In Search of Grace (24 page)

             
He
slid on
the bed next to her
wanting to savor every
moment with her
.  Seeking her mouth
again, his hands trailed down to cup a breast
in his hand
.
  Pulling back he looked at her
.
“You are so beautiful
,
Alex.”
 
Then
bending to her, took her in his mouth
while the other hand kneaded
the
other breast.  Tears sprang to her eyes at his words
,
and she
clos
ed
them quickly
so
he
would not
see
how much his words
affect
ed
her
.
  She wanted to believe him
as he continued to love her body
.  Pushing back the tears, she ran her
hand through his hair as he
continued to suck on one breast and then the other
, taking his time
.  She moaned
as
his hand gentl
y
pushed her legs apart so he could touch her
; h
is palm pressing down through her
underwear
before pushing it aside to slide in one finger, then
another
.
She gasped at the
sensations
that
rocked through her.

             
“You are so hot
,
” he moaned against her mouth.

             
Pulling at him
,
she begged
,
“Seth, I can’t take to
o
much more, please come inside of me.”

             
“
S
hhh,
n
ot yet
,
Alex.”

             
Moving
away from her slightly,
he watched her skin flush with passion
.  He
h
eard her whimper as
her
hips kept time to his fingers as they moved in and out
; w
atch
ed
as she tried to
fight the wave that slowly grew within her.

             
“Let go, baby.”

             
“
No.
P
lease
,
Seth
.
”

             
“I want to
watch
you come.  I want to feel you with my hand.”
Embarrassed, s
he tried to cover her eyes, but he pulled her hand away holding it above her head as he continued to work at her very core.

             
“Let go
,
baby. 
Let me f
eel
you
like before
.”

             
Unable to hold back any longer
,
her
breathing became ragged as her body exploded in a million pieces.  Seth watched her back arch in pleasure, felt her tighten around his fingers.  A sheen of sweat formed on his
body.  He gritted his teeth
.

             
Quickly, he removed her
underwear
,
and then
rolled away.  Alex felt a loss as he moved
, then
, hearing the ripping of a package, realized
that he was getting a cond
om.  Within
seconds,
he was back.
Her body
already cooling, s
he became frightened as she felt his
weight slide on her while one
kne
e
gently
press
ed
her legs apart. 
Seth put his hands under her shirt
trying
to pull it over her head again. 
Her breath quickened, this time in fear. 
They were reaching a point of no return.
  Her hands went to his shoulders
in panic
. 
She f
elt
his
muscles rippling
beneath
her touch.
  She
could not
breathe
.

             
“Seth?”

             
He
felt her
hesitation
and
heard
the
fear
in her voice
.
Letting go of her shirt, h
e
stilled
giving her
a moment
to collect herself.  Unsure of what was going on
,
he dropped his
fore
head to hers
as
he
closed
his eyes.
  Swallowing hard, h
e could feel the blood pounding through his veins. 
As much as h
e wanted her
, he
would only take
her
when she was ready.
 
Lifting the weight of his body up and off her while searching her face, he saw that her eyes
had
closed.
She was so
pale and
still.

             
“Look
at
me
,
Alex!” he
demanded h
is
voice
still
rough with passion.

             
“We can stop anytime you want, even now
.
”

             
“No,
I….I
am fine
.”

             
He
did not
believe her. 
Resting on one
arm,
he took
both of her
hand
s
,
entwin
ing
them again with
his fingers
as he did
earlier
, and then
slid
them
up over her head. 
E
asing
back
down on her slightly, he dropped his head
and kissed her
gently
on the lips.  Tasting, coaxing
until he
felt her
body
start to relax
once
again
.  Slowly
, methodically
, he
bent to suckle on one breast, and then the other.
Taking
his
time until t
he fire relit inside of her,
and her fear passed.
He felt the shift as she
voluntarily spread her legs
to him.

             
He shifted
again pressing his
hips
down on hers
, hearing her gasp, as
she
felt him hard and ready,
hovering
just outside of her
center
.

             
“
It’s
just
you and
me
,
Alex,” he whispered
into her ear
.  “Just you and me baby. 
I want you so much.
Are you r
eady
?”

             
She was touched he asked
.  She nodded her head.
Seth did not give her a second chance to change her mind, plunging deep within her.
She gasped at the invasion
, frozen for a brief moment
at the rush of harsh memories
threatened to overtake her
,
p
leasure and pure wanton sensation
s
winning
over the past
.

             
He stopped
, hesitated, f
ighting the urge to move within her as he felt her moist
, tight
and hot encircling him.
  He wanted
,
no he
needed
,
her to be ok
more than he needed his release
.

             
“Am I hurting
you?”
H
e
groaned, “
I don’t want
to
hurt you
,
Alex
.”

             
She knew what it was taking
him
to hold back, for her. 
“Please
,
Seth
, l
ove me,
”
she begged
wrapping her arms around him.
  T
his time
he did not hear any fear
.

             
She started to move her hips encouraging him
to move.

             
Seth
rose
up
above her
, releasing her hands that were still entwined in his above her head
,
with
muscles rippling,
slowly
pull
ing
out
of her
then
just as slowly
slid
ing
back in. 

             
Alex
moaned.  She
was on fire
while h
er mind and body
surrendered to
the
basic need for him
.  Seth
could not
hold
back, overcome
with
his own feelings
of
having her
, so hot and ready under him.  His thrusting changed
with
a sense of urgency. 

             
“Please
,
”
she begged, not even sure what
more
she
wanted him to do.
  Wrapping her legs around his waist, h
e
drove
even
harder, sweat breaking out on his skin
,
wanting
to explode in her but
still
waiting
for the right moment.

             
He started to feel her tightening
around him
.
Grabbing her
face
with one hand
he stopped thrusting.

             
“Look at me
,
” he growl
ed.  Alex
flushed at the intimacy of the moment.  Her
body
entwined with his
,
his
body impaled on her.  She looked into his eyes, a
nd
he started moving again. 
She knew what he was waiting for
,
and it turned her on. 
Within seconds, her body explode
d
for the second time
that night
before she felt his release
with
his final thrusts.
 

             
Closing her
eyes, she fought to hold back the tear that slid between her lashes
,
then another.

             
Seth leaned down, softly kissing her on her
forehead
,
his lips moving to the side of her face
to catch each tear that fell before brushing her lips with his own.
Offering whatever comfort he could.  He was unsure about the tears
so he
remained silent.
After a few
minutes,
h
er eyes opened,
quietly
staring at him, and then kissed
him back
softly
,
marvel
ing
at how her body felt drugged
and weak
from their sex.
  She felt complete and unafraid
with what had just happened.