Military Romance Collection: Contemporary Soldier Alpha Male Romance (118 page)

Chapter 3

Harold didn’t stop by the store much anymore. He was old, and there wasn’t that much he could help with anyway. We barely got any foot-traffic, and there was never enough money coming in to even prompt a trip to the bank. Harold’s generous store-credit policy allowed people to bring in their old books and trade them for the ones in our store. It was a cool system, and our customers were loyal, but it certainly couldn’t guarantee anyone a paycheck.

I was Harold’s only employee, and I’d been there for five years. He was open about leaving the store to me in his will, and the thought had thrilled me at 18. At 23, though, the store seemed like more of a liability than an asset. It was the only bookstore in our neighborhood, and the only independently-owned one in the state. I hated the thought of losing it. I hated the thought of leaving the kids without a safe place to read, but I also feared being racked with debt, struggling to keep a sinking ship afloat.

It was a quiet, rainy Thursday afternoon, and I was shelving some new books. The warm jingle of the door in front summoned me from behind the shelves, and I saw Lucy with her open umbrella, shaking off the wet and the cold.

“Close that damn umbrella, girl! This place has enough bad luck as it is,” I said, only half-playing.

“Are you serious? Fine, I got you, but jeez, I thought being a business-owner would make you less superstitious.”

“First of all, I’m not a business-owner. I barely make minimum wage. I’m more of a caretaker. And second, this has place has made me more superstitious, if anything. We need all the help we can get. If rubbing a rabbit’s foot and throwing salt over my shoulder isn’t going to hurt, why not give it a shot?”

“I hear you, but you know I might forget, so don’t get mad when I do. A gentle reminder will suffice.”

“Alright then. Give me that wet coat and I’ll throw it on the rack. What you been up to?”

“The usual, mostly. These kids are on one, though. I had to have Dana take over so I could take a walk and check on my girl, Alison. How you doin'?” she asked as she took her coat and hat off, handing them to me.

“As long as I don’t spend too much time thinking about keeping my head above water with this place, I’m good. I’m glad you showed up though. Alphabetizing has me seeing letters everywhere I look. You got P’s and Q’s on your cheeks, and T and A on that fine-ass body of yours,” I said, knowing how much that kind of teasing bothered her.

“Pshh, bitch, don’t even get fresh with me. This body has been getting me into way to much trouble lately anyway.”

“How so?”

“Andre’s tripping. He’s trying to get me to start hitting the streets again. I told him I’m done with that stuff. ‘Never again,’ I said. Be careful talking about money like you are. He might try to put you into business too.” She was shivering a bit from the cold, so I turned the heat up. It smelled like burnt hair.

“I don’t know what you expected when you stayed with him after quitting. You think you can date a pimp and not get pimped?” It wasn’t the first time we’d had this conversation. She knew how I felt, but it bared repeating.

“Alison, I get it,” she said in the voice of a teenager tired of being nagged by her mom. “But it’s not that simple. I love him. I know it’s stupid, but I can’t help it. And anyway, he’s putting most of the money into the group home nowadays. Nobody on the block has enough ends to donate to charity, even when some of the kids were theirs to begin with.”

“It’s a complicated situation, sure enough. Whenever I start feeling like I need a man in my life, I can count on you to remind me that I’m alright on my own. I don’t need more drama.”

“Well, it’s not like my life is any more chaotic now than it ever has been.” She looked a little distant, reflecting. “To be honest, I feel like I might go a little crazy if things ever calmed down for real. Some of the kids at my home are like that. They finally have a stable home life where someone is cooking and putting them in bed, and they can’t deal with it. They just start messing it up, starting fights with me and the other kids. They’re used to the frenzy.” She looked out the window at the rain, which was finally starting to settle. “But yeah! You don’t need no man. You got ninety-nine problems and a dick ain’t one, right? But you better take care of yourself, girl. We all need somebody now and then.”

“I guess so,” I conceded. “But I got you. You’ll always be my girl.”

“Of course. But I know you got needs that I’m not willing to fulfill. You’re on your own for that stuff.”

“Bitch, you nasty. Ain’t nobody trying get with you like that no way.”

“Sure, pretend you ain’t interested in my fine ass,” she said, turning to show off the goods. “Anyway, I got to be heading back now that the rain's dying down. Would you grab my coat and hat?”

“Yeah, and you better wait 'til you get outside to open that umbrella,” I said, more serious than I allowed myself to sound.

“Yeah, yeah. I love you girl. Talk to you soon.”

“Peace,” I said, and she was already through the door, with it closing behind her.

Chapter 4

I was setting up to close the store a little early when a white guy came in. He was tall with broad shoulders, dressed in a blue polo and slacks. Had I not been in a hurry to get home and curl up with one of the new trade-ins, I would have found him quite handsome. As it was, I was suspicious.

“Um, sir? Can I help you find anything? We’re closing soon.”

“The door says you close at 7. It’s 6:45,” he said, not rudely but firmly.

“That’s true,” I said. “But it’s just me here, and I have some errands I have to get to.”

“I see,” he said. He made his way through the aisles slowly, as if he was inspecting the shelves and books.

“Listen, man. If you’re a cop, you’re looking in the wrong place. Just about every place in this neighborhood has some illegal stuff happening in it, but not this store. I keep myself and my store clean. You’re free to look, but you’re wasting your time. And please don’t make a mess. I just finished inventory and alphabetizing.”

He was behind a shelf, but when he revealed himself, he was grinning, apparently entertained by my little rant. His smile was kind, bright, and I found my edges softening a little. He really was very attractive.

“What makes you think I’m a police officer?” he asked, still grinning.

“Come on. A white man, dressed like you, walking around in this hood? You don’t exactly fit in around here. I know you would’ve been hassled if you were up and down this street looking like you do. On top of all that, pretty much no one comes into this store except a couple neighborhood kids and some bookish older ladies.”

“Business isn’t booming, I can see. What keeps you coming in to work? You can’t be earning much.”              This white boy was looking to rub me the wrong way, but he seemed genuine. I calmed myself before answering so I wouldn’t show my irritation at his invasive questioning.

“Who knows? A sense of duty? The kids? The books? Probably all of those things. The owner isn’t doing so well at the moment. He’s taken good care of me over the years, kept me out of trouble. I guess I owe it to him to keep it open, even when business is bad. Plus, this is one of the only places the kids from the group home across the way can come after school where someone isn’t offering them drugs or gang affiliation.”

“You seem like a woman of strong values. I admire that.”

Where is this guy coming from? I wondered.

“I’m James,” he continued. “What’s your name?”

“Alison. It’s nice to meet you, Officer James.”

He laughed, more loudly than the joke warranted. “I’m not a cop. Sorry to disappoint you, but I’m just a book lover.”

“I’m sure you are. You know, most book lovers don’t put themselves into danger just to browse.”

He laughed again. It was charming, musical. It made him throw his head back. “True. Call me an aficionado. I just know that this is the only independently-owned bookstore in the area, and that piqued my interest. I was also curious to see how well a bookstore would do in an area like this.”

“And?”

“It looks like you’re struggling to keep it in one piece. No offense.”

“Nope, you’re right. With Harold sick so much, I’m left to my own devices, and I don’t know much about keeping a building in shape. I’m sure there’s a book in here, a
HomeMaintenance for Dummies
, but I haven’t gotten that far yet. It’s tough enough keeping things tidy and dusted without having to work on wiring and plumbing.”

“You certainly sound like you’re in a spot.” He hesitated. “Listen, I hope I’m not being too forward, but would you like to get coffee or lunch with me? I’d love to talk more.”

It was my turn to hesitate. “Well . . .” I couldn’t help but think about the conversation I’d had with Lucy early that day. About not needing a man. About those needs only a man could fulfill. “I guess that would be fine. I’m at the shop every day, but I’d be down with doing something after work. Around 7:30?”

“Perfect!” he said, clapping his hands once. He didn’t bother hiding his enthusiasm. “I’ll pick you up tomorrow.”

I was glad he offered a ride. I didn’t want him to know I didn’t have a car.

Chapter 5

James picked me up the next day, as promised. I closed the shop and turned around to see his Rolls-Royce parked out front, with him leaning against the door in sharp-looking dress shirt and slacks.

“Are you crazy!” I shout-whispered. “Are you trying to get robbed? You do realized people get killed for their shoes in this neighborhood, don’t you?”

He laughed his warm laugh, and I calmed down. “Alison, don’t worry,” he said, seemingly tickled at my distress. “We’ll be fine. We’re right next to the freeway, so we’ll be on the road in no time.”

“Where are we going anyway? I’m a mess.” I hadn’t felt like a mess until I saw him in his tailored outfit. Suddenly, my nicest clothes, which I’d worn for this occasion, were an embarrassing disaster.

“Nonsense! You look lovely.”

I blushed and got in the car, which was cavernous and pristine.

“See?” he said. “You fit right in. You look like a million bucks.”

“It looks like you would know,” I said, immediately regretting my rudeness, but being set at ease by his now-familiar chuckle.

“So, to answer your question, we’re going to a little Italian restaurant in my neighborhood. It’s not too far from here, actually. I know the owner, and he promised to treat us right.”

It wasn’t far at all. Before I had time to worry about what I would talk about at dinner, we were there. It was a small place, in a nice but modest suburban neighborhood, probably not fifteen minutes from my shop. It always amazed me how close the ritzy neighborhoods were to the projects. It was as though a series of bombs had torn apart only select sections of a wealthy, verdant township.

The place was small indeed. Had he not been driving, I would have missed it entirely. It was a brick building with white trim. It looked, actually, like a one-story Brownstone. James parked in the back, and a server showed us in. Immediately, I felt out of place. My clothes and shoes were far too informal, which was to say nothing of the fact that I was the only person of color in the building—and probably the block. Living in my area for years, I had forgotten how it felt to be the only minority somewhere. Anxiety made my face hot and my breath short. Would I spend the entire evening acutely aware of my skin? Would I spend the entire evening worrying about my hair and whether my natural curls would look too radical? Would I spend the entire evening paying extra attention to how I behaved with the knowledge that I was an unwilling representative for my entire race? I couldn’t order chicken—even if I wanted it and even though it’s a perfectly reasonable thing to order—because I didn’t want to confirm any stereotypes. I would be sure to tip well for the same reason. And I would keep my voice down.

Fortunately, my worries were soon pacified. James was talkative enough that I didn’t have time to overthink the situation.

“So!” he said, removing napkin from his wineglass and spreading it over his lap. “Have you always been interested in books, Alison? Were you a born reader?”

“I suppose I was more bookish than the average kid. I was a latchkey kid, so books provided a companion for me when my mom was out working and when my brother was out doing his thing. It became more of a focus for me during high school though. Watching my brother and so many friends drop out because they undervalued education put things in perspective. Having friends and family die because they thought it was more important to build a reputation than to build intelligence helped me to set my priorities. It’s a pretty unexciting life, relatively speaking, but I feel like I’ve had enough excitement already. A little quiet? A little routine? Those suit me just fine.”

“Where is your brother now?” he asked, with a little hesitation, probably wondering if he was one of the dead ones.

“He’s in prison. His street success finally caught up with him. To think that I envied him for his money and friends for years, and like that, it’s all gone. I visit him sometimes, usually on holidays, but we were never that close. My mom refuses to see him. She says she’s angry, but I think she’s ashamed because she did nothing to keep him from that life. If anything, she encouraged him because she benefited from the money and the local glamor.”