Little, Big
Authors: John Crowley
Tags: #Masterwork, #Magic, #Family, #Fantasy, #Fantasy Fiction, #Fairies, #Fiction, #Romance, #Science Fiction, #Families, #General, #Love Stories
John Crowley
Fantasy Masterworks Volume 5
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Lines from
Lark Rise to Candleford
by Flora Thompson; published 1954. By permission of Oxford University Press.
Lines from "For the Marriage of Faustus and Helen" from
The Complete Poems and Selected Letters and Prose of Hart Crane
by Hart Crane, edited by Brom Weber; copyright 1933, (c) 1958, 1966 by Liveright Publishing Corporation, also published by Oxford University Press. By permission of W.W. Norton, Inc. and Laurence Pollinger, Ltd.
(Note: Every effort has been made to locate the copyright owners of material reproduced in this book. Omissions brought to our attention will be corrected in subsequent editions.)
LITTLE, BIG
A Bantam Book / September 1981
FIRST EDITION
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Copyright (c) 1981 by John Crowley.
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For Lynda
who first knew it
with the author's love.
The Fairies' Parliament
Somewhere to Elsewhere—A Long Drink of Water—
Anonymity—Name & Number—A City Mouse—At
First Sight—The Young Santa Claus—A Sea Island—
Correspondence—Make-Believe—Life is Short, or Long—
Trumps Turned at Edgewood—Junipers.
A Gothic Bathroom—From Side to Side—Sophie's
Dream—Led Astray—An Imaginary Bedroom—In the
Walled Garden—Houses & Histories—Doctor Drinkwa-
ter's Advice—The Architecture of Country Houses—Just
Then.
Strange Insides—For It Was He—Strange and Shaded
Lanes—Call Them Doors—No End to Possibility—A
Turn Around The House—Tell Me the Tale—All Ques-
tions Answered—Gone, She Said.
A Suit of Truman's—The Summer House—Woods and
Lakes—Touching Noses—Happy Isles—A Sheltered
Life—As Quietly As She Had Come—Suppose One Were
a Fish.
Lucky Children—Some Final Order—Can You Find the
Faces—These Few Windows—To See What He Could
See—But There It Is—In the Woods—By the Way—
Good Advice—What About It.
Book Two
:
BROTHER NORTH-WIND'S SECRET
Retreats and Operations—A Swell Idea—Some Notes
About Them—What You Most Want—Something Hor-
rific—Anthology of Love—Darker Before It Lightened—
The Last Day of August—Strange Way to Live—No
Catching Up.
Robin Bird's Lesson—The End of the World—Brother
North-wind's Secret—The Only Game Going—The One
Good Thing About Winter—The Old Age of the World—
Unflinching Predators—Responsibilities—Harvest-
Home—Seized by the Tale.
Time Flies—A Definite Hazard—Up on the Hill—Cocoa
and a Bun—The Orphan Nymphs—The Least Trumps—
Only Fair.
Agreement with Newton—Letters to Santa—Room for
One More—A Gift They Had to Give—Old World
Bird—Lucy, then Lilac—Little, Big—Solstice Night—In
All Directions.
Keeping People Out—News from Home—What George
Mouse Heard—George Mouse Goes on Overhearing—A
Friend of the Doctor's—A Shepherd in the Bronx—Look
at the Time—The Club Meets—Pictured Heavens.
Old Law Farm—The Bee or the Sea—A Wingéd Messen-
ger—A Folding Bedroom—Sylvie and Destiny—Gate of
Horn.
Lilacs and Fireflies—That's a Secret—Books and a Bat-
tle—The Old Geography—Hills and Dales—A Getaway
Look—Two Beautiful Sisters.
The Art of Memory—A Geography—Wakings-up—No
Going Back Out—Slow Fall of Time—Princess—Brown-
ie's House—A Banquet.
A Time and a Tour—Rainy-day Wonder—That's the
Lot—A Secret Agent—The Worm Turned—Hidden
Ones Revealed—Glory—Not Yet.
Tossing and Turning—La Negra—The Seventh Saint—
Whispering Gallery—Right Side Up—What a Tangle.
The Top of a Stair—Daughter of Time—The Child
Turned—An Imaginary Study—Nevertheless Spring—Let
Him Follow Love.
More Would Happen—Something Going—Uncle Daddy
—Lost for Sure—The Wild Wood—This Is War—Unex-
pected Seam—From East to West—Sylvie?
The Hero Awakened—A Secret Sorrow—A Year to Place
Upon It—In the First Place—And in the Second Place—
And in the Third.
Not Her But This Park—Never Never Never—Doesn't
Matter—Sylvie & Bruno Concluded—How Far You've
Gone—Bottom of a Bottle—Door into Nowhere—Ahead
and Behind.
Not a Moment Too Soon—Needle in The Haystack of
Time—Crossroads—An Awful Mess—Slowly I Turn—
Embracing Himself.
Nothing for Something—Quite Long-Sighted—Ever Af-
ter—Three Lilacs—Thinking of Waking.
Book Six: THE FAIRIES' PARLIAMENT
Winters—Fifty-Two—Carrying a Torch—Something He
Could Steal—Escapements—Caravans—New-Found-
Land—Just About Over.
What a Surprise—Walking from There—A Parliament—
Not All Over—Lady with the Alligator Purse—Still Un-
stolen.
Is It Far?—Only Pretending—Where Was She Headed?—
Too Simple to Say—Another Country.
Storm of Difference—Watch Your Step—A Family
Thing—A Watch and a Pipe—Middle of Nowhere—Fifty-
two Pickup.
Her Blessing—So Big—More, Much More—Only the
Brave—Quite Close—Give Way, Give Way—Come or
Stay—Not Going—Land Called the Tale—A Wake—A
Real Gift—She's Here, She's Near—Once Upon a Time.
A little later, remembering man's earthly origin, 'dust thou art and to dust thou shalt return,' they liked to fancy themselves bubbles of earth. When alone in the fields, with no one to see them, they would hop, skip and jump, touching the ground as lightly as possible and crying 'We are bubbles of earth! Bubbles of earth! Bubbles of earth!'
—Flora Thompson,
Lark Rise
I.
Men are men, but Man is a woman.
—Chesterton
On a certain day in June, 19—, a young man was making his way on foot northward from the great City to a town or place called Edgewood, that he had been told of but had never visited. His name was Smoky Barnable, and he was going to Edgewood to get married; the fact that he walked and didn't ride was one of the conditions placed on his coming there at all.
Though he had left his City room early in the morning it was nearly noon before he had crossed the huge bridge on a little-used walkway and come out into the named but boundaryless towns on the north side or the river. Through the afternoon he negotiated those Indian-named places, usually unable to take the straight route commanded by the imperious and constant flow of traffic; he went neighborhood by neighborhood, looking down alleys and into stores. He saw few walkers, even indigenous, though there were kids on bikes; he wondered about their lives in these places, which to him seemed gloomily peripheral, though the kids were cheerful enough.
The regular blocks of commercial avenues and residential streets began gradually to become disordered, thinning like the extremes of a great forest; began to be broken by weedy lots as though by glades; now and then a dusty undergrown woods or a scruffy meadow announced that it was available to be turned into an industrial park. Smoky turned that phrase over in his mind, since that seemed truly the place in the world where he was, the industrial park, between the desert and the sown.
He stopped at a bench where people could catch buses from Somewhere to Elsewhere. He sat, shrugged his small pack from his back, took from it a sandwich he had made himself—another condition—and a confetti-colored gas-station road map. He wasn't sure if the map were forbidden by the conditions, but the directions he'd been given to get to Edgewood weren't explicit, and he opened it.
Now. This blue line was apparently the cracked macadam lined with untenanted brick factories he had been walking along. He turned the map so that this line ran parallel to his bench, as the road did (he wasn't much of a map reader) and found, far off to his left, the place he walked toward. The name Edgewood didn't appear, actually, but it was
here
somewhere, in this group of five towns marked with the legend's most insignificant bullets. So. There was a mighty double red line that went near there, proud with exits and entrances; he couldn't walk along that. A thick blue line (on the model of the vascular system, Smoky imagined all the traffic flowing south to the city on the blue lines, away on the red) ran somewhat nearer, extending corpuscular access to towns and townlets along the way. The much thinner sclerotic blue line he sat beside was tributary to this; probably commerce had moved there, Tool Town, Food City, Furniture World, Carpet Village. Well . . . But there was also, almost indistinguishable, a narrow black line he could take soon instead. He thought at first that it led nowhere, but no, it went on, faltering, seeming at first almost forgotten by the mapmaker in the ganglia, but then growing clearer in the northward emptiness, and coming very near a town Smoky knew to be near Edgewood.
That one, then. It seemed a walker's road.
After measuring with his thumb and finger the distance on the map he had come, and how far he had to go (much farther), he slung on his pack, tilted his hat against the sun, and went on.
She was not much in his mind as he walked, though for sure she hadn't been far from it often in the last nearly two years he had loved her; the room he had met her in was one he looked into with the mind's eye often, sometimes with the trepidation he had felt then, but often nowadays with a grateful happiness; looked in to see George Mouse showing him from afar a glass, a pipe, and his two tall cousins: she, and her shy sister behind her.
It was in the Mouse townhouse, last tenanted house on the block, in the library on the third floor, the one whose mullioned windows were patched with cardboard and whose dark rug was worn white in pathways between door, bar and windows. It was that very room.
She was tall.
She was nearly six feet tall, which was several inches taller than Smoky; her sister, just turned fourteen, was as tall as he, Their party dresses were short, and glittered, hers red, her sister's white; their long, long stockings glistened. What was odd was that tall as they were they were shy, especially the younger, who smiled but wouldn't take Smoky's hand, only turned away further behind her sister.
