Authors: James M. Cain
Clay listened with rising dismay and then broke in: “O.K., Nat, and thanks for filling me inâbut what I called about: are you still on the case?”
“Oh, she's retained me, yes.”
“How do you mean, retained you?”
Mr. Pender spoke at some length in highly ethical terms, but when Clay pressed him, explained that Buster's insurance, “which was paid her some weeks ago,” made it possible for him to invoke the twenty-five to fifty percent rule, “twenty-five percent of recoveries, as retainer for taking the case, fifty percent if we go to court. Or in other words, it seems fair enough that she pay me six and a quarter thousand down, with another six and a quarter due when she's triedâwhich it looks as though she's going to be.” Clay was staggered, but knew he must pick up the tab. He said: “Nat, I feel I should pay that feeâI have reasons we needn't go into. So when she sends her check, will you hold it? Pending receipt of
my
check? I'll mail it here now today.” And then, doing some mental arithmetic: “Or wait a minute, Nat. I don't keep that kind of money lying around, and it'll pinch me in on my trip if I send the whole six and a quarter grand. So can I send you half? Part now, the rest to come when I get back and can sell off some stuff that I have? As I say, I have reasonsâ”
“Clay,” said Mr. Pender, “whatever you say is fine, and I don't ask your reasons. She's a damned sweet kid, that anyone's entitled to go for andâ” Clay opened his mouth to protest it was “nothing like that,” but then realized it might be better if Mr. Pender thought it was “that” instead of something else. He let it ride, and when Mr. Pender asked where he was, told him. “But of course!” exclaimed Mr. Pender. “How stupid of me not to remember! You're on your honeymoonâand congratulations. My wife knows the bride and can't say enough in her praise!”
“Thanks,” said Clay. “And thank your wife.”
“O.K., it's going to cost, but you couldn't do any less, and at least with this guy she can't lose. Now! Quit your glawming, get on with your life!”
He did not, however, at once go back to the sitting room. He went to the bathroom and shaved, then got into the tub. The water was running when the tap came on the door, and he hadn't heard the phone. “Mr. Nat Pender calling,” said Grace, through the door. “Will you take it? Or shall I have him call later?” He took it and listened while Nat revised their arrangement. “Clay,” he said, “we kept talking about various things, and I didn't get quite caught up until we said good-by. Forget that check for partâforget
any
check, boy. I wouldn't louse your trip, not for anything. When you get back will be timeâand she gets her check back tomorrow. Now forget her, forget me, forget everything but your wife and having a real nice time.”
He dressed and at last went back to the sitting room. The TV was still on, but Grace had got herself dressed, in white faille, and the paper was neatly folded on top of the radiator. His eyes as he met hers were blank, with the look card players have, and also criminals facing the law. He glanced out at the bright sunlight, said: “Hmâlooks like a nice day after all. They have nothing but rain in this place, but when the sun does shine it's pretty.” Then he sat down and watched the Baltimore Colts run over the Washington Redskins, or “Skins,” as the announcer called them.
“May we have that off?” she asked in a moment.
“Why, sure, if it bores you.”
He snapped the TV off. “Mr. Nat Pender,” she said, walking over to face him, “is a criminal lawyer. What business does he have with you?”
“
Hey!
Who wants to know?”
“I do. Your wife. Remember?”
“Whyâhe called on a certain matter.”
“Clay, I asked you, what matter?”
“Wellâactually it was a call-back, about something he forgot to tell me. I had called
him,
as a matter of fact.”
“About that girl?”
“Could have been. Wellâyes.”
“He was her lawyer beforeâhe held a press conference for her before we left Channel City. Clay, you had something to do with that?”
“Well, I don't just now recollect, Iâ”
“
Answer me!
”
He hadn't been meeting her eye, but now, when he had to, saw a woman of ice, once a corporation executive herself, who couldn't be fobbed off with vague evasions. “O.K.,” he said, “I may have.”
“Did you pay his bill?”
On that he grew disagreeable, saying, “What's it to you?” and other ugly things. Her face, as she stared down at him, didn't change. “In other words,” she persisted, “you paid him?”
“Well, goddamit, suppose I did?”
“Why?”
“I've told you! I don't think she's guilty!”
“That's her lookout, isn't it? Is it up to you to pay the attorney of every girl who's falsely accused? Why did you pay this man?”
“Listen, there's nothing between her and me!”
“I didn't say there was.”
“Then why the third degree? Whyâ”
“You did it, that's why.”
“I already said I did! How many times do Iâ”
“
Stop it!
Stop pretending I mean one thing when I'm talking about something else. There's only one explanation for this, one explanation that explains. You drove that car she saw, the one she thought was Sally's. You killed Alec. Didn't you?”
She stood like something Greek, like something carved in marble, while he slumped in his chair, his eyes not focusing, his mouth slobbery. Then: “Yes,” he whispered.
She went to the window and stood for a while, looking out at the river, where it wound around the town. When she spoke, her voice was still cold. “What was the quarrel about?” she asked. “Why did Sally break with you?”
Falteringly at first, by jerks and gasps and gulps, with growing coherence, as confession seemed to steady him, he recounted his scenes with Sally, her visit to him and his to her at her house, and then plunged on to the visit from Buster and his talks with Mr. Pender on the phone. “That's all!” he broke out presently. “It's all I know to tell you! If you have any questions to ask, get it over with now,
please!
I'm not enjoying this any! And I'm not one damned bit sure that I'll be able to take it if you start up againâ
later on
.”
“You intend to stand by this girl?”
“I can't do less! I can't walk off and leave her! If you think I can, if you think I'm going to, you're nuts.”
“I'm not nuts.”
So far, though their voices hadn't been loud, they had been bellowing over a chasm, so far as close communication was concerned. Now, however, she went over, lifted the white faille dress, knelt beside him, and took his head in her arms. “I had to know where we stand,” she whispered, “or I couldn't make any sense. Now, Clay,
I
speak. I tell you: “
I'm
standing by
you!
... If you want me to!”
“You needn't. You don't have to stand by a rat.”
“I see no rats in here.”
“Look around. Maybe there is one.”
“All I see is a wonderful guy that I love, that I'm married to, that's my husband. That comes first, before anyone elseâdaughter, grandchild, anyone. I love them, I can't pretend that I don't. But you come first, and I stand by if you want me. ... If you don't, say it, and I'll get on the plane and go home.”
“Are you being funny, Grace?”
“Then, you do want me?”
“More than anything on this earth.”
“Then,
that's
settled.”
She pulled away, sitting on her heels, as though to go on, but he interrupted: “Do we
have
to keep talking about it? If you're with me, if you can find it in your heart not to despise me too muchâthen that's enough, for now. I'm kind ofâ!”
“Groggy?”
“Sick, Grace. Sick
of
it!”
“Darling, there's more to say, that willâ”
“Then say it, get it said!”
“That will make you feel better, I
think!
”
She climbed in his lap, covered his face with tender little kisses, went on: “It might help a little bit, perhaps, if I stood on the edge and said kind things to you down there in the pit. It's not enough! I owe you more, not from duty, but because there
is
more!
I'm down in the pit with you!
”
“Hey! I'm in a pit, all right. But youâ?”
“Darling! If I had listened to you that very first night, and not only to you but my heart, none of this would have happened! You made passes at me, beautiful, insolent passes, that made my heart go bump. I could have yielded to you and taken you from her right then! You wanted to be taken, because of what she intended, of what you knew she intended, of what
I
knew she intended! I burrowed my head in the sand, but I knew the truth in my heart. And so I made myself say no, made myself go on, with my slick, smart-aleck intrigue, using you as a cat's-paw, as I thought. So you can move over, if you think it's your private pit! I'm in it with you!”
She pushed, wriggled, and forced herself into his chair, her dress slipping up, her legs twined over his, her mouth on his.
C
HANNEL CITY LOOKED JUST
the same when they got back, in mid-November, as it had when they had gone away except that the leaves had turned brown, yellow, and red. For the effect on his morale, she had insisted that Mr. Pender be paid the full $6,250 he asked and that she be permitted, as a lift on the money problem, to send her personal check, for deposit in his account, for $5,000. She also made him complete the trip, and they went to Memphis, St. Louis, and Denver, winding up at Mankato. Here they stayed with Pat at his estate on the Minnesota River, and he really did his stuff, bringing things to a climax with a big white-tie reception, followed by a dance, at the Ben-Pay Hotel. She was lovely in formal crimson, the labella of her orchids exactly matching her gown. She was vain of her affinity with these flowers, proclaiming that “they like you or they don'tâand as mine last ten days, it just goes to show.” Pat, impressed by such things, became her devoted pal, beauing her around, inspecting the picture with her, and inviting her to the unveilingâ“which of course can't come just yet.” When at last they got home and went to his apartment, he was almost himself again, giving a fine imitation of a brisk, masterful executive when he called on Mr. Pender to find out how things stood.
It seemed they stood very badly, “and for no good reason, Clay.” The case against Buster, he said, “is wholly circumstantial, and circumstantial cases are weak. I might even have got it quashed except for one thing. This girl won't
let
me attack the case against her, this web of circumstance that's been put together mainly at the wife's instigation. She insists on a case of her ownâthat the wife did it, that she killed her husband, by driving up without lights, banging a horn in his ear, and causing him to swerve. She insists that she saw the car, that she got its number, and nothing that I can say, no amount of dope the police collected about it, can unlock her from that story. I've explained to her that to set up such a defense she'll have to take the standâshe can't stand on her rights and say nothing. In effect she'll have to start another case and prosecute it herself. She says she won't have a defense âthat says I'm guilty, only you can't prove it.' That, of course, is something I can't disregardâit has that strange, sweet smell of the truth. But, allowing for that, it's all wrong! It forgets something I can't quite say to herânot in so many words. Clay, you may be fond of this girlâI can't know how you feelâbut her
life's
at stake and I'd better say what I mean. She's what she is: a chantoosie, a striptoosie, aâ”
“Flip-floosie? Is that what you're getting at?”
“Well, you said it, Clay. I didn't.”
“O.K. She's thatâand looks it, Nat.”
“And talks itâshe sounds like one of those twerps that Jack Benny digs up to do a bit on his show. ... I'm sorry, Clay, if Iâ”
“It's O.K. Her life's at stake, after all!”
Mr. Pender was still obviously under the impression that Clay's interest in Buster was personal, and Clay wanted to set him right. He realized, however, that correction of one impression might very well lead to another, and so once more he let the misapprehension ride. Mr. Pender went on: “Well, since you don't mind discussing it freely, I can tell you that once she starts this line, John Kuhn will rip her apart. He's not a wolf at his jobâjust a good lawyer that's state's attorney.
But,
he's a damned good lawyer who takes his job very serious. And where she'll lead with her chin is from having this idea that the wife was just a bitch who came between two loving hearts and started causing them trouble, winding up with this murder. It may have been thatâI can't say it wasn't. But as John Kuhn is going to develop it,
she
was the one who broke up Alexis' marriage, and also she had boy-friends on the side. Clay, you weren't the only oneâyou might just as well know it. Daytime, she ran a free-wheeling joint. Andâwell, you see what I'm up against?”
“When do you go to trial?”
“Monday.”
“ThenâI'll send you your checkâ”
“Clay, I told you, forget the check! Wheneverâ”
“You'll get itâbefore you go to court.”
“Clay, there's one more thing.”
“Yeah? Which is?”
“Something's going to be made of Buster's nagging Alexis to climb up on a ladder to check an installation of overhead rails. But she says it was your idea.”
“That's right, I told him to do it.”
Briefly he recounted the conversation in the cold room, including the Mexico City anecdote, and wound up: “I urged on him the importance of getting them levelâany rails that might be put in.”