sean?”

“Two people who were desperate to fill holes in their lives.”

“And what hole was I filling?”I ask sharply.

“Your overwhelming need to have all the attention on you,” he said. “Don’t get mad.”

“I’m not mad.” He rolls his eyes at me. “So what we had meant nothing to you at all? Wow Sean, kind of wish we hadn’t come out to dinner now.”

“Don’t be like that. It meant something,
you
meant something to me. It tore me up when I caught you and Joel. I even blamed myself for awhile. We had a lot of fun and many great times but at the same time, we fought all the time. And I didn’t have enough time or energy to give you the attention you needed.”

“Some would have been nice,” I mumbled.

He sits back with a rugged exhale. “Are we really going to go back down that road?”

“No, I guess not,” I said picking at my food. “We did have some great times though. Do you remember that night we stayed up all night watching movies?” I smiled at him.

Laughing suddenly, “Yeah that was a good night,” he said smiling back at me obviously remembering.

“How many times did we have sex?” I asked carefully.

“I don’t know, a lot. We had four movies.”

“I still can’t believe they put the wrong movie in our box and we ended up having sex to that cartoon movie.” Sean laughs aloud suddenly. “Those poor dancing bears are probably scarred for life seeing what we did,” I said laughing with him.

Sean shakes his head, “They weren’t bears, they were raccoons or something.”

“Raccoons? You have such a bad memory, they were Koala bears, remember they had an Australian accent?”

He leans back in his chair laughing freely, “Oh yea.” He said straightening and focusing as he tries to remember. “G’day! Let’s dance,” he mimics while dancing in his seat.

I spit my drink out laughing. “I can’t believe you just did that.”

“I can’t believe you just spit all over our food,” he laughs.

“Shut up,” I look down at my food glancing up at him whenever I think I might catch his eyes. We continue discussing old times and what we have heard about people we used to know. After Sean paid the bill, we head back home. “You know what we should do?” I said lightly touching his leg as he drives.

“What’s that?” He asked.

“Get a movie, make some popcorn, and veg. out talking about old times.”

He glances over at me with a questioning expression, “A movie?”

“Of course, and popcorn or I’m not interested.”

“I think I can manage popcorn and the movie but that’s it.” He looks over smiling at me, sending exhilarating chills through my body. When we get home, I lean against him laughing as we approach the main house. For the first time in a long while, we are spending the entire night together, just the two of us. If all goes well I will spend the night not only in his house but in his bed too. I look up at his smiling eyes anticipating waking up in the morning with them staring at me the same way.

Sean and I laugh constantly as we prepare for our movie night. Nudging each other, mocking each other’s usual responses until we finally sit down in front of the television. I lower the lights and he starts the movie. The movie is a horror film, something I specifically picked out to give me an excuse for being close to him. I gradually work my way closer and closer, until I am nearly in his lap. I graze his neck with my lips and he doesn’t move. I encourage him to drink more before I begin playing with his hair. Sean relaxes and I move my hand down his chest. Taking a breath, I grab a blanket and wrap myself in it before removing my clothing. He looks down at me with a suspicious expression before I push my hand down his pants and work to get my hand around his dick. He pulls my hand out and scrambles away from me.

“What are you doing, Rebecca?”

“Come on Sean, you know you want to. Aren’t you lonely? You know I can make you feel good.” I stand up dropping the blanket and exposing my nude body in front of him. “I know you want me, and all you have to do is take it. We don’t have to tell anyone.” I push him onto his back and crawl down to his rising erection and trail my tongue down his strained zipper. “Let me stick your dick in my mouth, please Sean. I want to taste it so bad.” I grab his hand and pull it to my breasts sliding it down in between my legs before he jerks it away.

“No, Rebecca.” He says scooting further away from me. Sean grasps his head, and I realize the drug I gave him is beginning to work. “I need to get some air.” He said stumbling to his feet and outside to lean against a wall, struggling to fight the drug.

Smiling happily, I rush into the bathroom to prepare myself for some great sex, and text Joel that I am about to get pregnant with Sean’s child. I can’t wait to see the look on his mothers face when I have her precious son locked to my side for life.
A miracle baby
, that’s what I will call it and Sean won’t be able to deny such a miracle for me, not again. I walk out of the bathroom, and see Sean leaning on Ava.
What the fuck is she doing home!