Love Through Pain (16 page)

Chapter Twenty-four

Jazmine wore her best suit to work
. She sat behind her desk, holding a picture of Nicky that Javier gave her; she couldn’t stop grinning. They would be arriving from his parents’ home in a few hours. She was anxious and excited to pick them up at the airport. She thought of taking the day off, but she decided against it. The wait would drive her crazy.

The phone rang, and she answered it without looking at the caller ID. “Good morning, this is Jazmine O’Neal,” she said
, smiling—
Mrs. Martinez.
“How may I help you?”

“Jazmine.”

Her smile faltered when she heard the familiar voice. “Hi, Malcolm.”

“Jazmine, what’s going on?”

“What do you mean?”

“Why are you avoiding me?” He sounded miserable.

“Malcolm, I apologize, I shouldn’t have, but I’ve been really busy lately.” She gripped the phone tighter; she didn’t like lying.

“You’ve been too busy to talk to me? What did Martinez do to you?”

“He didn’t do anything to me, I just had to leave.”

“You’re lying to me. You left in tears
, Jazmine. I’ve never seen you so upset. He’s been avoiding me, too. I know he’s out of town, but when he gets back to work, I’m going to confront his ass.”

She sighed. “Don’t, he didn’t do anything wrong. He was worried about his son, nothing more.”

“I know there’s something you’re not telling me?” She heard the concern in his voice.

“Malcolm
, please leave it alone.”

“When can I see you?”

Jazmine scooted back in her chair and stared out of the window. “Malcolm, we are only friends, nothing more.”

“Why can’t we be more? I asked for your forgiveness. Give me another chance to show you how good we can be together.”

“I’ve forgiven you.”

“We had something special.”

“And it’s been over for a while now, I’ve moved on.”

“You’ve what!” he raised his voice.

There was a knock on her door, and she covered the phone with her hand. “Come in.” Connie, her friend and co-worker, strolled in. “Malcolm, I have to go.”

“Jazmine were not done talking.”

“Yes, we are.” She placed the handset on the base and looked up, smiling at Connie. “What’s up?”

Connie placed her hands on the back of a chair in front of her desk. “You’re back.”

Jazmine’s smile got wider as she leaned forward. “Whatever do you mean?”

Connie laughed. “The old you is back
, you’re finally smiling, and it’s not fake, it’s a genuine one. You used to brighten up everyone’s day around here with your smile and energy. This morning at our meeting you were so different, full of life. Who do I owe the thanks to?”

Jazmine arched her brow. “Huh?”

“Is it Malcolm that has you so happy?”

“No,” she raised her voice. “Malcolm and I are just friends.”

“I wish I had a fine ass friend like him.” Connie’s eyes sparkled.

“Maybe you should go out with him
. I can set you guys up.”

“Hell no, I will never break the friendship rule.”

“I don’t mind, you guys would make a great couple. Malcolm is a great guy, he’s just not mine.”

Connie ignored her. “If it’s not Malcolm, who is it?”

“Well it’s actually two people.” She motioned her hand so Connie could have a seat.

Connie stepped forward and sat. “Two?”

“I can’t wait for you to meet them.” She grinned.

“I can’t wait to meet them myself
, now. They deserve a medal for bringing my old friend back.”

“Enough of that
. What brings you by?”

Connie crossed her legs. “I know you said you didn’t want to be involved in the charity event, but have you had a change of heart?”

Jazmine entwined her fingers and stared at her friend. “I’ll do it.”

“Yes!” Connie shouted, jumping up and rushing around Jazmine’s desk to hug her. “I was hoping you’d change your mind. I can’t pull this off without you.” She released her and stepped around.

Jazmine chuckled. “You’re too crazy, you could pull off anything.”

“I need my Zumba partner next to me.”

Jazmine’s cell phone rang, and she opened the drawer to her desk, rifling through the contents to grab it. She smiled when she saw Javier’s name and rapidly answered. “Hey, sweetie.” She beamed.

“Sweetie, I like that
,” Javier said.

“Damn
, you have it bad.” Connie covered her mouth with her hand.

“Babe, we came home early
,” he said, and she could hear Nicky babbling in the background.

“What? I was supposed to pick you up tonight
.” Jazmine powered down her computer and stood.

“I couldn’t go another day without seeing you.”

“Javy, I’m on my way.” She grabbed her purse. “Tell him I love him.”

Connie stared at her
, confusion colored her features.

“We love you
, too.” Javier hung up.

“Huh, Javy and someone else. Jazmine are you into some kinky shit?” Connie gawked at her.

Jazmine chuckled deep, putting her purse over her shoulder. “It’s our son,” she said, leaving Connie sitting in her office.

She heard Connie
’s shocked, “Son?”

“Bye Connie, see you later
.” She waved, trotting toward the elevator.

***

Jazmine’s hands trembled as she pushed the key into the keyhole. Someone pulled the door open, and she couldn’t contain her happiness when she saw her baby in Javier’s arms.

“Oh
, God.” She stepped forward and extended her arms.

Nicky turned his head to the side and grabbed onto his dad.

Jazmine dropped her hands down. “He doesn’t like me.”

Javier stepped forward, kissing her lips. “Babe, he doesn’t know you. We’ll take it one step at a time. Starting with you coming in.” He opened the door wider.

She passed by, touching Nicky’s leg. “Hi, sweetie.” She held back the tears.

He closed the door with his foot, and
then kissed his son on his head.

“Jazz.”

She paused and looked at him. ”Yes?”

He touched her chin
. “He has to warm up to you. He already loves you.”

Jazmine touched the baby’s hand, and he moved his tiny arms, shaking his head no.

“Come on, let’s go sit.” He took her hand in his and they sat on the familiar couch. Javier held Nicky in the air, making him giggle, and then turned him to her. “Nicolas, this is your mommy.” He handed him over. Nicky hesitated at first, but then he extended his little arms.

Jazmine smiled, taking him and kissed his cheeks. “I love you…” Nicky touched her nose, and
then leaned forward, trying to chew on it. She chuckled, kissing his nose. “I’m so sorry, baby. I did what I did because I thought it was the right thing.” She wiped her tears.

Javier stood. “I’m going to give you guys some time alone.”

She stared at him, a little afraid. “Don’t leave, he’s going cry.”

“He will, but he’ll get over it
.” He smiled.

“What do I do?”

“He already ate, and I just changed him. You’ll be okay, I have to go to work for a bit.” He picked up his keys. “He likes to be rocked and sang to sleep.”

“What songs?”

“He likes the Three Blind Mice.”

Jazmine burst ou
t laughing. “Three Little Pigs—and now Three Blind Mice?”

“Whatever
, Jazz. He also likes, You’re My Sunshine.” He kissed her forehead, and then strolled over to the door.

As soon as Javier closed the door, Nicky let out a loud bawl.

Jazmine swallowed hard, bouncing him up and down on her lap, but he continued to cry, looking at the door. “It’s just you and me. I know he didn’t have to go to work.” Nicky rubbed his eyes, signaling he was sleepy. “Nicolas, I will never leave you again.” She began to rock him to sleep.

She chuckled
, her little boy cried, and then stopped, looked up at her, and cried again. She began singing, “You are my sunshine, my…” He stopped crying and smiled at her. It was mesmerizing looking into his big, hazel eyes as they twinkled. “I see, you love your daddy, I do too … but I haven’t told him yet, maybe I’m afraid if I do this will all end.”

***

Javier entered his office, and then sat behind his desk, staring at the surface. He powered on his computer, waited, and then picked up his phone to call Jazmine, just to make sure she was okay. Sighing, he decided against it, they had to get use to one another. At some point, they needed to talk about where their relationship was headed, and then he laughed at himself,
headed, she’s married to you.

“What you smiling at?” Malcolm asked from the door.

“What happened to knocking?” Javier glared at him.

He crossed the threshold
. “What happened between you and Jazmine?”

“Nothing
.” Javier entered his ID into the keyboard, and then entered his password. He’d wanted to avoid Malcolm until he could talk to Jazmine about it.

“Martinez, I don’t know what the fuck went down in that living room, but you had my girl in tears,” Malcolm said
, obviously pissed.

“Your girl!” Javier crocked a brow.

Malcolm took longs strides and stood in front of Javier’s desk. “I love her.”

Javier leaned back in his chair, crossing his arms, giving him a dirty look. “But does she love you?”

Malcolm slammed his hand on his desk. “What did you do to her? She won’t even talk to me now. All because of your fucking son!” he yelled.

Javier stood, and placed his hands on his desk. “Chief Mitchell
, get out of my office.”

“Not until you tell me what you did to her
.” They glared at each other.

Sheryl rushed into the office and closed the door. “Are you two fucking crazy, bringing that shit here?” She turned and looked at Javier. “You’re not supposed to be back until tomorrow.”

“You’re right Sheryl, my mistake.” He pulled his ID out of the keyboard, and powered off his computer.

She pushed Malcolm
. “All this over a broad. What happen to bros before hoes?”

Javier clench
ed his jaw, trying to keep his mouth shut. “Excuse me.” He passed them both, leaving in his office.

Chapter Twenty-Five

As soon as Javier entered his house, the aroma of food wrapped around him
, and he couldn’t help but smile. Searching through the house for Jazmine and Nicky, he found them in the nursery, sleeping on a blanket on the floor. Jazmine was on her right side, and Nicky’s head rested on her chest; she held him protectively.

Javier walked in, bent down
, and grabbed the baby out of her arms, kissed him, and placed him in the crib.

“We were playing, and fell asleep
.” She rubbed her eyes.

He lay down on the floor with her, and
then caressed her cheek. “See, he likes you.”

“After a lot of crying, a nap, and a bottle
.” She smiled, snuggling next to him.

“He’ll get use to you
, you’re his mommy.”

“Mommy, that sounds so sweet.” She cupped his face and lightly kissed his lips. “Thank you for making this all possible
, I almost gave this all away.”

“I knew you’d
return.” He kissed her shoulders, and then he rolled onto his back with his hands behind his head.

“What’s wrong?” She placed her head on his shoulder.

“Malcolm.” He sighed. “What’s up with you two?”

“Nothing
.” She got on her elbows and looked at him. “It’s been over for a year.”

“Well
, he thinks he owns you.” The vein in his neck began to throb.

She glowered at him. “No one owns me
, Javy.”

“I know that.” He stared at her. “We have to tell him. I work with him.”

“I know we do.”

“I didn’t know he was talking about you all this time.” He sat up. “What was I supposed to say, oh by the way
, the woman you’re in love with is my wife?”

“I felt the same way
, he mentioned J all the time, but I didn’t know he was talking about you.” She followed him up.

“If he says anything about you again. I might not be able to control myself.” He stood and gave her his hand, helping her to her feet.

She gave him a curious stare. “What does he say?”

“It doesn’t matter. I think I should be the one to tell him, but for now
, I’ll avoid him. He’s very protective of you,” he retorted, stalking to the door.

Jazmine went over to the crib, bent her head
, and kissed her son on his cheek. “Good night, sweat heart. I love you.”

Javier waited until she joined him, turned on the nightlight
, and closed the door.

“I guess
I should be going home.” She strolled to the living room.

“Home
?” He followed her. “I thought you were staying. I haven’t seen you in two days.” He wrapped his arms around her.

“I didn’t bring any clothes
.” She placed her hands around his neck.

“You can go home early in the morning.” He bowed and nipped at her neck. “I want you
, you’ve become my addiction.”

She giggled. “Am I?”

“Yes.” His hands moved under her shirt, touching her nipple. “And I never want to be cured.” He pinched it, making her purr.

His hand made their way to the buttons on her shirt, and
then he slowly opened each one, until he pulled the material open. “Mmm… I love the way red looks on you.” He smiled, looking at the lacy bra.

Jazmine undi
d her skirt zipper and it fell to the floor. Her chocolate skin looked divine in the crimson see-through material. Javier rapidly shed his shirt and pants. He took her hand and led her to his bedroom.

~~~

Jazmine smiled, recognizing the bed. She climbed on, wiggling her ass and looking back. She could see the tent in his boxers. Javier just stood there watching her with desire in his now dark eyes. He looked like a lion watching its prey. She turned, lying on her back. She seductively took off her bra and threw it at him.

Javier pounced on the bed, kissing his way from her toes, calves, thighs, belly, and
then lingered at her breasts. He took turns twirling his tongue and gently biting. Jazmine couldn’t hold back the moans, even if she’d tried to. He had a talented tongue. She placed her hands on his head, pushing him closer. “Yes … that feels so…” she groaned.

She could feel his cock on the inside of her thighs. Damn
, this man was driving her crazy.

“
I’ve found my soul mate.” He continued his attack on her breasts and kissed his way to her lips. “I love everything about you.” He brushed his lips against her eyes, nose, cheeks, and ears. Jazmine was covered in goose bumps. “Do you trust me?” Javier’s hands bracketed her head.

She nodded.

“I want to hear you say it,” he said above her.

“Yes, Javy
, I trust you.”

Their lips met,
and he slipped his tongue in-between them, exploring all of the creases in her mouth, sucking on her tongue, making her wetter. “Mmm…” she moaned deep in her throat. He continued stroking his tongue in and out, twirling as she followed his move. She wrapped her legs around his waist and grinded against his covered cock.

He broke their kiss
, gasping for air. “Jazz, you drive me insane.”

“Javy, please don’t hold back." She touched his swollen lips. “I don’t see my attackers when you make love to me
—I only see you.” She took a deep breath. “The man I love.”

His eyes softened. “Did you just say you love me?”

Her lips curled into a big smile, showing her dimples. “Yes, I think I fell in love with you the moment you decided to raise my son.”

Javier captured her lips again. “Jazmine, I’m going to tie your hands to the bedpost, and blindfold you, but if at any time you feel it’s too much, tell me.”

“Okay,” Jazmine whispered.

“If you’re not ready for this
, I understand,” he softy spoke, giving her lingering kisses.

She caressed the side of his neck
. “I’m ready…”

Javier moved to the side, opened the drawer to the nightstand
, withdrew two satin straps, and then moved next to her. He tied each hand to a post. “Is it too tight?”

Jazmine pulled on the straps. “No…”

He placed the blindfold on. “Baby, if you don’t want to do this…”

“Shhh
… you would never hurt me.”

“My only desire is to please you
.” He dipped his head and began to suck on her breasts, taking as much as he could into his mouth.

“Uhhh
… yes…” Jazmine chanted.

Javier nibbled on
her breasts, and his fingers traveled down her stomach, slipping into her panties, making her buck her hips. “Oh God… Yes … yes…”

He dipped his finger in
to her core, and then began pumping in and out of her sweetness. “You’re so tight.”

Jazmine arched off
of the bed, but he ignored her, sucking on her tits, and fingering her. He stopped and kissed her lips one more time before starting to go down. “Don’t stop…” she groaned.

Javier kissed his way down her stomach
. He pulled down her panties, and she kicked them off.

~~~

Jazmine was so close to bursting into ecstasy, when Javier stopped what he was doing. Her pussy throbbed, and her stomach clenched. She could feel her essence flowing. Not knowing his next move excited her. Then she felt his tongue flick her clit.

“Papi, si
…” She screamed, her hips moving, grinding against his face, and his nose bumped into her pearl. “Yes…”

Javier tongue kissed her pussy, licking and nibbling at her clit
. “I’m coming,” she grunted loudly, and lost it. Her whole body shook, and her legs wrapped around his shoulders. Javier didn’t stop there. He dug his tongue as deep into her core, stroking in and out. She wiggled to get loose, but couldn’t. Desire rode her to put her hands in his silky hair, to grab something. The sensation was too overwhelming. She did the next best thing, she took hold of the taut straps with trembling fingers. Another orgasm hit her like a ton of bricks. “No more … no more,” she moaned, shaking her head from side to side. “Uh … yes … no … more.”

~~~

Javier lapped up every bit of her juice, she tasted different, sweet and salty. Yep, he was addicted, but he heard her chant no more, and his heart stopped for a few seconds. He rushed up and took off the blindfold.

“Babe
, are you okay?” he asked, concerned.

She was still catching her breath. “Oh God
, baby, that was so freaking good.”

He smirked. “I thought
… you said … no more.”

“In a good
… way … my orgasms were so powerful, I needed a break. You have an awesome tongue.”

He chuckled as he released her hands, and
then kissed where they were tied, he pulled off his boxers and settled in-between her legs. “I’m not done with you yet.” He eased into her, inch by inch. “Fuck… Jazz, you’re so wet.” He began slowly driving into her.

Jazmine followed his lead, moving her hips up when he thrust down. He kissed her neck, making her say things he couldn’t comprehend. His strokes started getting deeper,
and she opened her legs wider. He held himself up on his elbows, and bowed, taking her left breast into his mouth.

“More
… don’t hold back, baby.” She tugged at his hair.

In one swift move, Javier pulled free and flipped her over
, now she was on her stomach. Jazmine wiggled her ass in the air, getting on all fours. He smacked her butt, making it jiggle. His cock nestled between her crack. “Jazz, you’re mine,” he said as he plunged into her already dripping pussy.

Jazmine gripped the sheet
s, biting the pillows as he thrust into her. She backed up, moving to his rhythm. Every time he stroked forward, she pushed back, and all that could be heard in the bedroom was skin-to-skin slapping.

Javier slapped her butt
again. He skimmed his hand from her ass to the arch of her back, and then up her side to grab her breast. Javier could feel her pussy contracting around his cock. Jazmine was about to cum. Her channel rippled along his dick as her orgasm exploded.

“Shit
…” she cried into the pillow.

Her essence coated his dick
; this woman was going to be the death of him. He pushed her down, plunging deep into her. He turned them to the side, lifting her leg over his. Javier caressed from her stomach to her nub, and she cried out in ecstasy again. Her foot dug into his leg, her pussy tightened around his member, and he exploded deep into her core.

They both were gasping for air, trying to regain their strength.

“That was incredible… I’ve never had so many orgasms…” she moaned, wrapping her hands around him.

“There’s more to come
.” He gently pinched her clit.

“I’m too
… sensitive.” She locked her legs, taking his hand in hers, licking each finger. “Later.”

“Promise
?” He nipped her collarbone, and his cock rested against her ass.

She turned to face him. “Why won
’t you let me please you?”

Javier arched his brow.

“You haven’t let me … you know … do you,” she squeaked.

He removed her hair from her face. “Jazz, I taste you because I love doing it
, you’ve been through a lot.”

“That’s why you’re taking baby steps with me
. You don’t think I can handle it?” She came up onto her elbows.

“I know you can handle anything
.” He licked her lips. “I just don’t want to do anything that might bring back memories.”

She nipped his tongue. “Let me be the judge of that. You make me feel special and beautiful. You’re the only person that makes me forget. So
, if I want to give you a blow job, then I’ll give you one.”

“Okay…”
He chuckled.

Their breathing slowly came back to normal,
and he could feel her heartbeat sync with his. She was the one; he knew it long time ago, but he was too blind to accept it. His head moved down.

“Tu eres mi Riena
.” Javier nibbled and then kissed her neck.

“En
glish…” She panted.

He chort
led against her throat, nibbling his way up to her lips. “I said, you’re my queen.”

They gazed at each other,
and a single tear rolled down her left cheek. “Thank … you,” she said above a whisper.

“For?”

“For making me feel like I’m the most beautiful woman in the world.”

He wiped her tear, kissing the very spot. “To me
, you are…”