âLeacon is right,' I answered. âEveryone should be afraid to die.'
She laughed harshly. âRather die fighting than hang.' Her voice seemed perceptibly higher. Something else she had had to keep under control all these years.
I said, âDavid is not dead, though he is badly hurt.'
She lowered her head, then spoke quietly. âI did not mean to kill him. I thought I would kill you and Barak, but I couldn't.'
âI know.'
She did not answer, but sat with head bowed. I looked ahead again. The four galleys were close now, I saw their sides were richly gilded with the arms of France. They circled round, still in their square formation, bringing their guns into position to fire on the
Mary Rose
. I said, as steadily as I could given my thudding heart, âIt's coming.'
âLet it,' Emma answered without looking up.
I said, âIf we get out of this, Hobbey will pass your wardship to me. Then you can decide what you want to be.'
She looked up, her face set hard again. âIf we live I'll find another company. Fight the Scots, perhaps.'
âI risked all to try and save you.'
âWhy?' she asked. âWhy did you? I never wanted-'
âTo give you a chance. A choice-'
I broke off at the sound of a cracking boom. Dark grey smoke billowed out from the front of the galley facing us. There was an odd silence lasting perhaps twenty seconds, then one of the sailors said, âThat was close.'
Then from below came a shout of âGive fire!' followed by the loudest noise I have ever heard, as all the cannon on the starboard side of the
Mary Rose
fired on the galleys, one after another after another, a series of tremendous crashing roars. I felt the impact travel up through my legs, making my very bones shake, and a dreadful pressure on the inside of my ears. The decks trembled and creaked. I turned to Emma; she had looked up, her eyes alight with excitement.
As the smoke cleared I saw the galleys were undamaged. The
Mary Rose
began turning to port, fast and steeply. I heard a cracking of sails. Then, through the doorway, I felt a sudden strong gust of wind.
âThat's too fast,' one of the sailors said.
The ship heeled to starboard. I thought it would be like the earlier manoeuvre and she would right herself, but she tilted more and more. The soldiers on the port side, which rose high as the starboard side dipped lower, clung to the side of the portholes; their guns began slipping back through them and crashing down the decks. Looking through the doorway I saw a man fall off the topmast into the web of rigging, swivel guns fall from the topdeck railing, into the sea. I heard crashing and shouting below the netting enclosing the weatherdeck as men and equipment slid and fell. All this took only seconds, but the time seems to stretch out in my memory, detail after terrible detail. All the soldiers on our deck, and their guns, were now tumbling and crashing against the starboard side. The long cannon on the port side, too, began slipping from its mount.
âGet out of here!' the sailor beside us shouted to his fellow. They went down on hands and knees and began crawling rapidly out onto the walkway above the netting, grasping the sides for the ship was tilted at such an angle now it was impossible to walk. Under the netting men were screaming. I saw hands reaching up through the mesh.
âCome on!' I shouted to Emma. I began crawling after the sailors, gritting my teeth against the pain in my shoulders. For a second I thought she might stay behind, but I heard her shuffling after me. We got out onto the walkway. Men were hacking frantically up at the stout netting with their knives. A hand reached up and grasped my arm, a frantic voice shouted, âHelp us!' but then water crashed over us, the cold a sudden shock, and I felt myself carried outwards. In the seconds I rode the top of the onrushing water I saw dozens of soldiers falling from the aftercastle through open or broken blinds. I saw the red of Pygeon's heavy brigandyne as he fell past me like a stone, eyes wide with horror, and Snodin's plump form, arms windmilling frantically, mouth open and screaming. The men threw up great splashes as they hit the sea, then disappeared, the weight of their clothing and helmets taking them at once to the bottom. All those men, all of them. And from the hundreds trapped below the netting, and on the lower decks, I heard a terrible screaming. Then the cold waters came over my head and I thought, this is it, the end I feared, drowning. And suddenly all the pains in my body were gone.
SEVERAL MOMENTS of utter, absolute terror, and then I felt myself carried up and outward, and my head was in the air again. I took a frantic breath, kicking wildly at the water. I had been swept some yards out from the
Mary Rose
. The giant ship was on its side now, rapidly sinking. Part of the foresail floated on the surface, and the topmast and foremast, almost horizontal, hung out over the frothing water. Tiny brown shapes were climbing up them; I realized they were rats. Amazingly a couple of the men in the fighting top high on the foremast had survived; they clung on, calling piteously for help, the great mast I had craned my neck to look up at now only a few feet above the waves. The terrible screaming from the soldiers and sailors trapped below the netting had ceased. I looked round wildly; perhaps a couple of dozen men were, like me, kicking and shouting in the water; a few bodies floated face down. More rats scrabbled in the water. A great bubble of air burst a few feet from me. The ship sank lower, below the water's surface.
I felt a force dragging me down again. Perhaps it was the ship settling on the seabed fifty feet below - as my head went under, I saw, amid hundreds more bubbles, the dim shape of the forecastle. It seemed to be moving, breaking away from the hull. I closed my eyes against the terror of it all, and seemed to see the face of the man I had once drowned staring at me sorrowfully.
Then the dragging ceased. I kicked frantically upwards, bringing my head above water again, desperately sucking in air. At a little distance the
Great Harry
was bearing straight down on the French galleys. After what had happened to the
Mary Rose
she was not going to turn broadside. One of the galleys fired and there was an answering roar from the guns near the bow of the
Great Harry
. Smoke drifted out over the water. I grasped frantically at something floating past. It was a longbow, too light to take my weight. I was fearfully cold, and suddenly light-headed. I felt myself sink again; and remembered hearing somewhere that if you are drowning, the third time you go down is the last.
Then a hand grasped my arm and pulled me up. I stared, wide-eyed, at Emma. She was clinging to something, a broad wooden circle with a short spar attached, the circle painted with alternating red and white rose petals. The emblem from the bow of the
Mary Rose
. I scrabbled at it. It was not heavy enough to support both of us, but by kicking our feet we were able to keep our heads above water. The pain in my shoulder returned from the effort of holding on, and my teeth began chattering with cold; even with the emblem to hold on to we could not survive long. Faint cries still sounded across the water from the few still left alive.
I saw the galleys break formation and retreat, rowing back to the French fleet. We were much closer to the French ships now; I could make out individual warships. Dozens and dozens of them, painted in black and yellow and green, drawn up in a long line three abreast. One at the front carried a massive papal flag, the keys of St Peter. I looked across the spar to Emma. Her face was wild, frantic. âWhere are they all?' she asked. âThe soldiers, the men?'
âGone,' I managed to gulp out. âDrowned.' I looked to where the
Mary Rose
had been; there was nothing to be seen now in the still-bubbling sea save the tips of the two masts a few feet above the water, men still clinging to the fighting tops, and the floating sail.
I heard a shout and turned to see a rowboat from one of the English ships approaching. Others were following, fishing the living from the water. The boat drew level and hands reached down to pull us out. Emma was landed in the boat first; I was dropped on top of her like a hooked fish. I looked round, into the horrified face of a sailor. âThe
Mary Rose
is gone,' he said.
Chapter Forty-eight
I WOKE TO semi-darkness. I realized I was on land; the ground beneath me was still. I was thirstier than ever in my life, the dryness reaching from deep in my chest to the back of my nose. I swallowed, tasted salt, and raised myself painfully up on my elbows. My shoulders were painfully stiff and sore. I saw that I was in a long, low room with small high windows; it was dark outside. I was lying on rough sacks on a dusty floor, a smelly blanket on top of me. Other men lay in rows along the walls. Someone was groaning. A couple of men with candles were moving to and fro. I tried to call out but could only manage a croak. One of the men carrying the candles came over with a heavy, limping walk. He stood over me: he was middle-aged with a seamed, lined face. I croaked out the words, âDrink. Please.'
He knelt beside me, placing a leather pouch to my lips. âSlowly, matey,' he said, as a blessed trickle of weak beer ran down my throat. âDon't gulp.'
I lay back, gasping. âWhere are we?'
âIn one of the Oyster Street warehouses. They brought all of you here that survived. I'm Edwin, I work on the loading usually.'
I croaked, âHow many? How many saved?'
âThirty-five pulled alive from the water. Those of you in a bad state were brought here. There are fifteen of you. One died earlier, God rest him.'
âThirty-five,' I breathed. âOut of-'
âFive hundred. The rest are at the bottom of the Solent.' His face, tanned and weatherbeaten, was sombre. âI knew some of them; I was a sailor till I smashed my leg five years ago.'
âDid any soldiers survive?'
âTwo or three in the fighting tops managed to cling on. No others. The soldiers were heavy clad, theyâ'
âDrowned. I saw. And heard the men under the netting, screaming - ' My eyes were suddenly hot and stinging, though there was no moisture left in me for tears.
âHere,' the old sailor said, âeasy now. Drink some more beer. You brought up a lot of water in the boat before you lost consciousness.'
I asked, âDid you see it? Did you see the ship go down?'
âEveryone on shore did. We all heard the screaming too, as the King did at South Sea Castle.'
âHe saw the
Mary Rose
sink?'
âThey say he cried out, “Oh, my gallant gentlemen! Oh, my gallant men!” He thought of the gentlemen first, of course,' he added bitterly.
âWhy? Why did she sink?'
Edwin shook his head. âSome are saying the gun ports weren't closed quickly enough as the ship turned. Others have it she was top-heavy with all the cannon, and too many soldiers on board. I heard she might have been hit, too, by the galleys. Whatever the cause, all those men are dead.'
âThe French - what happened? The
Great Harry
fired on the galleys-'
âThe galleys went back to the main fleet. They were trying to draw us into deep water to do battle with the French fleet, but Lord Lisle wasn't to be had like that. We'd have been overwhelmed.'
âI saw fires on the Isle of Wight.'
âThe French have landed near two thousand men there, but they're being beaten back. The two fleets are still at a stand-off. They're badly led, luckily for us. Though if the wind favours their ships they could still attack ours. You should leave, soon as you can.' He gave me a little more beer, then looked at me curiously. âWe've been wondering, sir, what you were doing on board. You're not a sailor or soldier. You sound like a gentleman.'
âI shouldn't have been there. I intended to get off, but then the ship sailed out.'
âWhere were you on the
Mary Rose
?'
âOn the aftercastle. By the walkway over the netting. I managed to crawl out onto it.'
Edwin nodded. âAnd you were in your shirt, so you didn't just fall to the bottom like so many.'
I lay back again. Memories of what had happened were returning in fractured jerks: the ship heeling over at that impossible angle, the man grasping at me as I crawled across the walkway, Emma behind. I said, âThere was someone in the water with me-'
Edwin got to his feet, wincing. He had had a fracture below one knee; it had set badly, at a strange angle. âYes,' he said, âthere was a boy rescued with you. You were both clinging to the
Mary Rose
emblem. You were lucky. The boatmen tried to pull the emblem in, but it sank-'
âA boy?'
âYes. Well-set-up lad, with a scarred face.' He looked at me again. âYour son, perhaps?'