Holding You (4 page)

“I’m so sorry, Colt.”

Looking at her with a confused look, I asked, “Sorry for what, Lauren?”

Placing her hands on my arms, she was barely able to speak. “I’m so sorry for pushing you away, for hurting you with the things I said and did, and for Roger.”

Roger. Oh God. She slept with Roger.
I felt sick to my stomach and I wanted to take a step away, but I didn’t.

“Roger?” I asked as my voice cracked.

Her eyes widened in horror. “No. Oh God no, Colt. I never slept with him. I knew it would drive you crazy if I dated him and that’s why I did. He tried a few times to get me to sleep with him, but . . .”

My heart slammed in my chest, and I made plans to beat the fuck out of that asshole when I saw him again.

“But?”

“I always knew my heart belonged to you. As much as I tried to fight it . . . it only grew stronger. I’m so scared of my feelings for you and then everything with my father and the ranch. I thought it was easier to push you away than admit you were everything I’ve ever wanted.”

Her words flowed through my mind as I let them soak in. My heart felt like it might explode with Lauren saying I was all she’s ever wanted.

You were everything I’ve ever wanted.

Leaning in to her, I brushed my lips against hers. “Tell me, Lauren. Tell me what you want, baby.”

Closing her eyes, she held onto me tighter. “You, Colt. I want you.”

Reaching behind Lauren’s back, I began to unzip the dress she wore. She had looked beautiful today and I was pretty sure my pants grew ten times too small when I watched her walk down the aisle. Her beauty was unlike anything I had ever seen before.

“Lauren, are you nervous?”

Nodding her head, she whispered, “Yes.”

Taking a step back, I looked into her eyes. “I used to dream about being with you, Lauren. I had everything planned out in my mind on how I wanted it to be for us.” Closing my eyes, I thought back to my dreams. Opening them, I reached up and pushed the dress off of her body and watched as it pooled on the floor.

Lauren stood before me, dressed in a white strapless bra and matching lace panties. Her body was beyond anything I could have dreamed of. Lauren appeared to be confident, yet shy. I could see she wanted to look away, but she held her gaze. “And how do I compare to your dreams?”

Taking a step closer, I kissed her neck as she let out whimper. Between each kiss, I spoke. “Oh, Lauren.” Kissing along her neck, I moved down. “My dreams could never have prepared me for your perfection.”

Reaching behind her, I unclasped her bra and watched it fall to the ground. Letting out a moan, I took her breasts into my hands. They fit perfectly. I rubbed my thumbs across her nipples as she dropped her head back and moaned. My body felt as if it was on fire. “Colt, your touch is amazing. My body feels like it is on fire.” Smiling, I kissed her lips quickly.

Dropping to my knees, I kissed around her belly button. Slipping my fingers into the top of her lace panties, I slowly took them off of her as she lifted each leg to remove them.

Taking a look at her, I fought like hell not to come in my pants. Jesus H. Christ. She was perfect. Lifting my eyes back up to hers, I could see she was nervous. I wanted to ask her how far she had gone with Roger, but I also didn’t want to ruin the mood.

Lifting her leg, I placed it over my shoulder as I watched her eyes widen in anticipation of what I was going to do. My body tingled all over at the idea of being so intimate with Lauren. It was as if she could read my mind. Wetting her lips, she whispered, “I’ve never . . . I mean no one has ever . . .”

Smiling, I moved in closer and gently blew on her sensitive skin. “Never, Lauren?”

Frantically shaking her head, Lauren closed her eyes and said, “Never. It never felt right.”

I placed my lips above her clit and gently kissed her as she sucked in a breath of air. Knowing I would be the first to do this made me happier than I thought. I was dying to taste her. Moving her leg off of me, I quickly stood up, and scooped Lauren into my arms. She let out a playful scream as I carried her across the room. “I need to know what you taste like, Lauren.”

“Oh, God,” Lauren whispered as I gently placed her down on the king-sized bed.

Looking at Lauren laid out on the bed, I let out a moan. I quickly undressed myself as Lauren watched. Pushing my pants down, I watched her eyes as they landed on my hard dick, hidden behind my boxer briefs. Lauren sat up and quickly moved to the edge of the bed.

“Wait,” she said as she knelt before me. “I want to remove them,” she said as her voice cracked. As she lifted her hands, I couldn’t help but notice they were shaking. I knew she was nervous, and I’m sure she was scared out of her mind. Hell, I was scared out of my mind.

Placing her hands on my stomach, she smiled. “Your body, Colt . . . it’s amazing.”

Closing my eyes briefly before opening them again, I held my breath as Lauren bit down on her lip as she stared at my dick. Slowly pushing my briefs down, she never stopped staring. I was beginning to have a complex. Surely she’d seen a dick before. I couldn’t imagine with her dating she had never gotten a guy off with her hand.

Fuck. Why am I thinking of Lauren being with other guys? What the hell is wrong with me?
Shaking my head to clear my thoughts, I kicked my briefs off to the side. My body jumped when Lauren took me in her hand.

Please don’t come. Please don’t come. Fuck . . . think of something else, Mathews.
Lauren’s hand slowly moved up and down my rock-hard shaft. I was so hard, I actually ached.

Movies . . . I wonder what movies are coming out this weekend?
The moment she took me into her mouth, I about lost it. Pulling back, I dropped down to my knees. “No! Holy fucking shit, Lauren.”

Lauren jumped back. “Did I do something wrong? Oh God, I’ve never done that before, Colt, but I really, really wanted to, and I’m so sorry if I did something wrong. Shit! Shit! Shit!”

I looked into her frightened eyes, and I was elated knowing she had never given a guy a blowjob. Attempting to find my voice, I smiled the same smile I noticed seemed to make Lauren’s eyes light up. “No, sweetheart. God no, you didn’t do a damn thing wrong. I don’t want to come before I even get a chance to be inside you.”

The fear in her eyes was replaced with desire. “Really?”

Letting out a small chuckle, I nodded. “Really.”

The blush that moved across her cheeks was the sexiest thing I’d ever seen. “Now lie back, baby. I’m going to get that taste of you now.”

Lauren’s chest heaved up and down as she scooted her ass up the bed and laid her head down on the pillow. Crawling onto the bed, I pushed her legs open to me. I’d never seen anything so amazing in my life.

I began to kiss her inner thigh as Lauren made the sweetest little noises. Reaching her lips, I licked up from the bottom of her pussy to her clit. Lauren’s back arched off the bed as she cried out in pleasure.

Grinning, I was about to make Lauren completely mine. Burying my face between her legs, I moaned as I worked her with my tongue.

Finally, Lauren is mine.

THE MOMENT COLT’S
tongue touched me, it felt as if I left my body. Okay . . . not really . . . but it was the most amazing thing I’d ever felt. The furthest I’d ever let a guy go was finger fucking me. It had been nice and the orgasms pretty good, but this. Oh God, this was going to rock my world.

Placing my hands on Colt’s head, I moved my hips as he continued to work his magic. It wasn’t going to take long before I came and came hard.

Whispering his name over and over, my eyes about rolled into the back of my head as I felt my build up. I’d never experienced anything like this before. Colt slipped his fingers inside me, and I lost all control. My orgasm felt as if I was taken to utopia and left to float around for a bit.

Colt did something with his fingers and I felt a spilt second of pain, but my orgasm was too intense for me to really notice.

When he finally pulled his face away and looked at me, my breathing was so erratic I couldn’t speak. I was pretty sure I didn’t have just one orgasm, but two.

“Colt . . . that . . . was . . . so amazing!” I panted between breaths.

Moving up along my body, Colt placed gentle kisses as he softly spoke to me. “Lauren, I’ve never experienced such bliss as I am being with you right now. The taste of you was sweeter than I could have ever imagined.”

Oh God. I’m going to come again just from him talking.
Colt wasn’t just handsome as hell, he was utterly the most romantic man I’d ever met.

My body shuddered as he moved further along. Settling between my legs, he placed his hands on the sides of my face. “May I kiss you, Lauren?”

Swallowing hard, I asked, “After you just did that?” I wasn’t too sure how I felt about Colt kissing me after oral sex.

His smile lifted on the left side as Colt stole more of my heart. His blue eyes pierced mine as if he was looking into my soul.

“I won’t if you don’t want me to, baby.”

Did I want him to?
It was kind of gross thinking about it, but I put his dick in my mouth and I knew he would have kissed me afterward. Chewing on my lip I realized I was way overthinking this.

“Kiss me, Colt.”

Pressing his lips to mine, I opened my mouth to him. Colt moaned when our tongues began to dance with each other. Not being able to describe the taste in my mouth, I let myself get lost in his kiss and decided I liked this. It felt as if it brought us closer together.

I could feel Colt’s dick pressing against me, and I began to grind my hips against him. I knew he didn’t have a condom on, and we would need to be careful. “Colt, you feel so good, oh God. It feels so good.” I’d always imagined it would be magical being with Colt. But this . . . this was beyond anything I could have imagined.

He was rubbing against my clit and it didn’t take long before I was moaning into Colt’s mouth as another orgasm raced through my body. Pulling my mouth from Colt’s, I panted out, “More. Colt, I want more of you. Please.”

Running his nose lightly across my jawline, Colt let out a soft low moan. “Baby, the more orgasms you have, the more relaxed you’ll be.”

“Colt, please.”

Pulling back, Colt gazed into my eyes. I wasn’t sure, but something had changed between us, and I knew we would never go back to the way things were. Gone were the days of fighting and pushing each other away. Something in Colt’s eyes caused me to tear up. Placing his hand on the side of my face, Colt lightly brushed his thumb across my skin. “Lauren, I want you to know something before we do this.”

Nodding my head, I barely spoke above a whisper. “Okay.”

“I saved myself for you, because I knew the first time I made love to a woman, it was going to be with the woman I loved more than the air I breathed. My heart wants no other woman but you, Lauren.”

Wow. I’ve died and gone to heaven. I have officially been swept off my feet. I’ve. Been. Swooned.

A single tear slipped from my eye as Colt’s eyes followed it. Reaching down, his lips gently kissed my cheek. “I love you, Lauren Reynolds. Please, will you be mine?”

Wrapping my arms around Colt, I cried harder. Colt moved and sat on the bed as he pulled me into his lap and held me. When I was finally able to form words, I spoke. “Colt, you’ve made every one of my dreams come true today. I love you, too, and I want nothing more than to be forever yours.”

Colt’s eyes lit up and I swore they sparkled like diamonds. He laid me down gently and kissed my lips before turning and reaching for his wallet and pulled out a condom. Standing over me, he never took his eyes from mine. Oh how I’ve longed for Colt to make love to me. Although I was scared as hell, I was excited, curious, and full of questions that I needed him to answer for me, not only with his mouth, but with his body as well.

Wetting my lips, I watched as Colt rolled the condom on. Instinctively, I opened my legs as Colt moved back onto the bed. He slipped his fingers inside of me and slowly pushed in and pulled out. “Fuck,” he hissed through his teeth. “You’re so wet, Lauren.”

Hearing those words fall from Colt’s lips did something to me. I wanted to hear Colt talk to me like that more.

Moving over me, Colt leaned in and kissed me again. When he bit down on my lower lip, I lifted my hips and felt his dick pushing against me.

I was finally going to be with Colt. No more waking up in the middle of the night with my hands down my panties as I dreamt of his touch. He was finally taking what was his all along.

Kissing along my neck, Colt moved his lips to my ear and nibbled on my earlobe as he spoke in the most seductive voice I’d ever heard.

“I’m going to make love to you now, sweetheart. Please promise me you’ll tell me if I hurt you.”

The moment I had been dreaming of was finally here. I felt as if I was already on cloud nine and my mind was in a whirlwind.

Would it hurt? Would it feel good? Colt was thick . . . and long . . . and thick. Oh fuck. It’s gonna hurt like a son-of-a-bitch.
Squeezing my eyes shut, I attempted to quiet the voices in my head as Colt continued to build me up with his kisses and the touch of his hands on my breasts. If he pulled and twisted my nipple once more, I was going to scream out in ultimate pleasure.