Hard to Be Good (Hard Ink #3.5) (11 page)

It was the words that did it. Jeremy was suddenly right on the edge and falling fast. “Fuck, gonna come.”

“Yeah?” Charlie’s hand tightened and moved faster around his cock.

And then Jeremy’s orgasm nailed him in the back, stole his breath, and roared through him. And it was like he’d never come before, because being filled so completely added a whole other level of intensity to his release. Charlie stroked him through it and he came so long and so hard that he got light-headed.

Charlie moaned, his hips moving harder, faster. “Love you, love you,” he rasped, and then his cock was jerking inside Jeremy. That sensation was so unexpectedly sexy that Jeremy found himself pressing back onto Charlie’s dick, taking him even deeper, giving him every ounce of pleasure he could.

Charlie heaved a long breath against Jeremy’s back and wrapped both arms around his chest. He squeezed Jeremy so tight that it was hard to breathe, but Jeremy wouldn’t have traded it for anything. This closeness. This intimacy. This absolute fucking perfection.

After a long moment, Charlie withdrew from Jer’s body. He got off the bed to dispose of the condom, and Jeremy hated every second of separation from the man who owned his heart.

Charlie climbed back into bed and snuggled in tight, his stomach to Jer’s back again. “How was it?” Charlie whispered.

Needing to see Charlie’s beautiful eyes, Jeremy turned in the tight embrace of his arms. Their faces were close, their breaths mingled, and their legs intertwined.

“It was amazing. Perfect,” Jeremy said, stealing a soft kiss. “I just may not be able to sit for a day or two.” He winked.

Charlie grinned. “Well,” he said, peering at Jeremy through strands of blond hair that had fallen across his face. “Every time you feel a twinge just remember it was because I was inside you.”

“Damn, Charlie. That was sexy as fuck,” Jeremy said, kissing him deeply and totally loving the idea of the reminder.

For a while, they lay quietly, just staring into each other’s eyes, not talking or kissing, just touching and looking and being present in the moment.

How could this day get any better?

Suddenly, Jeremy knew exactly what would make it better. “There’s one more thing I want,” he said in a quiet voice, his heart beating a little faster.

“What’s that?” Charlie asked, lazily stroking his fingers against Jeremy’s back.

“Move in here with me,” Jeremy said, the rightness of the idea settling deep inside his chest. Just thinking of Charlie’s belongings mixed up with his and waking up with Charlie in his arms every morning was enough to make his dick stir again. “We don’t have to do it right away if you need time to adjust to us, but—”

“Really?” Charlie asked, something close to awe filling his expression. “You really . . . want me . . . to . . .”

“Charlie Merritt,” Jeremy said, taking his cheek in his hand. “Listen to me good and believe it down deep. I want you in every single way. And I will tell you and show you that every day if that’s what it takes to make you believe it.” Jeremy kissed him once, twice, knowing that his father’s lack of acceptance made it so that Charlie was probably going to require a whole lot of reassurance. Jer was only too happy to give it.

Charlie nodded. “Then I would love to move in here with you.” His expression went serious. “I just want to say something, Jeremy. Your brother might’ve saved me, but you’re the one who rescued me from a lonely life not worth living. I love you.”

“I love you, too. And you’ll never be lonely again, Charlie. I promise you that,” Jeremy said, pulling him in for another kiss.

“So, when do you want me to move my stuff over here?” Charlie asked.

Jeremy was off the bed like a shot. He threw Charlie’s jeans at him while he jumped into his own. The biggest, happiest belly laugh spilled from Charlie’s mouth. Jeremy had never heard him laugh so freely before, and it was his new favorite sound. He would fucking live to give Charlie cause to make it again and again.

“Sooo, that would mean now, then?” Charlie asked, sitting up and still wearing a big smile.

“You better believe it,” Jeremy said. The team’s investigation might be impossibly complicated and their enemies enormously powerful, but no matter what, Jeremy would have the man he loved standing at his side. “I want to make you mine in every way I can, Charlie. And I want to do it right now.”

Acknowledgments

O
NE OF THE
biggest and most wonderful surprises to me about the whole Hard Ink series was how quickly Jeremy Rixey became a favorite character. From the very first book, everyone wanted to know if Jeremy was going to get a story, and I was beyond thrilled to be able to do just that in
Hard to Be Good
! For that opportunity, I first and foremost have to thank all the readers who wanted Jeremy to have his very own happily-ever-after. And then I have to thank my wonderful editor, Amanda Bergeron, for agreeing Jeremy’s story needed to be told—and for wholeheartedly embracing with whom he was going to find his happy ending. It’s been an amazing experience to work with an editor who so got my vision for this series and who loves the characters as much as I do, so thank you, Amanda!

My next thanks must go to Christi Barth, as always, for reading the book and giving me amazing comments that made it better and better. She’s been there beside me throughout the entire series, and I can’t thank her enough for helping me make the Hard Ink team shine!

Thanks also to my agent, Kevan Lyon, for diving into this series with me and for helping make Jeremy and Charlie’s story come true! And thanks to KP Simmon for being the world’s best cheerleader, shoulder to lean on, and (when necessary) conspirator! I’m really lucky to have such an amazing team of women to work with!

From the very first book people were suggesting that if the team was going to have a dog, they needed a cat, too. And, of course, it couldn’t be a
normal
cat! Thanks to reader-friend Krystal Boehm for the inspiration for Cy. From the time she posted a picture of Cyrus, her orange one-eyed cat, on Eileen’s Facebook page, I knew he’d have to make an appearance in the Hard Ink world. (But, of course, the guys had to twist his name just a little. I hope Cyrus understands!) Oh, and Krystal,
happy birthday!

I must thank wonderful writer friends Lea Nolan and Stephanie Dray, who are always there for me. And I must thank my Heroes, my wonderful street team, too! You guys rock! Finally, thanks to my family for making it all possible!

As always, thanks to the readers for taking my characters into their hearts and letting them tell their stories again and again.

With my love,

LK

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HARD TO LET GO

Beckett Murda hates to dwell on the past. But his investigation into the ambush that killed half his Special Forces team and ended his Army career gives him little choice. Just when his team learns how powerful their enemies are, hard-ass Beckett encounters his biggest complication yet—seductive, feisty Katherine Rixey.

A tough, stubborn prosecutor, Kat visits her brothers’ Hard Ink Tattoo shop following a bad break-up—and finds herself staring down the barrel of a stranger’s gun. Beckett is hard-bodied and sexy as hell, but he’s also the most infuriating man ever. Worse, Kat’s brothers are at war with the criminals her office is investigating. When Kat joins the fight, she lands straight in Beckett’s sights . . . and in his arms. Not to mention their enemies’ crosshairs.

Now Beckett and Kat must set aside their differences to work together, because the only thing sweeter than justice is finding love and never letting go.

Coming Summer 2015

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T
HE WAREHOUSE WAS
an abandoned shell. Empty so long that parts of the roof had caved in, most of the windows were gone, and nature had started to reclaim the concrete and cinder block, with bits of green taking root in the building’s cracks. Proof of the resilience of life, even in the worst of circumstances.

Most of Beckett Murda’s life was proof of that.

The whistling early morning wind and the distant sounds of Baltimore car traffic and ships’ horns were the only noises that made their way into this corner of what was left of the fourth floor, and that was just fine by Beckett. Because the height and the quiet and the seclusion made it the perfect place from which to protect what he cared about most.

His friends.

His brothers.

His chance at redemption.

Crouching beside a busted window gave Beckett the perfect view of Hard Ink Tattoo, his temporary home the past two and a half weeks. Or, at least, it was the perfect place to see what was left of it. The red-brick L-shaped building sat on the opposite corner of the intersection. Just a few days before, the center of the long side of the L had been reduced to rubble, courtesy of his enemies. The predawn attack had claimed the lives of three good men. Three too damn many.

With Wednesday morning daylight just breaking, Beckett scanned a one-eighty from left to right, his gaze sequentially moving from the empty roads that led to Hard Ink’s intersection, to Hard Ink itself, to the surrounding buildings—all empty just as this one was except for Hard Ink. Luckily, the side on which their group lived hadn’t suffered any loss of integrity during the attack, so they hadn’t had to relocate their base of operations.

Beckett repeated the survey using a pair of high-power binoculars, useful for picking up details he might otherwise miss, given the loss of acuity he’d experienced in his right eye from a grenade explosion just over a year ago. His left was 20/20 all the way, but shrapnel had reduced his right to 20/160. His visual impairment in that eye was damn close to legally blind, and it made seeing at a distance a bitch.

That explosion marked the beginning of the whole clusterfuck that led to him sitting in this hellhole all night. Beckett’s Army Special Forces team had been ambushed at a checkpoint in Afghanistan, and their commander and six other members of the team had been killed. In addition to himself, the four survivors—his best friend, Derek “Marz” DiMarzio; second-in-command Nick Rixey; Shane McCallan; and Edward “Easy” Cantrell—had fought tooth and nail to make it out alive, only to be blamed for their teammates’ deaths, accused of dereliction of duty, and sent packing from the Army courtesy of other-than-honorable discharges and nondisclosure agreements ensuring they could never say anything to try to clear their names.

Now they were doing it anyway. This was their one and only shot.

Movement along the far side of Hard Ink.

Beckett focused in to see Katherine Rixey pause at the corner before running across the road to the shadows of the opposite building. From there, Nick’s younger sister skirted tight along the wall, darted across the road again, and then disappeared from view as she entered the warehouse where he hid. Within a minute the rapid thump of footsteps echoed up the stairwell.

Nearly 6:00 a.m., which meant his shift in the sniper’s roost was done. Kat was his relief.

Except that was maybe the only way Kat Rixey relieved him. Otherwise, she had an impressive knack for getting way far under his skin and pushing all his buttons. And every one of his teammates had witnessed it firsthand. Among elite operatives, lives and missions depended on being able to recognize and mitigate your weaknesses. And that meant Beckett had to admit that something about Kat distracted him, irritated him, made him . . . feel.

Not something he had much experience with. Not for years.

Her footsteps neared, their sound louder in the stairwell, and Beckett’s heart might’ve kicked up in time with her jogging pace. Something about her threw him off-kilter. And that fucking pissed him off. Because this woman was the younger sister of one of his best friends. And no part of what he was doing here involved—

“Hey, Trigger. You’re free to go,” she said as she stepped into the large room behind him.

Fucking Trigger. She’d been at him with her cute little nicknames since the day they met. Like it was his fault he’d caught her roaming Hard Ink unannounced and pulled his gun on her. Times being what they were, she was lucky that was all he’d done. He kept his eyes trained out the window so she couldn’t see the irritation likely filling his expression.

“Helloooo?” she said, standing right behind him.

Taking his good old time, he put the binoculars down and slowly turned toward her. And had to work hard to keep from reacting to how fucking hot she was.

Katherine Rixey was an angel-faced beauty with a foul mouth, sharp green eyes, and curves that would not quit. His hands nearly ached to bury themselves in her thick, wavy brown hair every time he saw her, and the sight of her confidently and competently handling a gun made him rock hard. The fact that she was apparently a shark of a prosecutor was just icing on her five-foot-two-inch cake. Brains, body, beauty. Kat had it all. Too bad she drove him bat-shit crazy.

She waved a hand in front of his face, and he tore his gaze away. “You fall asleep there, Quick-Draw? Shoulda texted me. I would’ve come sooner.”

Whatever you do, do not
think about her coming
.

Jesus.

Beckett secured his weapon in a holster at his lower back, hauled himself off the floor, and swallowed the innuendo-filled retorts flitting through his mind. “Had it covered just fine.”

“Good to know,” she said, crossing her arms and smirking.

Beckett felt his eyebrow arch in question before he’d thought to school his expression. “Problem?” he asked, stepping right up in front of her. She was so short, he towered over her, forcing her to tilt her head back to meet his gaze. And damn if she didn’t smell good, like warm, sweet vanilla. It made his mouth water, his groin tighten, and his temper flare. Sonofabitch.

“Dude. I am
so
not the one with the problem.” Amusement filled her bright green eyes.

As he nailed her with a stare, Beckett tried not to admire the way her crossed arms lifted the mounds of her breasts under the clingy black long-sleeved tee. This woman was a Rixey, which meant sarcasm was coded into her DNA. Beckett had a decade of experience with her oldest brother to know that was true. No way he was giving her the satisfaction of a reply. He shook his head and stepped around her.

“Always a pleasure,” she said.

He peered over his shoulder to find her lowering into a crouch by the window. She grabbed a gun from one of the cases on the floor and checked the weapon’s ammo. Her quick motions revealed her confidence and experience—always sexy qualities to Beckett’s mind.

Still, despite her obvious competence with a weapon—Nick had done a damn fine job making sure his petite little sister could take care of herself—her being alone up here for a day-long shift didn’t sit well in Beckett’s gut. Ever since the attack on Hard Ink, everyone who had any experience with weapons had been taking shifts in one of the two lookouts they’d set up, and Katherine had more than earned the right to help with the task. More than that, they needed all hands on deck right now—including Katherine. But the team’s enemies were expertly trained, highly lethal mercenaries who had no qualms about covering their asses, no matter what it took—or who they took down. And where Katherine was concerned, that made Beckett . . . worry.

After all, she was Nick’s sister. And just like the rest of the team, Nick had lost enough.

And that’s all it was. Right.

Sonofabitch.

“Watch yourself,” Beckett said, voice gruff.

Katherine peered over her shoulder at him and rolled her eyes. “Yeah, that’s kinda the point of this whole thing,” she said, gesturing to the guns, ammo, communication devices, Army green sleeping bags, and stack of bottled water and snacks piled around the corner by the window. When Beckett didn’t reply, she shook her head and looked outside again. “You question Nick and the guys this way when you hand off your shift?”

No, he didn’t. And saying so would either make him look like a chauvinist asshole or possibly reveal too damn much about the shit she stirred up inside him. So he disappeared into the stairwell and made his way down.

Given the strength and resources of their enemies, sparring with Katherine Rixey was the last thing he needed to waste energy doing.

“
T
HAT
’
S WHAT
I
thought,” Kat said. Looking back toward the stairs again, she realized she was alone. As big as Beckett freaking Murda was, how the hell did she not hear him leave?

Damn Special Forces guys. Her brother Nick had the same ability. Scared her half to death sometimes. Thank God for their middle brother, Jeremy. Most of the time, Jer gave off a happy vibe you could feel coming from a mile away.

Kat smiled at the thought, settled into a comfortable position, and turned her attention back to the view outside the window. The streets were eerily quiet, which wasn’t an accident. Though her brothers had bought a building in the city’s derelict and partly abandoned old industrial district, the real explanation behind the ghost town she was looking down on was a series of roadblocks a police ally of Nick’s had somehow orchestrated. Kat had tried to stay out of the specifics, because she hadn’t wanted to know the details if they potentially veered into the illegal.

Which was damn near a certainty. She had come to visit her brothers at Hard Ink five days before, and pretty much the whole time she’d been here had walked a fine line between wanting to help them with this crazy situation and freaking out about the illegal nature of what they were doing. Not that the guys weren’t justified in defending themselves and doing whatever it took to clear their names, but she had become a lawyer for a reason. Growing up, Nick was the risk taker, the guy who ditched college weeks into his senior year to join the Army. Jeremy was the artistic rule breaker. And she had been the rule follower.

Almost like checking a series of boxes, she’d gotten straight A’s all through school, served as the president of all her clubs, got into the best colleges and busted her ass to become managing editor of her law review. Even as early as high school, she’d known she wanted to go into the law. Because law represented justice and order and righteousness. Those ideals had spoken to her, drawn her to a career fighting what she thought was the good fight.

Four years into working at the Department of Justice, she still believed that was what she and the good people she worked with tried to do. Problem was, sometimes a big gulf existed between what they tried to do and what the law allowed them to achieve. And she’d never realized just how all-consuming the career would be. Twelve-hour days at her desk were her norm.

Kat surveyed the run-down neighborhood outside the window. Baltimore might’ve only been about thirty miles from D.C., but right now she felt about a million miles away from that desk.

Down below, the street beside Hard Ink was literally blocked—by the pile of rubble that had slid down into the road when part of the building collapsed early Sunday morning. Just looking at the pile of bricks and cement and twisted beams and broken glass made Kat’s heart race, because she’d been on top of that building when it went down. Her brothers and several others, too. In her mind’s eye she saw the rooftop fall away from under Jeremy’s feet. He and two other guys started to fall, and she’d screamed. And then Nick was there, grabbing Jeremy’s hand and hauling him up from the breach.

Kat’s breath caught and she blinked away the sting suddenly filling her eyes. The image of Jer falling and the thought of him being gone had haunted her dreams every night since. Because she could’ve lost Jeremy.

Which made her glad her oldest brother had spent years in SpecOps and knew what the hell to do, because she couldn’t lose her brothers. And given the impossibly crazy situations she’d encountered since arriving at Hard Ink, she was well aware that losing them was a possibility. Because Nick and Jeremy were in the very gravest danger.

It all stemmed from Nick’s team’s fight to restore their honor against powerful and not fully known enemies. A fight that apparently had so much at stake that her brothers’ building had been attacked by armed soldiers who had a rocket launcher.
A freaking rocket launcher
!

And, if that wasn’t enough, the men they were likely fighting against—and probably the very ones who had attacked—were the subject of a series of investigations her office had been working on for the past nine months.

It was something she’d only become certain of over the last twenty-four hours, as Nick’s team’s investigation into a cache of documents from their now-deceased Army commander had begun to shed light upon exactly what—and who—they were up against. Kat was glad for the alone time today, because her brain was a conflicted mess. Should she maintain her professional ethics and protect her security clearances by keeping her mouth shut? Or tell Nick and his team exactly what her office was doing and share what information she had that could help them?

She’d promised herself to decide today while she had some time to think.

And she had thought that coming to see her big bros would be the relaxing getaway it normally was, one that would distract her from her own problems—namely Cole, the ex-boyfriend who couldn’t seem to get it through his thick skull that she was really done with him. Down below, she saw Beckett dart across the street between the buildings. With his muscles, square jaw, and fathomless blue eyes, the guy was pure, raw masculinity personified. Her body couldn’t be near his without reacting on some fundamentally hormonal level. Her heart raced. Her nipples peaked. Her stomach went for a loop-the-loop.

Before he disappeared around the corner of the Hard Ink building, he glanced over his shoulder and looked up. Kat was a hundred percent sure his eyes landed on her, even though she sat mostly shielded behind the brick of this old warehouse. Because her body jangled with a sudden awareness.