Quiet Country (Satan's Sinners M.C. Book 2) (16 page)

"Bear, will you untie me?"

"Yeah." He reaches up, finally freeing my hands. I put my hand against his cheek and lean up, kissing him. He goes to the bathroom and comes back with a wet washcloth to clean me up.

"I want to taste you too. Lay down."

"Not tonight, Lil Mama."

"What do you mean not tonight?"

"Tonight was all about you."

"Kellen fucking Rhodes, you better tell me what’s going on," I say, glaring at him. “You’ve been with one of those whores, haven't you? That's why you did all this, trying to make it up to me. You feel guilty, you lying piece of..." He interrupts me with his laughing. I don't know why because this isn't fucking funny.

"Jacey, calm down. I haven't been with anybody. I just did this all for you, but I did wanna ask you somethin'."

I knew there was a hidden agenda, the douchebag. "What?"

"Well, I know it's not in front of everybody, like what Hanger did, but I figure that's not us. I wanna know if you’ll be my Ol' Lady?"

"What?" I ask softly.

"Jacey, I don't want anyone else. You're the mother of my child, I love you. Will you be my Ol' Lady?"

"Bear, I can't."

"The fuck? Why not?"

"I'm not ready for that."

"You haven't fuckin' changed at all."

He goes to get up, but I grab his arm stopping him. "Bear, look at me," I say, hoping he'll listen. He turns and I wasn't prepared to see the hurt in his eyes. “Bear, I have changed, and I'm not running. I love you so much, but I just need time to figure shit out, like what I'm going to do instead of being a doctor. We still haven't worked out everything with us."

"What is there to work out? I thought we covered everything."

"I want to know why you aren't still pissed about me keeping the pregnancy a secret."

"Jacey, I am pissed about it, but there’s nothin' I can do! I can't go back. He's here now and you’re not keepin' him from me. What the fuck do you want from me, you want me to hate you?"

"No, of course I don't want you to hate me."

"We just gotta move on from it. I'm tryin' to get past it and not hold it against you. After I met your mom, I can understand more now of why you did what you did. Anybody raised by that cunt would have done the same thing.”

"Yeah, I guess I haven't forgiven myself yet."

“I thought for sure you would say yes. I can't let anything else happen until you decide. I won't keep chasin' you."

"Why do you want me anyway?"

"We're perfect. We're two jagged, broken pieces that fit perfectly together. You just haven't realized it yet."

“You really believe that? I'm scared Bear."

"Hell yes, I believe it or I wouldn't be tryin' so hard to keep you. I would’ve let you go a long time ago. And Jacey, I know you're scared. I still think it would help if you talked to Snake and find out his side."

"Yeah, maybe. I'm just not ready yet."

"You’re never gonna be ready for somethin' like that, you just gotta suck it up and deal. The worst that's gonna happen is your mom told you the truth about everything. If, and I mean if, that happens, I'll be there for you and you don't ever have to see him again. I don't know how it’ll turn out, but this is the only time I might have to sit back and watch you get hurt. I don't want that for you, but there’s not shit I can do about it, you just gotta get it done."

“Yeah, and you promise you'll be there?"

"I promise, Jacey, but now I gotta go."

You’re not staying?"

"No, you need to get shit figured out and I can't keep hurtin' myself." He gets up, puts his clothes on and leaves. I cry myself to sleep, wondering what the fuck is wrong with me. Why couldn't I just tell him that yes, I wanted to, but I can't yet?

It's been a month since that night. Bear has stuck to his word about not letting anything else happen. Not only that, now he barely talks to me. He still comes over to see Kellen and brings us the stuff we need but that’s it though, and I fucking miss him so much it hurts. Most nights when I go to bed, I cry myself to sleep. Zoey came over the other day, and when we were talking, I told her I didn't know what was going on between us. I regret not telling him yes when he asked me to be his Ol' Lady. Today is the day. I've called Zoey over to watch Kellen so I can go talk to him at the garage. It's still cold out, but I have to look sexy so I put on a black leather mini skirt and a tank top with the Sinners’ logo that I asked Zoey to bring. I have my hair down and curled with my hoop earrings in and my makeup is light, except for some bold eyeliner. Soon enough, I'm ready to go. I've been working hard to get my body back in shape and I'm almost there, so I feel pretty good about myself. I walk out with my hooker heels in hand and Zoey is giving me a curious look.

"What?" I ask her.

"Where are you going dressed like that in the middle of the day?" she asks, smirking. "You’re such a bitch, by the way. I'm so jealous, you're looking all good and here I am, fat and frumpy."

Laughing, I tell her, "Thanks. You’ll be back to your hot little self too, once you have those babies. And I'm going to go get my man."

I see the smile forming on her face. "Well, it's about fucking time, girl. I'm glad you finally came to your senses about him."

I laugh, grabbing my coat. "I'll be back in a little while. If you need anything, call me."

"We’ll be fine. I need all the practice I can get anyway. Take as long as you need. I got Chasyr outside too."

"Thanks Zo."

"No problem, I'm happy for you!”

I grab my keys and head to my car.

I pull up and the second I step out of my car, I hear
Crazy Bitch by Buck Cherry
blasting throughout the garage. Bear’s underneath a 1969 black and chrome Camaro that he's been working on. He didn't hear me pull up, so I lean up against the car. He has the hood up and I take a peek underneath. I can tell just by looking at her that she’s been completely restored. Trying to be sexy, I cross my arms, pushing up my breasts up, and kick his leg, which makes him slide out from underneath the car. Bear glares at me, and I’m taken back, was hoping for a better reaction, but I suppose I deserve this. "This song remind you of me?" I ask, jokingly. He stands up, pulling out a towel he had sticking out of his back pocket, wiping his hands on it. Even in a dirty white beater and oil covered jeans, he's still sexy as hell.

"What are you doing here?" he demands.

"Well, my car is making a funny noise and I was wondering if you could look at it."

"Where's Kellen?"

"With Zoey. It looks like you need a clean shirt, that one’s pretty dirty." I say, taking the few steps to him. I reach out and grab the hem, pulling it up, but he grabs my wrists to stop me.

"I told you, Jacey, that we aren't doin' this anymore. Go pull your car in here and I'll look at it." I go get my car, bring it inside, and take my coat off before getting out. When I step out, he looks pissed.

"What's wrong with you?" I ask him.

"Where are you goin' dressed like that?" he growls out, jerking his chin at me. "Where'd you get the tank? You haven't worn that one before.”

"I'm dressed like this to come see you. I got it from Zoey." This is gonna take more work than I thought. He was serious this time, and I have got to fix this shit before I lose him completely.

"I'm not doing this with you." I walk up to him, gripping his beater.

"I want you to ask me again."

"Why, so you can turn me down? I'm not doin' it,” he asserts, shaking his head no.

"Kellen fucking Rhodes, you look at me and you fucking ask me again!”

“Fine," he huffs out, looking bored. "Jacey, will you be my Ol' Lady?"

"Bear...umm…” I hesitate, tapping my finger on my lips in an attempt to try to lighten the mood.

"Don't fuck with me."

"Bear, I would love to be your Ol’ Lady."

"You're serious?" His eyes grow big, shock written all over his handsome face.

Smiling, I reply. "Yeah, I'm serious. I've regretted telling you no every day. I miss you so much, it hurts, and most nights, I cry myself to sleep. I don't want to be without you anymore." I see a smile taking over his face, and he picks me up in his arms, my legs wrapped around him. He's laughing which makes me laugh too. Then, he gives me the most earth shattering kiss, leaving me breathless.

"I love you, Lil Mama."

"I love you too."

Bear sets me down on my feet, cupping my face in his hands. “Did I make you fall in love with me?"

"You did."

His mouth comes crashing down on mine, our tongues exploring each others’ mouths. He breaks from the kiss and walks over to the garage door. "Turn your car on, let me hear it." I do as he says and can hear the clunking noise. I turn it off, get back out, and he closes the door as soon as I'm out of the car.

"I need you to get my baby purring again, Bear.”

"Your car’s not the only thing I'm gonna have purring." He walks right up to me and bends down to grip my thighs, picking me up and sitting me on the hood of my car.

"You scratch or dent up my baby and I'll have to hurt you."

"Your precious car will be fine. I think you got other shit to worry about right now, like how much my cock has missed his home." He runs his hands up my thighs, pushing my skirt up even higher. Moving one hand in between my legs, I spread open for him to let him feel how wet I already am. "No panties?" he questions, while running his fingers along my slit.

"Didn't want you having too much trouble. Now kiss me." He does just that, making it difficult for my lungs to work once again.

"I missed the fuck outta you, Lil Mama,” he says, feather light against my lips.

"God, I missed you too, so fucking much,” I whisper back.

"Lay back." Bear drops to his knees, putting his tongue flat against my pussy. He works it up and down, using his fingers to spread me open. Sucking my clit into his mouth, I arch my back, but he places his hand on my stomach to keep me still. When he releases my clit, he starts running his tongue back and forth over me, putting it inside, fucking me with it. When he pulls it out, he flicks my clit which has me bucking my hips against his face. It doesn't take long for me to scream out his name, an explosion letting go within my body. I can hear my screams echoing through the open space of the garage. He quickly pulls me up and has me on the edge of the hood. His jeans are down now, he’s lining himself up to my opening and with one hard thrust, he’s balls deep inside me. "Shit, you feel fuckin' good, so goddamn tight,” he grunts out, pounding my pussy.

“Harder, Bear." He picks up speed as he squeezes me tighter in his embrace.

“It’s been so fuckin' long, I'm not gonna last!”

"Me either, you feel so good!” I say, between cries of pleasure. “I’m gonna cum again!”

"I can feel you your squeezing me, so fuckin' good. Let go baby. I'm right there with you." Taking me over the edge, I cry out Bear!, digging my nails into his flesh. He calls out my name in the crook of my neck as he bites down, then when we're done, he lifts his head to look at me "Did you really mean it?"

"Which part?"

"All of it."

"Every word."