Ignite Me: Shards of Glass, Part One (49 page)

“Are you okay, Cameron?!” I chewed my lip as I studied his profile.

“Yes, why?!” He looked around at me confused, his eyes searching mine.

“Only you didn't let me kiss you before and I wondered if it was something to do with your visit to your folks' place!” It was stupid to worry, he was going to break it off with me after everything back in the lounge but I was worried. I hated how that worry eats away at me inside.

He sighed. “Oh Evan, no, not at all! I didn't want you to feel like I was rushing you after your ordeal! So please don't talk yourself into thinking that I was distancing myself from you, I wouldn't do that!” He swivelled around to face me and swung my stall so I was facing him and took hold of my hands.

“There was something I didn't tell you about my visit to my parents, though, and I know I should have told you this earlier but I knew you'd dislike the idea.”

His face had turned serious and I got that dropping feeling in my stomach, making me feel sick. There would be only one reason he'd not tell me the whole truth.

“She was there, wasn't she?!” I wanted to ask what the hell he wanted her there for. Erin had been there I could tell.

“Yes, she was but it was the only way to sort the whole thing out! Nothing happened between us!” He ran his thumb over my knuckles. “Please believe me when I say I never touched her.”

I hated the idea of her even being there, of her trying to persuade him I was nothing more than a gold digger. A sudden and unwanted vision of him and her together crept into my mind like poison.

“Why did she have to be there?! What happened cause I'm thinking all sorts here! I mean, how would you like it if I had been with Sean and you hadn't been there?!” It was hint enough that he'd know I was worried.

His face contorted. “If you think I had sex with her Evangeline you are very wrong! I was never alone with her! My mother was there the whole time!”

I hung my head for even thinking that he would, but I didn't trust her. Did I trust him?! I knew I should but I was so insecure.

“Please don't hang your head, I understand it's hard for you after what Hagen did and what happened today has made you feel insecure, but know when I say I love you I mean that, it also means I am monogamous to us, to you!” He freed a hand and stroked his fingers under my chin, making me look up at him.

I was embarrassed, but he was helping me by being patient. “I'm sorry, I hate being like this! So eaten up by my own worries, it won't always be me freaking out I promise!” I smiled at him as I laced my fingers with his.

The smile spread across his face, lighting it up. “I am fully aware of what that feels like, and I will always do what you allow me to help with your anxiety!” He stroked his thumb over my cheek bone.

I closed my eyes and let a breath go for a second. “Thank you, I just get scared sometimes.”

“Baby, I understand that, it's okay, I would like to tell what happened, though if you're interested?!” He waited for an answer.

I wanted to know, so I nodded. “Sure, fire away.” I smiled.

He grinned at me. “I'll start by saying that I did ask her to go there to meet me because I knew she'd have to hear it from me and the same for my mother! They both had to know just how important you are to me!”

I listened hard and tried not to interrupt him.

“She arrived shortly after I did and assumed I was going to tell her that you had been a big mistake so when I told her that she and I were over, and that we had been for months she had a melt down! I told her that fucking her over and over in a soulless hotel room wasn't love, that it had never been about love or anything else other than the fact she had been so eager to please me!” He sneered like even thinking about it was disgusting to him. “I told her aside from over lapping business things I would have nothing further to do with her and that she had to accept that I was in a real relationship now.”

I pulled a face. That was humiliation enough to he told that, but to be told that in front of his mother as well, that would have stung. “How did your Mom take that?!”

He sucked a breath in. “Well, she wasn't best pleased that her son had been fucking her so called friend, you see Erin had never told my Mother that we had been sexually involved with each other she had made it sound like we had been on dates so all their little coffee morning when she made it sound like you had stolen me away suddenly didn't quite have the same meaning.”

“Yea, I bet!” I wondered what his Mom thought about me and Cameron now she knew the truth.

“When I told my Mother how in love I was with you, how much you had opened my eyes to so many things that I felt alive for the first time ever, Erin flipped it and tried to hit me, and she had to be restrained in the end, I had her taken home while I stayed and talked to my Mum and Dad, they asked about you, what you did, how old you were and I didn't even need to open my mouth because my sister did pretty much a speech about how wonderful you are! My mother and I will never ever see eye to eye and she's angry with me right now, but as my father said, she'll come round. He wants to meet you some time! We were going to have tea, but after I had the call saying you'd been attacked I got the train as soon as I could. It's been a strange day for both of us really hasn't it!” He beamed a huge smile at me.

I wanted to jump up and down on the spot I was so excited that they didn't hate me. It was great news that his Dad wanted to meet me, I would show them that I wasn't what Erin painted me to be. “Yeah, it has, really! Oh hey, I almost forgot, I have something for you! It's in my pocket!” I grinned, remembering the tie clip.

He quirked an eyebrow up. “In your pocket?!” He chuckled.

“Yeah, I know it sounds rude but it's not my middle finger! I promise.” I shoved my hand in my pocket and pulled the box out and held it out to him. “For you!” I grinned.

“What is it?!” He asked as his eyes scanned over the box.

I laughed softly. “Open it and you'll find out Cameron!” I held the box right out to him in the palm of my hand.

“Was this what you were doing when you sent me that photo?!” He let go of my hand and took the box.

I nodded. “Sure was! I hope you like it, I couldn't find a watch that was suitable, but I did find that!”

He smiled as his fingers pushed up the box lid, he removed the clip and inspected it.

“In case I forget my name?!” He ran his finger over his surname.

“More for if anyone needs reminding more like, check the back!” I bit my lip nervously waiting for him to see the inscription.

He turned it over in his hand and his eyes went wide, his jaw flickered and he didn't speak for a while and when he did he seemed to be struggling with his emotions. “I will always make time for us, for you! I literally can't even imagine my life without you in it now!” He took a breath. “I'll treasure this! It means a lot to me! You mean the world to me.” He put it back into the box and closed it carefully, leaving it on the counter before turning back to face me.

“I am so glad you like it, it's simple but meaningful.” I loved how he looked at me, his eyes were so deep, so full of love. I moved forward on my stall and leant into him. “I'm going to kiss you now!”

He grinned at me, as his hands pulled me to him. “Yes, you are!”

Our lips meet, brushing softly against each other as they engaged in their battle for dominance. I moaned as his hands pulled my hair slightly as he broke the kiss. “I love you!” His forehand rested against mine.

“I love you too!” We pulled apart and I glanced at our empty bowls. “Shall we head to bed?!” I hinted at him.

He studied me for a moment. “Are you tired?!” He checked his watch confirming the time was only 7pm.

I shook my head. “Nope, not at all, beds are for more than sleeping, like cuddling for example!” I grinned. “Or sex!”

I smiled.

He smirked. “Ah, I see, so what do you plan on doing to me then, since you’re taking the initiative!”

I grinned. “Oh, now that would be telling, but I got some new underwear that needs trialling and didn't you request I be naked with only my watch on?!”

He closed his eyes and smiled. “So I did, I'll let you take the lead, whatever you want to do, we will do!” He held his hand out for mine.

I was pleased he was letting me take the lead, I didn't even need to ask to know that he probably hadn't let many take the lead where sex was concerned but he was allowing me and I wouldn't disappoint. I placed my hand in his and hopped down from the stall taking a few steps.

“So what kinda underwear am I being treated to tonight?!” He walked behind me.

“Oh, you'll like it, I'm sure!” I gripped his hand as we reached his room.

“I like you in all sorts of items of clothing, but best of all I love to be able to touch your skin! To run my fingertips over your tattoos.” His breathing changed up, it was deeper now.

I let a breath go. “Before us, I was embarrassed about sex, yanno, it was something I kinda just let happen, but you've shown me its okay to want it! To feel the way we do.” I grinned shyly at him, he was unlocking me in every way there was, and I adored him.

“Good, because I want you to feel confident about your body, about how you work it! Nothing wrong with having needs and desires Evan!” He walked over to the bed and sat himself down on the end and picked up the Agent Provocateur bag and held it out to me. “Yours I assume!” He grinned impishly.

I took the bag. “It is indeed! Get yourself comfortable I'll be back in bit!” I shook the bag, letting what was inside rustle. “Gotta go um slip into something more comfortable!” I skipped off the walk in closet.

“Adorable skipping Miss Watson!” He shouted as the door shut behind me.

chapter 27

I stood in the closest checking myself out in the mirror. I had gone for the dark purple lace bra set, the panties where a thong, I actually felt good about what I saw. My hair didn't hang as long now since the cut, but it still looked like mermaid hair, it sat over my shoulders.

“Okay, time to show him whose boss girl!” I laughed as I walked towards the door, I swung my hips a little more than normal practicing for when I left the closet. I pulled my shoulders back as I walked out.

Walk, walk, sexy hip swing, hand on hip, get his attention, smile shyly at him.

I repeated it like a mantra as I walked further into the room.

“Well hello Miss Watson!” He did a low whistle as I walked over him, he was sitting on the end of the bed with a dark pair of black boxer briefs on.

“Well hello to you too, Mr. Ballard!” I walked over to him and stood a little way away.

“Very nice, are those what you ordered online?!” His eyes wandered the length of my body freely.

I tried to ignore the lusty look in his eyes that made me feel like I was going to combust.
I shook my head.
“Nope, those are for a special occasion! These are some others I got while I was there! The plunge cup actually feels so good.” I ran my hands over my bra and smirked at him.

He closed his eyes for a second, then reopened them. “Are they silk?!” He hooked his arm around my middle and pulled me towards him.

“I assume so!” I grinned as his hands explored my back, his head tipped backward a little.

“It's a wonderful shade of purple!” His fingers brushed over the cups of my bra, kneading my breasts through them.

My nipples erected underneath the smooth padded cups and my breathing hitched. “And the panties?!” I breathed, trying to get myself back on track, I was meant to be taking the lead here not him.

He grinned as his hands swept down my sides and over my backside. “Very nice.”

I moaned softly as he squeezed my butt with his fingers.

“I approve of you fondling my ass.” I grinned at him and with my right hand, I pushed him back towards the bed in what I hoped was a sexy move.

He fell gracefully back onto the bed, his face splitting into a grin as he shuffled backwards so he was lying in the center of the bed. “Now you've got me where you want me, Miss Watson what do you plan now?!” His arms were relaxed spread out at his sides. His head lifted slightly to see me, his face full of excitement.

“Well, Mr. Ballard, I intend to do this!” I straddled him before slowly crawling up his body, trialling soft open mouthed kisses up the length of his chest starting at his happy trail and ending above his collar bone. “Hmm, seems a good spot.” I leant over him and murmured into ear as I gently nibbled his earlobe.

“Mm” his throat vibrated as he moaned incoherently.

“How about here?! Yes, I think here would be good!” I grinned down at him as I softly nibbled his shoulder, just along from his collar bone.

“Yea, that's a sweet spot!” He arched his back upwards, his breathing hitched.

I smiled, pleased with myself and how things were going. I shifted how I was sitting and rolled my hips deliberately making contact with his boxers.

“Fuck.” His hands ran up my back in a sweeping motion stopping to rest on my bra, his fingers made short work of getting the catch undone, he carefully pulled it down my arms and then tossed it off to the side. “You are glorious Evan!”

“You are pretty glorious yourself Cameron!” I arched my head back as his hands caressed the warm skin of my breasts, his long fingers kneading them, they were putty in his expect hands.

“Oh god that feels so good!” He moaned, arching his hips into mine.

I rolled my hips again, this time rubbing harder than before, the friction between us building to a crackling point. I could feel his erection pressing into me now.

“You like how that feels?!” I dipped my head and pulled his bottom lip softy with my teeth.

His hands ran down my back and held me in place. “Oh sweet Evan, where did you learn that?!” He moaned.

“I told you I watched a lot of video’s I never specified what type!” I grinned down at him as I continued rolling my hips, the friction felt wonderful.

He moaned. “A girl that watches porn! I'm in love!” He smirked as tried to roll me, so he'd be on top, but I shoved him back down.